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" PAIN, hate, ENVY... those are the A B C S of me take them away and there's NOTHING LEFT."

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“  WELL personally i think my opinion should matter to everyone --- but  let’s just say i’m a smart guy who knows a thing or two about doing stupid things.”

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WEDNESDAY

without pugsley… without lurch  &  uncle fester around to torture, wednesday was suffering from an almost  DEADLY  case of boredom. which   (  obviously meant  )   she required new victims friends. a rope tied  NICELY  into a noose was held out, nothing but her trademarked blank stare on her face.   ‘ i’m bored. ’   a slight pause as she watched the other.   ‘ want to play hangman? ’

“  HANGMAN? ”  the boys eyes lingered on the rope,  a hand instinctively lifting up to rub the back of his neck.  such nice memories all flooding back to him.  thanks wednesday.  he shook his head,  not sure whether to be traumatized by the gesture or amused.  the smile on his face said it was the latter,  “ i would but  i’m sort of an expert,  it really wouldn’t be fair.”

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PIPER

          ‘ how is it that there is no way to get out of here. its a town not a bubble. ‘

“  you say that like it’s a bad thing ---  this place seems pretty neat to me. are you telling me that WHEREVER  you’re from is better?  because i don’t buy that for a second.”

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AUDREY.

          ❛ ARE YOU SURE she won’t be glad to get you out of her hair? ❜ ouch. easy, audrey. a little ‘ no ’ motion was done with one of her hands. ❛ NO. i know doom and gloom and this isn’t it; this isn’t anywhere near it. i just like being dramatic. ❜  she shook her head. ❛ no. NOT YET. like i said, he just wants to put a wall up. but i have a theory that he’s going to start some purge shit. ❜

“  NOT entirely. ”  at least he was honest.  most people would be glad to get him out of their hair,  there was not point lying about it.  “ i hadn’t guessed --- what’s your definition of doom and gloom then,  breaking a nail? ”  his words were accompanied with an eye roll as he gestured to his own fingernails ( or what was left of them )   “  well if he does,  let me know.  sounds like it could be fun.”

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CHLOE.

          ❛ UH, YEAH. i’d be kind of concerned if it weren’t a conversation killer. ❜ a   l o n g   pause. brows furrowed and the slightest frown decorated her lips. ❛ i’m not talkin’ about reincarnation. i’m talkin’ about resurrection. with reincarnation, you die, and then you come back as someone else. with resurrection, you die, and then you come back as you. ❜ because she’s sure he totally needed to be educated on the difference between the two. she shrugged her shoulders. ❛ i could believe in it; i could not. but, unfortunately for both of us, you just told me to please tell you i don’t —— i’m going to tell you that i don’t. ❜

he couldn’t resist rolling his eyes   “  SAME DIFFERENCE -- the way i look at it they’re both bullshit concepts created by wack-jobs anyway.”   wack-jobs like the grounders or jaha.  in reality,  it was just easier for murphy to not believe in it.  the thought that connor or myles could just suddenly pop up out of nowhere wasn’t something he even wanted to consider.  dead people stayed dead.  simple.  “ hilarious.  COME ON,  be honest  ---you’re one of those crazies aren’t you?  should’ve seen it coming really.  you have got a little weird vibe going on.”  

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RAVEN.

a sigh, one filled with frustration at his words. she’s not entirely sure what she ever expected from him considering she  KNOWS  how he is with sarcasm.   ‘ fucking amazing. ’   she could just walk away  &  leave the argument where it was, but if  SHE  wasn’t going to the bigger person, then neither of them would be.   ‘ please  –  just  TELL  me what you want kept, john. ’

she was one to talk.  when it came to sarcasm they really were as bad as each other --- although CLEARLY raven was better at separating sarcasm from seriousness.   “ john? ”  he raised an eyebrow at her.  it was just weird hearing his first name coming out of her mouth.  “ you know what,  now i think about it,  this is just fine.”  he gestured to the room around them,  “ who needs stuff when you got love .”  wait...what?  that was totally sarcasm,  wasn’t it?

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WEDNESDAY.

