Filius Silvanus

she/her, adult, I write and draw sometimes and I fucking love kotor

[bugsontoastt]

shading practice… withhh my Revan :)

[molabuddy]

really specific trope i like that i feel like can only be explained in a diagram

[shadowthesenuts]

Died for nothing, achieved nothing, only to be known as a pawn and a sidekick to his own master - who got it all in the end.

Malak my beloved

[SwainsBadKnee]

[ryebreadgf]

it used to be 2007 you know

[ryebreadgf]

[domina-honoribila]

All the adults should put in the tags how old they were in 2007

[troublepunk-ldn]

me as a teenager: man it sucks to have no privacy or autonomy but i guess its for a good reason. when i turn 18 i will realise how young i was and understand why they did all that.

me as an adult: teenagers are an oppressed class, their abuse is normalised and systemic and they need to start killing people

[thirdwizard]

pretty dragon c: @cinderedrose

[cinderedrose]

:DDDDDD

[desolationlesbian]

I don't want to buy mass-produced garbage from a big box store so I go to etsy but half of etsy is now dropshipped mass-produced garbage or AI slop so I go to the local arts and crafts street market but a ton of those booths are also selling the same generic plastic objects or identical stickers or 3D printed dragons so WHERE do I buy real trinkets and art from sincere freaks

[mayonaizs]

maybe we shuold make really round car to balance out the cybertrucks

[laurel-lane]

hello tumblr i present a long and unfinished yap abt my revan

Name: Clio Fyrwit

Age: 

Gender: Agender (any pronouns)

Sexuality: Aromantic-Asexual (aroace)

Personality: 

JEDI KNIGHT: As a padawan and Jedi, they were a reserved but highly curious individual. They were highly empathetic towards others which made their emotionality quite strong, causing them to feel quite strongly towards the circumstances of others. While they excelled in discipline and focus, they had too much emotionality which fuelled their strong drive for justice. 

Despite their reserved demeanour, they were highly loyal and amicable towards those they were close with. They did not value shallow relationships so they struggled to find many connections within the Jedi Order, but the few connections they had were deep. With those they liked, they seemed excitable and without a filter. They still remained withheld but they had an underlying passion for the few things they liked.

Due to their reserved nature, they weren’t that assertive which caused their self esteem to remain quite low. As they valued skill and hard work, they trapped themselves in a cycle of trying to meet their own expectations whilst not allowing themselves any sort of satisfaction from their efforts.

THE REVANCHIST: After the Jedi Council refused to actively take part in the Mandalorian Wars, they became much sharper in terms of their personality. While their assertiveness never really grew, their passion increased greatly. They knew how to get to the emotions of others and build a genuine following by connecting to deeper emotions of other Jedi, which led them to see the value in having followers.

Their emotional intelligence and empathy made them a skilled tactician as they excelled in thinking in the way their opponents thought. 

However, with their growing number of followers, this led them to develop significant doubt about their skill and a bit of impostor syndrome. With their position as the leader of the movement, they put immense amounts of pressure on themselves, causing them to become a bit of a perfectionist and a workaholic.

DARTH REVAN: After turning to the dark side, they didn’t necessarily become “evil”. The mask liberated them quite a lot and it helped a lot with their self-doubt that they developed during the Mandalorian Wars. The dark side merely amplified their disillusionment with the Jedi Order and fuelled their passion for justice. With their disillusionment along with their heightened passion, it led to a more detached and polarised way of viewing the galaxy, which resulted in their more severe actions with the Star Forge.

From their time during the Mandalorian Wars and their current detachment, they soon started viewing life as a statistic and a means to an end. Instead of their sympathetic empathy that they had as a padawan, their emotional intelligence became a weapon which they exploited to rationalise their actions. 

While they grew more detached from their actions, there was always a part of them that could never fathom what they had ended up as. They unconsciously knew that what they were doing was not going to bring about the reform they strived to bring but they were also too scared to stop.

Their main flaw was their inability to say no. As they had already gone down a path, they did not know how to change again and they found some twisted comfort in the routine. It allowed them to have a sense of apathy towards others so they could just let the days play out the same as the last.

