etc

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Emotionally unavailable indian programmer

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Feeling so fucked up lately, i thought the tattoo on my chest of jesus getting a facial cumshot just didn't adequately express my rage any more. So i went down to my fave tattoo parlor with a facial abuse DVD cover and asked to have the tattoo edited so it had 6 black cocks in poor jesus bloodied thorn crowned face. My tattoo artist (35 metal piercings in his face, you can barely make out what his visage looks like) said, "BAHHAHHHAHA sickest fuck i've ever inked!!!!" And also, "I bet the girls are going to love your body like this!" But really he's a great guy who gets me and feels my pain and jokes about my CP (cerebral palsy). All of this in part is bc i am part of the MLO, a sort of secretive satanic sect where you're supposed to be inked to the nines but you're also supposed to cut your flesh bc you hate your body the demiurge gave you. Basically, if you're born deformed like me you can be a humanist and hope your bullies can be nudged into treating you well. Or you can be a Chaos Gnostic and pray for the destruction of the entire corporeal realm.

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Chicano ink,

prevalent among the rimming circle.

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New tattoo ideas

"ADAM LANZA" across my lower abs

The Indian flag across my heart with "SUBSTITUTI VOS SALUTANT" / बदले हुए लोग आपको सलाम करते हैं underneath it (Latin and Hindi for "the replaced salute you")

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Heavily inked man,

pounds pussy.

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Fires...

Inside your files...

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CLAVICULAR LOVES JESUS, PROBABLY A FAG LIKE HIM

Looksmaxing is fucking sickening, and its mainstreaming is more cocklickery from the God camp in defense of a creation that's quickly coming apart. Becoming a 10/10 when the demiurge is the entire scale??? From an Anti-Cosmic Satanist perspective, this is a fucking travesty. If you can crack the code, you're supposed to make yourself ugly and destroy the rules, not turn yourself into a good boy for the system. Why not just say "God is good and I want to serve him better" straight up?? You're just making yourself look like a FAG and i'm here to bash you.

As a Chaos Gnostic with heavy body modifications, tattoos and horn implants, I feel betrayed. You have the chance to change your bodies, to permanently disfigure what was made "in God's image", to defile it to where those of this world are filled with fear and recoil at your visage. Yet what you choose to be is status obsessed, kpop tier fagboys, the dancing, singing himbo cheerleaders of the demiurge.

Oh well. On second thought, maybe i was a bit too harsh on the cute boys here. Altering your God given metrics and destiny is still a Satanic act, no matter the intention. And maybe handsome, charismatic people are more efficient at subtly steering society in a Satanic direction. While some of us are just meant to be truly hideous, repulsive beings, the Orcs/footsoldiers of the apocalypse. So maybe there is room for both approaches. All i know is i'll never be a pretty boy.

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Also at least they're smashing their cheek bones with a hammer, which gives it a holy/ascetic element regardless of the goal pursued. In a comfort/health/welfare society, how many people are going to do that?

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CLAVICULAR LOVES JESUS, PROBABLY A FAG LIKE HIM

Looksmaxing is fucking sickening, and its mainstreaming is more cocklickery from the God camp in defense of a creation that's quickly coming apart. Becoming a 10/10 when the demiurge is the entire scale??? From an Anti-Cosmic Satanist perspective, this is a fucking travesty. If you can crack the code, you're supposed to make yourself ugly and destroy the rules, not turn yourself into a good boy for the system. Why not just say "God is good and I want to serve him better" straight up?? You're just making yourself look like a FAG and i'm here to bash you.

As a Chaos Gnostic with heavy body modifications, tattoos and horn implants, I feel betrayed. You have the chance to change your bodies, to permanently disfigure what was made "in God's image", to defile it to where those of this world are filled with fear and recoil at your visage. Yet what you choose to be is status obsessed, kpop tier fagboys, the dancing, singing himbo cheerleaders of the demiurge.

Oh well. On second thought, maybe i was a bit too harsh on the cute boys here. Altering your God given metrics and destiny is still a Satanic act, no matter the intention. And maybe handsome, charismatic people are more efficient at subtly steering society in a Satanic direction. While some of us are just meant to be truly hideous, repulsive beings, the Orcs/footsoldiers of the apocalypse. So maybe there is room for both approaches. All i know is i'll never be a pretty boy.

