when i was younger i never got into makeup because i never understood the point of it. . . because i didn't care if boys liked me or not.
and although i learned to use makeup and enjoy wearing it, i HATE how it, for some reason, always has to be for someone else.
like yes, i put on bronzer. no, i dont want you to say im pretty. but yes, i know i look pretty fucking cool, thank you.
it's part of why compliments when i wear nice things or makeup make me uncomfortable, because i don't want that like of attention, im not looking for it. i just want to dress cute and have my hair done because I (ME!!!) like the way i look.
then part of me thinks that this thought processes is selfish-- how crazy is that???? on some level, i think it's selfish to wear makeup just because i think i look nice