Shizu's Dark Diary.

Introvert. Magic. Moe. Welcome to my tumblr account. Here you will witness random rants and animes reviewed at 24-frames-per-second.

[kazuhiko6]

It was midnight of 29th December 2012 , when she called me on my phone to tell me how much she loved me and needed me in her life. She said I have made her a happy person again, bringing light into her darkness filled life. . I was lost of words when I heard her open herself finally. I never...

[shizu-dark-diary]

Let me point something out for you senpai: 1. Your life should revolve around yourself and not anyone else. 2. Instead of looking for new inspiration, why not remember the old ones? 3. Look around you senpai, live to make your family happy. Live to make yourself happy. 4. The day you actually live life for yourself, I promise, you'll find your soulmate too.

I know I am naive when it comes to suh matters. But I think it is foolish to wait and wrap your life around one person. Love is not about keeping someone else's dreams ahead of yours, it's about dreaming together. And love is not just between couples. Live for the love of your family and friends. That is plenty a reason to live happily. :)

[shizu-dark-diary]

Dear Dork

Me: Finally, double dork diaries part 2 is in my hand. SQUEEEEEEE!! Friend: What will you do after you finish reading it? Me: Cry.

[kazuhiko6]

Hey Kouhai ^-^ Can I know why do you like the “Dork Diaries” so much ?

[shizu-dark-diary]

It kind of reminds me of me I guess. Our lives are similar and the book also makes me LOL (literally) so yeah. ^^

[shizu-dark-diary]

Dear Dork

Me: Finally, double dork diaries part 2 is in my hand. SQUEEEEEEE!! Friend: What will you do after you finish reading it? Me: Cry.

[kazuhiko6]

Tired Visions...

Slowly getting tired of wearing the same mask everyday as my day starts with sound of my phone alarm ringing, bringing me back to reality. Oh how I wished to stay back in the realm of dreams~ Instead of waking up into this world of lies and denial. I am a honest person, It hurts me to wear a mask everyday. But society calls for it. Trying my best to meld in, but I might just stop giving a damn soon. Cannot keep on pretending.

This might be my first vision ever recorded on this blog ~

[shizu-dark-diary]

Senpai, it's okay to let go of the mask. The world is cruel and not bothered at all about how nice a person is. Just let it all go and start believing in a reason to love, live and move forward into the future. I'll always have your back. :)

[sugoihentai]

[shizu-dark-diary]

That moment. ♡ I wish I had Yuuta in my life too. ♥

[kazuhiko6]

(Well my birthday is actually around 23rd of June ,but it was falling on a Monday -.-, had no option to celebrate one day prior)

I arrived 2 hours late to my own birthday party as I was busy preparing a presentation based on my new sales ideas for the company I work at. Honestly , I was not…

[shizu-dark-diary]

I hope we get to celebrate both our birthdays together some day. With me you don’t need to wear a mask, just wear a crazy wild PARTY HAT! I know tomorrow is Monday, but I hope your day goes better than a regular Monday! And oh, a very happy birthday in advance Senpai! ^-^

[kazuhiko6]

Arigatou Shizu-Chan ^ ^/ Thank you for everything . And I wish for the same. I do wish to know you more even though I am at my wits end with socializing with people ~ . Its very exhausting.  But you are special to me. Lets hope my office remembers my birthday >.>

[shizu-dark-diary]

I'm sure they remember senpai! They might even surprise you with a cake! XD

[kazuhiko6]

(Well my birthday is actually around 23rd of June ,but it was falling on a Monday -.-, had no option to celebrate one day prior)

I arrived 2 hours late to my own birthday party as I was busy preparing a presentation based on my new sales ideas for the company I work at. Honestly , I was not...

[shizu-dark-diary]

I hope we get to celebrate both our birthdays together some day. With me you don't need to wear a mask, just wear a crazy wild PARTY HAT! I know tomorrow is Monday, but I hope your day goes better than a regular Monday! And oh, a very happy birthday in advance Senpai! ^-^

[p-u-n-p-u-n]

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This reminded me the first time my string broke while tuning! Gosh it hurt like hell! ;o;

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Uhhhhhh

I'm so bored right now. Getting your house renovated when you have holidays is a bad idea. I'm just stuck in the bedroom all day. I'm sick of playing pokemon and I'm not in the mood to read anything other than the dork diaries. I might get the second part tomorrow if I go out. I can't even play the guitar because of the noise and I don't really feel like sketching. In short, I HAVE NOTHING TO DO! I wish I had friends I could hang out with, but they're all nerdy and they already started with classes for next sem. Gaaah! Who in the right mind studies in the break? Welp, aaanyway, I've just been lying in my bed and waiting for a plane to crash into my building or something.. That'd be exciting. I have lots of anime to watch but I don't want to because I'll be embarrassed if someone in the anime kisses or something, coz mum and dad are both in the room! Why must I live such a boring and confined life? WHY?

[shizu-dark-diary]

CAKE! GIFTS! BALLOONS!