MINDWIPE: After the mindwipe, they became a fragmented version of themselves. With the lack of a proper identity or role to cling onto, their low self esteem returned along with their self doubt. While they retained their empathy and high levels of curiosity, they became much more tentative and lost.

As they had lost their sense of purpose, they became much more agreeable as they needed some sort of goal to cling onto. Their previous apathy returned on occasions but with the release of self pressure, they slowly gained their care for others.

Connections:

Alek/Darth Malak: Clio used to be very close with Alek. As Jedi Knights and padawans, the two often trained together. Alek was one of the few who enjoyed listening to Clio’s passionate spiels and tangents about the galaxy and he would always help them when they 

Bastila: Clio and Bastila’s relationship was strained. Despite the strong force bond they have, Clio always felt ‘off’ around Bastila and grew to resent their force bond. The force bond between them made Clio feel rather insecure around Bastila as they disliked the feeling of someone else feeling their thoughts and emotions.

However, after a while, they grew to see Bastila as a friend. They never got over their dislike for the force bond but they eventually came to a stage where they could share things with her and connect with her emotionally.

[cinderedrose]

I scrubbed my presence from the internet then I get irritated no one interacts with my stuff whoop dee doo I need to just pick one

[laurel-lane]

i got distracted and made a KOTOR oc…

truthfully i have not played the game yet but ive consumed so much lore and thrown myself down the kotor rabbithole-

this is my revan :] backstory and all the lore is still in the works but they’re mainly just very disillusioned with the jedi order and seeking some twisted sort of reform in the galaxy. after the mindwipe, while it was successful in removing their memories, key parts of their personality remained intact so they held onto their really strong drive and passion-

[red-garden]

“Do dishes” and “take out trash” both require the use of a spell slot, vs “use phone” is a cantrip, and brother, I am a level one wizard

[netscapenavigator-official]

You should be starting a recipe book. I don't give a shit if you're only 20-years-old. The modern web is rotting away bit by bit before our very eyes. You have no idea when that indie mom blog is going down or when Pinterest will remove that recipe. Copy it down in a notebook, physically or digitally. Save it somewhere only you can remove it. Trust me, looking for a recipe only to find out it's been wiped off the internet is so fucking sad. I've learned my lesson one too many times.

[myfootyrthroat]

When the health food store unionized, something wild happened that I thought was just a goofy one-off, but makes more sense now.

There was a big push to eliminate "degrading jobs" but the strategy was to eliminate the position, then create a new position outside of the bargaining unit to do the work. So like, we wouldn't have dishwashers, but we'd have people who washed dishes that weren't eligible to be in the union.

I was like A) what the actual fuck? Dish washing isn't "degrading", it's fucking vital. B) What the actual fuck? You want to create a union just to exploit different people?

There were enough of us to be like "Absolutely the fuck not," and put a stop to it, but I was absolutely flummoxed that people involved in a union would say that out loud. Working with more leftists now, it makes sense.

[myfootyrthroat]

I think it was coming from a background that viewed labor as necessary to accomplish anything, but advocated for the equitable distribution of the gains made by labor... and then being thrown in with people who just thought labor was icky.

The first time someone told me that busing tables was "degrading", I was like "Oh, uhh, yeah, like it's very necessary work but under compensated for how vital it is?" and they responded "No, touching plates that other people have eaten off of is disgusting."

But I want to eat off of clean plates. So somebody is going to have to touch/clean those plates. And I respect that person and want them to be able to afford to live.

[official-torfmoor]

Those people sound like a guy I'd make up to be mad at.

[myfootyrthroat]

I mean, that job definitely had a Truman Show vibe. If they hadn't been in-person interactions, I'd think I was getting trolled.

[myfootyrthroat]

Just to put a bow on it:

In bargaining, someone on the Union side suggested that we eliminate all the cashiers and exclusively use self-checkouts (they were a cashier and didn't like it). The organizer told them that the union wasn't in the habit of eliminating bargaining unit positions. (This is the same person I've talked about how said that "as a prison abolitionist" we just needed to execute most criminals.)