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Tattoos and piercings in strange places Strange sins and strange inclinations Only thing that's not unusual is absence of divine grace...

Rough translation of what i wrote as the introduction of the Romanian edition of BMEZine 2007/1. People thought i was going overboard with the religious stuff. I was just getting started...

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Still desiring to die, even after final form is reached. Admin reveal

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Been obsessed with skull shape modification lately. Really want to get more face tattoos just so i can move forward with scarification then finally horns on my forehead because God the sadistic leather daddy does not deserve to be able to recognize any of his creations. Like, do you even hate God enough if you're content keeping the skull shape he has given you?

Anyways, been listening to loads of DEICIDE lately. Helps fend off a lot of everyday stress. My favourite song is "Go Now Your Lord Is Dead":

GO NOW YOUR LORD IS DEAD BASHED THE FAGGOT IN THE MUTHAFUCKIN HEAD GO NOW YOUR LORD IS DEAD SEMEN CHUGGING SAVIOR PUMPED FULL OF LEAD

I just LOVE singing along to this one its SO hilarious. Anyway, my basic belief is that HIV, Anti Cosmic Satanism and Body Modification is the way forward if you hate the world righteously.

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Violet lights beckoning to nightfall butchery 666 daggers in the heart of your faggot ass savior Hails to those who vomit on the wounds of christ Hails to the black knights riding to destroy the cosmos

The first day i came to work (call center, Bangalore) with my new pentagram throat tattoo, this one guy walked up to me and said "nice tattoo man". Turns out he was also a Satanist. He told me about the excitement he got from getting past the metal detectors in our office with nipple piercings underneath his baby blue shirt. We are now heavily involved in chaos magick together and laugh at the sickest jokes you can imagine.

All of this is just to say that satanists are everywhere. Someone you know might be a satanist. Your son or daughter might be a satanist. That polite boy with a thin voice that reset your microsoft office password might be a satanist. Total Satanic Victory and Diabolical Holocaust is imminent.

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Actual list of tattoos i have

A prominent face tattoo of jesus with pigtails bukkake'd by 3 dicks, based on a dvd cover by Max Hardcore or german girls of goo i think

A large cockroach nailed to a cross on each of my shoulders, and "SATANAS PEST CONTROL" across my collarbones

A version of michelangelo creation of adam on my chest where god has dicks for fingers and adam has down syndrome and is hooked to an IV where the fluid looks like piss, drawn 4chan style

"KILL FAGGOT CHRIST" on my stomach, flesh colored, almost looks scarified or like stretch marks

"DIE FOR" across my right arm and "LUCIFER" across my left

But the deep seated sadness in my eyes is probably scarier than any of these Good luck to me trying to return to society

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JESUS CHRIST THE "BIG FAG"

-How is Sydney Sweeney different from a 60 IQ retard, an Afghan rapist, a nigger and a literal dog? -She's the only one jesus christ hasn't fucked

That's an example of Satanist humor to me. A scathing anticosmic joke that cuts to the core of the cosmic order and addresses the cosmic order itself. It's a joke that's practically a black magick spell. If you have a similar kind of sardonic outlook on life or you're just a sick fuck that get's a kick out of calling jesus a fag feel free to dm me.

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HIV is not a thing and no one has ever died from it. Humans are so isolated, there is no way for any living thing to move between them.

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I romanticize HIV to an extent some find disturbing. To them i say So What, death is just a part of life and it might as well be beautiful & glamorous. In the 1980s everyone had HIV and it was a much more hopeful time. I want to fuck the man whose back is tattooed like a marble mosaic of gravestones of his lovers who have died & i want to hug the woman in the grocery store aisle in the baggy GLOBAL FOUNDATION FOR AIDS CARE t-shirt. One day we will all be together and HIV will just be a gentle summer breeze, or an empathetic greek chorus, kindly commenting on things we do.

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SuicideFartMachine is a strange screenname but the origin of it is pretty simple. Thing is i have just never been a very happy person. Fuckin hate life and just existence itself and every day waking up is like torture for me. But when i fart its so loud and people laugh and its almost like the voices in my head are shut out for a while. So this is my story tell me yours.