love bomb

cho siyeon. lovecraft's main dance, sub vocal, center & budding variety star.

[siyeonft]

to heart;

&. for @fthaerim *  ↪ a practice room, dingbat company, january 2019

aside from her family house, the practice room was the one place siyeon truly felt at home. the dorms, while used for sleeping and spending downtime, weren’t places she could really called home. being at the dorms just reminded her that she was still under scrutiny and rules, even if it was only their manager whenever they decided to drop by or do random spot checks. but when she was in an empty studio, she was brought back to her childhood which she spent most of her time in, practicing and practicing and practicing, and that felt like home to her. it was something so ingrained in her, so natural, that even though she was still technically under a watchful eye, she hardly remembered the fact and could solely focus on dancing.

as a result, it’s not out of the ordinary to find siyeon in a vacant practice room whenever she has no schedules. in fact, if someone was in a hurry to locate her, they would be able to here there 8 out of 10 times so to anyone who knows her, it’s unsurprising that she also chose today to do some self-practice. she and the other lovecraft girls had been told that they would be starting preparations for their next comeback soon which meant strict diets and extra practice (or for siyeon, even more practice) so she wanted to make use of every possible spare moment.

after doing the usual stretches, she launches straight into the choreo for some of their past songs to warm up and then starts on the dance cover she’d been working on for fun. everything was going smoothly just like it always did and because she’s always so absorbed and focused when in the zone, siyeon doesn't notice the small droplets of sweat on the floor and thus, can't step around it. instead, she slips on it when she goes to do a turn and promptly falls on her behind, legs thrust out from the force.

she first lets out a short yell from the suddenness and then a grimace follows once she feels a jolt of pain shoot from her foot through her leg. her first thought is not wondering if she’s okay for her own personal well-being, but is wondering if this will affect their upcoming comeback. not only is she the main dancer of the group but the center on top of that so there’s a certain added pressure in addition to her already strong pride and determination to always be the best. she relies on her body so much for her career so the thought of having to potentially sit out of promotions if it turns out to be bad enough shape makes siyeon feel like she failed, and failure is never an option for her.

but before she can get too wrapped up in her thoughts, she reminds herself to figure out if she's really injured or not first so she drags herself over to her bag--which thankfully isn't too far from where she fell--and pulls out her phone to send a text.

              ✉ msg → leader ♡                  ↪ can you come to the practice room at the company right now? please ;;;

after including the practice room number she was currently occupying, she sends the message and promptly falls backward to lay on the floor. now’s as good as time as any to rest, she supposes.

[gfriendunited]

190121 gfriendofficial Instagram update

[siyeonft]

slip and spill;

&. for @ftdemi *   ↪ backstage at some music show, 2018

there are few mistakes that siyeon would ever own up to, her pride and stubbornness getting in the way of any apologies--sincere or not--but this? this was one of those times.

if there was one thing you should never do in a business like this, it’s cross someone who’s been in the game longer than you have even if it’s only by a year and especially if it’s someone who’s not afraid to be straight forward and tell you that you were in the wrong (or so the rumors say, anyways) because there’s no way it’ll end well. they may be nice about it but they may also not be and that’s a chance siyeon would rather not take, yet here she was, staring wide eyed at the scene in front of her: an iced coffee that was just in her hand seconds ago now sprawled all over the front of silver’s demi’s outfit.

she really should’ve looked where she was going and she really should’ve chosen this moment to be more attentive then maybe she would’ve noticed that her shoe lace had come undone and maybe she would’ve tied it up instead of tripping over it and causing this mess. but maybe if she prays hard enough, the ground will open up and swallow her whole because she sure as heck isn’t dumb enough to pray that she comes out of this unscathed. she’s never talked to demi on a personal level, or even at all to be quite honest, as most of the times when they’ve crossed paths, it’s siyeon bowing politely to her before being shuffled away so she would’ve liked to if given the chance-- but not like this.

“i’m so sorry!” the apology comes out in a rush, her face flushed and flustered as she tries to quickly figure out what to do or what to say to make this somehow better even if it’s only a fraction. “really really sorry!” her eyes dart around, hoping to find paper towels or napkins or something; anything, really, when a staff member walks by just then with a towel slung over their shoulder. without thinking, she grabs the item, bowing all the while as she apologizes for the suddenness before turning her attention to demi again, albeit hesitantly. she was so caught up in her frenzy that she wasn’t even aware of what the other’s reaction was and only now realized. “i really am sorry but maybe this can help?” she holds out the towel and hopes for the best.

[ftlina-blog]

* kind of funny.

