𝐿𝑢𝑙𝑙𝑎𝑏𝑦 𝑅𝑜𝑠𝑒 ♡

♡ 𝑘𝑖𝑡𝑡𝑒𝑛 𝑚𝑎𝑖𝑑𝑒𝑛 𝑠𝑖𝑝𝑝𝑖𝑛’ 𝑚𝑖𝑙𝑘 ♡

[shymilkmaid]

𝒮𝑜 𝓅𝓊𝓇𝑒 𝒶𝓃𝒹 𝑜𝒹𝒹.. 𝒾𝓉’𝓈 𝓁𝒾𝓀𝑒 𝓈𝒽𝑒 𝓁𝒾𝓋𝑒𝓈 𝒾𝓃 𝒽𝑒𝓇 𝑜𝓌𝓃 𝓁𝒾𝓉𝓉𝓁𝑒 𝒷𝓊𝒷𝒷𝓁𝑒, 𝒸𝑜𝓂𝓅𝓁𝑒𝓉𝑒𝓁𝓎 𝑜𝒷𝓁𝒾𝓋𝒾𝑜𝓊𝓈 𝓉𝑜 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝓇𝑒𝒶𝓁𝒾𝓉𝓎 𝓈𝓊𝓇𝓇𝑜𝓊𝓃𝒹𝒾𝓃𝑔 𝒽𝑒𝓇. 𝒮𝒽𝑒 𝓁𝑜𝓋𝑒𝓈 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝓃𝒾𝑔𝒽𝓉 𝓈𝑜 𝓈𝒽𝑒 𝒸𝒶𝓃 𝓁𝒾𝓋𝑒 𝒾𝓃 𝒽𝑒𝓇 𝒹𝓇𝑒𝒶𝓂𝓈.. 𝓈𝒽𝑒 𝓁𝑜𝓋𝑒𝓈 𝓌𝒽𝒶𝓉 𝓈𝒽𝑒 𝒶𝓁𝓌𝒶𝓎𝓈 𝓁𝑜𝓋𝑒𝒹 𝓈𝒾𝓃𝒸𝑒 𝓈𝒽𝑒 𝓌𝒶𝓈 𝒶 𝓁𝒾𝓉𝓉𝓁𝑒 𝑔𝒾𝓇𝓁. 𝐿𝒾𝓉𝓉𝓁𝑒 𝒯𝒽𝓊𝓂𝒷𝑒𝓁𝒾𝓃𝒶 , 𝒸𝓊𝓇𝒾𝑜𝓊𝓈 𝓃 𝓈𝓌𝑒𝑒𝓉 ♡

[shymilkmaid]

[shymilkmaid]

[shymilkmaid]

shy milk maid from the 700club, she prays at the village church, waiting for her hunter lover ♡

[vanillamilkshakeslut]

[pinkcottoncandyx]

[shymilkmaid]

i panicked so hard n i haven’t cried that way - by screaming & hyperventilating - for so long until today. just like when i was little n i couldn’t breath properly. today is the last day of school, as always i felt left out, one of my supposed to be friend felt bad n i let the others comfort her because i just realize how i was used by her. i played the role of the psychologist for her & gave it all for her to ignore me when she was okay. i guess i’m only good at comforting people but i’m not some kind of pillow to cry on. maybe my hug appeared detached but how can i act otherwise? i just want to understand why all of this is happening. why people only wanted one thing from me before ignoring me when i was at elementary school? n why is it happening now that i am eighteen? i feel cursed. the only consolation is that my childhood friend will come back this summer & live here where i am. n i have my parents with me, i’ll go to my hometown alone to see my family.. nothing’s really bad. i am just confused. since i was little i preferred to be alone, but still, i would like to have someone close to me, but i also know friendships never last ( most of them ). and that’s life, i should go on.

when i was leaving school there were some girls who kept pushing me to reach the exit faster, i stared back at them n this girl told me to fuck off even tho i haven’t done or said anything. and i know i’m just sensitive, but i just don’t get why people are so rude for no reason. and on top of all of that, in the little city i live there’s some creep walking around with scissors & attacking people. i’m scared to leave the house but i desperately need some fresh air, the birds’ singing & the sight of the flower n rabbits to calm down.

[shymilkmaid]

hush, little angel, won’t you try? the devil hears you when you cry. so you can’t and you won’t. give up the ghost now, leave it alone. you know you don’t need those lessons someone else learned. it’s your life it’s your right to burn, so you count and discount all the cracks in the pavement as you move about. you say that you’ll take the push for the sake of the pull. when you’re deaf dumb and blind your eyes don’t feel the wool. and every time it’s hush, little angel, won’t you try? the devil hears you when you cry. think pleasant dreams and truer lies. oh it’s not like those talks of glass and devotion they like to sell. oh, you just want to be wanted, it’s making you sick. but it’s alright, oh yeah, it’s only a prick. and that’s how you know that it’s bad. that’s the problem with pain. it’s just something to have. oh, baby, you are running the clock cause you can’t make it stop. so just sit still and hope the hammer won’t drop. and every time it’s hush, little angel, won't you try? the devil hears you when your cry. hush, little angel, close your eyes. think pleasant dreams and bluer skies. angel, don’t you cry.

Angel, 8mm ♡

[herpale]

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[rosey-ballerina-deactivated2017]

[shymilkmaid]

[shymilkmaid]

dreaming of working as a milk maid, living in a farm in a little religious village, writing poetry at night under the candle light after the night prayer ♡ 🐑

[shymilkmaid]

I was looking up. The depth of the dark sky comforted me, however, the depth of life itself terrified me. Is it the opposite for some? I'm convinced. But the moonlight led me to a state of serenity, where dreams would always come true if I had contemplated them intensely before sleeping. You just had to close your eyes. Existence, the obligations you have as part of a society, on the other hand, led you to uncertainty. To uncertainty in the face of what one wanted and an obligation to oneself to survive. That survival became your daily life, until you completely lost your essence.

[shymilkmaid]

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[shymilkmaid]

[shymilkmaid]

[shymilkmaid]

going to the beach, reading a little life, listening to old songs, wearing a white mini skirt & a pink baby doll shirt 🌸 feeling like a flower, a little rose