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[shurekimmie]

When the souls dies is no longer beautiful, I am no longer beautiful. The ugly duckling who will never understand.

[shurekimmie]

The unknown

The feeling of being truly alone, it’s a bit unbearable. Your thoughts running through your head, screaming and yelling, punching the mirror I HATE YOU!!! It’s all your fault. Freaking out slowly,feeling uncomfortable in your own skin; sobbing wanting all the pain to go away, your heart races your mind is going wild the voices are uncontrollable not even one silent sound you can’t hear yourself think. PANICKING, breathing heavily trying to calm down, beating your head vigorously wanting to die. Maybe if I beat my head hard enough the pain will just go away, suicidal thoughts many ways to die grabbing the razor carving your arm watching it bleed as your being rushed to the hospital, your crazy nothing, but crazy. The gun is in your hand thinking about pulling the trigger; life isn’t over it’s just a down fall. Anxiety is real and no one will understand the pain you feel inside. The ugly truth lies before you as we all hide in a mask filled with sadness. Pain pills, anxiety medication, anti depressants, all an easy fix, trying stay calm trying not to break down. That’s all you need is to act a fool. In the middle of the town. I’ll show you crazy.

[protect-and-love-animals]

The World’s Cutest Adventurer

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[shurekimmie]

A psycho a psycho nothing but a psycho hiding the crazy hiding the pain. Dying slowly breaking inside. On the urge of a mental breakdown. Lurking in the shadows scared and afraid of where the true form of a psycho plays and hides. Beating itself down calling itself names smacking itself around running with rage. Wanting to pull the trigger yelling and screaming with fear. Self harm an only option yelling at the clock in the mirror. A psycho hides and hides very well no one knows a true form of a psycho until they unveil the mask they wear pretending to be normal. A fake smile a wicked tongue deep down everyone is a little bit psycho you just have to find the right one. Very ashamed trying to hide the fact that a psycho is a psycho. How do you change a psycho full of pain and wanting to maintain the psycho that hides inside your brain.

[animalsnaps]

[shurekimmie]

Jealousy

Jealousy is loud, Jealousy is funny, Jealousy won't make you proud even when it's not sunny. Jealousy has its ways, There's nothing you can say Jealousy is kinda odd, Makes you want to go for a jog. Jealousy tons of feelings It takes a lot of healing Lots of emotion, it causes a commotion Jealousy is never easy, it almost makes you a bit creepy. Jealousy makes you do things you later regret, you almost just want to forget. Jealousy is loud, Jealousy is funny, Jealousy will never be easy. The only way to beat jealousy is if you beat it in yourself!

[shurekimmie]

Life goes on...

My heart was made of gold, Why did I turn so cold? I never thought life was worth living How could I have been so forgiving? I didn’t mean to wast your time Loving you was never a crime I may have been hard to deal with, It was just a myth Yes, we would clash and collide My brain was always occupied. You walked away and I was to blame, I am so ashamed. Today and tomorrow I am filled with sorrow You are a witty fellow A companion and a hero I saw You made me say aw.

I loved you in the time before I will love you once more

[shurekimmie]

I lived in a lie I must comply, I cannot deny the pain I hide inside. Wanting to explode, I've been down this long hard road. Living today, like it was yesterday. Praying for tomorrow with a heart filled with sorrow. I need to swallow my pride, I must subside the rest, with my heart beating out of my chest. A little bit of shame how could I be so lame? I hope you know, I'm in it for the show A smile that glows the words begin to flow, starts to unfold a story to be told. The end is near I shouldn't fear. I'm a midnight creep where the city sleeps. I lived in a lie I cannot comply the things I've got by my side.

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[shurekimmie]

Today I hate the world I hate everyone around my they can all go fucking die. Don't talk to me like I'm fucking stupid. And don't know what I'm talking about with my fucking car. I know one rim is smaller than the other I'm not stupid. A bunch of idiots

[shurekimmie]

An ugly body an ugly heart a broken smile lies apart watery tears. Many faces screaming voices lots of paces heartbroke will never go alone love never dies numbness, fear,pain, and tears. A home isn’t a home when your all alone.

