even in the darkest night

-- there is shadow, there is light. I am Curudae, formerly known as Melkor, and I am a servant of the Valar.

[sineincendium]

{ I'm going to set up a join.me, which means I have to get off of my RP blog for a while. So there's that. }

[sineincendium]

❝ You’re him, aren’t you? ❞ || because it fits ayyyy ||

A wry smile twitched at the corner of Curudae’s mouth. “Yes. I am.”

[forgemaiar]

--

Mairon shut his eyes tight, terrified if he opened them he might wake up. He’d had dreams like this before, where his master had found a way to return to him. That had always been his promise as the vala closed the gates behind him, that he would be back for Mairon.

And then he hadn’t. The dreams had come, hollow reminders of promises kept and unkept, and he had always woken up remembering the cold reality that he was waiting for the impossible.

Which was now holding him in a hug that was warmer than any fire he could remember. He buried his face into soft fabric and the faint scent of cinnamon, feeling a sob choke in his throat.

[sineincendium]

Mairon's warmth melded with the surge in Curudae's chest and he felt even, he felt content. Simple contentedness hadn't been with him for so long and it made his heart sing. Curu used a thought to lift him up further without having to hurt his hands, making the maia's arms slip further along his shoulders, fitting them together like puzzle pieces.

Cu buried his face in Mairon's hair. He smelled like woodsmoke and iron, and it made him dizzy to think that all this was his again. And he himself was Mairon's, always had been, and always would be. Never would they part again. Never.

"I'm here, I'm home," he whispered.

[sineincendium]

{ I missed thiiiiiis }

[mini-musings]

                 will there ever be a place for the b r o k e n in the light?

[amxle-deactivated20141102]

                                                                                  When I think of you                                                                                   And your good life                                                                                  And your sorrow too                                                                                  How much I’m missing you                                                                                  No matter where I go                                                                                  Or where I come to stay                                                                                  This is waking up                                                                                  I want this feeling                                                                                  Doors wide [ o p e n ]

And now I leave it all Bags of trouble And a messy mind Oh, I hope I find  Where your load is light Where your heart’s at ease This is waking up And feeling good, feeling good

[sineincendium]

❝ You have no power over me. ❞

"A question, then. When did I claim to?"

[littlefathervende-deactivated20]

--

"You have no place here! Begone..back to the Void!" he was causing a scene he realized, but the righteous fury of his house had not been quashed by his own imprisonment in Mandos.

[sineincendium]

Curudae's expression just barely shifted to one less emotional. "I'm afraid you'll have to take up my re-imprisonment with Manwë and Varda themselves."

[fxrtyfivearchive-blog]

    everything I’ve done        I’ve done for уσυ        I move the stars   ｆｏｒ    ｎｏ   ｏｎｅ

[sineincendium]

❝ You’re him, aren’t you? ❞ || because it fits ayyyy ||

A wry smile twitched at the corner of Curudae’s mouth. “Yes. I am.”

[forgemaiar]

--

The maia felt his bare feet sliding forward, carrying him towards the larger vala. It had been so long since he’d felt Melkor’s presence that now it seemed to be magnetic to him, and so… warm. He couldn’t remember another time when the vala had appeared so gentle. Suddenly his timid shuffling became a run.

[sineincendium]

Something in Curudae’s chest surged with an emotion he could not explain. It felt like an explosion, rocking his heart and his mind and his very being. Mairon was running, running to him; after all these years of wondering what he would do if he ever saw the maia again, the answer was running to him with open arms.

Cu caught Mairon in his own arms, holding him tightly as he could manage without snapping any bone. He wanted to meld with Mairon and just sit inside his skin, hum contentedly as he did — nothing could replace him.

[sineincendium]

❝ You have no power over me. ❞

"A question, then. When did I claim to?"

[littlefathervende-deactivated20]

He gave a growl at the other and a look of undiluted hate. “Oh? Do you pretend not to know..Morgoth? I would not mistake you.”

[sineincendium]

He winced at the mention of Morgoth. But he stood still, looking right at Curufin. "An old name that I have long forsaken. I'd beg you not to use it, though I realize I have no place to ask that of you."

[sineincendium]

❝ I ask for so little. ❞

"I realize you do, and I would give it were I capable. But my powers have dimished. You know that, Vairë."

[weaverofages-archive]

"I know that," Vairë said simply, her voice quiet like an owl was quiet - with a promise of strength and wisdom behind it. "I want you to challenge yourself, Curudae. To do that, you must realize what is keeping you from this. Sing, Curudae, and it will get easier."

[sineincendium]

"It hasn’t been the same," he reflected, voice lacking a steely tone typical of his general temperament. His eyebrows furrowed, and there’s a tension in his chest and shoulder blades that won’t go away. "Singing — it doesn’t — " he tried, but his voice faltered. "It doesn’t come to me anymore."

[sineincendium]

❝ You’re him, aren’t you? ❞ || because it fits ayyyy ||

A wry smile twitched at the corner of Curudae’s mouth. “Yes. I am.”

[forgemaiar]

Something caught in Mairon’s throat and for a moment he couldn’t speak. He swallowed, realizing he was staring. His eye flickered away briefly and blinked politely.

"It’s been a while."

[sineincendium]

"Some time, yes," he agreed, normally-loud voice fainter than usual. Curudae kept eye contact with the maia, no matter how much he wanted to turn away, hang his head in shame. No matter if Mairon looked away. He hadn't seen him in ages; despite his guilt he wanted to capture every detail of Mairon, keep it in his mind's eye forever.

