Shutterlens's Blog

Jay (they/them/theirs) / 21 / white / demisexual genderfluid enby / TME / ISFP so/sp 6w5

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About Me + DNI:

I would like to announce that I have to leave the Tumblr leftist scene. Not anarchism, just traditional leftism as Tumblr is doing it right now.

The way people have not yet unlearned carceral methods of relating to each other is taking a serious toll on my mental health, and with that, my physical health, that I cannot bear. It honestly might kill me.

I recognize, as someone with mostly moral OCD, that I need to learn scale in terms of wrongdoing. Buying some silly Sonic popsicle once, as bad as it might be, isn't as bad as, say, going to a pro-colonialism rally, and even that isn't as bad as being a part of the bourgeoisie.

I will focus on building offline community and touching grass for once. This account is going to be focused primarily, if not entirely, on art. If you want politics, go to my friends, @toonnytotal and @tumbleblunder.

Thank you all for your time.

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• I am autistic and have been diagnosed as such since about late elementary school.

• I am currently a practicing Hellenic Polytheist.

• You are not allowed to use my art in NFTs or AI generation at all. No exceptions.

• This blog is a SFW (not sexual and not kink or fetish) art blog, though I may occassionally post gore art onto here, which may be distressing to some viewers.

• I now have a Discord server that you can join here: https://discord.gg/qBETQDgn

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• To my mutuals: if you want to put reblog bait on your blog when you know I am following you here on Tumblr, please tag it as reblog bait so as to not trigger my OCD.

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• How I primarily tag distressing/triggering content:

#tw [distressing content]

• My Current Favorite Media:

Crashbox

Sonic the Hedgehog

• My Current Favorite Music Artists/Bands:

Lemon Demon

Gorillaz

Nine Inch Nails

Nirvana

• My Current Blog Tags:

#shutterlens = my current posts

#shutterlens vent = my current vents

#shutterlens art = my new art (on or after May 2, 2024)

#shutterlens asks = asks on my blog • My Old Blog Tags: #8bityinyangart = my old art

#8bityinyang vent = my old vents

#8bityinyang = my old posts - The following Do Not Interact list is completely non-negotiable. This is something that I fully stand by and do not want to hear any argument about. Anyone who violates this DNI list will be promptly blocked.

Do Not Interact: • Supporters of the ongoing genocide on Palestine (zionist/pro-genocide/etc.)

• Any and all accounts who are and/or support the following:

• AI generation users who wrongfully claim to be "artists" or "writers"

• Predators, e.g.- pedophiles/child predators/(NO)MAP, zoophiles, incest, etc.

• Proshippers (those who make predatory (e.g.- child-adult sexual/romantic relationships, incestuous, abusive, etc.) ships within fictional media. The glamorization of these predatory fictional ships normalizes and encourages real-life predatory behavior and is therefore not accepted by me under any circumstance.)

• Bigots, e.g.- queerphobes (e.g.- homophobes, anti-mspec bigotry, aphobes (including aspec-exclusionists), transphobes (including transmeds, TERFS, and more), anti-nonbinary bigotry, etc.), racists, antisemites, fatphobes, islamophobes, ableists, misogynists, etc.

• Accounts that post primarily sexually explicit, overly gory, or kink and/or fetish-related content (I have designated my main account here to be SFW (not sexual), so, even though I'm mostly pro-kink as long as it doesn't harm anyone, I do not feel comfortable with being associated with NSFW (sexual)/gore content.)

• Anyone who is either at or under the age of 13 (This blog may contain content that those who are 13 and under would find distressing.)

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The mole on my thigh was just a wart. I had it checked out and removed.

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I would like to come out to you all as an addict.

I am an addict to caffeine, to sexual media, to social media, and I've had a gambling scare this week. I've had to block Zone Casino on MSN yesterday because I don't want to waste real money on gambling away fake money, and that gambling could easily turn into real-life gambling.

Drinking and weed are not problems for me at the moment, but they very well could become problems for me, considering my genetic proneness to substance dependency.

It has taken a lot of bravery for me to admit that to myself.

I don't think I've ever fully waken up unless I've had at least 400mg of caffeine via energy drinks. I usually fully wake up at 3pm and stay up until 1am thanks to how badly caffeine has messed up my sleep cycle (on top of the trauma). I've never counted coffee as a source of my caffeine, despite the fact that a standard shot of espresso contains the same amount of caffeine as a Red Bull (80mg of caffeine). I usually don't feel anything from energy drinks until the caffeine content is at least 200mg. I get the 2-for-$5 deal on Alanis at the CVS near me several times a week, and I usually drink both cans on the same day. When I don't, I'm practically a zombie the whole day. The caffeine problem's gotten that bad. I think it got worse once I started working towards my bachelor's degree. It was about time I started being honest to myself about being an addict.

