DEAD ACCOUNT

this is to only address the issue and keep minors away from this sensitive subject. spread if you want but i hold no accountability for the triggers previously mentioned

[black-sun-au]

Maybe this is a mistake, maybe not, but the fact is im leaving for good

The idea of coming back to the au fills me with so much anxiety and shame that i can no longer look at my work in a positive light. Ive tried to draw the au on many occasions and each art piece floods back all the mistakes and lies I've said to innocent, kind people.

I planned to come back next year yet every time i keep thinking about the future, the more my depression skyrockets and I'm filled with so much self- hatred and the actions of my past. If it matters, ive been sober since the callout and have a wonderful therapist helping me. But despite all of this, my self esteem and confidence has dropped and im no longer proud of having my tumblr, twitter and Instagram accounts or even my name. After some advice and numerous chats with the suicide prevention team, i am abandoning the au, the moomin fandom and all of my accounts.

I am writing this to once again to apologize for the people i have hurt and trusts that i have broken. I wish you all luck and happiness in your lives and hope you all have wonderful lives. Never stop growing and never stop being amazing. Things get better and the world would be dark without you.

Taking my own encouragements, I'm continuing to work on myself to gain confidence and have a better self worth than i have had all these years. I will miss you all. But life goes on, and hopefully the next day will brighter than the last.

Im sorry for not being strong and coming back but i need to move on and heal fully for the years of damage that I've caused to myself and get to know the me that hiding in fear and chasing approval. I'm working hard to be a better and honest person and i am once again sorry for leaving but its for the best.

Im sorry to all the people who submitted art and asksto my inbox, but i cannot post them. I am sorry, but i do not feel that the association with me or the blog is beneficial to anyone. To my supporters, thank you and im so sorry that i made you worry for me. Im still having trouble with self esteem and feel i am not worthy of forgiveness or acceptance, but thank you so much for seeing the positive in me when i cannot see it in myself.

I am sorry to everyone, i let you all down and im trying to get better.

This my final goodbye, so goodbye everyone i wish you all the best

Love *the previously known* Shibe

💖

[shibe-testimony]

Im on the road to recovery and will quote some wise advice. I will get off social media for a very long time and work on myself. I need to own up to what I've done through every aspect and apologize to my supporters, to the people who have rightfully called me out and to everyone else i have hurt.

I am sorry i snapped out in anger to the people that are rightfully upset and while i know i do not deserve forgiveness, i am changing my anger to acceptance and forgive everyone. I am sorry i played the victim and disrespected all of you. It was not right and i am sorry. Everyone deserves respect and i did not give you all that. For that i am sorry and truly wish that you find peace and love and have fulfilling life.

This will be my final post, i love you all dearly and im sorry i ruined your trusts. To the callout post makers, i would like to thank you for showing me clarity. I was wrong and i couldn't see it, but now i fully accept everything and am getting help.

To the persons i have wrongfully painted, i am sorry. It was an insult to your image when you had every right to be mad, i am truly sorry and again wish you happiness and luck in your lives.

To my supporters, i dont deserve you but to have you behind me is the biggest drive that i could have ever asked for and i promise i will get better, for you all and myself. And to the people i have made doubt me, know my promise is true when i say i want to be better and mend the trust you gave me.

This is my final post. I love you all and goodbye.

Shibe

I know you dont need to but @blacksuncallout please share this. If not, then i still hold no ill will or grudge. You did help me and showed me respect when you didnt have to, so thank you

[shibe-testimony]

Second update, i finished my first meeting and its helped so much already. Im gonna keep going be a better person for everyone and myself.

I love you all dearly ; ;

[shibe-testimony]

A quick update, i found help in an SAA organization and am starting the process today. I am going to get better and i am sorry for what i have done still.

And hope everyone is okay and I apologize for triggering and bringing up traumatic experiences. I am sorry and hope your life is filled with happiness and love.

Im sorry and i love you all, wish me luck ✌💖

[shibes-husband]

@blacksuncallout

I must ask 1 thing from you

Somewhere on your blog there is an accusation where Clover @ccarmody101 called Shibe “mom” and someone in the reblogs called that “grooming”

I don’t recall it being someone on the blog or someone who followed you

That is not what grooming is, especially when it’s an adult calling her a family name.

There are things called “the mom friend” which Shibe definitely is. I myself have called my friends ‘mom’ or ‘grandpa’ (though the grandpa one is more of a joke) and there is 0 sexual intent behind it. It’s a simple term of endearment.

That is not evidence of grooming, please don’t claim it is or support people who say that.

[the-shipper-of-heart]

And you claim its ‘grooming’ when Clover puts on her profile shes 20?? 

An adult.

And the AU im p sure started like, maybe last year? when Clover was still an adult? And there’s the accusation of it being ‘disturbing’ that she calls the AU fans ‘family.’

there’s a lot of people who refer to fandoms as their family. and im pretty sure she meant ‘family’ as in the friends she made while part of the AU...calling your friends ‘family’ isnt grooming or disturbing???

