peach prc's new single shot me straight back to sunburn hell so I was inspired to finally post about my obnoxiously long sunburn playlist (my magnum opus in many ways). aka content literally just for me and max 3 other people. oh lucysusannah I will never get over you.
also it's (pretty much) chronological so you can experience the emotions of the book in one quick (almost 4 hour) sitting <3
↓ I assign a narrator to each song and pick the most sunburn lyric under the cut ↓
i. crossmore
triple dog dare - lucy dacus (lucy, to susannah)
➵ the radio is singing you a song you know / and the kid at the counter is gawking at your grace / I can tell what he's thinking by the look on his face / it's not his fault, I'm sure I look the same
guilty as sin? - rachel bochner (lucy, to susannah)
➵ if long suffering propriety is what they want from me / they don't know how you've haunted me so stunningly
sleepover - hayley kiyoko (lucy, to susannah)
➵ come on, let's sleep in my bed / can I just be in my head with you? / and it breaks my heart / yeah, it breaks my heart
say it - maggie rogers (susannah, to lucy)
➵ I knew it when you looked my way / that I'd be begging you to stay / I couldn't say it to myself
slow - pale waves (lucy, to susannah)
➵ dreaming, am I dreaming? / 'cause it's about time that I let you know / I've got these feelings, all they do is show
religion (u can lay your hands on me) - shura (lucy, to susannah)
➵ we've been talking on the telephone for hours at night / whilst I've been thinking about kissing you
sunlight - hozier (lucy, to susannah)
➵ I had been lost to you, sunlight / and flew like a moth to you, sunlight, oh, sunlight / oh, your love is sunlight
(you) on my arm - leith ross (lucy, to susannah)
➵ I wanna sit around and watch you do your hair / talk it all into the ground / have a ceremony there / for something, don't know what it'd be
j's lullaby (darlin' i'd wait for you) - delaney bailey (lucy, to susannah)
➵ I'd bottle the feelin' you give me / and shelve that stuff for years to come / 'cause baby, when your arms are around me / I'd swear that I'm holding the sun
movie star - trousdale (susannah, to lucy)
➵ I'm feeling like a work of art / like glitter when the music starts / you kiss me at the perfect part / I'm feeling like a movie star
bewitched - laufey (susannah, to lucy)
➵ I'm falling so badly, I'm coming apart / you wrote me a note, cast a spell on my heart / and bewitched me
the only exception - paramore (susannah, to lucy)
➵ and up until now, I had sworn to myself / that I'm content with loneliness / because none of it was ever worth the risk / well, you are the only exception
slow dancing - aly & aj (lucy, to susannah)
➵ I want you to know / I don't need anything fancy / I just need me and you slow dancing
like a prayer - madonna (lucy, to susannah)
➵ it's like a dream / no end and no beginning / you're here with me / it's like a dream / let the choir sing
holy - zolita (susannah, to lucy)
➵ worship your body as you walk my way / you're the only one who can make me pray / I fall at your feet, your breath's divine / and underneath my skin's an intrinsic shrine
bedroom hymns - florence + the machine (susannah, to lucy)
➵ make me your Maria / I'm already on my knees / you had Jesus on your breath / and I caught him in mine / sweating out confessions / the undone and the divine
take me to church - hozier (lucy, to susannah)
➵ there is no sweeter innocence than our gentle sin / in the madness and soil of that sad earthly scene / only then, I am human, only then, I am clean
out loud - peach prc (susannah, to lucy)
➵ I know my baby loves me like crazy / miss her in pictures but it doesn't phase me / my baby's proud, sweet and devout / if I'm patient, one day she'll love me out loud
stained glass window - sunday (1994) (susannah, to lucy)
➵ I took some pictures of me and you / and I superglued them over scriptures / so I can worship something true
secret - peach prc (susannah, to lucy)
➵ I wanna hold your hand and take a photograph / tell everyone that we're in love / instead I hide with your coats / and write poetic notes / and then I lie to everyone I know
cartwheel - lucy dacus (susannah, to lucy)
➵ when you told me 'bout your first time / a soccer player at the senior high / I felt my body crumple to the floor / betrayal like I'd never felt before
janie - ethel cain (susannah, to lucy and martin)
➵ please don't leave me / I'll always need more / please leave open your most quiet door / I know she's your girl now / but she was my girl first
I'm your man - mitski (lucy, to susannah)
➵ you believe me like a god / I'll destroy you like I am / I'm sorry I'm the one you love / no one will every love me like you again
from eden - hozier (susannah, to lucy)
➵ innocence died screaming, honey, ask me, I should know / I slithered here from Eden just to sit outside your door
hallelujah (in your arms) - semler (lucy, to susannah)
➵ hallelujah! / my world is caving in / I don't know where I start / but you are where I end / in your arms! / in your arms!
