apatchworkstar's milgram side blog! Finally made it lmao - "I'm not wrong, but if someone says 'no, that's not right', I won't support anything that denies you"!
I know it's a longshot but I think the funniest fucking thing that could happen this trial is if Mikoto and Kotoko two people who def gave more than their fair share of people the business had the highest innocent verdict they ever had. It'd be double hilarious if that happened and their videos showed them doing worse shit than we thought outside the murder. Like they didn't just kill people no on top of that Kotoko also frequented the fucking abandoned building Yuno fell in and that's why the gate was half open. Mikoto fucking killed a relative of the truck driver that was in the accident in Shidou's case and they got the call about a family members death right before the crash leading to them both being tangentially involved with why two other people are here. Fucking impossible for the second things to happen but it would be the funniest thing to occur. We're just here like what other curve balls could they throw at us and Milgram goes "I know they killed people but we brought Kotoko here for being non-binary and a furry actually."
Well, I'm glad stabbing people is legal in Milgram now~ Sorry I didn't set that precedent fans sorta did or are at least on the path to do so who knows how it will end up-
But I get it. Like Shidou said-
"“Throw down”, someone’s value cannot be the same as another."
So, of course a lot of fans are going to care more about him being stabbed more than some stranger they know nothing about. That's just as far as some people's sympathy go. Also he literally murdered a man for being in an accident. He literally played judge, jury, and executioner on the operating table. So, he could speedrun failing his family.
Born in 1992, Shinjuku ward, Tokyo.
Shidou Kirisaki is a physician working at a renowned university hospital, with a bright future ahead of him. At the age 24, he married his childhood sweetheart of ten years, and was blessed with two children.
He was leading a picture-perfect life that anyone would aspire to.
He worked in the transplant department of the hospital, and specialized in organ transplants. He would often interact with the families of brain-dead patients, and was in a position to ask permission for their loved one's organs.
The families' devestation, and his role in clinically ending the lives of these brain-dead patients did cause him heart-ache, but he also firmly believed that his work was essential to save the lives of the many patients awaiting organ transplants.
One evening, there is a collision between a taxi and a large commercial truck.
The victims who were brought into the hospital were his wife and two children.
They had been heading to the hospital via taxi to bring a change of clothes for Shidou he had forgotten that day.
It was a devastating accident, and it was clear that both his wife and children would not survive without immediate care.
It is generally forbidden for surgeons to perform on their family members.
Shidou was put in charge of the surgery for the driver, the very man who had just bulldozed his entire family.
Shidou's head was in a panic, but his hands moved automatically. He quietly killed the truck driver, taking care to make it look unintentional.
He thought, the sooner he was done with this surgery, the sooner he could take care of his own family.
"You're in my way... Hurry up and die."
MILGRAM/The Second Trial Character Voice Trailer [Full Ver.] 1:37s
"So this is unpleasant, hurling slurs of “hostage game”, you do know that it’s up to me? That’s right, there are lives that need safeguarding."
With the situation being an emergency, Shidou is given an exception, and is allowed to treat his own family.
Despite this, his wife and younger son die soon after.
In his despair, Shidou works and prays ferociously in hopes of at least saving his elder son.
However after weeks of lingering in limbo between life and death, his elder son's condition became all too clear to Shidou; the familiar condition of brain death.
Shidou had explained to countless family members that brain death was symonymous with actual death.
But when the roles were reversed, his world was turned upside down. The son laying in front of him was still warm to the touch, and
Shidou could not bring himself to admit that this was indeed death.
"Not dead... Yeah ***'s definitely not dead... I finally understand the value of what I've been robbing people of."
MILGRAM/Character Voice Trailer [Full Ver.] 3:24s
The redacted part is more than likely Shidou's sons name. As this was the moment he realized all that time he had been robbing those families he spoke to of the hope of seeing their loved one recover.
The idea that they could get better.
Something we was more than willing to provide to himself,
"“Throw down” connecting you with me, to keep you alive, you are still living."