[ccarmody101]

It was from here,

They indicated it sounded like grooming, and people started to take it out of context due to the drama and multiple threads going on

[shibes-husband]

I made an edit to the original post

[invisibleshrews]

Everyone keeps referring to @blacksuncallout as a “witch hunt” and trying to create this narrative that we’ve been spending all our time stalking Shibe out of some sort of jealousy over her place in the fandom. That’s simply not the case, and as someone involved I don’t like being painted as the bad guy for trying to keep the minors in the fandom safe.

I personally became involved in this because as a victim of child grooming I couldn’t risk the possibility that Shibe was an active p*dophile using their public accounts to lure in minors. This is not an accusation. There is currently no alleged activity of this sort, but there was the potential risk.

I can’t speak for the other people involved on why they chose to help in the call out, but at no point was Shibe’s following a concern beyond the fact that a large following meant more potential victims.

I’m aware that Shibe has apologised, and I do not forgive her. I believe her actions are unforgivable, and want no interaction from anyone who chooses to forgive her or defend her.

I am however very happy to hear that she is going to seek professional help, and that she is now willing to talk to others about what lead her to do these things. I truely hope that she is able to receive the help she needs and find support and stability in her personal life.

-

If you want to talk remember my inbox and dm’s are open.

I know that this is a stressful time and if you need support please know that I’m here to give it

[shibe-testimony]

I'd like to throw away the term that this is a witch hunt. Im not versed in what this term means and i am sorry that i used it.

I do understand the concern it is incredibly valid to worried for the safety of others when this topic is brought up.

If you choose not to believe me then okay, but know i did not groom minors nor would i ever want to. It completely stayed to pictures and i am thankful that this arose and brought up that what i have been doing was wrong. I am getting help as soon as possible and for now retracting myself from everyone besides close friends and my husband til i get better.

I am sorry again but respect you immensely, do have a good day and sorry this had to be on bad terms but i wish you luck and love through everything and im so sorry that that happened to you and hope you find or have found peace

[shibe-testimony]

It isn’t a “witch hunt” if the person you’re talking about has ACTUALLY done something terrible. You can’t just keep playing the victim & then apologize & say you’ve “accepted everything” at the same time. I genuinely want you to be able to get help and change, but you really keep lashing out at people who are RIGHTFULLY angry at you. You are the bad guy here. It isn’t JUST that you hid it from everyone, it’s that you consumed that content in the first place man.

Maybe I don't know what a witch hunt is, and for that im sorry. I have done something wrong and like I've said i know what i did was wrong, im trying to not play the victim im taking responsibility for the awful human being i became. I am incredibly sorry and you are right, i am bad inside but i want to change.

I apologize to those i have lashed out at, and to starlight(im sorry if thats not right i can't remember your name right now) i am sorry that lashed out and hope we did end on good terms because you deserve that respect as that i didn't give you the first time.

To the Twitter user emergi?(im so sorry im butchering this) im sorry i got snippy, i was trying to be tough and push back when it wasn't needed and rude. I should have just left it alone and called you names.

To onemonochormekid i am sorry for giving you the run around at first, i wanted to deny that was wrong and thats not okay at all. I have and still will take responsibility for my actions want nothing more than to change. Im sorry if this seems insincere but believe me when i say i am sorry. I am wrong and will continue to say i am wrong till i get the help i need. Im truly sorry that i haven't been respectful but i want to change.

To my supporters, thank you. Like i said, it takes every fiber of my being to not push you all away but i know nothing will come of that. I am wrong and disgusting and to see you all look at me and want to help, is so so appreciated. I want to change for myself and all of you as well.

I want to change for the people who i have upset because no one deserves to be lied to as i have done. For that i am wholeheartedly sorry that I ruined your trust and the image you see me as. I hope that after i get help, i can give you the respect that i didn't give you before

I am incredibly sorry for everything that i have done and take full responsibility. I have hurt others with my lies and consumption and want nothing more than to change and get help and be the person everyone deserved. I am sorry again

[shibe-testimony]

“I kept it away from the black sun blog” when are you gonna realize it isn’t just that you made an au for mainly for minors, it’s that you consumed that content in the first place? We don’t want to be associated with people who like disgusting, illegal content. The AU becomes void because by consuming it you support the creator, ie YOU. I wanted to accept and wish you the best with your apology earlier, but your recent replies have proven that that was most likely insincere it seems.

I just woke up and im sorry im trying to figure out what this says.

I am sincere in all my apologies and if me explaining anything negates my remorse then why continue to talk to me? I am sorry and feel immense guilt for what i have done but honestly what more do you want from me when even if i apologize time and time again, the moment i say anything else i am insincere, snippy, lying and a victim.

I did hide all the disgusting things i looked at from the au and did not let it influence the content i made for the blog. My twitters were separate places were i drew art for adults and i did everything to keep it that way. The black sun au blog was for everyone, who just happened to be mostly minors. I cannot control who looks at a tumblr blog with thousands of people following everyday but i changed the content to be suitable for everyone. I did all i could to have the au stay in its bubble since the rest of the fandom was disturbed by it, so its own tag, own chats and trying to keep it away from the main tag. Of course there were people not adding only the au tag and im sure it upset people who still saw the bright palette and triggering material and im sorry for that as well. But again, i made the au for minors so they wouldn't get brought into controversial themes, ie. Heavy gore, depicting adult situations. What did off the blog was all me and i have continued to own up and say i was wrong in looking at those pictures

I am deeply remorseful that I let the au down and tarnished my name by consuming these images. I cannot say that i deserve the support that i am getting but their support does not make them bad people who support a bad person. They want me to get help and i want help. My supporters are incredibly caring and its taking everything in myself to not to shoo them away, because they want to help me and i need to let them or I'll be in same cycle I've been in and never learn. I am not running away, i am owning up to everything i have done. I am no saint for admitting this, but i do want help to end it.