[siyeonft]

ftlina·:

“ never mind me. i’m … like i said, i’m tired. ”

the day, just like any other, goes by in a flash. between practically back-to-back schedules, being herded like sheep from place to place, and constantly being watched like a hawk, it’s no wonder the days seem to blend together and become a blur. she’s usually tired and some level of exhausted most of the time anyways so she doesn’t exactly take the time to memorize or note every detail or going-on as she’d prefer to be catching up on sleep whenever and wherever she could if given the choice.

the day, however, is also not like the others, and siyeon is slouched in her seat and wide awake instead, headphones half-in her ears and music playing through the speakers at a decent volume. her thinking is that she has to be able to easily hear their managers or staff if they say anything to her lest she be assumed to be ignoring them (although the idea of doing just that tempts her every time). so when she hears lina speak to her, it comes as a surprise as she expected the other to have been sleeping because that’s what she would’ve been doing if her mind wasn’t so alert at the moment.

she makes a sound of agreement as she pulls out one of her headphones and puts her phone down, slightly shifting her body in the direction of her group mate. “yeah but i would really like to.” siyeon lets out a small laugh although the sound is not very vibrant or enthusiastic-- she’s some sort of weird mix of tired but not and her body can’t seem to make up its mind. “overtired might be it. or restlessness? i feel like i want to practice for five hours straight but i also want to just sleep for like, five years.”

if she’s being honest with herself, siyeon’s not really sure where this conversation came from or why. it’s not like she doesn’t like her members because that’s far from the truth. she loves them and their group, solo ambitions aside, and although they might not always be best buds and there are some she gets along with better than others, she cares for them all in her own way. she’s more observant than people may guess, she just chooses not to be most of the time, mostly because it’s just a lot of work and time she could spend doing other things she deemed more important. but for her members? she cares. she worries. she knows full well the stress they go through daily and the life they’re leading so even if she’s just as tired or exhausted or just done, if she can be a helpful hand when they reach out, she’ll grab onto them.

so she does the first thing that comes to mind and places a hand on lina’s arm, staring straight into her eyes. “you don’t have to talk about anything but you know i’m always here for you, right? we’re always tired--it’s like our thing, i guess--so even though i might not fully understand what you’re going through or feeling right now--if anything, anyways--and even if we’re ever not on good terms, i’m here.” she lets out a smile then, features softening in a rare-to-most moment of expressing her true feelings. “we’re in this together, you know?” it was a bit or maybe a lot cheesy and siyeon doesn’t know if there really is anything lina’s worrying about (she’s always had a policy of not prying unless invited, knowing that that’s how she would want others to treat her) but she hopes that the sentiment still gets through regardless because it’s true and it always will be. the industry is a tough place and it’s even tougher if you don’t have people around supporting you.

[siyeonft]

siyeonft·:

HELLO i’m back with siyeon who is now lovecraft’s main dance, sub vocal, center and budding variety star!! my original intro post is still up and mostly relevant since i only made a few minor tweaks to siyeon’s background but they probably aren’t that important to most of you lmao

if you wanna give everything a read again or you just want to read my novels, here is her profile & bio! the plots page is still up but currently under construction as i revamp some of them and free up others but now up[ so if anything there interests you still, just lmk!! otherwise, i’d love to brainstorm something with you all or take a look at your plots page instead, just im me on here, on discord @ tsunderes#0782 or LIKE this post and i’ll message you first!

for those who were here pre-revamp, i’ll probably drop any threads we had going on before UNLESS you would still like to continue them then if so, just let me know as well!!

anyways i can’t wait to rp with everyone new and returning!!!!! i’m so glad future is back :’)

reblogging because i’ve finally finished revamping the plots page and have edited the link to in the original post! if there’s anyone i’m not already plotting with, please hmu!!! we can also use any of the missions to plot or use in a thread as well!

[siyeonft]

HELLO i’m back with siyeon who is now lovecraft’s main dance, sub vocal, center and budding variety star!! my original intro post is still up and mostly relevant since i only made a few minor tweaks to siyeon’s background but they probably aren’t that important to most of you lmao

if you wanna give everything a read again or you just want to read my novels, here is her profile & bio! the plots page is still up but currently under construction as i revamp some of them and free up others but if anything there interests you still, just lmk!! otherwise, i’d love to brainstorm something with you all or take a look at your plots page instead, just im me on here or add/message me on discord at tsunderes#0782 or LIKE this post and i’ll message you first!

for those who were here pre-revamp, i’ll probably drop any threads we had going on before UNLESS you would still like to continue them then if so, just let me know as well!!

anyways i can’t wait to rp with everyone new and returning!!!!! i’m so glad future is back :’)

[siyeonft]

frightful fall;

[siyeonft]

ftxdiana·:

[ ... ]

“ i’m diana, but the way ” realizing just now that she hadn’t actually introduced herself, and it might be possible that siyeon didn’t know her at all, she stepped up and stiffly bowed. she immediately regretted it. “ ugh, i’m sorry about that, it’s been ten years and i still sometimes suck at formality ” she led out a small sigh. there were many things she loved about korea and many she had learned to love with time, but formalism wasn’t one of them.

to siyeon, the energy bar was enough to make her feel thankful for diana appearing when she did but when she also offered the iced tea, she really felt touched. “you’re like my savior, you know that?” most would probably just pass her by without a thought since exhausted idols on the brink of falling asleep on or against the nearest convenient location was the norm but diana chose to come over and check up on her. even if she didn’t admit it outright, siyeon could put 1 and 1 together, and was grateful for her taking the initiative (even more so that diana didn’t try to make a big deal out of it) as she accepted the drink.

she continuously nodded her head as she listened to and mulled over the other’s words. “yeah, that’s exactly it! i practice way too much as it is but whenever we have a comeback, i practice just that much harder and more often too but it really builds up...” as siyeon trailed off remembering all the late nights spent in practice rooms or in the dorms going over choreo or lyrics or interview questions, she caught diana’s smile--or attempt at one--and couldn’t help but smile in return, even if it was a bit weak. there was nothing positive to say or feel about the situation but having someone to talk to about it, even if it’s just a little bit, made her feel relieved anyways.