Shidou regretted and felt deeply ashamed of the role he had played convincing the families of brain-dead patients to succumb and donate their loved one's bodies for the good of some stranger.
It is not ethical, it is inconsistent, it is ugly and evil.
"“Throw down” ethics is a delusion."
In a state of severe self-loathing, Shidou rummages through his son's belongings that were brought in from the scene of the accident. Disoriented and in a haze, he finds a piece of paper and tears it to shreds.
"“Throw down” the invitation that I can’t take back, lying, replacing with hope."
It was the organ donor card that Shidou had repeatedly told his family to carry with them at all times.
"“Throw down” should choose between superiority or inferiority"
"If it’s not needed, I’m not interested."
"Have you ever taken out a person’s insides? The weight of a human life, there’s no difference between people. And therefore…… I will save the lives I want to save."
MILGRAM/ The Second Trial Teaser Movie
"Has come true, stabbing the despair to death." - He quietly killed the truck driver, taking care to make it look unintentional.
Whelp it seems like Shidou was the one to go under the knife this time abd Amabe simply pulled a Mu at this point. Yamanaka's writing can't keep beimg this fucking funny on god he is letting the audience have it.
Also lmao love being right I was so sure i pinned that shit-
I love it when a creator can seize a good opportunity when it's presented to them but it's so much more fun when they make their own. It's the follow through for me.
Well at least Shidou got away with it I guess. He really got to die without ever feeling guilt over the life he took. The purposeful malpractice,
"“Throw down” ethics is a delusion. I’m still guilty even if the morning comes. “Throw down” emotions with no color I wonder if I can die with it still left."
"This is because I am using this to gauge how unsafe this fandom is towards women because this is the perfect way to figure that out to me." while i agree that misogyny is rampant in the milgram fandom, aint u the one who had the yuno baby trapping theory
Lmao this one you mean this? Oh, and you're also quoting this post for those interested.
So, because I had the thought that she was trying to get pregnant due to all of her songs being about reloading the warmth. That's somehow more misogynistic than people trying to find anyway to conflate having a miscarriage or an abortion to murder?
That same theory also posited that the only reason she was trying to get pregnant was because she was pregnant before already then one of her clients had her get an abortion. The same theory that states one of her clients was actually attempting to entrap her as well? The theory that states nothing about entrapment on a moral level in any capacity but just brings up the fact it exists and is something anyone can do?
Instead deciding to focus on the idea that she killed at least two men and that was her crime. Not taking any stance on entrapment or anyone working to become pregnant? I'm sorry but are you just reaching for something to get mad about in some weird failure of a gotcha moment right now? Or do you actually think pointing out that sometimes people want to get others pregnant or get impregnated by someone in dubious ways in itself is misogyny.
When again this is a bad manipulative dubious action that can be done to a person of any gender that someone of any gender can do.
Like be so for real right now.
I was never faulting her for trying to conceive a child I wasn't even faulting her for possibly killing her clients. I was like if this is the case than honestly deserved. Unlike the people trying to build any bridge to say a woman not carrying a pregnancy to term can be considered murder like the only thing people with reproductive organs are put on this earth for is to add to the population.
Literally piss off.
I will continue to use this to gauge how unsafe this fandom is for women for my own peace of mind because this shit is uncomfortable to me. Thank you for being the person to step forward and prove my point about this fandom continuing to be weird about women.
Engaging with this attempting to make it into some sort of crime even after being told bluntly she tripped is gross to me. Trying to say because she was displaying signs of suicide ideation means she intended to harm herself and by proxy the child is gross to me. That is weird. Especially when the focus of her third voice drama is literally her and Es telling each other it is okay for them to be upset and have complicated feelings on the way their lives have gone.
Just for some random coward to com pretend like me bringing up that a gross abuse of another individual's trust like pregnancy entrapment exists is misogynistic as though that only impacts women or I ever said it was only something women do is actually asinine and dismissive to those who have had it happen to them be it by a person of any gender.
Please have fun continuing to be weird around and about people. Just do it far from me next time.
