I am Scarlett.

[shewhisperedsooften]

i’m lost again

[shewhisperedsooften]

everything falls apart

[shewhisperedsooften]

No matter who it is or when it is, I am always second best. I will always be everyones second choice and it’s more apparent than ever. I can do literally EVERYTHING for someone and they will always want someone else. 

[shewhisperedsooften]

I went to a Halloween party at my bosses house the other day and, I didn’t realize it then, but I met the drummer of Anberlin and the drummer of Say Anything. Kind of cool. 

[shewhisperedsooften]

After all this time, after so many mistakes, after so many decisions to change myself for the better, I still know how to completely fuck a good thing up. 

[shewhisperedsooften]

I haven't had a dream like that in awhile.

[thexfiles]

interested to see how 2016 will get worse from here

[thexfiles]

well folks let me just say

[shewhisperedsooften]

Not even Good Mythical Morning can cheer me up today. Wow. Today fucking blows.

[shewhisperedsooften]

I'm convinced that I am just a complete fucking lunatic. I'm working on it, though.

[cwote]

[stability]

[shewhisperedsooften]

Today is one of the rough days. I imagine I will have a lot of those, but hopefully things will be old as time goes on.

[shewhisperedsooften]

This is so hard and it’s only just started. I ended things for a reason and it’s starting to look like I ended them too late. Too late to actually pursue what I really want and who I really want. But maybe time will change things. I don’t know. All I know, is that it’s going to be very hard. I can already tell. 

[shewhisperedsooften]

So far, everything is a little weird. Things seem a little more lonely than usual, but maybe that’s because I know I don’t really have anyone to turn to in an instant. But I think this will really be good for me, and also good for him. I have been way too dependent of others and even then, I am still not happy and then I make others unhappy. Being alone is weird already, and so far one of the hardest things has been taking my necklace off. But I think time will make this better. Side note: I keep playing Andreas by Seahaven because it makes a lot of sense. 

[flyngdream]

[shewhisperedsooften]

Being single is going to be so weird.

[isloveevenrealanymore]