SINS LIFE

Stop living like you live again.

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Please watch this - it’s important to me!!

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Threesome Tips!!

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Johnny crashes my vlog and we talk about fucking Cali Carter and I talk to Johnny about premature ejaculation from his vlog!! Lol it’s confusing just watch it haha

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Episode 3, What I was like BEFORE porn!!

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Episode 2!! 30 Random Facts About Me!!

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Daily Video Diary “Bathtime with Kissa” Episode 1 The Intro!!

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Fitness life hack: add a protein shake (1 scoop of protein + water) to a high carb meal to balance your macros!! This morning for breakfast I had: 1/2 mini whole wheat baguette (Whole Foods) 2 tbsp homemade hummus 1 vine tomato large 4oz corn/arugula salad And it was really high carb/low protein even though it was still a very healthy meal. So I added a protein shake to balance my macros and get my protein up!! The photo on the left (above) shows my macros before I added the shake... 59% carbs. The photo of the right (above) shows my macros AFTER I did the shake, and you can see it improves my carb % by 10% which is huge!! This is still a very high carb meal but I’m going to the gym after I digest this delicious meal so it’s ok. Love you guys!! Kissa

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I just reblogged 1 of my first ever posts about the day I met Johnny called “Failing at a One Night Stand” you should read it!! Crazy it was 4yrs ago now!! Check it out below!!👇🏼👇🏼

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Today I had this crazy out of body experience as I floated on my back in the ocean, looking at the clouds above me.  I filled my whole chest up with air until my body floated to the surface and my topless tits pierced the top of the water, my head relaxed and floating like it was on a pillow.  My face was above water but my head was halfway below, including my ears which muted the sounds of world in a very serene way.  I stared up at the clouds which were moving very quickly …fluffy and white with the sun peeking in and out behind them.  The clouds kept moving and exposed a cloudless blue area in the sky and I could see the sliver of a moon in the parting of the clouds.  It was so extremely beautiful there’s no way I could really describe it.  Then suddenly the cutest rogue black cloud floated by and covered the sun for a brief 90 seconds, and as I floated there on my back - looking up at the sky, it starts to rain.  It rains a light, warm rain, and I start to smile, bigger and bigger.  The raindrops fall on my face and I can feel every one of them individually touch my skin.  And as I was smiling and the rain was falling and the black cloud moved away and exposed the sun again I thought, there is nothing more important in life than realizing that we are just tiny, minuscule specks in this great big beautiful universe and there is nothing more to do than enjoy the time we have here while we’ve got it

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My Inner Desires

When I first met Johnny 4 years ago I was pretty much sexually innocent. I had only slept with a handful of men (which is still true) and although I have always adored sex, I was kinda a prude at the time. I remember the first night we ever fucked my mind was blown… the intensity of how he fucked me, the shock of seeing the size of his big veiny cock, the ways he pushed my sexuality that night. The pain of his massive cock penetrating my sore pussy the morning after and the fact that it didn’t matter because my pussy already belonged to him and he could do with it what he wanted. I was hooked, and still am. Since then I have remained loyal to only his cock, always by my choice. So many people have and continue to accuse him of “holding me back” or “not allowing me” to fuck other men. But that’s so completely opposite of what’s actually true, like most assumptions people make on the internet. The truth is he supports me no matter what I choose to do, and he tells me that every day. For me I was just happy having 1 big cock to share with all the women that I adore - as everyone knows I am obsessed with women and have never felt the need to fuck another man. Until now.

 Ever since the first night that we fucked, over 4 years ago now, my sexuality has been growing and overflowing and developing into an insatiable monster of a sex drive that is totally uncontrollable. My pussy and orgasms and sexual appetite is a greedy little cunt that begs to be punished. I’m into shit sexually that most people think is crazy, like, I’ve gone from only doing missionary during sex 4 years ago to now loving cum in my eyes. I’ve never been pushed to my limit or even anything close to it, and I yearn for it. I have this new burning desire to explore my sexuality and see where it takes me. I want to experience other men. I want to experience different things and push myself and see where it takes me!! How could I go my entire life without fucking a black man? Or getting fucked by 2 guys at once? Do you ever think about shit like that? I want it.

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Yesterday I sat down to do yoga for the first time in oh I don’t know 2 months? And immediately started crying. I wasn’t even feeling sad!! It was like I just finally sat down and faced myself and even the simple meditation of simply sitting the fuck down and trying to clear my brain and not constantly checking my phone got to me and I couldn’t stop crying. I’m so happy I am working on centering myself again and getting better. I only did a light yoga session but it was beautiful with the tears streaming down my face. I tried to concentrate on every detail of what was happening and just let it happen. Today I am back in the gym for the first time too and it’s very exciting!!!!!!!