Loving this line for Kazui, "I warned them many times. Many, many, many, many, many times! You should have stopped it! You, of all people!"
This is made twenty times funnier by me always switching Kazui and Amane's numbers in my head because now I get to do this-
Hey, why the fuck is the only person torn up about what occurred the child that everyone blamed for it while the guy who's lived there for years is like,
"What went wrong, I wonder?"
Like bro I just wrote a post about all the things you knew could have gone wrong that you could have warned us about. Kazui for the love of god please sir? Please- this shouldn't be that funny accidental three D's success.
Rare win for dyscalculia.
Because bro you warned us of many things. Which one? Like specifically in his second voice drama he warned us about Mikoto and Kotoko. This could also be alluding to this conversation he had with Yuno which would be the vaguest way to warn someone ever mind you-
23/09/02 (Yuno’s Birthday)
Kazui: I heard you’ve been helping Shidou-kun out. ……er, sorry if this comes across as rude, but it’s kind of unexpected. It always seemed like you didn’t care that much about other people.
Yuno: Hmm? What’s with that all of a sudden. I mean, you’re right, I don’t care much. But if there’s someone dying in front of you anyone would do what they could to help, right? And anyway, aren’t you the same? You usually don’t care much either, right?
Kazui: ……I wonder. This old man isn’t as much of a thinker as you are. I mean, until now I’ve been in an environment where it’s all about having physical strength. So I’ve never really thought about stuff like that.
Yuno: Haha, we’re the same in that we’re both liars too. I guess the difference is the reasons we lie. You care about yourself, so lie to protect yourself. I don’t care about anyone at all, including myself.
Or this conversation with Mikoto which isn't a fucking warning either Kazui-
24/08/05 (Kazui’s Birthday)
Mikoto: ––No, it’s just…… I’m happy for the thought…… But I don’t even know myself what I’ll do next. So I can’t really hang out at the moment, y’know? But…… haha, aren’t you scared, Kazu-san?
Kazui: Hmm, I guess because of my work, I’m used to dealing with rowdy youngsters. Obviously you have your reasons. I don’t feel like prying, though. Well, whenever you feel like it, you’re always welcome. If you’re always on your own it’ll just make you feel worse.
I’ll be company if you need to relieve some stress.
Mikoto: Yeah…… I’m not really, y’know, used to relying on other people. Like, I start to worry that I’m being a burden. And it’s hard for me to deal with feeling so pathetic…… If I do say so myself, I’m super Japanese, haha……
Kazui: Hm…… well, I’m fine whatever. If this is what’s easiest for you, I won’t force you. But you know, being in your 20s is still super young. It’s great that you’re so disciplined, but most people won’t worry if you’re a bit of a burden. I mean, I’m almost 40, and I feel like I’m still a kid now.
Or are you referring to these two conversations-
20/06/19
Kazui: By the way…… thanks, Shina-chan. You keep going around and talking to people to make sure the mood never gets too sour, right? It’s a big help. We’re all in here together, after all. If a fight broke out the whole group could fall apart.
Mahiru: ……eh? Huh~? Ah, no, I’m just talking to people because I personally want to talk. All the kids are so cute, so I can’t help but want to fuss over them! A fight, huh… But if that ever happened, then you’ll definitely be a big help, right~? Since you’re so big! And buff!
Kazui: Ahh, no. I mean, I’ll do what I can. Based on appearance, as long as nobody has a weapon, I think I can probably get everyone under control…… No, we should just hope that nothing like that ever happens.
Mahiru: You know, I quite like watching martial arts, actually. I don’t really get it, but it looks super cool. Hi-yah! Hi-yah!
20/06/23
Futa: Old man, don’t just laze around so carefree like that. Haven’t you thought about how to break out from here? With your physique, you can probably take out the guard and escape, right?
Kazui: Ahh…… Ok, let’s put it this way. You got caught up in a bank robbery, and the culprit has blocked off the police. From a glance, they look pretty weak, and don’t seem to be holding any weapons. Would you try to arrest them yourself?