Almost everyone hates addicts. Most people look down on us because we addicts are addicts. They say we have "no self-control". They say we "chose to ruin our lives". They blame us for our addictions and ignore the circumstances that led to our addictions.

I am an addict because the trauma I faced throughout my life has pushed me to addiction. I acknowledge that I can only begin to recover from my addictions if I work through the traumas I faced in my life.

Thank you to all the selfless souls who push for harm reduction. Thank you to everyone who treats us addicts like human beings. Thank you to the people who include those with Substance Use Disorder and behavioral addictions in the Mad Liberation movement. Thank you to my mutuals, thank you to my followers, and thank you to my friends for sticking around, when I was at my worst and when I was at my best.

Thank you.

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Here's my human version of the city of Philadelphia. Their name is Philly-tan.

They can climb just about anything as long as it's vaguely pole-shaped (a tree, a street sign, a street lamp, etc. ad nauseam)

They insist on calling every long bread roll a "hoagie", which gets on New York-kun's nerves, because he calls it a "hero", and the two often butt heads because of that

Despite their bread-based rivalry with New York-kun, they have provided a sanctuary space for him and Salty-chan when the government started hunting both of them down (New York-kun for becoming a democratic socialist and Salty-chan for being a potentially dangerous distraction from Seattle-tan's government job).

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*chef's kiss*

(The image this drawing was based on was created by ThreeYrsLost.)

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I'm making a new series called Cities Humanized.

Every couple of decades, the role of being the human embodiment of a US city is either passed down among family or, in rare cases, stolen by a member of a more powerful organization.

Here are the characters, in order of how they are presented:

Seattle-tan: They were selected to represent Seattle in 2010 and tortured by the US government, which is still headed by DC-tan, for six years in order to train them to become a District of Columbia Military Assassin, or DCMA for short. The training/torture was so successful that it eradicated any of Seattle-tan's original personality and left a government-constructed shell in its place. That's why Seattle-tan feels so emotionally castrated in conversations, because their civilian personality is a government facade meant to hide the fact that they're a living weapon. Seattle-tan was trained to try to kill Vegas-kun because Vegas-kun is a part of the Sicilian mafia. They were temporarily retired from their position as a living weapon in 2016, when Trump first came into office, but DC-tan is considering putting them back into commission to get rid of New York-kun in case he gets too radical for the government's liking.

Salty-Chan: Raised Mormon, she was sent to conversion therapy by her parents when she confessed to them that she developed feelings for Seattle-tan, which she was deeply ashamed of. Salty-chan ended up with Dallas-kun, an unlicensed Christian conversion therapist who is ten years older than she is and ten times less mentally stable. When Dallas-kun found out that Salty-chan still had feelings for Seattle-tan after the time he spent with her in their abusive romantic relationship, he was so enraged that he shot her between the eyes. Salty-chan miraculously survived, but only because Seattle-tan and SoCal-tan sent Salty-chan to the hospital in time. That near-death experience led Salty-chan to ultimately leave the Mormon church, because she realized that her church groomed her to be a punching bag for this exact kind of abusive man. After leaving the Mormon church and deconstructing her internalized anti-queerness, Salty-chan got together with Seattle-tan.

SoCal-tan: She was brought into the position of human embodiment of the city of Los Angeles at 10 years old, after the murder of Angelo-kun, the previous human embodiment of LA and her older brother by 23 years, was murdered by Vegas-kun on July 2, 2000. Vegas-kun was driving while inebriated and, for unknown reasons (since no one knows whether or not the murder was deliberate), decided to hit Angelo-kun that fateful day. SoCal-tan directly witnessed the massacre of her older brother, and she has never forgiven Vegas-kun for killing Angelo-kun. SoCal-tan is Mexican-American.

DC-tan: She is the governing head of the human cities, and also responsible for the experimental government procedures like the widely-hated "living weapon" training done on the DCMAs, the vast majority of whom are children as young as 10 years old.

Boston-chan: She has a bit of a "rivals-to-lovers" situation with New York-kun, which greatly upsets Vegas-kun, because he also has a crush on New York-kun. Boston-chan, Vegas-kun, and NOLA-tan are all fighting for New York-kun's affection. Boston-chan is Irish-American.

Cambridge-tan: They are government intelligentsia, and also DC-tan's second-in-command. They are responsible for writing down the results of and the research done regarding all the government experiments done in DC, including the widely-hated DCMA youth experiments.

Vegas-kun: He was born into his role in the Sicilian mafia, and started seriously working with the mafia at 8 years old. His father, Vegas Sr., passed on the role of the human embodiment of Las Vegas, to him in 1980, when Vegas-kun was 10 years old. Vegas-kun faced physical abuse (including getting waterboarded and beaten), mental abuse, verbal abuse, and graphic sexual abuse on the regular. Vegas-kun wrongly remembers the abuse to be daily, but only because the trauma has severely distorted his memory. The regular abuse has caused Vegas-kun to develop a violent and erratic personality, causing him to start drinking at 10 years old and develop full-on alcoholism at 12 years old, which was about the same time that he developed the white stripe in his hair. Vegas-kun's dad is Sicilian and his mother is Puerto Rican.

