Love + Pain = Reality

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Seriously, I really can't get over this. Ang sakit talaga sa puso! The fact that he still love Kara but he also loves his wife, sucks. Like, what on the earth will he do? Gaaash! Nakakalungkot talaga. Grabe feels nitong episode na to. I really hope they'll still be together in the end. I mean, Kara and Mon-El. How it will happen? Well, let's just leave it for now. I'm just gonna nurse my broken heart just for now. Ugh! Please be a happy ending! 😭

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Me time? 🤔

Since 1 month na lang at birthday ko na, I've been thinking of traveling alone. Marami nga lang akong factors na kin-consider.

Kahit #Adulting na, hindi pa din ako sure kung papayagan akong mag-isa.

May part na gusto kong isama yung family ko pero parang may nangingibabaw na gusto kong mag-isa lang ako.

Nakakaexcite magexplore pero nakakatakot din at the same time kasi nga, first time.

Undecided pa din ako kung saan ko gustong pumunta. Pero mostly sa norte ko gusto pumunta.

Puro kasi ako drawing lately kaya hindi din ako sure sa sarili ko kung gagawin ko ba talaga.

Hindi ko alam kung anong trip ko sa buhay pero kasi.. Is it the best time to get lost in time and just be swept by the wind? Ugh! Nat-tempt kasi talaga ako. Feeling ko super restless ko these past few months and I really want to get away. *sigh* Help me to decide, pleaseee. 😩😵

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Am I suppose to be happy?

I've received a good news. But in receiving it, someone close to me was affected by it. I thought she would be happy, but I was wrong. She's been silent ever since I told her about it. She's not saying anything but I'm feeling it. She kinda despise for that good news. Hindi ako makangiti. Hindi ko sya makausap. Nag-guilty akong maging masaya kasi alam kong hindi maganda yung epekto nung good news na yun sa kanya. Parang gusto ko syang iwasan. Feeling ko, bumalik nanaman ako dun sa panahon na nago-OJT ako. Yung naninimbang sa mga tao. Yung hindi ko alam kung ayos lang ba kami, o may problema. I suddenly felt suffocated again. It's getting harder to breathe every second. What am I suppose to do? Be happy? Be sad? Be silent? I don't know anymore.

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Bakit Ganun? #2

I'm quite irritated right now. (naks! English! Irita si ateng e) Bakit kasi ganun? Yung mga nanghaharass na magulang sa mga ninong at ninang. Ang OA nung harass pero kasi e, nakakainis yung paulit ulit na nagP-PM to remind na "Ninang, yung gift ha?" Like seriously, it's not their obligation to give a gift. It's their outflow of love for those children that they give gifts. Ako yung naaawa sa anak nila e. It's like they're begging for someone to give gifts for their children. I'm not saying it's bad that they want to give a happy christmas for the kids, but really? You'll do that even if you could just give a gift to your kid? Let us not forget the real reason for the season. It's Jesus Christ's birthday and let's celebrate God's greatest gift to us. So please, happy lang tayo ha? We, ninongs and ninangs are chosen by God to be the second parent or helping hand of parents in guiding the children to grow up not just someone that you'll talk to or go to just because it's Christmas and your kid needs to receive a gift, 'kay? 😊

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Butiki sa Fx

Naranasan mo na din bang makasabay ng isang butiki sa fx? O pwede ding sa jeep or mrt. Sila yung tipong konting sagi mo lang, makakarinig ka na ng 'tsk tsk' o kaya yung tipong sobrang traffic na hindi naman na bago pero makakarinig ka pa din ng 'tsk tsk' na may kadugtong pang 'Ang traffic naman, late na ko.' Wala lang, may nakasabay kasi ako kanina. Sarap lang itapon sa Marawi. HAHAHAHA 😂

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Bakit Ganun? #1

Bakit kapag ang babae labas yung garter ng panty nakakahiya or malaswa tapos kapag sa lalaki na tipong sinadyang idisplay talaga, style ang turing. Bakit ganun? HAHAHAHAHAHA 😂