Futa: ……if it looked like I’d be able to, then I would. You said they’re weak and don’t have any weapons, right? Everyone else in the building’s life is on the line. Those who can fight should fight.
Kazui: Haha, I wouldn’t recommend that. Even if they look weak, they might actually be a lot stronger. They might have an accomplice hiding somewhere. And they might not look like they have a weapon, but could easily be hiding a gun ……you shouldn’t act until you have absolute confidence in your assessment. So, for now I’m going to sit back and assess the situation. And on that note, I’m off for a smoke~
Given that other translations have said he's was saying you should have stopped him like I'd assume he was talking about one of the guys. At best Mikoto since he was brought up by Kazui specifically in his second voice drama. Though other translations have no mentions of gender instead saying them or you (as in Es).
Either way listing everything he really did warn a lot of people that there may not be much he could do if an attack broke out or if they kept happening. So this appears to be an honest reaction to what has happened.
Be the change you want to see. By that I'm mean start treating these character deaths like the prisoners' victims have been treated all series. Start asking what they did to deserve this. Start accusing them of attacking someone else first and deserving it. Throw some cheating allegations in there.
Just start going wild with it.
It's been like that with every other death mentioned here why not again here?
How did this happen? Well, you see, Mahiru went to talk to Shidou and he saw her walking then realized the poison just wasn't working. She just kept living regardless of how and thriving despite the doses. This was taking too long why wouldn't she just,
"You're in my way... hurry up and die."
Who knows. The writing was on the wall everyone had read it but her.
22/01/17 (Mahiru’s Birthday)
Mahiru: My birthday…… the day I was born…… But was there really any reason for me being born? Lately I’ve started to wonder that. Do you ever think about stuff like that, Yuno-chan?
Yuno: Eh? Not really. I mean, Mahiru-san, you’re really the romantic type, right? Not that I have anything against that. But isn’t it a bit much to think that everything in life has a meaning? If it makes you happy to think like that then go ahead, but if it doesn’t, then isn’t that in itself meaningless?
Mahiru: : ……you might be right. I’ve always just lived my life like this, so I don’t really know.
Yuno: We’ve all just gone through a bunch of things in life that happened to lead us here. It’s nothing more than a coincidence. Definitely not fate or anything. Probably. Even if there isn’t a meaning, you can still be happy that it’s your birthday. That sort of thing’s all you need in life really. So happy birthday, Mahiru-san.
The first allusion to the attacks occuring was on Haruka's birthday in 2022. After that the first allusion to Shidou treating the injured was on Amane's birthday of the same year,
22/06/27 (Amane’s Birthday)
Kazui: What’s up, Shidou-kun? You’re looking pretty down. I guess you must be tired, I’ve been relying on you a lot lately.
Shidou: Yeah, I just remembered…… today is Amane’s birthday. I’m just getting a bit sentimental.
Kazui: Hmm, it’s unfortunate, but at the moment we can’t worry about that. ……you understand, right? There’s something that you need to do right now. And if you tried talking to her your words definitely won’t reach her. Don’t look at me like that. We’ll just wait until the situation changes. Let’s do our best.
Shidou: Yeah. I’ll do what I can. I can’t have a child making a face like that. Even though we’re “murderers”…… we’re also the adults here.
Three months later we saw her again on Yuno's birthday. She stated that she was having difficulties moving but if she didn't move too much she doesn't even feel pain.
22/09/02 (Yuno’s Birthday)
Mahiru: ……no, I’m fine. As long as I don’t move too much I don’t even feel any pain. Sorry for making you worry.
Yuno: Oh, really? That’s good then. Mahiru-san, if there’s anything you want then just ask. It’s not like it’s a huge burden, I can just ask for it along with my own stuff.
Mahiru: Ok…… I’m fine for now. Sorry, for making you worry.
Ah, Yuno-chan…… Today’s your birthday, right? Happy birthday.
