Horse

How hungry?

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I loved a woman whole

Gave her my heart

Only for it to be broken

I can never heal from a broken heart

I can never love a woman whole

I can never give my heart whole

Instead i will keep the pieces hidden

Maybe on the empty seats of the trains with the view of the sea

Maybe keep it in the songs or the laughs i share with my best friend while we play games

Maybe i will keep little pieces in the morning coffee that gives me energy

But one day i might find the girl that loves me

But she wont get my heart

No she will never get my heart whole

Instead she will find it next to the seats that we share as we watch the ships pass by

Telling ourselves how nice it would be on a cruise ship knowing we both cant swim

Maybe she will find it in the games that we play as i laugh waiting for her to catch up

Maybe she will find it on the shoulder of my best friend i introduce her to

She will never get my whole heart

But when she is tired and empty with no love to feel

I hope she walks to the kitchen to have a cup of coffee and find some of my heart

Waiting

Waiting for to keep

[shirothedumbone]

Its depressional season check up on ur friends and family

[shirothedumbone]

Nvm yall i wasnt depressed

I just needed to get laid

[shirothedumbone]

1:you cant die, you have people who love you, people who will miss you

2:but i don’t have people who will understands me

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Sometimes i feel bad for knowing deep things off some dumb reel on the internet.

People tell me i am wise because i know all those deep things i know.

Maybe it doesn’t matter how i get those information maybe i don’t need to beat myself up for knowing things by saying i just got lucky

Maybe being lucky isn’t something i should hate

Maybe i shouldn’t hate myself

Maybe tho

[shirothedumbone]

Do you think maybe if we met a bit sooner

Do you think maybe if fate was a bit softer

Do you think we be a forever and not just a lesson

-some caption on a reel i found

[shirothedumbone]

“Sorry i am not always like this, sorry i dont usually ask for this many reassurance”

“This isn’t the real me”

As if this me deserves any less love

[shirothedumbone]

When i was in my first relationship i remember trying so hard to stay up text them and failing horribly

Now i am up till 3 am wishing i had someone to text to

Oh wait i have my FRIENDS remember guys love isn’t only found in relationships but also FRIENDSHIPS

So call up ur friends or make one on the INTERNETT

Remember ur not aloneeee

[shirothedumbone]

People say that to get over ur ex u have to find faults in them and focus on that

What they didnt tell me is what to do when u love them despite their flaws and couldnt hate those flaws

No i am not adding tags fuck u

[shirothedumbone]

I should not exist

Like i am built different

I am an abomination

I also got like thick thighs

But u wont ever find my gender

I threw my gender like the gender fluid slime i am

[shirothedumbone]

Balls

[shirothedumbone]

You ever love your partner so much u fantasise going back to time and do things they loved and surprising them with all the things they loved and flirt with them by “guessing” what they are into

I fantasise about it and giggle to myself thinking “hehe u would like that huh”

[shirothedumbone]

Lemme go on a lil rant here

I hate it

I absolutely despise it when my best friend fakes me out at catch

THEY THROW THE BALL OR DID THEY

CAUSE I LOOK FOR THE BALL AND ITS STILL IN UR HAND

HOW DARE YOU TRICK ME

And now i laugh it off cause i still love my best friend

AND THEN HE DOES IT AGAIN

ALRIGHT THATS HOW U WANNA PLAY?

SO WHEN I DONT LET HIM FAKE ME OUT

HE THROWS THE BALL

WE COULD HAVE HAD A GOOD GAME BUT THE ONLY THING U THREW WAS MY TRUST IN YOU

[shirothedumbone]

I told someone i am gonna be a gay man for Halloween

She said “oh good ur already dressed up”

[shirothedumbone]

What if u were pulled into the anime world

But u would look hyper realistical af

[shirothedumbone]

I was cleaning my laptop and noticed one of my files called “things i will never do” and i usually keep things i will never use or need

So i figured i check it out to see if theres anything i might do now

I might try blender

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I am too gender fluid for my own good