It was my birthday yesterday! So I thought since I have nothing else to write here, I’d describe how my day was spent.

I woke up at 7 and mum and dad wished me. Mum gave me clothes and chocolates as gifts and dad gave me money! Now I can afford that Wacom pen tablet I’ve been longing for! Then I got dressed up and combed my hair (I almost never comb) and waited outside for a friend. We went to inorbit (mall) to watch a morning show. It was a laugh riot!!

Then my friend had to leave for her class and I spent an hour in crosswords. I read this crazy book called Dork Diaries and I absolutely loved it. I contemplated buying it since I had less cash and I saved it to treat a few friends I was gonna meet. Next I went over to time zone and played a few games by myself. It was boring but peaceful. Then I got a call from a friend and we met up to celebrate my birthday!! :)

Omg those guys are the best friends anyone could ever have! Nobody ever threw me a party before and it was super exciting! I was all calm on the outside, but I was doing my happy dance in my mind! Then I got les gifts! I got a butterfly wing and a Deathnote bookmark and a guitar pic! They’re probably the best gifts I’ve received so far and I’m gonna treasure them forever. And then there was cake. Not in my mouth, but on my face. And in my nostrils. And in my hair. And on my new shirt. All I could think of was how am I gonna explain this to mum. (This party was/is hidden from her, so shhh)

By the time I got it all off, I was half wet. But it was fun (don’t tell this to my friends). Oh, and I DO NOT want to see another cake for a few months. Then we celebrated a few more birthdays that are around the corner.

My day was awesome this far. But sadly, all good things must come to an end. They did not allow me to treat them so I still had cash when I left. I headed straight for crosswords and bought Double Dork Diaries Part 1 and as I am writing this, I feel proud to say that I finished reading it. And now I must absolutely have part 2 as soon as possible.

Then the rest of the day buzzed by. I bought cake, we cut it at home. Packed a few (too many) pieces and left for my brother’s house. I met up with my 3-year-old neice and she’s so adorable! We were both really shy at first but in a few moments you couldn’t pull us apart. She left for London today. I miss her already.

Then me mum and dad went for dinner and I was exhausted when I reached home. I was out cold the next thing I knew. Fun birthday. I wish it lasted for a few more days. But now it’s back to boring. *sigh*

Until next time \^o^/

[shizu-dark-diary]

Entry #3: Chunnibyou demo koi ga shitai!

So yeah, I've been watching this show called "Chunnibyou". Translated into English, it means "Eighth grader syndrome". At some point of our lives we've all imagined ourselves to be blessed with super powers. For most of us, that faded away when we were 10-12 years. But some get drawn into it. They prefer imagination over reality which leaves us with one question: Who is right? Is it okay to stay in the realm of fiction, or grow up and mature into this ruthless world? Even I don't have any answers. I remember having imagined that I was blessed with wicked powers in my right hand. I used to cover it up with my skating glove so that unintentional magic does not destroy the world. I never really outgrew it till I was 15 I guess. But leaving it behind also meant leaving behind those innocent memories, those fun times, that little part of me, behind. But that is a part of growing up I guess. This show is exactly potraying the same thing. A girl who prefers her imaginary world over the harsh truth of reality. Is she right to do so? Only time will tell...

[artbooksnat]

Gorgeous new art work for K-ON! (けいおん！) illustrated by the director, Naoko Yamada (山田尚子). This was one of the eight large poster illustrations that came the July issue of Animage Magazine.

[shizu-dark-diary]

Omg so cool! ♡

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Diary entry#2 : De-st-iny?

All my life, I've wondered what was the reason I came into this world. I've heard that every being is of equal importance and has a specific role to play on this earth. Like those ugly crows that eat up garbage and keep places clean, or like the busy bees that make honey for us. What have I been born to do? As much as I would like to believe that I have super powers, sadly I don't possess any. I am an ordinary girl, a little shorter than the rest. What is my purpose in life? Is it just to study and get a good job and be happy? That sounds lame. Isn't there anything that only I can do? Like be a hero to a five year old, or be the world to a pet dog? Or be an inspiration to someone? I hope I find that role I'm supposed to play someday. And on that day, I'll be the happiest person on earth. Untill next time~ ^^/

[sloopdoggupinthisurl]

[shizu-dark-diary]

Mio chan! :D

[kazuhiko6]

Revival

I return , yet again. But this time with a reason. When all hope seemed lost in the midst of darkness. Someone has yet again showed me the light , guided me out , step by step. Helping me face on of the hidden demons.Invoking hope. Maybe I can live again. If I start to believe again.

I feel lucky to know you and have you in my life Shizu-Chan ^-^.

Love you for this .. helping me return to tumblr.

[shizu-dark-diary]

Senpai, dark times lie ahead. For the road we walk on is full of reality magic, that shreds people apart over time. But fear not, this kouhai will always be at your side, and fend off all evil forces with the wicked hand I am blessed with. Senpai daisuki! ^^ #firstpost #kazu #senpai ^^