Yuno: ………… Haha, thanks. Thank you, but y’know. Is it really ok for you to be saying that to me when you’re in that situation? ……you really aren’t suited for Milgram, huh, Mahiru-san.
This news seems to have travelled around the prison. Because when Amane approaches her on her birthday the following year she asks her how her body is feelings.
It has now in canon been going on seven months of her being in Shidou's care.
She tells Amane that she fine and she can move around if she uses a wheelchair. This is the only time this wheelchair is mentioned after this Mahiru begins to drastically deteriorate.
23/01/17 (Mahiru’s Birthday)
Amane: Happy birthday. Mahiru-san. How is your body feeling?
Mahiru: ……ah, Amane-chan. Thank you. Yeah, I’m fine. Now I can move around if I use a wheelchair…… It’s all thanks to Shidou-san looking after me……
Amane: I’ll give you one warning. The two of you are dabbling in something tabooed. If you continue to go against the way of nature like this, you’ll just bring an early death upon yourself. Think hard about this.
Mahiru: Amane-chan……? Are you really Amane-chan……?
Eleven months into her being under Shidou's care while requesting questions for the second trial written interrogation Jackalope notes that Shidou and Mahiru have completely entered the roles of patient and doctor.
23/05/15 (Interrogation Start: Shidou and Mahiru)
Jackalope: Prisoner 05, Shidou Prisoner 06, Mahiru. The interrogations for these two will now be held. Just leave your questions in the comments here. Ask whatever you want to know. This is where you show off your skills as a prison guard. ……hmmm. These two have now totally slipped into the roles of doctor and patient huh. It probably isn’t a good time to be getting interrogated for them…… but, well, it’s the rule.
Over the course of her second trial written interrogation Mahiru's handwriting declines rapidly.
Despite being interrogated together with her and being asked the exact same questions. Shidou doesn't offer to help Mahiru with writing her answers even though she is now completely under his care.
As well as the fact that there have been no rules stating that such a thing isn't allowed and that all prisoners must write their own answers.
Such a drastic and consistent decline in writing alludes to something I've been speculating for a while now. That the prisoners are given all their interrogation questions at once and have to fill them all out at the same time.
We know that Mahiru and Shidou were given these questions together because it is the only way she would come to know that he had kids. As he never brought it up in the timeline before she asked.
Note the next conversation occurs sixteen months after Mahiru began being under Shidou's care.
23/10/24 (Shidou’s Birthday)
Mahiru: You have a family right, Shidou-san……? How does it feel, being married, having kids……?
Shidou: ……yeah, it’s a wonderful thing. Children…… yeah. They really are hope for the future. When you have your own, suddenly it becomes fun growing old. Since as you grow older, you get to see them grow up.
Mahiru: Ah…… how lovely. It was always my dream to become a bride. Though maybe that seems a bit out-dated. I wish it could’ve come true……
Shidou: It isn’t too late. I’m going to make sure you live. So let’s get out of here, and you make your wish come true. ……you still have so much to live for.
Then Kazui asks him later if he has kids so this was new information to everyone and the only place she could have seen that information is on the interrogation card he wrote it.
Q.11 Tell us your family structure.
Shidou: My wife and my 2 kids.
So he could have helped her fill these out and just choose not to despite knowing full and well how servere her injuries were. Which we know he knew because he opens his second voice drama listing them in detail.
Even if they were not made to answer all their interrogation questions at once and Mahiru was given a reasonable amount of time to write her answers. Such as being given one card on the daily basis to fill out that would make the decline in handwriting more odd. Since at that point it would allude to her overall health deteriorating on a daily bases to the point that she can't even write like she used to be able to anymore.
All still while being under Shidou's constant care.
On Amane's birthday Yuno states that Mahiru has finally managed to get to sleep. Implying that Mahiru has not only had pain related issues but sleep ones as well.
23/06/27 (Amane’s Birthday)
Amane: What is it…… Kashiki Yuno. Don’t sit so close to me. Go away.
