In the Afterglow

This is a patchwork of a universe of interests, an outlet of emotions, an extension of a mind, a soul, and a handful of hormones.

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current maimai rating and im stuck af TwT

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It had always been “I hate me” or “I hate this” or “I hate my life” or “I hate everything”.

But, never “I hate you”.

Except that one time.

Except that last line.

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I don’t really believe in God. If there’s something I put my faith on, it’s in the universe. I believe we’re a mere part of something great and indecipherable. It could be the omnipotence of God but it might as well be the entropy of stardust.

I totally respect the belief though. I’ve been to a Catholic school; I even volunteered as lector on Sunday masses. I appreciate the teaching, learning, and values. There are some questionable parts, yes, but the mere fact that people stand, sit, kneel, pray in unison never fail to amaze me.

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I really like his concept and design. But the voice just doesn’t sit well with me, it’s borderline pissing me off HAHAHAHAH

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ugh this is kinda me

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Oh, maybe that’s why I like nerds.

It’s their passion over something they like that attracts me.

And they don’t care if what they like is absurd, or niche, or whatever by social standards. They like the things they like and no one and nothing can stop them.

OH, TO BE LIKED AND LOVED WITH SUCH INTENSITY AND PASSION…

PS There’s this one time I was asking my sister for comments about this boy I kinda like and she goes, “Ganyan talaga type mo no, bagsak yong buhok, nakasalamin. Mukhang nerd, ganon.”

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Of course, it wouldn’t be a classic Re:Zero pilot episode if Subaru doesn’t die at least once… even if it took an hour and half before he actually does.

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WAAAAAAAAAAAAHHH THESE FEEEELS

team Roxy ftw!!!

This anime has a lot of problematic tropes for me, but I could forgive it a tinsy bit because of moments like this.

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idk but for mainstream, the tropes on this anime are KRAZY

fkk this lise x cliff dynamic

where tf is my cliff

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Their arc just goes to show that what matters most is you stay. Despite everything, in spite of anything.

I don't know what to make of the fact that he likes Eris and he likes Roxy for as they are. Yes, he also likes Sylphie but what sealed her deal was what she could give him--the cure, the company, the security, the fail-safe route. I don't say it's a bad or wrong thing. I just think it's kinda sad for some reason.

To think she even carry this kind of insecurity.

EDIT: Someone said in the replies that this is not insecurity but more like trauma from the teleportation incident. Point taken and I stand corrected heheh. But there are parts of her that exudes lack of self-confidence and that awareness the Rudy is just like that, just like his father hahahah

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saem

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This is so long overdue but, I'm gonna start Needy Girl Overdose now.

THE FIRST BGM IS SOOOO LIT UGGGHHHHH

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Oh I just love it how the night sky reminds me how small a part of the universe I am.

That I can make whatever mess of a life, whatever damned of a choice, whatever shit of a mistake, whatever doom of nothingness there is and the sun still rises, the birds sing, the river flows, and the wind blows… and life goes on.

Life has to go on.

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hey, ur code is unavailable rn:(

same as me, dear anon

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And because you always feel like time is running out, you take it from others hoping it will make up for time that is never enough.

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“Stories are light. Light is precious in a world so dark.”

Kate DiCamillo, The Tale of Despereaux

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i wish i’m okay