I know i am wrong in looking at this material like I've said all throughout this blog. I am not denying that it was criminal and disgusting. If you see me as playing the victim I'm sorry. I am not asking you to see me a saint and darling, i am wrong. And i will continue to admit im wrong. I consumed these images on my terms and did not like the person i was after consuming this for months. I am incredibly sincere and want nothing more than to get help so i can stop.

[shibes-husband]

Hello, I am shibes husband

I hope to hopefully help clear some air here

I have talked with my wife over the recent events and have recommended she gets help, while I don’t believe looking at l*li and sh*ta is the end all, be all, evidence to accuse someone of being a pedo, I do believe it’s still an issue that needs to be addressed.

She has taken full responsibility and it’s extremely distressed over this. Which is much better than just deleting and running away.

I know her better than anyone, and I know that she is not this evil person that people think she is because they saw some surface level shit.

She wants to get better, she knows to never do this again. And I am choosing to stand by her side and make sure she gets that help.

While i can’t give away full private details or speak for her 100% I do still have my own opinions and I will be more than happy to try and answer some questions

[shibe-testimony]

just wanted to pop in and say how absurd i think all of this is. i understand that a lot of people are disgusted by the stuff on your other accounts and i dont like it either. but those accounts have nothing to do with the black sun account. i still enjoy the art there. you cant judge art solely based on the person who creates it

My..thank you..i was expecting hate but i agree.

While my actions are unforgivable to most if not all, i am truthful in saying i made the au for everyone. I had no plan about anything and everyone chiming in helped to forge the au. Hell if it wasnt for asks the Blue moon au wouldn't have existed.

Yes they were subjects in some gorey art but the black sun au blog and my drawings had no affect to either. The black sun au blog was purely its own entity of talented wonderful artist coming together and showing there works on a idea.

What i drew in my free time was me being edgy and distasteful and disturbed but i would NEVER allow that to go on the blog.

Say what you will, but i did everything i could to hide all this nsfw, not safe for life things from the general public and fandom and more importantly minors. 17 and under was a clear staple in both these blogs

And i would never put minors in danger of these things til this. And for that im sorry. Im sorry if anyone has gotten triggered or relapsed

Im completely sorry

[sterling-starlight]

I don’t usually get involved in drama. But this is important.

Some of you in the fandom might know about the recent drama about the creator of The black-sun-AU, namely there was a call-out post made about her -seen here-

She owned up to the accusations of actively seeking out and enjoying the pedophilia, the incest, the child porn, and the bestiality. She even said that she wanted to get professional help because she knew that her consumption of these things were amoral and disgusting. That should be the end of it, right?

Clearly you haven‘t been on tumblr long enough.

I am friends with some of the individuals put together the callout post. I bring it up because they had a discussion on Twitter With Shibe. Bear in mind: This conversation happened today, after she said she was “really sorry”

K

So, tell me. @ccarmody101, does “Mom” seem like she’s, and sorry? 

@shantaru What say say you?

@shibe-throwaway 

[shibe-testimony]

It was still in the morning before i finally accepted i have a problem and i used sarcasm as a defense. I have no ill will toward this person and she has blocked me but i understand how i look

I understand its pathetic and looks as an excuse but i was still in denial

So im owning up that i barked out in anger when i had no position too like she said. Please do not @ these people, they’re nothing but sweet and caring people that i dont deserve

[shantaru]

Alright fine, I’ll bite.

This thing is going on long enough. I understand that people are upset but I really don’t agree to purposely messaging Shibe just to get a rise out of her. She apologised, she’s saying she will be looking for professional help. Yet, they’re still going out of their way to make matters worse by attacking her.

This is starting to end up in a witch hunt, especially with it now ending in others spreading the word only in forms to spill tea about someone, even to people who aren’t even in the fandom, because what better than drama and being rude to someone, am I right?

I agree, there are things I absolutely don’t condone to that have happened. Yet, to outright take months of time to dig dirt on someone; if you wanted to do so to show to others in the fandom that they have to ‘watch out’ for her, because there can be triggering stuff happening, then fine, but just block her and let it go. But to do so because she’s, as stated. ‘The biggest and most populair Au artist in the fandom for Edgy content.’ To me, it sounds like jealousy and that’s disgusting to be the cause of it. 

You especially wish for minors to not find out about the ‘gross’ content going on behind doors. Yet making a callout post only does the exact opposite. There is such a thing as seeing problematic behaviour and not being alright with it. But in that case, BLOCK the person.

The world isn’t black and white, there are harmful things everywhere, but you, yourself, can choose to ignore it, and go on with your day.

As I said, I don’t agree to the problematic content, yes, I knew of it, but I’ve known Shibe for quite a long time now. She has been nothing but one of the sweetest and most generous people I’ve ever met.  I’ve got to know her better over the course of months and people calling her names and things because of this because they only see one side of the story and immediately decide to make drama out of it, it’s depressing. 

