sorry I've been gone for so long, I've been taking a journey of shame, pain, and learning lessons along the way.
I've been ashamed of myself this past few weeks for what I've done to other people, I've hurt them, i've stomped them on the ground feeling helpless, and it's all my fault. I can't speak to those people anymore it seems but i will say this, i am going to keep my mouth shut about certain topics when i talk to people privately from now on, I've learned my lesson and what i did in my horrifying past was wrong and that i was stupid back then, and for that, I'm sorry to all of you, no really, I am, I've let you all down, and i feel absolutely bad for all of it, i kept screwing things up and i destroyed everything, I promise to stop being so weird, that being about porn and everything else, I'm legitimately sorry for everything, everything I've done is uncalled for, everything i've done is insensitive, and I've hurt literally everyone around me and outside of me, and for that, once again, I'm sorry.
I'm sorry for all the things i said that made you all uncomfortable, i should've known better to not say those things that made others uncomfortable, and i wounded up doing it anyways thinking it would benefit me in the long run when really it didn't, i just ended up hurting people and that was terrible for me to do, i can't say anything to the people i hurt because they don't want to talk to me after all of this, but if you know them, tell them I'm sorry and that i mean it in the realest way possible.
I'm sorry for every piece of porn I've drawn ever, sent to people or not, i shouldn't have drawn those kinds of things and grossed you all out even further to where im unlikable to all of you, i promise to stop all of that for all of you, I am also very sorry for the one time in particular, i had no ill intentions and it was but a mere accident, I'm still apologising regardless because at the time, i didn't know and i feel really bad about it even now.
I'm sorry for everything I've ever done, I've ruined people's lives beyond repair and let everyone down, I'm sorry to everyone who has come in contact with me ever, even if not directly, I'm sorry that i ruined all expectations that you all had of me and let you all down.
And finally, I'm sorry i took about a few weeks to put this post out for the world to see, it took me a good week to figure out what to say here, i went through hell and back trying to figure out how to respond to people with this apology and looking back at my past actions and things i did and yeah, i was terrible and i now realise what i did was wrong and unjustifiable and all i can do now is apologise and move on.
My apology is coming purely from heart, no bullshitting here, just the truth, I'm gonna do all i can to better myself and not do bad things to upset all of you.
and with all of that being said here, I'm sorry to all of you from the bottom of my heart and back up again, what I'm gonna do now is not say uncomfortable things to all of you, stop drawing porn, and keep my mouth shut about certain topics, I'm likely going to be taking time away from this account to focus on bettering myself as a person