Yuno: Sorry for barging in when you’re getting into your worldview thing. But Mahiru-san’s finally managed to get to sleep. Humour me with some small talk while I take a break. By the way, Amane. Have you ever wished you were never born? I’ve thankfully lived a pretty fun life so far, so haven’t really. But you seem to be struggling with something. So I kinda wondered if you thought like that.
Amane: ……I don’t think that. Being born into this world is the first miracle any person experiences, and is something to celebrate. Even if after birth I was put through trial after trial, the value of that will never disappear.
Yuno: Hmm. Ok. ……happy birthday, then. It’s good that you were brought into the world, I guess.
This conversation takes place twelve months or one year into Mahiru being under Shidou's care.
At this point her condition has not improved at all. She has rapidly gotten worse she's lost all mobility is implied to be bed ridden and for a time from this point forward will only be approached by others. Her state has declined so much under Shidou's care that she now needs two people to take care of her and is stated to constant attention/vigilance to make sure nothing happens to further exacerbate her condition.
Meanwhile the second part to get injured over the second trial intermission has only gotten better without any of Shidou's care. So much so that he's walking around checking up on other prisoners. So, it's not a matter of not being able to heal in Milgram but we'll see that in her last interaction.
On Kazui's birthday that same year Shidou laments that due to him putting all his time into taking care of Mahiru he hasn't been able to help Kazui around the prison.
23/08/05 (Kazui’s Birthday)
Kazui: Hey, it’s been a while since we last talked. You’ve been working hard lately. Are you doing ok? Should I give you a shoulder massage?
Shidou: ……no, there’s no need to worry. You’re surely on edge at the moment too, after all, Mukuhara-san. Since I’ve been devoting my time to Shiina-kun, I haven’t had time to help with the rest of the prison. Sorry for leaving everything to you.
Kazui: No, it’s fine. I haven’t done anything really. ……you take on too much responsibility on your own. Make sure you rest a bit too. Oh, that’s right, today’s my birthday. So how about you join me for a smoke? As a present.
Shidou: ……I guess it’s precisely because we’re in this situation that things like that are necessary too. Happy birthday. I’ll join you. Can you lend me a cigarette?
Presumably it's during this birthday smoke break that Shidou tells Kazui that Yuno has been helping him. His first response is to later go up to Yuno on her birthday and as why she's doing that. To which she responds with,
"If there’s someone dying in front of you anyone would do what they could to help."
Further cementing that Mahiru has not moved one step away from deaths door in now fifteen months of being under Shidou's care. Spoiler alert she doesn't die any better than she started trial two.
23/09/02 (Yuno’s Birthday)
Kazui: I heard you’ve been helping Shidou-kun out. ……er, sorry if this comes across as rude, but it’s kind of unexpected. It always seemed like you didn’t care that much about other people.
Yuno: Hmm? What’s with that all of a sudden. I mean, you’re right, I don’t care much. But if there’s someone dying in front of you anyone would do what they could to help, right? And anyway, aren’t you the same? You usually don’t care much either, right?
Kazui: ……I wonder. This old man isn’t as much of a thinker as you are. I mean, until now I’ve been in an environment where it’s all about having physical strength. So I’ve never really thought about stuff like that.
Yuno: Haha, we’re the same in that we’re both liars too. I guess the difference is the reasons we lie. You care about yourself, so lie to protect yourself. I don’t care about anyone at all, including myself.
Now we're in 2024 and her condition is still notably bad. Like still really bad like at a glance you can tell something is wrong bad. This timeline takes place twenty-four months after Mahiru was placed under Shidou's care. It has been two full years.
She has the same injuries from two years ago while Futa is walking around jus fine. No wonder he's concerned and going,
"As long as treatment continues, huh. …… I wonder how you’re going to be saved."
Because if the treatment hasn't worked so far and they've all been here witnessing the treatment this whole time. Seeing it not work while Mahiru is just here like but Shidou's a doctor and he says if I do x, y, and z I'll be better and no time. Don't worry the treatment will work sure I've been this way for two years but it'll work Shidou is a good and honest person I trust him. Beyond that just you showing concern for me has saved me already.