Shibe is and will always be a close friend of mine, I don’t care if you block me for it, or any of the sort. But just, STOP, giving her all this backlash when she clearly knows what she did is wrong, has apologised, tried her best to explain why she did these things and will seek help, let it stop at that, there really isn’t more she can do.

As I have said, there is such a thing as blocking people, if you’re disgusted, don’t agree or any of the sorts, block them. None will be the wiser and we can let this shit show slowly pass over, cause only making this more drama and forcing it to last for days by purposely attacking her, you’re not being the mature one either.

-Shantaru

[ccarmody101]

^^^ my thoughts exactly

This drama has begun to branch out to other places where the story is being used as click bait,

And the callout said to specifically not do this

Tumblr is known for witch hunting and is honestly such a toxic way of handling a situation like this.

Shibe has all rights to be snippy when someone who shes asked to leave her alone continues to get a rise out of her.

Also feel like some of the conversation is missing due to shibes “infliction through CAPS” seems out of place.

I’ve said what I’ve said many times now,

Yes I call her mom, I am a 20 year old who called another person mom due to her avatar being “Mother Mymble”,

I agree with Shantaru’s statements, and will not be swayed.

She’s apologized, we know her side , and I know the other side of the story too.

Ive taken both of them into account, and my opinion is mine.

I support her decision to come clean, I support her decisions to get better and get help for the mental problems she is facing. Whether it had been from a call out post that had been from multiple months of witch hunting, or by her own accord, she has admitted to have wronged her supporters.

To use the “large blog” excuse is very shallow and really shows anyone criticizing them look envious.

I don’t want this to continue, but I know you won’t listen,

You won’t change my opinion to give her a chance to change.

Thank you

Clover ꕥ

[shibe-testimony]

Ah i see now you left out this part huh?

[sterling-starlight]

… what are you trying to prove with this? You know what comes after? This.

You can’t say “I’M SORRY, I’M SO SORRY!” And then come at me with

““AHAH! TAKE THAT!”

The only thing you’re proving is that you’re not really sorry. No, no, no. 

You’re sorry you got caught. 💅

[shibe-testimony]

Cutting more of the conversation doesnt help this either. If you really wanted the truth and not just to make me seem spiteful and unapologetic then thats what youre doing.

I am sorry and continuing a conversation when i was in denial and angry doesnt prove anything.

I can and want to change. I am remorseful for the things ive done and lies ive said. And to dramatize this further is just lying to yourselves that i have owned up and am sorry. The tea sis 💅 isnt necessary.

Im sorry this had to happen and im willing to change and leave forever. But i will not be dramatizied for your quarantine kicks.

I am sorry. And im not letting that truth slip.

[sterling-starlight]

I will readily admit that I might have missed a few screenshots.  I tried putting everything in order as best I could, but tumblr mobile is what it is: i.e crap. And don’t you talk to me about spite when you come at me with ““oh, btw, you missed this” like that would discredit everything. It’s not like the conversation has clearly defined time codes- OH WAIT. 

Contrary to what you think, I do genuinely believe you when you say you were sorry. I want to believe that you’re remorseful and want to change, but coming at me like this, after you admitted you were overly defensive, doesn’t speak of a remorseful person. It reads more like you collected your thoughts and, bolstered by your friends and followers, fired back one last hoorah instead of bowing out gracefully. You must know how this looks; it’s all in this thread. If anyone is dramatizing this further, it’s YOU.

Look. I am sorry it came to this. The Moomin fandom is wonderful, and I am so, so sorry you thought you could only find happiness and validation from the gross side of it. I’m sorry you were bullied for your trans Snufkin art. I’m sorry all this lead to you developing an unhealthy addiction to all that gross shit on Twitter. If I had my way, I would have brought you into a discord server I’m in, full of wonderful, supportive people, before all of this. 

You also don’t have to believe me -I wouldn’t blame you if you didn’t - but I do hope you find your way back to this fandom after you get therapy. If nothing else, I hope you DO get therapy, and that you come out the other side happier. 

But my part in all of this is done. 

[shibe-testimony]

I so sorry this keeps getting longer and i agree. Im sorry that im still acting in hurt, and i will give no more excuses. Ive said my things and its done, and appreciate the apology when you didnt need to. Im sorry again and hope you have an amazing life, adventure or pathway that you take. I always have said treat others as you would like to be treated and i missed that mark. But i do hope this is a good conclusion. Everyone deserves love and happiness, you deserve it the most for calling me out and helping me see its giant problem. So thank you and im sorry that this is what got us talking. But best wishes, thank you and im sorry again.

No ill will no more drama or clap backs, i appreciate this. honest. It helped me

[sterling-starlight]

I don’t usually get involved in drama. But this is important.

Some of you in the fandom might know about the recent drama about the creator of The black-sun-AU, namely there was a call-out post made about her -seen here-

She owned up to the accusations of actively seeking out and enjoying the pedophilia, the incest, the child porn, and the bestiality. She even said that she wanted to get professional help because she knew that her consumption of these things were amoral and disgusting. That should be the end of it, right?

Clearly you haven‘t been on tumblr long enough.

