the blue sunset.

what if sunsets were blue? trigger warning ~ only to express my thoughts and feelings. not promoting anything. profile picture is mine.

[sinnamon-cat]

2026 and i still wanna d!e

[sinnamon-cat]

mannn depression does live with you forever

[sinnamon-cat]

i literally dont want to be alive anymore

[sinnamon-cat]

i feel so much emotions in me. i feel overwhelmed. like i cant process anything. i feel rage, i feel sadness. i want to cry. like really cry. like shout yell scream kind of cry. i cant explain it. i dont understand what this is. i feel like im drowning again.

[br0ken-and-lost-deactivated2018]

6:26 AM

[sinnamon-cat]

sadly, it's true.

[sinnamon-cat]

bro i wanna die

[goretzkas-moved-deactivated2023]

going through the horrors (sunday evening)

[hirxeth]

[rjmxrell]

“A wound that will not heal.”

—

[smiles-advice]

there is no such thing as being "behind in life" but it's okay to recognise that you missed out on some things whilst you were busy surviving

[bpdcrybaby213]

Sometimes I want to let the mental illness consume me fully so I can stop fighting and not be exhausted anymore. Sometimes I want to give up and feel the release.

[bpdcrybaby213]

What do you really do with all these self destructive thoughts? When you aren't allowed to act on them, when you don't want to hurt loved ones, when you want to try harder to get better...where do you put the thoughts and urges? They're so fucking loud...

[sinnamon-cat]

my sister knows now that i needed therapy back then and that i was depressed & suicidal... she probably thinks im not anymore & i dont blame her because i dont tell anyone. bc im scared. of being shut out? idk i dont want others to ask me whats wrong because i dont know what to tell them. im just... sad? i cant explain it nor do i have the energy to talk about it. im scared of being belittled again? of being told that my problems arent the worst. that others have it worse than me. i just feel like even if i do get help now, i have ZERO energy to explain anything or do anything about it. so i sit here. quietly. and keep it all in. bc its the only option. i dont worry my parents or my family. i dont waste money on therapy and medications. i dont become.. a problem... more than i already am. does that make sense... lol i just wanna die but im living for my dogs :,)

[beautifuldarkmind]

I’m jealous of those who can function like a normal human being. They don’t have anxiety holding them back from everything, they don’t struggle to get out of bed or have to put on an act that everything is fine when its not. They don’t struggle to hold friendships and relationships… they don’t feel sad for no fucking reason everyday. Those that can hold jobs and work towards their dreams, the ones who have self esteem and see the beauty in themselves. Those that know what its like to feel safe and secure, not insecure and fearful of it all. 

[sinnamon-cat]

it's been 10 years & im still like this... does it really get better... 🥲

[sinnamon-cat]

i still think about killing myself.

- just thoughts.

[abnormall]

i am tired. i am exhausted. from my head to my soul to my bones i am so fucking tired.