When I explained holiday scheduling (time off requests granted in order of seniority, shifts assigned in reverse order of seniority). Someone was angry and said that time off requests potentially being denied "wasn't in the spirit of the union". When I pointed out that our departments made like 30% of our annual revenue between Thanksgiving and New Years and that required production staff to be working, they said that we just needed to create a class of positions ineligible for the bargaining unit that wouldn't be able to request time off. (Which again, most of us figured we'd just rotate holidays or something, but assumed that some holiday production was mandatory.)

[bees-and-mice-and-frogs-and]

I was on leftie tiktok (as a creator) for a bit and I saw this attitude there as well. I specifically remember one argument around cleaners where someone said that employing a cleaner was, like, ethically bad, and that "after the revolution" we wouldn't have cleaners.

It got me thinking, along with Ann Russell talking about how to treat cleaners (being a cleaner herself), about how we conceptualise domestic service as particularly degrading in all its forms, when, really, why is that? Why is paying someone to do something intrinsically bad?

Like, even in a moneyless, gift economy society, there would still be people whose primary contribution to their communities would be cleaning. Some people like to clean, and are really rather good at it.

I've talked ad nauseam in the past about how British attitudes towards cleaners and other service based positions today are the descendants of Victorian attitudes. That is, both the attitudes of conservatives and many progressives of that time. The trade union movement was particularly exclusionary towards service workers.

I think people on the left thinking about forms of labour can sometimes be worse than people on the right. People who have taken these positions generally just conceptualise them as something you need to do to get by, and there are particular employers where these positions are degrading but in general the jobs themselves aren't.

[myfootyrthroat]

Yeah, that really sums it up. There's stuff that needs to get done, so I'll never be of the opinion that it's degrading work. I worked in kitchens for a long time, and every other position is reliant on having clean dishes, so nobody can really be "above" washing dishes. The shitty thing about washing dishes or busing tables is how people treat the people doing it. The work itself is vital.

And some of those jobs are like, sure, you can throw almost any warm body at it and get it done adequately, but you still run into people where you're like "Holy shit, you're good at this."

[leebrontide]

People doing a job most people don't want to do should be paid MORE in order to get people to do it. That's how it would work if we weren't mired in a schema assuming that less-frequently-desired jobs are the province of people who "can't do better" and "deserve" poverty because they have less value as people.

[toreblogallthethings]

Peer reviewing the tags: #these attitudes are also why ppl are weird about sex work#and weirdly enough visibly disabled people working - like esp thinking of like#places that employ ppl w LDs as workers and volunteers#what they FEEL is 'these people make me uncomfortable'#and they say 'they shouldn't have to do that'#so the solution is. no visibly disabled people getting to work#the fact that. they want to work. and want jobs#is irrelevant#too many people base their politics off their like. gut feelings of discomfort and unease#which are completely disconnected from both practicality and actual morality

[seasalt-caramelstars]

“you can have sex with one person in all of human history - who is your ultimate lay?”

[nondelphic]

writing tip: put words on page. hope this helps. i will not be taking questions because i have not done this

[prettydumbloverboy]

Actually, people are good by nature and you’re a fool if you think otherwise.

[prettydumbloverboy]

When you sneeze in public, strangers will say “bless you”, even though they don’t know you.

When you ask for directions on the street someone will show you the way, even though they have nothing to gain from it.

People squeeze their legs against the chair so you don’t have to hop over them on your way to your seat in the theatre, and make funny faces to make babies laugh, and purposefully step on leaves to hear them scrunch, and hold the door open for someone leaving behind them, and ask what floor you’re heading to when you enter the elevator, and send others photos of things that reminded them of them, and recommend each other songs, and ask if anyone else wants a coffee because they’re getting one, and make videos teaching how to sew a button, and wish on shooting stars, and share fun facts, and listen to others rant about things they don’t even understand, and let you cross the street first, and give a bit of their food to others, and laugh at jokes they don’t find funny to make you feel good, and listen to kids talk for hours about nonsense, and let you know your keys fell from your pocket, and they may be strangers, but with every little gesture they’re saying “I love you, I love you, I love you”.

[phinarei]

God, I needed to read this today. Humanity is overwhelmingly full of hope and kindness and it’s very easy to forget that these days.

[starkid2464]

I will always choose to believe that there is more good in this world than I can ever know.

[daysofauldlangsyne]