𝖈𝖆𝖗𝖎𝖓𝖆 𝖕𝖗𝖊𝖛𝖆𝖎𝖑𝖘

[simplylooknorth]

hey y’all.  first things first, i’m still here.  i know my activity has been non-existent and it’s for three reasons:

br*dgerton has taken over my life and therefore i’ve been spending all of my time on my multi @whisperedreveries​

my mental health has been in a very precarious state as of late and frankly i can be okay one minute and have a nosedive in mood the next

current events are sucking the life out of me

basically i just wanted to pop on and say that i will be returning here and working on things when i can and also to say thank you to everyone who has stuck around and continues to stick around despite my being very flaky and generally awful.  i appreciate you all

[simplylooknorth]

WHAT  KIND  OF  HERB  ARE  YOU ?

Mint

The world is a puzzle, so complex and multifaceted that you long to run your hands through the tapestry of its wonders and stay there forever, lost in the threads and colors and stories. You wish to stay there forever and you tell yourself it's to know the world but maybe it's not, maybe it's a fear that you're not enough, that you're so fragile and helpless in a world that moves too fast, too sharply, too many bright, painful colors that you stay locked inside your mind and thoughts, where you decide the tempo of your world, where you can grow and be as competent, as capable as you want, where the world is as wide as you can imagine it and never out of control unless you want it to be. Your shield is your knowledge, your mind, and you never feel ready enough for the world around you, never feel prepared enough, never safe, and you wonder if things could have been different, if you could have been better, happier, more like everyone else if you'd just known what you know now.

Tagged by:  @lighthouseborn​ Tagging:  everyone!

[tsukaretame-blog]

colorful headcanons.

( send me a copic color for a headcanon )

frost blue: does your muse enjoy the snow and cold? or are they the type to enjoy summer more?

peacock blue: is your muse honest? what sorts of lies do they tell, if not?

lapis lazuli: does your muse prefer the idea of exploring the depths of the oceans, or the boundless expanses of space more?

reddish brass: how likely is your muse to step up and take the role of a leader? are they willing to take the challenge, or are they more apt to being a follower?

burnt umber: how stable is your muse, mentally and/or emotionally?

champagne: does your muse drink (alcohol)? are they a heavy drinker, if so?

tea orange: what is something that your muse is fascinated with?

malachite: has your muse ever done anything that they winded up feeling incredibly guilty for in the end?

olive: is your muse prone to feeling envious of others? if yes, what is it that they typically feel envious over?

vermillion: is your muse courageous, or would they consider themselves to be more of a coward?

coral: what is your muse’s romantic and sexual orientations?

bougainvillaea: would your muse consider themselves as blunt, or do they beat around the bush instead?

currant: what’s something that absolutely disgusts your muse (can be a person, place, thing, ect)?

crimson: how passionate is your muse about the things they love most?

raspberry: what food and/or drink can your muse not get enough of? do they indulge in it often, or is it something reserved for special occasions?

baby blossoms: does your muse have a favorite scent? what is it, and why?

mallow: what sorts of things might remind your muse of those close to them? any scents, objects, sounds?

aubergine: does your muse prefer the day, or are they more of a night-owl?

acacia: how much does it take for your muse to hate someone?

cadmium yellow: what subjects or topics does your muse avoid, because they bring up harmful / painful memories?

honey: when your muse loves someone (whether it be romantic, platonic, or familial love), how do they show it?

chartreuse: if you had to describe your muse with a color, what color would it be and why?

anise: when it comes to self-care, what does your muse do to take care of themselves? do they take care to spend time on it, or do they feel they don’t deserve it?

new leaf: what message would your muse send to their past self, if any?

moss: how easily does your muse adapt to any new situations they’re thrust into?

silk: does your muse care about appearances much? do they spend a lot of time on their own appearance, or do they just go with the flow each day?

sanguine: does your muse typically have an optimistic, pessimistic, or some middle ground outlook on life?

atoll: if your muse could go anywhere, without any restrictions whatsoever, where would they go? why would they go there?

cool grey: if your muse could ensure one thing for certain in their future to come, what would it be?

black: does your muse have a ‘bucket list?’ list some things your muse wants to accomplish before they die.

