shrub

talking about my struggles. tw: ed, self harm

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I CLEANED MY ROOM!!

time for a celebratory joint!

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tw: caffeine overdose ⚠️

i think i am having a caffeine od and it hurts very badly. that, or i think i’m having a heart attack which i don’t think is the case. (i didn’t eat today and i exceeded my caffeine limit).

remember to always eat food and drink water when you drink energy drinks and remember to also stay in the 400 mg limit.

do as i say not as i do apparently.

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i compulsively eat gum. 😳

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i for sure peaked in high school. senior year to be specific. 🥴

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got the same freebies from the dispensary again! love them sm, really looking out for me.

[professionallyunstable-deactiva]

"you're so funny" - thanks man can’t wait to stare at the ceiling tonight.

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logging off.

[tezriaetho]

fuck it we ball (malnourished, heavy eve bags, dehydrated, and on the verge of insanity)

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literally. i look like someone punched me.

i feel like it too.

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i have to tell my boss by monday if i want to stay at full time or switch down to part time. there are really only negatives. the only positive to it is i would have more free time to see my friends and do hobbies, but it’s still not even that much more time. so idk. i’m stuck. my mental health is just deteriorating with this schedule.

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I FUCKING LOVE WHEN THE DISPO’S GIVE ME HELLA FREEBIES!!

today i ordered one 1g disposable for delivery. when i opened my package, i saw a 1.2g cotton candy preroll and a 120mg rice crispy treat. that is such a good deal; buy one get two free!

and i know what you’re wondering. “how do i get freebies too?”

1. give $$ tips! it’s always nice to at least give them your change.

2. don’t flirt but like show a lot of interest in them. like, i see a lot of the dispensary workers i see (generally biweekly) as acquaintances. although, they only know my name. i still need to learn theirs.

3. ASK!! it’s okay to ask for a freebie! i do all the time. here are some real examples that i have used.

* “hey, since it’s my first time, may i have a freebie?”

* “if i post a review of your place, can i have a free roll?”

* “it’s my birthday today! can i have a birthday gift?”

* “do you guys have any deals where i can get something for free?”

anyways, rant/advice over! just wanted to share how my day ended, awesome!! thanks cool dispensary friends!🤘

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i listen to this song while i clean the bathroom at work so i can privately practice singing it. why? a. because i think i sound good/satisfying when i sing the “crashing from the high” part. b. i embarrassed myself so hard at a public karaoke one night pretty recently. i will return and redo this song and redeem myself.

if i return and mess up again… you will literally never hear from me again.

[thememedaddy]

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real.

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i spent pretty much the rest of my money on weed again.

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bruh, how do you obtain followers on this app?

guys, i like helluva boss! that makes me cool, right??

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this account makes me feel like a blogger.

today i found out that a position was opened at my job, but it’s not going to be getting filled due to budgeting. the idea of opening that position back up is going to happen again in five months they said, and they told me specifically not to worry.

from all of the signs i have received, and all of the communication in between that w have had, it makes it seem like they do want me to have the job, but like… how long am i supposed to wait for that? like, i really like my job, but i have been thinking about quitting and prioritizing my youth and what little i have left of it. (i would still work, just at a place that lets me work a lot less hours).

i don’t know. they have a spot that needs to be filled, they want me to have it, and I know of several ways to cut stuff out of our budget to give me the raise. hell, i would take the job without the raise!

i don’t know. i’m just so annoyed. maybe i am being spoiled and impatient. but they know i’m at a hard spot in the job and they know this would help a lot. we can’t “not afford it.” that isn’t an excuse imo.

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i will say it everytime: TGIF!!

if you know me irl, reach out to make plans. <3

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i got out of work early but did not get done any of the stuff i wanted to. i hate being an adult.