I am friends with some of the individuals put together the callout post. I bring it up because they had a discussion on Twitter With Shibe. Bear in mind: This conversation happened today, after she said she was “really sorry”

K

So, tell me. @ccarmody101, does “Mom” seem like she’s, and sorry? 

@shantaru What say say you?

@shibe-throwaway 

[shibe-testimony]

It was still in the morning before i finally accepted i have a problem and i used sarcasm as a defense. I have no ill will toward this person and she has blocked me but i understand how i look

I understand its pathetic and looks as an excuse but i was still in denial

So im owning up that i barked out in anger when i had no position too like she said. Please do not @ these people, they’re nothing but sweet and caring people that i dont deserve

[shantaru]

Alright fine, I’ll bite.

This thing is going on long enough. I understand that people are upset but I really don’t agree to purposely messaging Shibe just to get a rise out of her. She apologised, she’s saying she will be looking for professional help. Yet, they’re still going out of their way to make matters worse by attacking her.

This is starting to end up in a witch hunt, especially with it now ending in others spreading the word only in forms to spill tea about someone, even to people who aren’t even in the fandom, because what better than drama and being rude to someone, am I right?

I agree, there are things I absolutely don’t condone to that have happened. Yet, to outright take months of time to dig dirt on someone; if you wanted to do so to show to others in the fandom that they have to ‘watch out’ for her, because there can be triggering stuff happening, then fine, but just block her and let it go. But to do so because she’s, as stated. ‘The biggest and most populair Au artist in the fandom for Edgy content.’ To me, it sounds like jealousy and that’s disgusting to be the cause of it. 

You especially wish for minors to not find out about the ‘gross’ content going on behind doors. Yet making a callout post only does the exact opposite. There is such a thing as seeing problematic behaviour and not being alright with it. But in that case, BLOCK the person.

The world isn’t black and white, there are harmful things everywhere, but you, yourself, can choose to ignore it, and go on with your day.

As I said, I don’t agree to the problematic content, yes, I knew of it, but I’ve known Shibe for quite a long time now. She has been nothing but one of the sweetest and most generous people I’ve ever met.  I’ve got to know her better over the course of months and people calling her names and things because of this because they only see one side of the story and immediately decide to make drama out of it, it’s depressing. 

Shibe is and will always be a close friend of mine, I don’t care if you block me for it, or any of the sort. But just, STOP, giving her all this backlash when she clearly knows what she did is wrong, has apologised, tried her best to explain why she did these things and will seek help, let it stop at that, there really isn’t more she can do.

As I have said, there is such a thing as blocking people, if you’re disgusted, don’t agree or any of the sorts, block them. None will be the wiser and we can let this shit show slowly pass over, cause only making this more drama and forcing it to last for days by purposely attacking her, you’re not being the mature one either.

-Shantaru

[ccarmody101]

^^^ my thoughts exactly

This drama has begun to branch out to other places where the story is being used as click bait,

And the callout said to specifically not do this

Tumblr is known for witch hunting and is honestly such a toxic way of handling a situation like this.

Shibe has all rights to be snippy when someone who shes asked to leave her alone continues to get a rise out of her.

Also feel like some of the conversation is missing due to shibes “infliction through CAPS” seems out of place.

I’ve said what I’ve said many times now,

Yes I call her mom, I am a 20 year old who called another person mom due to her avatar being “Mother Mymble”,

I agree with Shantaru’s statements, and will not be swayed.

She’s apologized, we know her side , and I know the other side of the story too.

Ive taken both of them into account, and my opinion is mine.

I support her decision to come clean, I support her decisions to get better and get help for the mental problems she is facing. Whether it had been from a call out post that had been from multiple months of witch hunting, or by her own accord, she has admitted to have wronged her supporters.

To use the “large blog” excuse is very shallow and really shows anyone criticizing them look envious.

I don’t want this to continue, but I know you won’t listen,

You won’t change my opinion to give her a chance to change.

Thank you

Clover ꕥ

[shibe-testimony]

Ah i see now you left out this part huh?

[sterling-starlight]

… what are you trying to prove with this? You know what comes after? This.

You can’t say “I’M SORRY, I’M SO SORRY!” And then come at me with

““AHAH! TAKE THAT!”

The only thing you’re proving is that you’re not really sorry. No, no, no. 

You’re sorry you got caught. 💅

[blacksuncallout]

May I add, it took one day to get this information. Another two minutes to make a blog. This isn’t a witch hunt. All of this is public knowledge. 

Be a true friend and do not condone this behavior. Support them getting better, but do not excuse what they’ve done. We all want them to get better. Right now, supporters are part of the problem. This isn’t okay. There’s nothing you can say that can justify it. 

[shibe-testimony]

While i agree, that what i did was not okay and i dont deserve the support i am getting

This information was taken over months with the earliest being April 2020 and latest being October 2019. No matter the times it was still wrong to look at it but when your point is the dates don't say it only took a day when this has happened for close to a year

I respect all of your words and you as persons, im just stating what is being shown. No matter what i am wrong and it wasnt public til people dug into me. I privated poppy on October 7th 2019

This was not public

[sterling-starlight]

I don’t usually get involved in drama. But this is important.

