I am so tired of fake friends. I am sick of putting effort into a relationship only to have my heart broken. I am so scarred by past ‘friends’ that have hurt me that I am afraid to make new friends. I am so scared of being burned again that I can barely put myself out there. And I hate how much I doubt the people in my life. I look at my best friend and ask When are you gonna leave me too. I know I am bad at keeping in touch, but its a two way street and with so many people it just seems one sided. I am doing all the work with none of the gain because my heart ends up in pieces all the same. Too many times have I not even been invited to the wedding of someone I thought I was close to. And even one who I called my best friend. no more. I am tired of having my heart shattered.














