they come and go in waves. some days i’ll be totally okay; strong dare i say. and some days i can’t go a minute without thinking about it. even amidst those moments, i still feel so much confusion about how i should feel. i don’t know how to explain it, but it always is accompanied by a wrenching feeling inside me. i feel sadness, guilt, anger, bitterness yet apathetic all at once. then in the back of my mind, there is a sense of peace and a dim joy that i am reassured with because i know that my God is real and His love is so real.
through it all, i know that His love is unchanging.
and that is what i can rest my hope in and find peace in.
Your love surrounds me When my thoughts wage war When night screams terror There Your voice will roar Come death or shadow God I know Your light will meet me there