[sineincendium]

❝ You have no power over me. ❞

"A question, then. When did I claim to?"

[forgemaiar]

This may be random, but I've heard you talk about your headcanons regarding the Ainur and music every now and again. I'm interested in your headcanons, and was wondering if you'd mind me asking you to talk about them?

boyohboyohboyohboy *cracks knuckles*

Tolkien hints here and there through his books that music has power beyond words. This is clearest I think in the Ainulindalë, the creation of the world. It was all done in song, even Melkor’s first act of corruption; sing a few sour notes and suddenly evil is woven into creation. I like to think that Varda’s stars, among other things, faintly echo the music of their creation, kind of like how background radiation can be heard and it “sings” of the universe’s birth.

As for music in relation to ainur, I’ve always thought song is how their power works. Just like you can see their power in their eyes, you can feel it in their songs, except with music it carries outside and interacts with the world. If an ainu wants to make a thing, they’ll likely sing while they work. My headcanon for Sauron’s forging of the One Ring is he sang so hard he actually passed out. In the LOTR trilogy it’s mentioned to whisper here and there, trying to corrupt its bearer and such, but it does so with Sauron’s voice. That’s because his song is trapped inside. When his music is destroyed, his power goes with.

It’s partially for this reason I like to portray Mairon as being quiet and small. It’s not just his power and his eye that are gone, it’s his voice too. He has to use quite a bit of power if he wants to be heard when he shouts, and as such he doesn’t like raising his voice. He still sings of course, music is still very much a part of him, but he can’t carry a melody for very long before he gets tired. 

[sineincendium]

❝ I ask for so little. ❞

"I realize you do, and I would give it were I capable. But my powers have dimished. You know that, Vairë."

[sineincendium]

❝ You’re him, aren’t you? ❞ || because it fits ayyyy ||

A wry smile twitched at the corner of Curudae’s mouth. “Yes. I am.”

[lafemme-rouge-blog]

ＬＡＢＹＲＩＮＴＨ → the sentence meme

Below you will find quotes taken directly or paraphrased from the movie 'Labyrinth'. You know, the one starring David Bowie's bulge. Send in one of the following to see how my muse reacts:

❝ I ask for so little. ❞

❝ Just let me rule you, and you can have everything that you want. ❞

❝ Just fear me, love me - do as I say and I will be your slave.❞

❝ You remind me of the babe. ❞

❝ That’s not fair! ❞

❝ Give me the child. ❞

❝ You say that so often, I wonder what your basis for comparison is? ❞

❝ I have been generous up ‘til now; I can be cruel. ❞

❝ You cowered before me, I was frightening. ❞

❝ I have reordered time; I have turned this world upside down, and I have done it all for you! ❞

❝ I am exhausted from living up to your expectations. ❞

❝ Isn’t that generous? ❞

❝ Your mother is a fraggin’ aardvark! ❞

❝ Everything I’ve done, I’ve done for you. ❞

❝ I move the stars for no one. ❞

❝ Your eyes can be so cruel. ❞

❝ If she ever kisses you, I’ll turn you into a prince. ❞

❝ If he ever kisses you, I’ll turn you into a princess. ❞

❝ You’re him, aren’t you? ❞

❝ You’re her, aren’t you? ❞

❝ My will is as strong as yours, and my kingdom as great. ❞

❝ You have no power over me. ❞

❝ How you turn my world, you precious thing. ❞

❝ Well then, come on, which way? ❞

❝ Which way do you want to go, hm? ❞

❝ Was that wrong? ❞

❝ I’ve brought you a gift. ❞

❝ But if you turn it this way and look into it, it will show you your dreams. ❞

❝ In nine hours and twenty-three minutes…you’ll be mine. ❞

❝ Where you goin’ with a head like that? ❞

❝ No, I said ‘allo’, but that’s close enough. ❞

❝ It’s only forever, not long at all. ❞

❝ All right then, throw down your weapons, and I’ll see that you’re well-treated. ❞

❝ Don’t tell me truth hurts, because it hurts like hell. ❞

❝ No one can blame you for walking away. ❞

❝ I don’t know why, but every now and again in my life - for no reason at all - I need you. ❞

❝ The way forward is sometimes the way back. ❞

❝ It’s very rude to stare! ❞

❝ What did you have to go and do a thing like that for? ❞

❝ What’d you expect fairies to do? ❞

❝ What’s the matter, my dear, don’t like your toys? ❞

❝ There’s such a sad love, deep in your eyes. ❞

❝ I’ll place the sky within your eyes. ❞

❝ What kind of magic spell to use? ❞

❝ I’ll paint you mornings of gold. ❞

❝ I’ll spin you Valentine evenings. ❞

❝ I’ll be there for you as the world falls down. ❞

❝ We’re choosing the path between the stars. ❞

❝ I’ll leave my love between the stars. ❞

❝ How you turned my world, you precious thing. ❞

❝ You starve and near exhaust me. ❞

❝ I do believe in you. ❞

❝ I live without the sunlight. ❞

❝ I love without your heartbeat. ❞

❝ I can’t live within you. ❞

[sineincendium]

reforgedmairon replied to your post:{ WOO yeah we’re up and running! }

|| TEN HUNDRED THOUSAND CHEERS ||

{ YEEEEEEAH }