system question:
what is it like to live in headspace for most of your life?
Hello! My name is Nala
I’m Picnic
I’m Puppy
And I’m Poe
We are alters who mostly lives inside headspace!
So hello! My name is Nala, I live mainly in our headspace.
I live in the third layer of our headspace, I don’t particularly front much. I’m a trauma holder for some very specific traumas we have which is why I don’t front often!
Living in headspace almost full time is a pretty odd experience, for our system time in headspace works a little differently to out in the real world. It’s hard to explain how though.
But for the most part I find that the amount of time I spend in headspace DOES NOT equal the amount of time that passes outside by a lot.
I like living in headspace though as I have a lot more creative freedom!
Hi there all, I’m Picnic. I live in headspace, full time, and this is my first time actually fronting.
Like Nala I live in the third layer of our headspace, but I am restricted via my role and our gatekeepers whether I can front or not. Usually it is locked to me, I cannot access front room.
My role is one we created called Messenger Apprentice, essentially I work for all of the primary protectors of the system (we have six, one on each layer) and I can travel between the layers and pass on messages.
This is because (for us) our protectors cannot travel between layers unless the gatekeepers permit it.
The reason I am front locked is because I hold lots and lots of important and vulnerable information and the gatekeepers, protectors (and me) all agreed it would be best if I had ZERO access to front. I’m not down anywhere in our logs other than in notes I’ve asked people to pass on.
Hello! My name is Puppy, I ‘technically’ don’t live on any of the layers but I spend most time on layer three which is why I’m answering here too!
I live in headspace by choice, I’m a symptom holder for our social anxiety so fronting is not a great time for me.
For me living in headspace most of my life is a comfort, I can be comfortable within headspace and not be worried about potential judgement.
Hello all my name is Poe, I’m an internal self-helper on layer three. I work closely with the vulnerable alters and as my name suggests I work internally. I almost never front unless I am directly triggered out by something.