° I spent a year and 11 months on gyaru, but I don't know if I regret it. I guess I regret and don't regret at the same time.
Why do I regret it? If I give up all this, then all efforts will be nullified. Gyaru mind will remain, but the style will have to be redesigned almost from scratch, and it's very important for me to look good and fashionable!
Before becoming a gyaru, I tried many styles: lolita, nyashki, gothic, and even the old Japanese horror vibe, which I loved. I thought for a very long time that I would never leave Gyaru, but now I'm broken and I'm not sure of anything. Putting myself back together is incredibly difficult, but it's even harder to figure out what I want.
I want to be happy, but that's not the full answer to the question, is it? I have to think about what makes me happy, and that's a hundred times harder.
I love gyara, very much, it's the most fashionable and stylish subculture for me personally, but because of my mental state, it's a little hard to be in it. This is just my problem, but I'm trying to solve it because I don't want to give up what I truly love.
I really hope that I'm not the only one, that every gyaru has had turning points, otherwise I'll feel lonely.