‘ boring. either way, death is death. can’t really complain about  HOW  you die. ’   unless it’s at the hand of your little brother, then she would have a problem.   ‘ murder. whether intentionally or not. animals, humans, bugs  –  no one is exempt from being a murderer. cool, huh? ’   deep.

“ you underestimate my ability to complain about just about  EVERYTHING.”  although she had a point,  how you died really wasn’t important in the grand scheme of things.  didn’t mean he wanted to die painfully though.  “ oh yeah,  the coolest --- wait,  how exactly do you murder someone unintentionally?” 

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RAVEN

teeth clenched, she closed her eyes for a moment, a deep breath in an  ATTEMPT  to keep her cool. she slowly opened her eyes, glaring over at him.   ‘ the principle is  TALK  to me. stop sitting back  &  being a fucking grump  &  be a fully functioning other half of this relationship. a goddamn toddler would understand the concept. ’

THAT LOOK.  god it was like she was trying to turn him to stone.  he hadn’t said anything that bad, had he?  he clenched his teeth,  grimacing.  “ well i’m not a toddler so -- ”   because sarcasm always was the right move to make when your girlfriend was glaring through your soul.  “ but if you want me to talk to you,  i will.  all you have to do is ask babe. ”  raven liked pet names,  right?

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JOSEPH

“denial? me? not likely. but hey, if you feel as though you’re repressing your feelings for me, i say: go for it. don’t hold back.” a hand on the other boy’s shoulder, sincere & concerned, before ruining it with a grin. “well, i LIVE to serve, y’know. and you really are the LAST person who should be judgin’ right now. takes all sorts, and whatever.”

" yeah,  sorry to disappoint you BUT  i've got a girlfriend.  devastating,  i know  ---  and i've already given her enough reasons to want me dead as it is so..."   he gently moved the boys hand from his shoulder, making it clear that physical contact was a no go zone.  at least he wasn't threatening to end people for it anymore.  " don't worry i've got nothing against freaks."  as a matter of fact,  he despised the word.  " i assure you though,  under the suit i'm a perfectly NORMAL guy."

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MIKE

        “ phew!! that’s a relief, man. ” another thirty years until WHAT?? oh, no. he can’t believe it took him so long to realize his rotten luck, but here he is, clearly talking to one of those lonely socially outcasted conspiracy theorists –––– the moon landing was faked kind who still lives with his mom & goes on bigfoot-hunting missions through local parks, probably. “ i know, right?? personally, though, i’m a firm believer that the world ISN’T gonna end anytime soon. call me an optimist. ”

"an OPTIMIST?  --- guess that's one word for it."  not that murphy would know anything about being an optimist.  the word alone made him scoff.  naive  would probably be a better way to describe the male in his mind.  the world was shitty no matter what version of it you were in.  it was just waiting to screw everyone over in some way.  and that wasn't really a conspiracy theory,  just a conclusion he'd made during his pleasant time on the ground. " i'm not gonna try and convince you otherwise though dude.  you probably already think i'm BATSHIT  crazy as it is .  i don't need to add anymore fuel to the fire."

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RAVEN

‘ that’s the  POINT.  god. tell me what you want kept  &  we’ll work around it. i can’t sort everything out myself when you’re complaining about everything i do with so little input. ’

“ well i don’t REALLY  have anything --- but that wasn’t the point.  it’s the principal okay? ”   because he obviously knew so much about principals. he shrugged as he took a step closer to her,  “besides,  i’m not complaining about EVERYTHING you do --  just the stuff that bugs me.”   

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AUDREY

          ❛ IF YOUR ORGANS start shutting down in — ❜ she pulls her phone from her back pocket and checks the time for extra, dramatic effect. ❛ — four or five hours then you know why. ❜ she makes sure to lace her tone with sarcasm. ❛ it was sunshine & smiles before the country made him president. now it’s just doom and gloom. ❜

he matches her sarcastic tone with one of his own,  “  i’ll make sure to let my girlfriend know so she can seek her revenge.”  or  send her a thank you card.  it would really depend on the day.   “ you think this is DOOM & GLOOM ?”  his little scoff that accompanied the words sounded insensitive  but he really couldn’t help it,  “ that’s funny -- this guy must be pretty  bad.  what’d he do,  sacrifice children or something? ”  been there, done that.