reckless driving - lizzy mcalpine (lucy and martin, to each other)
➵ I didn't mean to kiss you / I mean, I did, but I didn't think it'd go this far
moon song - phoebe bridgers (susannah, to lucy)
➵ you couldn't have, you couldn't have / stuck your tongue down the throat of somebody / who loves you more / so I will wait for the next time you want me / like a dog with a bird at your door
afterglow - taylor swift (lucy, to susannah)
➵ why'd I have to break what I love so much? / it's on your face, and I'm to blame, I need to say / hey / it's all me in my head / I'm the one who burned us down / but it's not what I meant
christine - lucy dacus (susannah, to lucy)
➵ but if you get married, I'd object / throw my shoe at the altar and lose your respect / I'd rather lose my dignity / than lose you to somebody who won't make you happy
she is the sunlight - trading yesterday (susannah, to lucy)
➵ and it will take this life of regret / for my heart to learn to forget / tomorrow will be as it always has been / and I will fall to her again
I bet on losing dogs - mitski (susannah, to lucy)
➵ my baby, my baby / you're my baby, say it to me / baby, my baby / tell your baby that I'm your baby
crying on the bathroom floor - muna (susannah, to lucy)
➵ but when I'm crying on the bathroom floor / tearing off the dress I wore, I wonder / if I could ever ask for more / if I'm ever gonna ask for more from a lover
secret love song, pt. II - little mix (susannah, to lucy)
➵ why can't I say that I'm in love? / I wanna shout it from the rooftops / I wish that it could be like that / why can't it be like that? / 'cause I'm yours
homegirl - king princess (susannah, to lucy)
➵ and I like the way that you talk, slow / spelling my name with your tongue, so / you don't have to say it / we're friends at the party, I'll give you my body at home
bad as the boys - tove lo (susannah, to lucy)
➵ I run my fingers through her hair / crushing my hope that this could go anywhere / I'm just a memory of good times / she's not mine
you stupid bitch - girl in red (susannah, to lucy)
➵ you don't know what you deserve / and that's why you end up hurt / but you never listen / take my advice as criticism / then make the worst decisions
moderation - florence + the machine (susannah, to lucy)
➵ can't hold it back, I can't take the tension / oh, I'm trying to be good / want me to love you in moderation / well, don't you know I wish I could
hoax - taylor swift (susannah, to lucy)
➵ my only one / my smoking gun / my eclipsed sun / this has broken me down / my twisted knife / my sleepless night / my win-less fight / this has frozen my ground
doomsday - lizzy mcalpine (susannah, to lucy)
➵ don't say that you'll always love me / 'cause you know I'd bleed myself dry for you over and over again
waiting room - phoebe bridgers (susannah, to lucy)
➵ if you were a waiting room, I would never see a doctor / I would sit there with my first aid kit and bleed
all this and heaven too - florence + the machine (susannah, to lucy)
➵ I would give it all if only for a moment / that I could just understand / the meaning of the word you see / 'cause I've been scrawling it forever / but it never makes sense to me at all
coney island - taylor swift (lucy, to susannah)
➵ and if this is the long haul / how'd we get here so soon? / did I close my first around something delicate? / did I shatter you?
ii. dublin
happiness is a butterfly - lana del rey (susannah, to lucy)
➵ if he's a serial killer, then what's the worst / that can happen to a girl who's already hurt? / I'm already hurt
pushing it down and praying - lizzy mcalpine (lucy, to susannah)
➵ I love him, kiss his mouth, prayin' / he can't see what I see / when I close my eyes / you replace him / wearin' no disguise / you erase him
everything - muna (lucy, to susannah)
➵ would you want to revisit the marks on my skin? / 'cause the world could be ending / and all I'd be thinking is / "how are you doing, baby?"
supercut - lorde (susannah, to lucy)
➵ in my head, I do everything right / when you call, I'll forgive and not fight / because ours are the moments I play in the dark / we were wild and fluorescent / come home to my heart
buckle - florence + the machine (susannah, to lucy)
➵ 'cause I'm stupid and I'm damaged and you're a disaster / when you walk into the room / oh, none of it matters / oh, baby, I just buckle / my resolution in tatters
too little, too late - laufey (susannah, to lucy)
➵ but it just killed me / to hear you scream my name / a clear fucking x-ray of if I'd stuck around / I swear to God, I almost drowned
spring into summer - lizzy mcalpine (lucy, to susannah)
➵ you're always gonna be someone that I want / we have too many years between us / if I could jump into the past, I'd only change one thing / I'd never hurt you first / I'd never let you leave
good luck, babe! - chappell roan (susannah, to lucy)
➵ when you wake up next to him in the middle of the night / with your head in your hands, you're nothing more than his wife / and when you think about me, all those years ago / you're standing face to face with "I told you so"
this is what the drugs are for - gracie abrams (lucy, to susannah)
➵ now I feel you in my room / haven't seen you in a lifetime / what am I supposed to do / when you used to be my lifeline?
staying - lizzy mcalpine (lucy, to martin)
➵ what happens when you love me dry? / I give myself to help you get by / I keep on lyin' and sweatin' at night / hold me until someone sends me a sign
dancing with our hands tied - taylor swift (lucy, to susannah)
➵ I'd kiss you as the lights went out / swayin' as the room burned down / I'd hold you as the water rushes in / if I could dance with you again
iii. crossmore
cardigan - taylor swift (susannah, to lucy)
➵ but I knew you'd linger like a tattoo kiss / I knew you'd haunt all of my what-ifs / the smell of smoke would hang around this long / 'cause I knew everything when I was young
this love - taylor swift (susannah, to lucy)
➵ this love left a permanent mark / this love is glowing in the dark / these hands had to let it go free, and / this love came back to me
work song - hozier (lucy, to susannah)
➵ when my time comes around / lay me gently in the cold, dark earth / no grave can hold my body down / I'll crawl home to her
chloe michelle howarth // my first summer (2020) // chloe michelle howarth // lucy dacus // lurelyno // ron hicks // chloe michelle howarth // ratsandlilies.art // sappho // lena oleanderson
sunburn by chloe michelle howarth
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hey so you should all read this book i think about it all the time i love lucy so much she is me i am her if you like lesbians and also stories that are kind of sad you might like this
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theartofmadeline
yousharknotpass
pixelskylines
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