[tsukaretame-blog]

colorful headcanons.

( send me a copic color for a headcanon )

frost blue: does your muse enjoy the snow and cold? or are they the type to enjoy summer more?

peacock blue: is your muse honest? what sorts of lies do they tell, if not?

lapis lazuli: does your muse prefer the idea of exploring the depths of the oceans, or the boundless expanses of space more?

reddish brass: how likely is your muse to step up and take the role of a leader? are they willing to take the challenge, or are they more apt to being a follower?

burnt umber: how stable is your muse, mentally and/or emotionally?

champagne: does your muse drink (alcohol)? are they a heavy drinker, if so?

tea orange: what is something that your muse is fascinated with?

malachite: has your muse ever done anything that they winded up feeling incredibly guilty for in the end?

olive: is your muse prone to feeling envious of others? if yes, what is it that they typically feel envious over?

vermillion: is your muse courageous, or would they consider themselves to be more of a coward?

coral: what is your muse's romantic and sexual orientations?

bougainvillaea: would your muse consider themselves as blunt, or do they beat around the bush instead?

currant: what's something that absolutely disgusts your muse (can be a person, place, thing, ect)?

crimson: how passionate is your muse about the things they love most?

raspberry: what food and/or drink can your muse not get enough of? do they indulge in it often, or is it something reserved for special occasions?

baby blossoms: does your muse have a favorite scent? what is it, and why?

mallow: what sorts of things might remind your muse of those close to them? any scents, objects, sounds?

aubergine: does your muse prefer the day, or are they more of a night-owl?

acacia: how much does it take for your muse to hate someone?

cadmium yellow: what subjects or topics does your muse avoid, because they bring up harmful / painful memories?

honey: when your muse loves someone (whether it be romantic, platonic, or familial love), how do they show it?

chartreuse: if you had to describe your muse with a color, what color would it be and why?

anise: when it comes to self-care, what does your muse do to take care of themselves? do they take care to spend time on it, or do they feel they don't deserve it?

new leaf: what message would your muse send to their past self, if any?

moss: how easily does your muse adapt to any new situations they're thrust into?

silk: does your muse care about appearances much? do they spend a lot of time on their own appearance, or do they just go with the flow each day?

sanguine: does your muse typically have an optimistic, pessimistic, or some middle ground outlook on life?

atoll: if your muse could go anywhere, without any restrictions whatsoever, where would they go? why would they go there?

cool grey: if your muse could ensure one thing for certain in their future to come, what would it be?

black: does your muse have a 'bucket list?' list some things your muse wants to accomplish before they die.

[aidashakur]

when you’re a strong woman at a young age it scares a lot of people.

[alyciadebnamcarcy]

[simplylooknorth]

simplylooknorth​:

truly i love the idea of giving carina a hp verse because it’s hilarious to me that the woman who doesn’t believe in magic or supernatural things would be smack dab in the middle of a world full of it lmfao

OKAY BUT carina being half-blood, but raised in a muggle children’s home.  margaret was a muggle, hector was a warlock.  she attends muggle schooling until she’s eleven and then when she gets called off to hogwarts she’s just like wtf this is impossible lmfao

[simplylooknorth]

truly i love the idea of giving carina a hp verse because it’s hilarious to me that the woman who doesn’t believe in magic or supernatural things would be smack dab in the middle of a world full of it lmfao

[blondiepoison]

Kaya Scodelario Elle Magazine (April 2019)

[simplylooknorth]

listen

carina is an absolute pain in the ass.  she’s intelligent and she knows it and she’s not afraid to showcase it, but that also means that she can be very condescending.  also, being rude and evasive has kind of become a defense mechanism for her over the years

but she does care about people.  she just has a very difficult time talking about her feelings and admitting that she wants and/or needs people around.  she’s been alone basically her entire life, independent and wild

basically she just needs love and patience and she deserves both

[voulair]

me @ the stars: help me

[senatorpadmes]

My calculations are precise and true.

