The stranger hardly spared the makeshift weapon a glance, looking straight past it and meeting Norman’s eyes. The boy grew tense involuntarily, his heart thudding in his chest. Most would likely not have been daunted by a child with little more than an iron pipe, but the way the man carried himself… It wasn’t an excess of self-assurance, nor a patronizing attitude. It was simply knowledge that he had control of this situation – all too familiar. He could see her face, cold and hard as the iron in his trembling grasp, though the woman had smiled.
He could hear the bone breaking all over again.
His blood curdled at the memory intruding in his head. The man spoke, equal parts terse and stern – not mocking, not derisive – and it was gone, but not without leaving a sick sense of fear turning in his stomach. He was helpless. He was helpless.
“Something as hollow as that…will never be able to protect the things that are important.”
Give up resistance. He didn’t dare break eye contact. But before he could so much as blink, the pipe was ripped from his grip, and the man had spun and slammed the two weapons in his hands into two dark figures that Norman hadn’t even noticed approach. Infected, he realized. He felt himself take half a step backward, felt his body trembling. The pipe clattered to the asphalt and he froze at the noise, tense as a wire.
The man, still completely calm and in control, held the second weapon out…to him. For him to take. Norman stared at the handle, and then raised his wide eyes to the man’s. He could see one of the infected pushing herself to her feet, but it seemed a distant, unimportant thing.
…He’s helping me. The realization broke through the near-paralyzing fear clouding his mind, and he managed to stay standing only by a tenuous, desperate thread of self-control.
“A weapon that’s swung while fearing others should be thrown away.”
Slowly, he raised his hands to grasp the base of the wooden sword.
“From now on, you should swing this sword not to cut down your enemies or your weakness, but to protect your very soul.”
The words would stick with him, and later, when he had time to think, he’d question, doubt, dissect for the deeper meaning, but in that moment they made perfect sense, in his mind. The infected woman had again found her footing, painfully, her ribs likely cracked or broken from the force of the man’s attack. Still, she lunged for him, sluggish with pain. He leveled a strike at her ribs in much the same way that the man had done, a little clumsy, but hard enough to leave her crumpled and snarling in half-mad pain.
In pain. That’s right. She was a person, even if driven mad from this illness, writhing at his feet, agonized.
He tightened his grip and brought the sword down like an executioner on the side of her neck. The woman fell still and silent. And for a moment, so did he.
Only when he released his breath softly did he begin to tremble.
“…We need to go.” He raised his head to meet the man’s eyes again, gathering every ounce of forced calm that he could manage around himself like a wall. He clutched the sword so tightly in one hand that he could feel the tremors in his muscles. “I – the rest of them must have heard that.” I don’t want to fight more of them. It was a hushed whisper of a thought, one that he hardly allowed to form before crushing it away. With a steely expression, he set his eyes toward the other end of the alley and took a step that felt like it took every ounce of strength he had left – and then another, and another, past the man.
He could only pray it would get easier.
For a moment, Gintoki wondered if he had made a mistake. Placed a sword into the hands of a boy who should have had no part in it. His attack to the ribs was clumsy, and the strike to the side of her neck easy enough to dodge for any seasoned veteran. But it was how he would handle that power that mattered. Too many times he had seen those who’d been given power over someone else abuse it. But that was no reason to deny someone else the strength to grow strong and protect their soul, was it?
His fears were laid to rest when the boy looked him in the eyes. There was no joy in what he had done in them, no smugness. He would probably be alright. And the fact that he wanted to run rather than fight unnecessary battles came as a relief, for what was he to do if the boy had gone on a power high and decided he was strong enough to take all the infected on?
If he struggled with this, then so be it. It might never get easier. Better that it didn’t get easier.
Having to get used to taking lives and hurting was...painful. Sometimes, it paid off when they were real bastards, and sometimes, there was no choice. But that was for them shitty adults to take care of, right? Not the children.
Silently, he followed after the boy, keeping an eye out for any other infected. The boy was trembling. Perhaps some reassurance was in order?
“She’ll be fine. Sore, maybe, but she’ll be fine.”