Some of you in the fandom might know about the recent drama about the creator of The black-sun-AU, namely there was a call-out post made about her -seen here-

She owned up to the accusations of actively seeking out and enjoying the pedophilia, the incest, the child porn, and the bestiality. She even said that she wanted to get professional help because she knew that her consumption of these things were amoral and disgusting. That should be the end of it, right?

Clearly you haven‘t been on tumblr long enough.

I am friends with some of the individuals put together the callout post. I bring it up because they had a discussion on Twitter With Shibe. Bear in mind: This conversation happened today, after she said she was “really sorry”

K

So, tell me. @ccarmody101, does “Mom” seem like she’s, and sorry? 

@shantaru What say say you?

@shibe-throwaway 

[shibe-testimony]

It was still in the morning before i finally accepted i have a problem and i used sarcasm as a defense. I have no ill will toward this person and she has blocked me but i understand how i look

I understand its pathetic and looks as an excuse but i was still in denial

So im owning up that i barked out in anger when i had no position too like she said. Please do not @ these people, they’re nothing but sweet and caring people that i dont deserve

[shantaru]

Alright fine, I’ll bite.

This thing is going on long enough. I understand that people are upset but I really don’t agree to purposely messaging Shibe just to get a rise out of her. She apologised, she’s saying she will be looking for professional help. Yet, they’re still going out of their way to make matters worse by attacking her.

This is starting to end up in a witch hunt, especially with it now ending in others spreading the word only in forms to spill tea about someone, even to people who aren’t even in the fandom, because what better than drama and being rude to someone, am I right?

I agree, there are things I absolutely don’t condone to that have happened. Yet, to outright take months of time to dig dirt on someone; if you wanted to do so to show to others in the fandom that they have to ‘watch out’ for her, because there can be triggering stuff happening, then fine, but just block her and let it go. But to do so because she’s, as stated. ‘The biggest and most populair Au artist in the fandom for Edgy content.’ To me, it sounds like jealousy and that’s disgusting to be the cause of it. 

You especially wish for minors to not find out about the ‘gross’ content going on behind doors. Yet making a callout post only does the exact opposite. There is such a thing as seeing problematic behaviour and not being alright with it. But in that case, BLOCK the person.

The world isn’t black and white, there are harmful things everywhere, but you, yourself, can choose to ignore it, and go on with your day.

As I said, I don’t agree to the problematic content, yes, I knew of it, but I’ve known Shibe for quite a long time now. She has been nothing but one of the sweetest and most generous people I’ve ever met.  I’ve got to know her better over the course of months and people calling her names and things because of this because they only see one side of the story and immediately decide to make drama out of it, it’s depressing. 

Shibe is and will always be a close friend of mine, I don’t care if you block me for it, or any of the sort. But just, STOP, giving her all this backlash when she clearly knows what she did is wrong, has apologised, tried her best to explain why she did these things and will seek help, let it stop at that, there really isn’t more she can do.

As I have said, there is such a thing as blocking people, if you’re disgusted, don’t agree or any of the sorts, block them. None will be the wiser and we can let this shit show slowly pass over, cause only making this more drama and forcing it to last for days by purposely attacking her, you’re not being the mature one either.

-Shantaru

[ccarmody101]

^^^ my thoughts exactly

This drama has begun to branch out to other places where the story is being used as click bait,

And the callout said to specifically not do this

Tumblr is known for witch hunting and is honestly such a toxic way of handling a situation like this.

Shibe has all rights to be snippy when someone who shes asked to leave her alone continues to get a rise out of her.

Also feel like some of the conversation is missing due to shibes “infliction through CAPS” seems out of place.

I’ve said what I’ve said many times now,

Yes I call her mom, I am a 20 year old who called another person mom due to her avatar being “Mother Mymble”,

I agree with Shantaru’s statements, and will not be swayed.

She’s apologized, we know her side , and I know the other side of the story too.

Ive taken both of them into account, and my opinion is mine.

I support her decision to come clean, I support her decisions to get better and get help for the mental problems she is facing. Whether it had been from a call out post that had been from multiple months of witch hunting, or by her own accord, she has admitted to have wronged her supporters.

To use the “large blog” excuse is very shallow and really shows anyone criticizing them look envious.

I don’t want this to continue, but I know you won’t listen,

You won’t change my opinion to give her a chance to change.

Thank you

Clover ꕥ

[shibe-testimony]

Ah i see now you left out this part huh?

[sterling-starlight]

… what are you trying to prove with this? You know what comes after? This.

You can’t say “I’M SORRY, I’M SO SORRY!” And then come at me with

““AHAH! TAKE THAT!”

The only thing you’re proving is that you’re not really sorry. No, no, no. 

You’re sorry you got caught. 💅

[shibe-testimony]

Cutting more of the conversation doesnt help this either. If you really wanted the truth and not just to make me seem spiteful and unapologetic then thats what youre doing.

I am sorry and continuing a conversation when i was in denial and angry doesnt prove anything.

I can and want to change. I am remorseful for the things ive done and lies ive said. And to dramatize this further is just lying to yourselves that i have owned up and am sorry. The tea sis 💅 isnt necessary.

Im sorry this had to happen and im willing to change and leave forever. But i will not be dramatizied for your quarantine kicks.

I am sorry. And im not letting that truth slip.

[sterling-starlight]

I don’t usually get involved in drama. But this is important.

