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Contemplating suicide tbh

I am becoming my ex boyfriend except I’m less chronically online so that’s cool

I don’t want to be anorexic but it’s so familiar

I don’t want to be anorexic but I want to be loved

Trying to recover from an Ed but I’m almost entirely alone in it is so difficult idk

Just me and my college’s nutritionist and no one else to know or hold me accountable

Everyone I see posting online or have known in real life always has some sort of support system but it really is just me and I don’t know I just realized it’s maybe putting this huge barrier up in my relationships

Getting a lot of crazy accurate apologies lately like they’ll apologize for exactly what I’m upset at them for without me ever bringing it up or acknowledging it in any way like how did u guys know…

I have proof of you “admitting” to cheating on me and I don’t believe it because I genuinly believe you are too much of a fucking loser to cheat.

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Silly me for thinking a guy might like my presence and enjoy talking to me and not just want to have sex

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I gotta stop falling for guys I meet on grindr

Silly me for thinking a guy might like my presence and enjoy talking to me and not just want to have sex

I can’t wait for people on tik tok to realize how competitive and contagious eating disorders are

You are so braindead for thinking your actions don’t affect those around you

“Are you okay” NO my EX BOYFRIEND started dating our MUTUAL COWORKER who I thought I was FRIENDS WITH and she’s been in my close friends story where I’ve been TALKING BY ABOUT OUR RELATIONSHIP

I feel like all my friendships are built off of me listening and the other person doing all the talking and I hate it I hate all my “friends” so much you know nothing about me you dumb fucks I genuinly wish the worst onto you I’m tired of caring without anyone caring in return I hate you

18 has been sounding way too young to me lately idk

I know the meaning to life I know why I feel all the emotions I do I am so in touch with everything about myself and I am so miserable I just want to be happy

Guy I’m talking to reminds me of someone I hate but whatever he’s nice to me

I can hear an alarm going off am I dreaming

I feel like I’ve been made to feel bad about being emotional my whole life which you don’t know me so maybe I’m some emotional crybaby but people who have met me tell me I’m monotone they get weirded out when I’m too happy and they don’t know what I’m feeling and I want to keep if that way I think

I hate anorexic mfs so much

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