It would be so easy to just let him have his way
To open my legs and let him Insert himself.
To let him do what his greedy mind wants to do
But I have to live either way with myself
I would have to deal with the unclean emotions
Emotions I’ve known before but refuse this time .
How does a man of power and authority knows they can do this?
Why am I so wrong and broken that’s it’s a beacon to them screaming “come assault me I won’t tell”
Is it tattooed on my soul that I’m am damned forever more?
Am I that unclean from a previous life that I must be tortured in this one?
I’ve been through this before
I know this feeling and outcome
The crying of “I’m making too big a deal- no one wants to hear my complaints” so now I am experiencing the trauma of what just happen.
For the rumors are true in this corporate lifestyle when it comes to the misogyny and outcast of women
For my reputation will be gossip about
Like lashes from a whip forever marked on my back in this job
Six years of working so hard with no degree
The depths I had to overcome will make even hades blush
I never thought this would ever happen again
But it’s repeated to me like a bad acid trip
I know the right thing but do I have the strength
A friend reminds me you may not be the only one
My soul and my core is to shield others
It’s what I raise my children to be
It’s how I portray myself
But if in the moment I become cowardice
To let another possible suffer
No I must go forward no matter how much I suffer for the other may not have anyone in their corner
I don’t chose to be strong
It’s only a necessity but I will because I know I can’t put it on anyone else
I must remember I’ve stood up to Lt generals , decorate war heroes, people who should have protected others but chose to hurt the world because they could.
I must remember that’s me for God has already given me the strength.
I am no stranger to this. I am the lily in the valley for God grows beautiful things in dark places and I must remember that. For he sees all and he made me this way. He put me on this path for these reasons.
I am no stranger, so I need to be the lily in valley for all … my true calling