Lips part to respond, though her tongue is quick to press up against the roof of her mouth. Visibly shifting back to think about everything he asked.
Would she? To return back, the war over and.. loss, his loss. To live with that loss in it’s most raw state. It hurt now even though he stood before her. What if this actually was some strange dream that she would wake up from at any moment? Finding herself on that roof unknowingly running to look for a dead man, or a man who was about to die. Would she know of it? be prepared?– But how could Rangiku tell what was true or not going by the present? There was no confirmation that all of this was a dream. Nothing there to say she would return. There were no answers.
Even if it were a lucid dream of sorts.. Never one to back down from anything, confirming her answer.
Glancing up, “do you honestly believe that I would spend the rest of my days drying up like an old prune over the amount of tears I’ve spilled over your death?” There’s a teasing smile in her eyes, slipping down to pull at her lips. “Gin, if I wake from this ..dream. I will have to accept what happened. Just as I’ve had to come to terms with every choice you’ve made without me in mind. You would want that of me, to hold my head up and live on.” –and she would hold onto that until her dying day.
A sigh, “we don’t know what’s going on, but even if this were a dream. Why wouldn’t I take advantage of that and experience what I never had a chance to?” Shoulder’s dropping some, “if this really isn’t a dream and it is all that I’ll ever know. Would I be content not doing anything with it? I know that I wouldn’t.." Brows lifting, "would you?”
For all she knew he honestly didn’t want the same. Maybe his back-peddling was his own way of avoiding her all together? would he do that?
“Will ya now? Really bad I won’t be ‘round ta see that fer myself...” he had a decision to make. One that will decide the path he will take so long as he was in this city. At least it may be a temporary path. If he had to do something drastic, he would. Certainly things wouldn’t go that far. Who knew? He wouldn’t try to predict it. The future would wait while he decided on the present.
“I know ya better than anyone, though. I know that yer heart is ‘n a good place, and it’s plenty strong. Ya would survive without me, but I know yer heart will feel so much durin’ that time. A lotta pain ... but yer gonna have yer friends, too. Yeah, I left ya in good hands..” he spoke out, aloud. It was as if he was looking to convince himself. Trying to find a way to make some good out of his life before it was ended once more.
“Aaaah. Before I answer anythin’, I wanna ask ya this. If ya were ta turn into a snake tomorrow and begin devourin' humans, and from the same mouth you started devourin' humans, ya cried out ta me 'I love you,' would I still be able ta say 'I love you' the same way I do today?”