[simplylooknorth]

i just want you all to know that carina is platonically in love with elizabeth in that i want you to be my mum but also my best friend type of way

[simplylooknorth]

trickstercaptain​       /       jack.

        Do I even want to know? Jack’s immediate response to the largely rhetorical question was the shake of the head. Elizabeth didn’t need to know: both of them were agreed on that point, but it seemed that Carina was going to swiftly rob them of any choice in the Pirate King’s voluntary ignorance. Jack inwardly winced as soon as the words had left her mouth, deliberately looking anywhere but the sharp gaze he could clearly see in his periphery. “ After a while all the old friends really just start to blur into one. ” Finally he turned his gaze to face Elizabeth, trying a small, sheepish smile — knowing he wasn’t going to get out of a future discussion about it but trying his hardest anyway.

       He was relieved when the conversation turned to the journal itself, albeit somewhat surprised that Elizabeth seemed to have such an interest in its contents. It was something he could ask her in return when he no doubt sought her out later on ( or vice versa; though the pair had said nothing of it there was an unspoken understanding that they now had a lot to talk about ). But for now, he said nothing, only smiled and held Elizabeth’s gaze for perhaps a moment longer than necessary before she departed.

      Really, Jack should have sensed that he was in a certain, particular kind of danger from the moment he saw the look on Carina’s face, but he decided to inwardly dismiss it right up until the moment she ——- “ What? ” It was too quick and high-pitched to be in any way convincing, and Jack knew it from the moment he’d opened his mouth and was left to gape at her like a fish. From then on there was no way he could directly dispute it without looking even more foolish, leaving Jack no choice but to come up with some way of playing the whole thing down.

       Such a feat took him longer than he would have liked, brows drawing together into a frown and glancing off at where Elizabeth had vanished into the crowds of the inner sanctum of the Cove. “ We’ve just known each other a long time. That’s all. ” No matter or indeed in spite of what they might have gotten up to the last time he’d been here on Shipwreck. Making up for lost time. Jack took that moment to decidedly clear his throat. “ Regardless, she’s got William. ” Jack turned to meet Carina’s gaze and debated saying something else, but changed his mind at the last minute. “ Henry, meanwhile, is conveniently unattached — or at least he was the last time I asked him. ”

        It was impossible to keep from rolling her eyes;  clearly he loved the Pirate King, and there was nothing he could say or do that would convince Carina otherwise.  Perhaps, had he been a little more believable in his shock and denial, she could have at least pretended to rethink it, but as it was, she remained staunchly unmoved.

        “ I’ve known plenty of people a long time and I’ve never behaved like that around them, ”  Carina shot back, eyeing him knowingly.  “ For a moment, I wondered if you’d forgotten my presence altogether. ”  That, perhaps, was an exaggeration, but she couldn’t deny that there had been a shift in the atmosphere around them.  The draw between the two of them had been magnetic, almost palpably so.

        William.  Yes, the miraculous return of Henry’s father did throw a wrench into the situation.  Carina didn’t envy them that.  “ A man who’s been away for nearly twenty years, ”  she pointed out, though it was probably unnecessary;  Jack would know better than most how long Will had been gone.  “ I can’t imagine his permanent return was ever anticipated. ”  Henry, it seemed, had had a difficult enough time convincing others of the trident’s powers and existence, let alone getting them to think that he might actually be successful in breaking his father’s curse.

        “ She loves you too, you know, ”  she said loftily after a moment, watching him.  “ Or at the very least, cares for you.  She took quite an interest in your near death experience, at any rate.  And your return. ”  Whether any of that would bring Jack any comfort, Carina didn’t know, but it was the best she could muster;  the gloating, it appeared, had tapered off for now.