Some of you in the fandom might know about the recent drama about the creator of The black-sun-AU, namely there was a call-out post made about her -seen here-

She owned up to the accusations of actively seeking out and enjoying the pedophilia, the incest, the child porn, and the bestiality. She even said that she wanted to get professional help because she knew that her consumption of these things were amoral and disgusting. That should be the end of it, right?

Clearly you haven‘t been on tumblr long enough.

I am friends with some of the individuals put together the callout post. I bring it up because they had a discussion on Twitter With Shibe. Bear in mind: This conversation happened today, after she said she was “really sorry”

K

So, tell me. @ccarmody101, does “Mom” seem like she’s, and sorry? 

@shantaru What say say you?

@shibe-throwaway 

[shibe-testimony]

It was still in the morning before i finally accepted i have a problem and i used sarcasm as a defense. I have no ill will toward this person and she has blocked me but i understand how i look

I understand its pathetic and looks as an excuse but i was still in denial

So im owning up that i barked out in anger when i had no position too like she said. Please do not @ these people, they’re nothing but sweet and caring people that i dont deserve

[shantaru]

Alright fine, I’ll bite.

This thing is going on long enough. I understand that people are upset but I really don’t agree to purposely messaging Shibe just to get a rise out of her. She apologised, she’s saying she will be looking for professional help. Yet, they’re still going out of their way to make matters worse by attacking her.

This is starting to end up in a witch hunt, especially with it now ending in others spreading the word only in forms to spill tea about someone, even to people who aren’t even in the fandom, because what better than drama and being rude to someone, am I right?

I agree, there are things I absolutely don’t condone to that have happened. Yet, to outright take months of time to dig dirt on someone; if you wanted to do so to show to others in the fandom that they have to ‘watch out’ for her, because there can be triggering stuff happening, then fine, but just block her and let it go. But to do so because she’s, as stated. ‘The biggest and most populair Au artist in the fandom for Edgy content.’ To me, it sounds like jealousy and that’s disgusting to be the cause of it. 

You especially wish for minors to not find out about the ‘gross’ content going on behind doors. Yet making a callout post only does the exact opposite. There is such a thing as seeing problematic behaviour and not being alright with it. But in that case, BLOCK the person.

The world isn’t black and white, there are harmful things everywhere, but you, yourself, can choose to ignore it, and go on with your day.

As I said, I don’t agree to the problematic content, yes, I knew of it, but I’ve known Shibe for quite a long time now. She has been nothing but one of the sweetest and most generous people I’ve ever met.  I’ve got to know her better over the course of months and people calling her names and things because of this because they only see one side of the story and immediately decide to make drama out of it, it’s depressing. 

Shibe is and will always be a close friend of mine, I don’t care if you block me for it, or any of the sort. But just, STOP, giving her all this backlash when she clearly knows what she did is wrong, has apologised, tried her best to explain why she did these things and will seek help, let it stop at that, there really isn’t more she can do.

As I have said, there is such a thing as blocking people, if you’re disgusted, don’t agree or any of the sorts, block them. None will be the wiser and we can let this shit show slowly pass over, cause only making this more drama and forcing it to last for days by purposely attacking her, you’re not being the mature one either.

-Shantaru

[ccarmody101]

^^^ my thoughts exactly

This drama has begun to branch out to other places where the story is being used as click bait,

And the callout said to specifically not do this

Tumblr is known for witch hunting and is honestly such a toxic way of handling a situation like this.

Shibe has all rights to be snippy when someone who shes asked to leave her alone continues to get a rise out of her.

Also feel like some of the conversation is missing due to shibes “infliction through CAPS” seems out of place.

I’ve said what I’ve said many times now,

Yes I call her mom, I am a 20 year old who called another person mom due to her avatar being “Mother Mymble”,

I agree with Shantaru’s statements, and will not be swayed.

She’s apologized, we know her side , and I know the other side of the story too.

Ive taken both of them into account, and my opinion is mine.

I support her decision to come clean, I support her decisions to get better and get help for the mental problems she is facing. Whether it had been from a call out post that had been from multiple months of witch hunting, or by her own accord, she has admitted to have wronged her supporters.

To use the “large blog” excuse is very shallow and really shows anyone criticizing them look envious.

I don’t want this to continue, but I know you won’t listen,

You won’t change my opinion to give her a chance to change.

Thank you

Clover ꕥ

[shibe-testimony]

Ah i see now you left out this part huh?

[sterling-starlight]

I don’t usually get involved in drama. But this is important.

Some of you in the fandom might know about the recent drama about the creator of The black-sun-AU, namely there was a call-out post made about her -seen here-

She owned up to the accusations of actively seeking out and enjoying the pedophilia, the incest, the child porn, and the bestiality. She even said that she wanted to get professional help because she knew that her consumption of these things were amoral and disgusting. That should be the end of it, right?

Clearly you haven‘t been on tumblr long enough.

I am friends with some of the individuals put together the callout post. I bring it up because they had a discussion on Twitter With Shibe. Bear in mind: This conversation happened today, after she said she was “really sorry”

K

So, tell me. @ccarmody101, does “Mom” seem like she’s, and sorry? 

@shantaru What say say you?

