[sirmateox]

Heart break hangout

In a frantic scurry to waste my time

I find a girl

I hit her line

Just so I can think I’m fine

I hang with 4s and yearn for 9s

I wouldn’t be so desperate and stressed

If you would just answer my text

It’s you I want there’s no one else

But I’ll fill that void to distract my self

I’ll have the talks

I’ll walk the walks

I’ll do this while it’s you I stalk

I’ll have some girl thinking she matters

When really I’d rather take the latter

I sit around frustrated

Self inflicted and guilted

A boiling pain

Like a plant that’s wilted

I’m losing life but I feel secure

I’m happy but I’m so unsure

Of what you want and what I’ll get

If I’ve wasted enough of my time yet

[zodiac--signs]

conflicting sun/moon combinations

when your needs and wants are almost opposite. Aries Sun/Virgo Moon Taurus Sun/Aries Moon Gemini Sun/Cancer Moon Cancer Sun/Aquarius Moon Aquarius Sun/Scorpio Moon Scorpio Sun/Gemini Moon Sagittarius Sun/Taurus Moon Pisces Sun/Aquarius Moon

[sirmateox]

Strength or Weakness

Those who live emotionless suffer deep inside Those who live expressively have nothing left to hide The surface seems to portray wounds that only time can heal But what of those who never know what it’s like to feel The weight that comes with a working heart is a pain that the latter can’t fathom The others though they envy that they simply cannot have them.

M.R

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Short term memory loss

I used to get upset

When I’d sit around have a good time and then forget

I couldn’t keep up with the times in my mind

I’d have a great day

It’d be so surreal and sublime

And now I sit around pondering

Wondering about all that pain I felt

did I really want it

Talking about all the girls I had all the stupid flaunting

Hurting others

Man i swear I wish I didn’t

And I put that on my mother

Now I see you in a dream

And you always acting mean

And you Always run away

And I always wish you’d stay

Then I wake up

Flustered and so dazy

I thought that I got over this shit

This shit is crazy

But I guess I didn’t

I tossed it in the back for the hell of it

In my subconscious I swear I thought you were irrelevant

The memories that haunt me

They’re so short term

I thought that I’d feel better

Once I learned

The ashes oh the ashes

They still burn

Thought I tossed that shit up in a urn

Smashed it on the ground

Stomped on all pieces

Now there’s shards of glass in my foot

And traces of you

To symbolize the pain

Of everything we went through

And the wounds won’t heal

For your years I’d steal

Maybe amnesia is a blessing

Maybe those who forget also don’t carry the stress and

Maybe I should just get some more therapy

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Wow it’s been like a year since I’ve posted. Do I really only ever get sad about women?lol so weird. I gotta learn to let shit go.

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Why should I be afraid to tell the world how i feel

[sirmateox]

I’ll find you again

[aguidetolivingwell]

[anxietyproblem]

[brittany-murphy]

[sirmateox]

Tumblr was better when there were porn gifs

[sirmateox]

Balance

Never

Forget

[bubbles]

sexual attraction: wow I wanna fuck that

romantic attraction: wow I wanna date that

sensual attraction: wow I wanna cuddle that

aesthetic attraction: wow that exists

[sirmateox]

Dread

[hilarioushumorfromouterspace]

[zanmor]

BEHOLD THE

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