Mira

If I could pick a word to describe myself it would be 'faithful'.

[shewasmine]

What Was I Made For

Alhamdulillah, I finally land a job after a year of interviews, tests etc.

Tuhan Maha Kaya dan Maha Mendengar.

And I would like to thank my bestie too for helping me. I hope I can make her proud of me someday.

Honestly, saya sangat lah anxious tapi takpe, Allah kan ada.

Ini lah jalannya so kenapa nak risau kan? Kita ikut je kat mana Allah nak letak buat masa sekarang.

Till next time, babes.

[toiich]

The Salesman (2016), dir. Asghar Farhadi

[ka-72]

[shewasmine]

Lost in My Twenties

Yeap, who would ever thought that THAT would be my title? After a long time of not posting anything here.

Long story short:

I got beaten up by my ex, lost my job and I am currently jobless for almost a year!

The sweet thing is I met the one. Yes, THE ONE. The one that I'm gonna marry soon. Well, not that soon, maybe later.

But yeah, he is the love of my life, the father of my future children, HH.

Anyways, I survived a lot of things and till this day, I can't believe that I am still alive, alhamdulillah praises to Allah SWT.

Either way, I just have to push through and make life happens I guess. Till next time, babies. xx

[shewasmine]

Devastated

I lost a job that doesn't give me sparks anymore except for having my friends there waiting for me at the office.

I lost someone whom I thought I would end up marrying cause apparently he's everything I ever wanted in a man.

I lost somebody who used to be my first love. He got married last Dec and not gonna lie, I still wish that he would wish it was me instead of her.

I lost a person who knew me too well but he finally gave up on trying to love me as a flawed human being.

I am so lost right now and I only got me.

It's part of growth in life, it makes me more mature and toughen up for the next challenges coming my way.

I'll be okay.

[shewasmine]

FELL

I fell in love with you when it was easy.

No money.

No expectation.

No future.

Just pure shit we called love.

I guess I am still falling.

With fake hopes.

And dreams.

That we might end up together.

One day.

But the saddest things about it,

You’re not here anymore.

[shewasmine]

I saw you in your friend’s ig story.

Lord know how much I replay it to see you smiling and laughing.

[shewasmine]

I didn’t know I was doing charity when my love was pure and shit.

[shewasmine]

The Boys I’ve Loved

One of them wear the watch I gave him on his engagement day.

One of them date the girl he told me not to worry about.

One of them get married to the girl with the same name as mine.

Nevertheless, they all didn’t choose me.

[shewasmine]

I don’t forgive you and I shall never forget of what you have done to me.

[shewasmine]

You wear the watch I gave you on your engagement day.

[shewasmine]

My Life

At this point in my life, I’m right where I’m supposed to be and I’m extremely GRATEFUL for it.

There were rough patches on the journey to get where I am right now but I managed to pull through. Some painful moments were meant to happen and I should be happy for it.

[adioringly]

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September 23, 2021 at 12:03PM

[lild3m0nsworld]

[shadybrooktrez]

The older I get the less tolerance I have for small talk and pointless interaction.

Feed my soul.

[shewasmine]

It’s been a while.

I’m talking to a new guy now. He’s a nice guy.

But what makes me worried is that he lived at the same place as yours. So I had to drive all the way to him, passing all these places we went to together.

But I don’t feel sad nor angry. Just thinking of you, not that long. A glimpse and it doesn’t hurt as much as before.

Guess I’m healing now :)