         “ You think you can distract me by trying to redirect my attention to Henry? ”  Her brow arched as she shook her head.  “ Henry’s main concern at present is the return of his father.  Even if I cared whether he was unattached or not, I would not interrupt this time with his family. ”

[simplylooknorth]

@eternlle​ said:   ❝ are you always this clever? ❞

        “ Yes. ”  Her answer is quick and precise;  Carina has never been one for false modesty, and she isn’t about to start now.  Still, she pauses a moment afterwards, finally glancing at the young woman.  “ Does that bother you? ”  There have been plenty of people through the years who have believed her to be too intelligent and too bold for a woman, even amongst her peers.  If this woman is among them, she has no desire to continue the conversation.  “ You wouldn’t be the first, nor would you be the last. ”

[simplylooknorth]

trickstercaptain​        /        jack

       It took all of Jack’s self-control not to offer Carina an immediate rebuttal to her playing down of depth of her and Henry’s… connection. Particularly when her attempt only seemed to strengthen Jack’s claim — the arched brow he offered in return conveying as much. He might have still been a sceptic when it came to the matter of fate and predestination, but it was undeniable that something coincidental could happen that had the power to alter the entire course of one’s life. All he had to do was look at the woman beside him to know that: for as much as his saving her life in the water off of Fort Charles all those years ago had altered Elizabeth’s life, her presence in his had accomplished much the same. In all of its frustration and pain and missed chances.

       Carina and Henry might not have been destined to meet ( and they may not have even been as close as Jack continued to surmise, and he was fully aware of that fact and unfazed by it ), but they had undoubtedly changed the course of each other’s lives by meeting. As Jack had discovered for himself over the years, that was no small thing.

        He was distracted from his thoughts by the sharpness of Elizabeth’s look; they knew each other well enough after all this time for Jack to know that this wouldn’t be the end of that particular matter. Nor did he suspect that Carina would remain quiet for long on certain other things that had been brought up during the course of this conversation.

       Jack winced slightly as Carina produced the now battered diary. “ That was me. Apologies. ” It truly hadn’t been his intention to use it as a shield against Salazar, but in the end the bloody thing had quite literally been life saving. For a moment he was tempted to elaborate further but, sensing that Elizabeth would have more than something to say about that, he — for once — kept quiet.

@simplylooknorth​

        “ You? ”  Elizabeth asked with a quick glance in his direction.  “ Do I even want to know? ”  Gingerly, she took the diary from Carina’s hand, her thumb running over the hole.  Stabbed by something, it looked like.

        “ I must have dropped it in the chaos of finding the trident, ”  Carina supplied.  “ Jack must have picked it up.  And it’s a good thing he did, or Salazar would have run him through. ”  Her eyes remained trained on Elizabeth, searching for a reaction to her words, and the Pirate King did not disappoint.  Her features blanched for just a fraction of a second, gaze shifting sharply towards Jack.  Carina hadn’t needed any further confirmation to base her suspicions on, but she added it to the collection nevertheless.

        “ I see, ”  was her response after a moment.  “ At some point, you’ll have to tell me what exactly you did to warrant that man’s hatred. ”  Jack having enemies abound was nothing new, but it was another story that she didn’t yet know, and those were becoming few and far between.  “ May I borrow this? ”

        “ Yes, of course. ”  Carina wondered briefly if Elizabeth was fluent in Italian to even read it.  Henry could always translate it, she supposed...  Or, she could offer her own assistance, therein ensuring a private meeting with the King.  “ And I can give you any of the information that is no longer legible. ”

        “ That sounds perfect, ”  Elizabeth replied with a smile.  “ Now, if you’ll excuse me, it would appear that I have a few things to tend to.  It was very nice meeting you, Carina.  I’m sure we’ll be seeing more of one another. ”  Upon receiving a reciprocation of that sentiment, Elizabeth glanced in Jack’s direction, offering a faint smile and a nod, and then headed off.

        Her footsteps had barely faded into the distance as Carina turned to face Jack, arms crossed, the smugness coming off of her in waves.  “ She’s lovely, ”  she remarked, the comment sincere and yet goading at the same time.  “ And you thought I was smitten. ”  She allowed herself a moment to bask in the glory of the tables being turned in her favour.  “ Does Henry know that you’re in love with his mother? ”

[simplylooknorth]

guys!!! !algkjaafd i can’t believe i’ve never noticed this before but tHE STARS ON HER DRESS IT’S SO PERFECT