Atlantic City-chan: She was also physically, mentally, and verbally abused throughout her life as a member of a rival faction of the Sicilian mafia to the one Vegas-kun is in, but she never faced any sexual abuse. She developed her white money-piece in a particularly nasty shootout with Vegas-kun. Atlantic City-chan is Sicilian-American.

New York-kun: He was put into the position of being the human embodiment of New York City on September 12, 2001, right after the old embodiment of New York was killed during the 9/11 attacks. He has progressively become more radical in his beliefs the longer he has represented New York City, so he runs the risk of becoming the next target of a government assassination by the US government.

NOLA-tan: She is said to have supernatural magical powers that not even DC-tan and Cambridge-tan can fully understand. New York-kun is the object of her desire, but she is in fierce competition with both Vegas-kun and Boston-chan. NOLA-tan is Louisiana Creole.

Dallas-kun: He was raised evangelical by parents who believed in the motto "spare the rod, spoil the child" so much that he was constantly beaten within an inch of his life and also constantly put through far more bizarre punishments, which caused him to become volatile, violent, and severely emotionally unstable in a way that only a trained specialist can even begin to undo. No one knows how he was considered mentally stable enough to own a gun under laws of any kind.

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These characters are the Zodiac Avatars.

They're meant to make astrology at least as popular as the MBTI.

Feel free to let me know which of these characters is your favorite, and which one could use the most improvement.

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Governor Monet stimboard.

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A mutual of mine decided to draw some Strange Hill High art, so I decided to also draw some Strange Hill High art and make an OC.

My Strange Hill High OC's name is Madame Červena. She's Slovak-American and she's from New York City. She's the art teacher of Strange Hill High. She's 5'3".

I headcanon Mr. Garden to be 5'6" and Mr. Creeper to be super tall. In my head, Mr. Garden, being 5'6", is at Mr. Creeper's shoulders.

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Surreal-Kun stimboard.

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Mr. K stimboard.

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Verse 1:

Law and order, Judge, executioner, and jury~

Prosecution, executions done, in fury~

Life defined and life refined for the process

of entertainment, education, and justice, injustice

Pre-Chorus:

Well, that's why I'm here, to lease the victims of fear, determine if defendants are really guilty!

'Cause I am judgement, 'cause I am justice, morality, and casualty of worlds designed to

Chorus:

Kill, that's such a thrill! the loss of life, the secret hedonistic pleasures of the body, 'cause there's somebody in me!

Verse 2:

Love or hatred, or indifference, it just doesn't matter

Work to please the systems of injustice, work to flatter

Life defined and life refined for the process

of entertainment, education, and justice, injustice

Pre-Chorus:

Well, that's why I'm here, to lease the victims of fear, determine if defendants are really guilty!

'Cause I am judgement, 'cause I am justice, morality, and casualty of worlds designed to

Chorus:

Kill, that's such a thrill! the loss of life, the secret hedonistic pleasures of the body, 'cause there's somebody in me!

Bridge:

I don't know why I'm like this, I really do not like this, This process of injustice, I need to see more justice!

I don't know why I'm like this, I really do not like this, This process of injustice, I need to be more justice!

Chorus

No, it's such a thrill! the loss of life, the secret hedonistic pleasures of the body, 'cause there's somebody in

Me! it's such a thrill! the loss of life, the secret hedonistic pleasures of the body, 'cause there's somebody in me!

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Poppy is a sentient windmill and Candy Dragon's assistant.

Mr. K is the personification of The Dreamer's inner critic.

Mr. K's secret name is Envy because his criticism is only that, envy of those with a good soul.

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what does prev give off?

prophet in the desert

tyrant king

shady merchant

wandering bard

forgotten god

healer in the woods

rebel group leader

average peasant

Voting ended onMay 6

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Sparked Judge Judgement stimboard.

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Clydemnestra stimboard.

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Clydemnestra's secret name is Martha. She was assigned to relive The Dreamer's sexual trauma. She is called Victim Mentality by Candy Dragon.

Gemini is a figure who presents himself as good, but later reveals his true colors as a fallen angel who gave himself his secret name after his leader, Lucifer. Castor and Pollux are decoy names meant to redirect magical energy sent to banish him.

Candy Dragon's secret name is Asmodeus, because that is who he aspires to be. He, as an incubus, is in competition with Gemini, the fallen angel, over who gets to eat The Dreamer's soul, absorb their power, and possess their body.

Martha gets the decoy name Clydemnestra from The Dreamer by the end of the series.