I know I was told not to reply to anyone but I want to air things out so I can pop back onto my normal stuff.
1 - I am not Antiblack/racist. I don’t know where people are getting this but I am deeply against this. I have absolutely no hate for dark skintones or for another race, I don’t purposely whitewash to any sort of extent, this isn’t my goal and never was. Everything has been by pure accident.
2- I am not white. People are automatically assuming I am white. This pains me deeply, I spent years trying to love my own dark skin color and accepting myself after years of racism and it hurts to see people suggest i am white. I couldn’t even pass as white if I tried my skin is too dark for that.
3 - I am not a TERF. This literally came out of nowhere. If you look at my blog I specifically even mention that TERFS aren’t allowed on my blog. I support my fellow trans brothers, sisters, and nonbinary.Â
4 - I am a learning artist. Everything I do is a mistake and I wont ever be “good” until I am in my late 20s. All I wish is that people point it out for me so I can learn. That is what a student does, learn. If something in my art bothers you, tell me! I am more then enthusiastic about getting constructive criticism and if something doesn’t sit with you, I have my dms open. I have tried my best to message every single person in my replies and the other thread asking how to improve and apologizing.Â
I am aware i make noses small, and they are never on purpose. It is a common flaw throughout my entire portfolio for every oc i draw and I rarely catch myself with it. I am horrible with correct nose structures. Nothing was meant to be European based/ white based. I thought i was observing correctly but unfortunately i was not. This does not mean i should “not post your art if you’re not good”. I like to share my art and it is for the enjoyment between my friends and anyone who would like to see. If I didn’t learn a certain feature and i draw it flawed I do prefer to have people point it out so I am able to learn from it. I can’t stay in a little shell and spend hours on end just learning thousands of different features. I just need time and constructive criticism.Â
This was my first time drawing someone from IRL. I don’t do this often. I thought it looked similar but my eyes aren’t trained well enough to acknowledge the difference the first time around.
 I was so taken by how Nas absolutely owned his Coming out that I felt touched. He took control of the Outing and shaped it to himself, there was no “Nas was secretly gay!” articles no he turned it to his own sense of humor, his “i thought i was obvious” with the art cover, the jokes he posts on his twitter. The news covered it great with “Nas comes out as gay on twitter” and all are absolutely cheering him on. I was blown away by it. This was an innocent post with my absolute admiration and love for Nas and in a hope something good he would see and enjoy. (I have listened to his songs before he came out apparently information that people need to know. )
5 - Doxxing & Outing . I beg of you. Literally nothing will come good of this and it is illegal. Don’t attempt to dox my info I will take action. Don’t Attempt to contact people I am not out to and out me to them. This literally solves nothing and causes police problems.Â
6 - Coin. I am not profiting off this. If this is found on redhubble / esty please tell me immediately so I can report it. This was artwork only made to in appreciation of Nas, not for profit.Â
7- I understand. I understand why people are so peeved and angry by it. Features, esp for minorities are deeply important and special. I understand and feel the years of micro aggression from white people with black face, racist drawings, I understand, and hence for how people are reacting to all of this. I’m not mad.
I’m not mad. There is no sarcasm no passive aggression, I legit am not mad by any of this. I deal with Mirco-aggression from others regarding my skintone happens on the daily when I meet new people, I know the pain and when I attempt my first ever hand at drawing someone we all admire, it hurt to know I touched upon that pain.Â
I take with my deepest gratitude to the people who were willing to let me talk to them in the DMSÂ to help fix the piece and apologize for rubbing them the wrong way. I have been given better wonderful resources to help study from.Â
I do have to admit the first two attempt fixes are horrible and I’m laughing my ass off looking at it. I can see my own immature attempts in it all and the critiques people have told me have helped me improve.Â
Yes I am aware of another thread that reposted my work and I have absolutely no ill will. My post was not made to be susceptible to white people, it was not tagged to downplay anything and are assumptions that are very dangerous to say. I do rather wish the poster had came into my dms and told me my art was shit and I’d be much more grateful to help fix the situation. To put something on blast really didn’t help anything other than petty harassment.Â
I ask anyone in this situation to be courteous one another. Don’t attack each other for it. Don’t send angry anons for it. This is literally one day of your life, to cause anger between each other is unwelcome and a waste of your time.Â
I will be disappearing from this blog for a little while for things to tone down before I come back with new content, but my dms are always open and as well is my ask box. Despite what people are begging me not to do and i reassure you I’m not deleting my blog or deleting my content. I am not saddened or hurt by this, honestly I learned from good feedback and def gonna sleep alright and isn’t going to plague me. I’m a chipper fellow and my friends can support that I do Bounce back.Â
other notes:
Lol this blog wasn’t even suppose to have attention I made it for my college classmates. Yes also, my webcomic is going to continue its updates but Thursday post is pushed back for saturday, and thank you very much for the 15k on it when all of this was happening. I’m also posting this at 2 am so I will come a week or so to fix anything.Â
my Dms. And Asks. Are. Open. Slide into there if you want to comment anything and I’ll gladly reply.