@shibe-throwaway 

[shibe-testimony]

It was still in the morning before i finally accepted i have a problem and i used sarcasm as a defense. I have no ill will toward this person and she has blocked me but i understand how i look

I understand its pathetic and looks as an excuse but i was still in denial

So im owning up that i barked out in anger when i had no position too like she said. Please do not @ these people, they’re nothing but sweet and caring people that i dont deserve

[shantaru]

Alright fine, I’ll bite.

This thing is going on long enough. I understand that people are upset but I really don’t agree to purposely messaging Shibe just to get a rise out of her. She apologised, she’s saying she will be looking for professional help. Yet, they’re still going out of their way to make matters worse by attacking her.

This is starting to end up in a witch hunt, especially with it now ending in others spreading the word only in forms to spill tea about someone, even to people who aren’t even in the fandom, because what better than drama and being rude to someone, am I right?

I agree, there are things I absolutely don’t condone to that have happened. Yet, to outright take months of time to dig dirt on someone; if you wanted to do so to show to others in the fandom that they have to ‘watch out’ for her, because there can be triggering stuff happening, then fine, but just block her and let it go. But to do so because she’s, as stated. ‘The biggest and most populair Au artist in the fandom for Edgy content.’ To me, it sounds like jealousy and that’s disgusting to be the cause of it. 

You especially wish for minors to not find out about the 'gross’ content going on behind doors. Yet making a callout post only does the exact opposite. There is such a thing as seeing problematic behaviour and not being alright with it. But in that case, BLOCK the person.

The world isn’t black and white, there are harmful things everywhere, but you, yourself, can choose to ignore it, and go on with your day.

As I said, I don’t agree to the problematic content, yes, I knew of it, but I’ve known Shibe for quite a long time now. She has been nothing but one of the sweetest and most generous people I’ve ever met.  I’ve got to know her better over the course of months and people calling her names and things because of this because they only see one side of the story and immediately decide to make drama out of it, it’s depressing. 

Shibe is and will always be a close friend of mine, I don’t care if you block me for it, or any of the sort. But just, STOP, giving her all this backlash when she clearly knows what she did is wrong, has apologised, tried her best to explain why she did these things and will seek help, let it stop at that, there really isn’t more she can do.

As I have said, there is such a thing as blocking people, if you’re disgusted, don’t agree or any of the sorts, block them. None will be the wiser and we can let this shit show slowly pass over, cause only making this more drama and forcing it to last for days by purposely attacking her, you’re not being the mature one either.

-Shantaru

[ccarmody101]

^^^ my thoughts exactly

This drama has begun to branch out to other places where the story is being used as click bait,

And the callout said to specifically not do this

Tumblr is known for witch hunting and is honestly such a toxic way of handling a situation like this.

Shibe has all rights to be snippy when someone who shes asked to leave her alone continues to get a rise out of her.

Also feel like some of the conversation is missing due to shibes “infliction through CAPS” seems out of place.

I’ve said what I’ve said many times now,

Yes I call her mom, I am a 20 year old who called another person mom due to her avatar being “Mother Mymble”,

I agree with Shantaru’s statements, and will not be swayed.

She’s apologized, we know her side , and I know the other side of the story too.

Ive taken both of them into account, and my opinion is mine.

I support her decision to come clean, I support her decisions to get better and get help for the mental problems she is facing. Whether it had been from a call out post that had been from multiple months of witch hunting, or by her own accord, she has admitted to have wronged her supporters.

To use the “large blog” excuse is very shallow and really shows anyone criticizing them look envious.

I don’t want this to continue, but I know you won’t listen,

You won’t change my opinion to give her a chance to change.

Thank you

Clover ꕥ

[shibe-testimony]

Ah i see now you left out this part huh?

[shibe-testimony]

I am back, i made spaghetti and ive had time to reel down.

I would like to apologize again.

I would like to take a stand and admit to my wrongdoings. I would like to apologize to my supporters, you are all wonderful people and im sorry that i couldn't confide in you when i needed help and let this go on for long till it all burst forth. It was wrong to keep you all in the dark and i sincerely apologize.

To all the people that still vehemently hate me, i do not want to force you to forgive me. What my likes had was disgusting and abhorred and i do deserve this backlash. I apologize to you all for not coming forward sooner and denying the truth. I ran around you all in the guise that everyone wasnt seeing my side. When my side was wrong and flawed as well. And to this, i am not begging for your forgiveness im begging you to hear me and see this as truth. I know i havent been the most honest at the start but right here, i am completely honest when i was wrong.

I was wrong in thinking i could hide, i was wrong in trying to blame others. I was wrong in consciously consuming this material and i knew it was wrong but i didnt stop. I understand that those images are gateways to worse things and it is criminal. I knew this but couldn't stop myself from favoriting them. I is an addiction that i have had before almost a comfort, which i know 'why you find that comforting?' but i did and i didn't like myself for it.

I am the one that is responsible for my own actions and i am here to say that i am sorry.

Send what you want to me, not to anyone else. If this is a witch hunt then keep it on me and no one else. I dont care if get death threats. I am owning up to my mistakes. And if that isnt enough then i cant help you. I have told my truth and i am sorry. But dont go after others for MY sick mistakes.

[shibe-testimony]

Im gonna take some pain pills and go to sleep for a bit, I'll be back soon