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CHLOE

          TWO DEAD. another almost dead. and one paralyzed. now she felt pathetic for feeling awful about her measly two killings. she wonders if he feels the least bit guilty about what he’s done —— if she were to guess she would say NO. he seems so calm & collected and he doesn’t even mind telling her. he doesn’t even hesitate telling her. ❛ this category, yeah. ❜ she pauses for a mere second to think about if she should continue on. and she decides to because chloe price refuses to lose anything. especially to a male. ❛ but how many times have you died and come back to life? ❜ and, you know, she just wants to freak him out too.

it wasn’t that he was GUILT free.  he had to wake up and face what he’d done every single day.  it was just something he’d accepted.  there was no changing what he’d done in the past -- no point crying about it or hating himself.  people did that for him anyway.   “ it’s a real conversation killer RIGHT? ”  the hesitation in her voice,  the lack of a comment.   not that he could blame her,  he’d just casually confessed to murder.  hmm, what would she think if he told her he was currently dating the girl he’d paralyzed? probably best not to find out.  “ as far as i’m aware,  none.  i’m not really one for believing in that reincarnation crap”  he looked at her,  an expression of curiosity meets confusion on his face, “ PLEASE don’t tell me you are.  ”

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RAVEN

‘ i mean  –  your couch is  COVERED  in stains that i’m not sure i want to know where they came from. we’re not throwing out your tv… what else do you want kept? it’s called   c o m p r o m i z e,   murphy. work with me here. ’

“  it’s compromise.  REALLY.  that’s what you’re going with?  nice try --  tell me,  what exactly would you be compromising again?  pretty sure you’re getting everything you want.  me included,  obviously.”

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EMILY

      ‘ that’s disappointing.  jesus, i figured we’d go to space to STOP being a bunch of bear grylls wannabe assholes.  guess i’ll have to settle for somehow becoming a mermaid instead. ’    but weren’t THEY surrounded by urine?  why was every option to escape the shitty world, drenched in pissy options?    ‘ we’re probably going to be dead by the time it happens.  or knowing the losers, they’re goddamn bunkers will be infested with roaches, birds, or snakes.  oooor, worst scenario, they don’t actually work because they dunno how to build for shit. ’    ah, pessimism  &  skepticism at their best.  her head shook at his repetition of her words, one brow slightly raised.    ‘ not THIS face; but like… if radiation was here  &  going all nuclear on you.  then it’d be melty  &  T H E N  loads of people would just — ’    she dragged her index finger across her throat, shrugging her shoulders with a smile on her face,    ‘ i’m not a big enough bitch to insult your current face.  don’t worry. ’

was that really what people thought about space?  maybe he should break the news to her that it was even worse.  best not completely diminish her hope though.  “  a mermaid?  you’ve got some STRANGE life goals.”   at least she had some,  unlike some.   no, that wasn’t true.  murphy had goals. surviving,  not killing anyone else,  being less of a dick.  he was a work in progress.  “  ye have little faith.  i mean those losers have to be good for something right?  maybe bunker building is their secret calling.”  he wasn’t sure why he hadn’t just told her that there was an actual bunker built by some of those LOSERS that worked.  apparently he didn’t want to sound as crazy as he looked  “ still...melty? could've found a better way to describe it.  rotting, scorched,  flesh-boiling ”    graphic.  not that the radiation exposure could be described as anything but graphic.  he’d seen what it had done to fake baylis after all.  rest in peace.  “  WOW,  thanks  --- and i’m not a big enough dick to insult yours.  we must be good people.”

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WEDNESDAY

‘ death is but an aspect of life. we all experience it. there’s no point in  FEARING  it. ’   a pause.  ‘ the gorier the better. may as well go out with a  BANG. ’   literally, not figuratively. a bomb would be ideal.   ‘ you don’t need to be ashamed. we all do it. ’   does  EVERYONE,  wednesday?

“  well that’s depressing --- TRUE  but  depressing.”  way to dampen the already dull mood wednesday.  “ i’ve seen enough gore to last a life time so  i think  i’d prefer to die peacefully.  without all the theatrics.”   his eyes focused on the girl,  growing increasingly concerned about his new friends sanity.  “ thanks.  I THINK.  what exactly do you mean by we all do it? ”