Yo listen up, here’s the story about a little guy that lives in a blue world and all day and all night and everything he sees is just blue like him, inside and outside. Blue his house with a blue little window and a blue Corvette and everything is blue for him and himself and everybody around ‘cause he ain’t got nobody to liSTeN-
I’m BLuE dAa Ba dEe DA bA dAA
My name is Megan and I promise I’m like this all the time.
I’m 23 and ✨ ace ✨ yet I constantly desire to put my simself and my girlfriend in awkward situations. I have been playing sims since the year 2000, so if u do the math sorry gross, I know, yes I was four. I left the community for a bit to get a little mental health healing and voila I have returned with a desire to start fresh! ish
Here’s what I post for the curious minds:
gameplay + stories
the occasional edit
maxis mix
I definitely need to see some fresh faces so please give this a reblog, comment or like and I’ll check you out!! ♥
cause i meant to do that like a year ago but PFF didn’t. Will be continuing garden legacy there whenever i decide to post things again, no promises it will be soon but we can hope 😂
i’ll make a more ✨ official ✨ post when I’m actually gonna start doing things again tho. I love and miss u guys so much, hope ur enjoyin ur games and life 💛💛💛
@surreysimmer @awolzai TY! I LOVE YOU GUYS!! Sorry, I went mia, I MISS U T^T
THIS IS GONNA BE REALLY LONG AND REALLY RANTY SO IM SORRY IN ADVANCE IF U READ IT LOL.
save yourself and just keep scrolling
I’m gonna drop a lot of shit fyi. tldr at the bottom if you don’t wanna read all this heavy garbage.
So for a general refresher on my life, because no one asked and i feel like oversharing in this chili’s tonight, we’re gonna dive in deep. I dropped out of college to deal with a shit ton of mental health problems last year. (severe depression, anxiety, toxic relationships, toss in some trauma from an ex-boyfriend, lots of panic attacks, like the list is massive) I had one year (or so) left so that really sucked and ended up hurting more than helping me mentally. Tack on emotional stress of now trying to figure out how to write a resume without adding the fancy BA in arts/technology (whatever the fuck I was doing), and trying to find a job before the boredom eats me alive. But not actually having a resume to give people makes that quite difficult. Plus living with my parents, who I adore and they’ve been helpful and wonderful and I couldn’t ask for more understanding or more supportive people, but I’m super cozy and haven’t had an intense need to get out of the house yet. Even though I really miss living on my own.
My doctor has me on medication that ruined my appetite, so I’m eating maybe?? once a day? It’s not good. It’s helped with anxiety at least, so I’m enjoying the outdoors and occasionally getting out of the house. I wake up every few hours wanting food but not being able to eat it, so I'm exhausted. I’ve gotten to watch the sunrise a lot though. It’s beautiful but I would love to watch it without hearing my stomach roar.
It’s been at least a month since all that and it’s gotten better, I’m at least sort of eating lunch and dinner. Maybe a snack during the day. Still not optimal though, still watching that wonderful sunrise and it’s really peaceful in the mornings I’ll give it that. I have good days that I’ll actually try to be social, but the majority are just, I lay in bed and watch the ceiling fan until I get called down for dinner, or I deem it an acceptable time to sleep. It’s incredibly dull and HOT DAMN I wish I could actually sit and play sims because I want to, but the excitement is just not there. Sometimes there’s a spark but it always fizzles out before I do anything.
+ if this wasn’t enough ranting already for you, add on the fact that my girlfriend/best friend went mia for another 3 months, came back and has been sporadically going offline and not contacting me for days at a time. She’ll come back, explain what happened and then we go back to normal. And then she’ll disappear again. It’s incredibly draining for both of us, and I’m always livid when this happens because a warning would’ve been nice or something but it’s almost always a reason out of her control that I won’t go into detail on bc it’s family/personal related. But it always seems like there’s something I could be doing or something she could be doing. Or that she’s not trying to talk to me, or she’s not trying hard enough and then I feel like shit because I know she is doing all she can. (A lot of or’s and what if’s here. She’s been mia since Sunday so I’ve had time to think of all the possibilities of what’s happened this time and it’s quite a ride.) I’ve never doubted her before, I mean we constantly talk about the day we’re living together, getting to take care of each other and doing face masks and playing stupid games. Married and have kids + trying to see how many dogs we can have without dying. We’re both incredibly excited for that. But this is happening more often and it feels like there’s some easier solution that we’re both missing. The distance hasn’t ever really been a problem for us, or at least not a major one. But six years have kind of/sort of finally started to wear us down and there’s this ache when I talk to her sometimes because I want her next to me. I want to be able to go on road trips with her and randomly bring home stupid gifts. I want to be able to buy her family things and play dumb drinking games with them. I want to be able to ask her when she’s getting home and have it mean when are you going to be able to hug me. I wanna have dumb fights that we settle with lightsabers.
I’m moving on before I start bawling.
Literally, all my problems (or a large majority) would be solved if I could get a job. And there’s the cycle. I need a job to get money to visit my girlfriend, but I need a resume to get a job. I need a job/purpose to help kick me out of this depressive funk I’m in but I need a resume. And I need to not be so depressed and critical if I’m going to actually write a resume because every time I look at it and try to write it I break down sobbing and I feel like a failure and OOF. Plus I need some motivation to actually work on things to put in a portfolio so I can get a job that I actually like and won’t hate.
If you read all of that I’ll send you a picture of Fudge because you are a fucking trooper. (and that’s also all i have to give but like you deserve something LOL)
tl;dr Hi, I’m not ok. Like at all. Taking it day by day, looking on the bright side of things (trying to at least). I’ll be lurking, but I won’t be posting anything. Maybe the occasional reblog, but I’m just going on an indefinite hiatus until something gets sorted. I’m not super amazing at talking to people right now but I’m way more active on discord so if you want to chat feel free to add me and say hi (meg#5181). I’ll still talk here but I might take a while to answer.
ok that didn’t take me long at all. alt link for reshade added plus friendly reminder if ur looking for my poses there’s a folder of them all over here
so my computer’s been hanging on for a while but it’s finally starting to show it’s age. The current video card in my comp doesn’t really like whenever i play any games and frankly i’ve been too nervous to load up sims to see if it plays ok lmao. So just incase any of u were curious where i’ve been, i’ve been yellin at my computer and trying to figure out this mess of a mods folder
Crissy got called in to babysit Valery and Lina while the teens are at school, she may be a bratty little sis to Finn but she’s always up for helping out the Nasso/Dooley fam
