Well that explains⊠that, though itâs a lot to have thrust on him all of a sudden. Sorrel keeps tugging on the strings for a few minutes, thoughtful and conflicted. He was never the best with big speeches, either giving or listening, and it feels like thereâs just a lot going on at once. This isnât the kind of decision to be made lightly, and yet⊠it doesnât feel like something that would be difficult if it was just for himself.
âEveryone talk like we choose between live or die⊠live or disappear⊠not so sure. Already dead. I made my choice when I pushed button back in other game. Was okay with that. Death is natural. Everything die, eventually. Age, disease, war⊠humanity going to tear itself apart sooner or later. If we choose delete, we maybe just move on to real afterlife? Sango, Vera, could still be together there. Would be nice to see it. Am curious. And ready. I not really like whole being in computer thing anyway. Not natural. Nothing real, nothing change, no animals. Nanako-san right. Is stagnant. Mn.â Sorrel shrugs, inputs his vote, then looks over at the othersâŠ
âKotori-san⊠KazuâŠâ Sorrel may be, clearly, leaning towards a similar decision, but it still hurts to see his friends so ready to make it for the wrong reasons. The hug train already seems backed up at Kazuâs podium, so Sorrel moves around to Kotoriâs first, enfolding her in a quick bear hug and murmuring something to her. When he pulls back he gives her a warm smile and a gentle pat on the head.
It looks like Kazu is getting hugged by Tomo now, which makes Sorrel let out a faint chuff, he doesnât particularly approve of the white-haired boy if he is who it seems like he is. But at least heâs apologizing, and Kazu seems to need this right now⊠probably best not to interrupt. Sorrel curiously moves around the room partially just to see if he can, approaching one of the still living students heâd been watching on the screens for a while.
âHi, you have wolf ears, can I pet them?â
Listen this might be his last chance.
On the other side of the much larger trial room, Suu-Ren actually has a faint smile flicker across their face when Emiko approaches. As tense as the atmosphere is, and as charged as the decision before everyone might be, they canât help feeling some relief that itâs⊠almost over. Whatever happens next, they made it. Yun made it. Seiichi and Hoshimi made it. For the first time in a long time, Ren thinks that maybe, just maybe, thereâs a chance that the worst is finally behind them.
âWeirdly, I actually do feel kind of okay.â Ren admits in a wry tone. They look tired, but⊠stable. âAnd yeah, sure, just giving these things out like candy today.â They add, wrapping an arm around her and giving her an only slightly awkward hug. Itâs fine. The fact sheâd asked first made it⊠actually a bit nice.Â
And then Reina starts talking, and Renâs gaze is automatically drawn back to her. For a second they unconsciously give Emiko another light squeeze, as if instinctively drawing comfort. Why does this all⊠have to be soâŠ
âReina-san⊠Iâm sorry that I couldnât save you. You were the first person in years to show me kindness in a moment of vulnerability. And in a lot of ways you remind me of my little sister. We didnât know each other long - well, not that we remember⊠but you were special to me. I wanted to protect you, so much, and I⊠I didnât. If I thought that I could make up for that now, save you now, I would do it. In a heartbeat. But it isnât the same, and I donât want to make an empty gesture that you wonât want. So⊠whatever the ultimate decision turns out to be⊠Iâll find your parents, and Iâll tell them for you.â
This was so frustrating. This shouldnât be something they had to decide, any of them, and while Ren can appreciate that Tomo is trying to let them all have a say in the outcome⊠it still feels wrong. They want Tatsuo to burn, part of them is still eager to slam that button, but⊠theyâre still holding back. Waiting for something that will make the choice more clear. Waiting to see which way the majority of the dead swing, perhaps. Or just waiting to see what Hoshimi and Lucian want.
When Yun is brought over, Ren lets go of Emiko to take her, giving Tomo a nod as they hold Yun close. Safe. As long as theyâre holding her, sheâs safe, and thatâs important.
âGiven what I know about how your minds are computerized in the first placeâŠâ Ren starts, looking over towards Michi with undisguised distaste. Leave it to her to make inappropriate comments when people were suffering. âGoing back into your bodies isnât really an option. Apparently the process of scanning your brains in is pretty literal, and involves surgically removing and cutting them up. So your bodies donât have brains in them anymore.â
God they are so tempted to remark that it wouldnât be much of a change for Michi in that case, but they resist. Not the time or place. Besides, she has at least one good point.
âItâŠÂ is fair to ask what will happen if the vote goes to save them. Why would Tatsuo have to be released? Couldnât you just keep him here, with the rest of them? Or figure out a way to isolate him on the server or whatever?â Ren doesnât know exactly how all this works, but it seems weird that they can select code for specific people to move them - like how Tatsuki was âcopy pastedâ into Shirokuma - but not be able to just delete Tatsuo.
âKnowing whether saving them would allow them to actually have lives, be able to interact with the world in some way, probably makes a difference. Would they get robot bodies too, or just be stuck in the same program forever?â
Because if that was the case then even the ones who wanted to live now might change their minds after a few more months or years of that, and that would be a pretty big waste for the risk of Tatsuo getting out and wreaking havoc.