I've come to a point in life where for the first time in my life, I've started to prioritize myself. I realize that because I'm so behind in taking care of myself, I don't have the energy to take care of someone else. I didn't realize how much it takes to take care of yourself - emotionally and mentally. It's a bit bittersweet because I've come across someone who genuinely cares about me, but I think the timing is off. We're at different points in our lives and if I keep this going it'll be a never-ending game of catch up for the other - and do I really want that? I feel the end is inevitable, it's just a matter of time.
I've also hit the point in life where I've started to think more logically than emotionally. Now I can see what the logical answer to things are and what makes sense - the hard part is to not act on my emotions even if things feel right in that moment or gives me temporary euphoria. I have to keep telling myself it's just for that moment - temporary. At the end of the day, temporary feelings doesn't build a future.