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Hey guys!! So tonight I made my first 100% vegan dinner and it was honestly one of the best meals I’ve ever made - basically just a toasted baguette with hummus and bruschetta on top, but it was so fresh and healthy it was perfect!! it’s so easy and 100% vegan and everything is homemade with so many different flavors it really makes you forget there’s no meat on it!! All I would change next time is maybe adding some mashed up beans to give it more protein, or if you’re NOT vegan just add some chicken breast!! Here’s the recipe: Hummus: 1.5 cup cooked chickpeas (canned is ok and easy!!) 2 lemons, juice only 2 cloves garlic pressed 2 tbsp tahini (buy at Whole Foods in the nut butter section) 1 tbsp extra virgin olive oil 1/4 cup water Salt + I added sun dried tomatoes to 1/2 of this batch. Try adding things like red pepper or anything else you can think of!! Combine all the things in a food processor or blender. Taste it and add more garlic or lemon or tahini if you want!! Bruschetta: 3 cups tomatoes (I used cherry heirloom tomatoes but any tomatoes you like will work) 1/4 cup onion 2 cloves garlic Salt and pepper Basil Balsamic vinegar to taste Chop everything as big or small as you want and combine and let sit covered for a few hours or overnight if you can. Then I just toasted a whole wheat baguette that I cut in half down the middle, spread the hummus on, and put the bruschetta on top!! It was so tasty and juicy delicious and I felt great after :)

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This post has been kinda hard to write so I’m just going to write it and not go back and edit it or I’ll just keep deleting everything I say so I’m sorry for any typos lol.

Ever since moving to Las Vegas from our former home in Maui I have admittedly totally lost my way. When I lived in Maui, I worked out with my personal trainer 5x a week, I did yoga almost every day, and I counted every single calorie I ate 6 days a week with 1 epic cheat day. I had never been happier than this. I was so healthy and my body was getting better and better every day and I felt so good about myself. I know it might seem like a lot of work to count all your calories and macros every day but I had such a good time doing it, and I never felt gross after a meal and I felt so ACCOMPLISHED. My head was so clear and happy and I was SO healthy phsyically and emotionally... and I never got sick or felt gross or bad about myself.

When we moved here I immediately started working so much (29-30 days a month) that I didn’t have time to workout, and definitely don’t have time to count my macros and eat clean because it’s just simply easier to grab something on the go. I started drinking a lot. When I feature dance (for those who don’t know, feature dancing means strip clubs hire pornstars to “feature” dance/host their club for the night) I have to get so fucked up to deal with feature dancing that it’s really not healthy, and that’s why I have decided to quit feature dancing all together. My last show is in Vegas at the end of October and then I am done. I am an addict by nature and just can’t handle being in that environment without getting too fucked up, it’s as simple as that. So now I eat whatever whenever, gross fast food and garbage food in general and I don’t work out and I get fucked up. It’s exactly opposite of how I was in Maui. And I need to change that!!!!!!!

More importantly than losing all my fitness progress, I have really lost my way in my head. I am nervous, anxious, and although I’m still the happy person I always was, I’m not even close to as happy as I was. I started arguing with people I love, and just generally haven’t been as good as a friend to myself to anyone else. I have lost my way you guys :(

I want to first of all say that I really do love shooting porn, especially for my own company. I really love it. I am in no way blaming porn for me losing my way... and I aim to prove that by just GETTING BACK INTO MY GROOVE. All I need to do is FOCUS on myself and my health. I think that quitting feature dancing is something that I need to do for my health, and is necessary for my health and if I just get back to working out and counting my macros again I can get back to where I was psychically and emotionally when I was living in Maui. Feature dancing also meant I was travelling a lot which meant I was never home and it was really hard for me. I’m not saying other girls can’t handle this but for me I can’t and so that’s why I’m stopping the featuring. I had a blast while it lasted though!!!!!!!

I just need to center myself again.

SO anyways, just writing you guys because it was a huge part of YOU GUYS that helped me on my Fitness Journey before, so I guess I’m looking to you again to help motivate me, and I hope I can motivate you again too!!

I LOVE YOU GUYS!!

Kissa

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Here are the macros for the meal I just posted!! Mostly CARBS lol. It’s difficult for a lifelong meat and egg eater to figure out how to get enough protein BUT I WILL FIGURE IT OUT!!

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So after a crazy weekend of being unhealthy and regretting everything I ate, I decided that I need to get back on the healthy wagon. I will write more in my next blog post about how HORRIBLY off track I’ve gotten since moving back to Vegas from Maui, but for now here is my first attempt at my first vegan meal.

First I’ll start off by saying I’m not actually trying to go vegan yet bc I know that if I jump right into it I will end up failing so I’m just taking things slowly and trying not to label what I’m doing. But in general I’m starting by cutting out eggs, dairy, all meat except fish, and unhealthy things in general.

So this morning I started with a sampling of things that I’ve seen on vegan blogs etc.

Today’s meal included an organic spinach wrap, avocado, tomatoes, mini bagels with peanut butter for protein, bananas and raspberries, and a vegan chai tea coffee. Then after breakfast I had a scoop of protein powder in water.

As healthy as this was, it was FULL of carbs and not enough protein. So my job now is to figure out how to balance my carbs/fats/proteins without eating eggs or meat!!!!

If you have any tips please let me know!! :)

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I think I love my birthday so much because when I was younger my mom and her friends and my family would always get so fucking drunk and start fighting with each other on regular holidays like Christmas, that those holidays always brought back bad memories for me. But for some reason no one would fight or get their ass beat on my birthday lol and everything was really happy!! So still to this day I wake up like the suns shining out of my ass on my birthday and it’s just the best day EVER EVER EVER better than all the days LOL!! I want 1000 hugs and 1000 kisses and 1000 orgasms and to just be super happy all day and be the most special girl in the world :) My birthday is in 7 days!! ((6/22)) and I’m so excited!! I’m like a little kid on my birthday lol it’s my favorite day of the year.