[shurekimmie]

Something personal 😕

She’s suppressed so many memories that she’s never wanted to remember or told. She’s never going to get better or live because of them. She’s a failure,a whore, a slut, a cumdumpster, just a slave and that’s all she’ll ever be. Oh don’t date her she’s crazy and she cuts herself. Eventually she didn’t know who she was, she honestly thought that all she was good for was sucking dick and being a cumdumpster she had no self worth. Sexually abused at a young age hiding faces running in fear had been molested, used for sex time after time had no care in the world didn’t even know she was being used for sex. She honestly thoughts it was love when they would leave she was devastated she’d shut down and cried for months hoping they would come back. When she did hear from them her heart would start to race and her stomach would start to turn she’d start smiling like an idiot went out of her way to meet them didn’t care what time it was early in the day late at night. All they wanted was sex for many years. She would give it her all to these guys opened up to them, loved them and was only used for sex. She became insecure, lost who she was letting everyone step on her like a bug. People would try to get close to her and she’d push them away. She was afraid to get hurt again and again. Kept to herself most of the time. Tried to open up to the ones she liked they turned it around and threw it back in her face. She began and started hurting the ones she loved because she was to afraid. Many years all she thought she was good for was sex sucking dick being a cumdumpster getting shamed and being a slave was an okay thing and was love. She is a fuck up and let it all happen. And kept going back like a fool. She’s held in so much pain so much hurt for years. The memories haunt her she fights and fights and all she can do is cry a frown upon to all humanity. Is she still the same helpless girl she was 9 years ago? She's stronger than Ever she's not afraid to be herself. She's still an it shy when it comes to speaking up. She's also not afraid to talk about her past without bursting down in tears.

[shurekimmie]

Let take a trip and get lost in the mind

Ever get lost in your own head. Sometimes it's scary being surrounded by so many thoughts. Silence kills, many voices. Different thoughts it's sickening to the pit of your stomach it turns it whirls. Your head is spinning your running in circles. Your yelling, your screaming. "Stop it stop it" you can hear the ringing in the ears. The insanity is growing problematic stuck in confusion a daze. An optical illusion. You speak words it comes out like worms, you see rainbows and butterflies like an acid trip. The voices get louder and louder as you sit in fear. It's vile,wicked,twisted, and cruel. The circles the sanity a morbid sanctuary the mind wonders let it get lost don't try to catch it or you'll regret it. The darkness, a beautiful black hole sucks your soul and never wants to let go. A cry for help with your lips glued shut. Nothing ,but a small simple tune. Snap out of it, snap out of it don't let it consume all the energy that is absorbed, sucks the life out of you till you wither up and die. It turns to dust as it slowly blows in the wind. A mind, a thought, a beautiful picture, a picture you see with unspeakable words. Life and life alone how do you want to live it make it vivid. A soul can only go as far as you take it, take it to a time it's never been before. Getting lost in thoughts your mind starts to wonder.

[shurekimmie]

The ugly I hide

Am I the problem? All I see are shadows and all I hear is blah,blah,blah. Am I saying to much or not enough? I want to say so much, but my silence remains. All the problems all the tears, petty fights, arguments, outburst, pain, panic attacks, anxiety they are all in my brain. I have tons of problems and a lot of pain, A broken smile with nothing to gain, Self harm of dissatisfaction Head beatings, tenter tantrums, blackouts. Mean words obsessive intendancies Cutting urges, knife grabs Yelling matches, calm talks The sorries I am the problem and I'm not Listening

[shurekimmie]

Beauty is ugly, beauty is pure. It can be beautiful how much beauty can you endure? Beauty is the beholder a picture you can see. Beauty isn't beauty if you don't agree. The heart and soul is made of gold. When shattered it turns black grows old and even mold. Beauty is light it is heavy too. Beauty is rotten it comes in all shapes and sizes. Beauty is unique creative and wise some people have it, it's even I'm disguise. What is beauty? From what I can see beauty is anything and everything if you use your imagination. Beauty is ugly beauty is pure how much beauty can you endure?

[shurekimmie]

Angry people sad faces lost souls many places the world is spinning words are slipping everyone's tripping lots of people two faces. Hallucinations, visual delusions vivid images. Figment of the imaginations. Creeping trees walking shadows, a midnight creep where the city sleeps