Being kidnapped isn't all bad, you think. Sometimes. In your head, privately, when you catch yourself in a quiet moment. Yes, all things considered, sometimes being forced into a life of supposedly blissful domestic life has its... unexpected perks.
And it's tempting to indulge in the newfound loss of responsibility, isn't it? There's no bills to pay, no meetings and appointments and responsibilities to juggle, no alarms going off on your phone to do this and that. No more checking your bank account and wondering how you're going to make it work every month.
No more coming home dog-tired, shoveling leftovers or frozen meals into your mouth, trying to etch out a few precious moments of personal time before you go to sleep and get up and do it all over again.
You even have time to read. To write. To paint. To embroider. To do whatever little approved hobbies they give you.
Approved being key here--you don't dare hope they'll let you on the internet. Too risky. But an old computer is okay, and maybe, in the past few weeks, you've finally made progress on the book you've always wanted to write and it's... nice.
It's nice, to finally get to do what you want, to not feel burdened by money and bills and the endless expenses.
It's nice to have someone who lets you indulge in your hobbies all day and night, if you're not being too ornery with them. Lets you write for hours, massages your sore wrists afterward; lets you paint canvases and only tuts if you accidentally get some on the carpet.
It's nice, if you can ignore that there are locks on the doors, that the skin around your ankle still feels rubbed raw from the chain that used to be there, that sometimes you find yourself held in the lap of someone you won't let you leave--their lap or their house or their life.
It's nice, if you can ignore how tightly they hold you, how they worm their way into every nook and cranny of your mind and body and soul, how they tell you they won't ever ever ever let you go.
It's nice--isn't it?
I'm so broke all I want is actually financial stability and someone to like me 💀💀💀💀