Dr.Malpractice off in his cell wondering what the fuck he can keep getting away with today. At a point they had to have gone yeah we gotta kill him. Like at a point they must have started getting a bit suspicious. None of these people are unobservant.
24/01/17 (Mahiru’s Birthday)
Futa: ……hey. Oi, Mahiru. You’re in pretty bad shape, right……? Isn’t there anything that can be done?
Mahiru: What’s up, Futa-kun? Yeah, I’m not great…… But Shidou-san’s been looking after me…… And he says if we keep going like this, I’ll get much better……
Futa: ……right. As long as treatment continues, huh. …… I wonder how you’re going to be saved.
Mahiru: Saved……? Are you worried about me? …… You’ve been a lot kinder lately, Futa-kun. …… I feel like I’ve been saved just hearing those words from you.
Then we've got the timeline before the end. In which yuno tells the audience and Shidou straight-up she does not know what he's getting at by saying she should become a doctor. Because the only thing she's done is follow his lead. Possibly with the expectation he was doing what he claimed he was going to do help Mahiru get better.
Yuno isn't a doctor she wouldn't be able to check him on if he was doing something wrong or not. She just knows that Mahiru's condition has just gotten worse and worse. So more help is needed or she may really die. She doesn't even fully understand the treatment Shidou is giving Mahiru saying she's just helping with whatever he's doing.
24/09/02 (Yuno’s Birthday)
Shidou: Thank you for your assistance with Shiina-kun’s treatment.
It’s been a big help having you here. Both for her and for me. It’s good to know that even if something happens to me, you’ll still be around.
Yuno: No way. I can’t do anything on my own. All I’m doing is helping with whatever you’re doing. It’s just like playing pretend as a nurse.
Shidou: No, you’ve got a good sense for things like this. You’re quick to notice things, calm, and fearless. If you haven’t decided what you want to be in the future, maybe you should consider becoming a doctor yourself.
Yuno: You think so? ……haha, stop it. I don’t want to be thinking about the future right now. And for someone like me to have other people’s lives in my hands…… that’s no laughing matter.
Then we get to the nail in the coffin. Kotoko's birthday,
24/12/15 (Kotoko’s Birthday)
Mahiru: Kotoko-chan… are you there…? I'm so-rry, for calling out to you. It's a bit… hard, for me to move… I'll need, to also give my thanks, to Shidou-san…
Kotoko: Going out of your way to meet with me. You're such an airhead it's not even funny. Well…. Go on then, if you've got something to say I think I'll hear out the reproach of a dying woman.
Mahiru: The re-proach…? Oh, its nothing like that… [All I want to say is] Happy, Birthday.
Kotoko: ………… You're out of your goddamn mind.
Where even Kotoko could see Mahiru was dying. She never got a step away from dying. Everyone was always so focused on other things. Could come up for a million and one excuses for why Mahiru's health situation wasn't improving. All because some wanted to put all their faith in the doctor because why would a doctor-
Who openly told us that he committed malpractice. That he couldn't stop himself. That he'd do it again because he couldn't stay away and that's why he wanted this all to end do that same thing again? Why would he do exactly what he warned the audience he'd do if given the opportunity? Which is gain the trust of people due to his credentials as well as the severity of the circumstances then weaponize his credentials to emphasizes his own importance in order to commit the same fucking crime in front of everyone.
While people swear up and down time works differently in Milgram that's why she's not healing as fast. We don't even know if the prisoners are alive so maybe they can't heal once they're injured. While Futa is over here like man I listened to the child and stopped relying on Shidou and I've only continued to get better. This shit is ridiculous usually you're told to always listen to your doctor but what if your doctor weaponizes that blind faith and societal rule against you to cause irreparable harm wow it's always important to get a second opinion and think for yourself at times. Luckily I got out.
Right now people are emphasizing how Shidou warned us about Amane. Told us something had to be done about Amane. No one is touching on the fact that Shidou and Amane were both voted innocent. How both of their verdicts led to this outcome. How Amane warned the audience about Shidou and his behavior. Warned Mahiru that what she was doing would lead her to an early death.
