искренне

everything you despise i will become it

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watching trigger for the plot

the plot in question:

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“ if you live in something unreal for too long, you stop noticing the value of what is real. the scent of flowers, the soft breeze, falling leaves and gentle rain, only when you truly feel them do you realize how beautiful they are. ”

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the plot that i can't wait for:

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moon baek's obsession with lee do makes me hurt.

just imagine what would have happened if that innocent child hadn't been abandoned by his own mother? 

if he hadn't fallen into the hands of child traffickers? 

if he hadn’t gone through all those terrible things that he had to go through?

if cruel life hadn't broken him?

would he have been the cheerful, funny, chaotic, and ever-smiling moon baek-i from the first part of the kdrama? 

and if moon baek and lee do had met anyway, but under these conditions... would moon baek have been able to heal him? 

i can't stop thinking about all of this, and my head is so full of thoughts that it's about to explode.

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it's been 11 days since i watched trigger, but i still can't stop thinking about kim fucking youngkwang

call it a daily routine (i'm going insane)

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omfg i'm on my knees

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‘‘every cell in your body knows...

...that it's love.’’

‘‘no, i'm not so sure. something is stirring in me, but i don't know if i can call that love...

...or if i'm even someone worthy of it.’’

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i was afraid . . .

. . . that i shared something in common with someone i never wanted to be like.

i needed to prove that i wasn't him.

i needed to prove i would never make the same choices as my father did.

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‘‘if you hadn't rescued me today, i would have died in the fire.’’

‘‘zang hai... i used to think of you as an aide. you were my subordinate, nothing more. but after i rescued you from the fire, i realized that i have long regarded you as my family.’’