No one is asking if Shidou was guilty and Amane innocent would he be the only one out of that pair dead right now. Instead we validated both of them seeing full and well how Shidou was caring for Mahiru every step of the way. Feeling the time drag on and seeing her condition worsen not improve. Yet many kept telling themselves no he's actually doing what he said he would do.
He wouldn't do it again. Milgram is just weird. We don't know enough about the space to say that's not impacting how long it takes for these injuries to heal. So his behavior was validated again and maybe if it wasn't Mahiru might still fucking be here. Because if she was given the space to properly heal instead of being kept at deaths door in immense physical pain and emotional distress for two years.
By this man who can only feel validated in his own existence and as though his life has purpose when he has someone else to take care of then maybe she could have at least spent her last days in less pain then she died in here. Because there is no reason that her injuries should have remained for twenty-nine months.
To the extent that she was still having trouble moving and looking as though she was at death's door to anyone who saw her before she was ever even lost. It sucks but a lot of people including myself have speculated he was committing malpractice again as soon as he was voted innocent and Mahiru was voted innocent but her condition still continued to worsen many suspected that.
And it sucks that Mahiru had to suffer for the audience blind trust this medical professional that the work has done everything in its power to display commits malpractice and isn't safe to have around injured or sick people. They literally could not have announced this harder. Maybe he didn't do it. But it's still weird that all the injuries he lists Mahiru having in his second voice drama at most take three to six months to heal and she was still recovering from allegedly the injuries Kotoko gave her until she died.
"Head lacerations. Bruising all over her body. A sprained neck. Fractured ribs. Further fracturing of the left arm. And furthermore... This may be outside of my profession, but her mental health is deteriorating as well."
Maybe the number of injuries all together and the inadequate equipment within Milgram made it take longer. Yet she never got better in over two years. She couldn't walk without feeling pain. She started out being able to at least move a little without pain and through the use of a wheelchair but even that stopped.
She just got worse and worse until she died. Then the one time we saw her up and walking before she died Shidou was nowhere to be found. Last she said she was gonna go find him to say thank you. Who knows how that went or why she couldn't find him to begin with especially since his cell is right next to hers. That would imply he wasn't in it which maybe.
I just know that if she was given time to heal if Shidou did back off a bit maybe she wouldn't have been in as fragile a state as she was. Well at least she doesn't have to spend another birthday writhing in pain from wounds that seem to never heal.
"This adorable, earnest, sincere ♥ Is bleeding, wailing, this is the end."
What really gets to me about how people talk about yesterday's video is that everyone keeps talking as if trial 1 just never happened? Like it's all about how the results of trial 2 impacted the prison but like that's not how it works? Trial 3 is supposed to be the culmination of every veredict so far, what happened in trial 2 was a direct result of the veredicts in trial one you can't just separete one from the other. "Amane should've been guilty then Shidou would still be alive" "Mu should've been innovent then haruka would be alive", actually Amane should've been innocent trial one then she wouldn't have been as openly aggressive in trial 2, maybe Mu should've been guilty trial 1 then she and haruka wouldn't have gotten close formed a co dependency. Kotoko should've been guilty trial one then Mahiru wouldn't have been at death's door for the last trial and maybe the prison wouldn't have been as bad in trial 2. And again this is just maybe. The decisions these characters take depend not only on their individual veredicts but also how the audience but also how they interact with the other characters. Like Mahiru's guilty veredict isn't what killed her in trial 2. It influenced her attitude but Kotoko's innocent veredict and her actions after that had more impact on her than her own veredict did. The things that are happenning right now and will happen in trial 3 are not a result of trial 2, they're a result of everything that has happened so far, every veredict, every comment people made about the characters, every decisions the characters took and every interaction they had. You can't blame and point fingers only at a certain group of people or characters and claim they are responsible for the dead characters, especially because we don't even know how it happened yet, and we won't know for a while until they tell us in the commencement announcement.