“i am feeling a bit better now, thanks to you, but i could probably appreciate a more quiet place. seeing all these people run around is kinda making me crazy.” she let out a laugh again, this time a bit more genuine although it was still a quiet sound. but when the other suddenly formally introduced herself, siyeon ended up laughing even louder before waving a hand to tell her it was fine. “it’s okay, really! i know who you are, even if we haven’t talked much since i try to keep tabs on other idols.” she flashed the girl a smile, the loud laugh she let out somehow making her feel less tired, and leaned close as if she were about to tell a secret. “and if we’re keeping this between us, i also hate formalities. it’s just so stuffy! so you don’t need to be formal with me.” 

[gfriendunited]

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[siyeonft]

no.1;

°˖ ✧ schedule #03   ↪ practice room, killjoy creative building, early november 2018

ever since v!be started picking up popularity and became more well known, siyeon had been waiting for a chance to show off what she could do. although she was happy being part of the group and generally liked her members, she has always and will always constantly crave for more (and especially so when she considers just how many lines she gets in their songs)-- and the first thing on her bucket list was to have a solo debut (or a solo release if she had to compromise but she wouldn’t be cho siyeon if she allowed herself to settle for less).

v!be were only in their third year since debut though and siyeon had a suspicion that the company was probably unsure if they’d be able to consistently maintain their popularity even if they were to not promote or have group activities for a certain period of time--hence the overworking and constantly packed schedules--so a solo debut for any of the members was probably off the table for now.

but when they were told they’d be having a world tour and they’d each get their solo stage, well, siyeon saw her chance and was prepared to give her all to it. even if it was just for the fans, it was still a chance to show the world (’literally,’ a thought she snorted to herself) her potential so any free time she managed to spare, she practiced. and practiced. and practiced. even when she could have been resting, she headed to the practice rooms instead and stayed so long that the sky would change from day to night or night to day. she was no longer a trainee but as someone who was always striving to improve, she tried to keep the mindset of one and practiced whenever she could, especially for moments like these. she’d regret not getting more sleep later but she’d regret not doing everything she possibly could even more.

her song choice was a no-brainer to her; what better way to prove you could go solo than to perform a legendary soloist’s song? so she chose to perform boa’s no.1 because she felt like it would show off not only the dance skills that she was already know for by being the main dancer in the group, but her singing that she had been working on improving over the years. boa was always one of her favourite singers too and siyeon was not ashamed either to be like so many others when she’d say boa was her inspiration. who wouldn’t want to achieve even a fraction of the success she did? siyeon knew it’d be near impossible to replicate the kind of history boa did considering the times now but she sure as hell would try.

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[siyeonft]

🍂

&. meme 1.2, accepting *↪ send 🍂 for what they wanted to be when they grew up

already answered!

[siyeonft]

🍂

&. meme 1.2, accepting * ↪ send 🍂 for what they wanted to be when they grew up

before siyeon set her sights on becoming an idol, all she wanted was to be on stage.

it all started when her parents took her to a musical-- she was enamored by how shining and dazzling the actors looked on stage under the bright lights, singing and dancing with such charisma and energy that it carried throughout the theater. they drew in everyone’s attention to the point where no one could look away and that was when siyeon realized she wanted that for herself: she wanted everyone’s eyes to be drawn to her because they were unable to deny her presence. because this had happened at such a young age, siyeon’s life had become so much about performing that she couldn’t remember what she even did or wanted to be when she grew up before she saw that musical.

she didn’t have a set, defined goal or dream in mind when she first started developing an interest in performing either and even when she was enrolled in vocal, dance, and acting lessons, she still didn’t have a clear picture of what she wanted to be. she had thought at one point that she also wanted to be a musical actor but once she found out her talent wasn’t in acting, she quickly ditched that idea and focused on singing and most importantly, dancing. still, it wasn’t until she was approached by a talent scout that she started to visualize a more concrete future and then when she became a trainee, her desired path became even clearer. she wanted to be an idol and when she became an idol, she’d set her sights on her next goal: to have a solo career. when she accomplished that, well, she’d cross that bridge eventually.

[ftlina-blog]

peekaboo.

[siyeonft]

ftlina :

[ ... ]

it’s true, lina’s been going to bed as soon as they’ve been getting back to the dorm lately, she can’t help it when she’s running on empty the vast majority of days. 

nervous and anxious didn’t even begin to explain how siyeon was feeling currently. the day of their comeback stage for peekaboo had arrived before she knew it and while she was sure all the practice will have paid off come performance time, there was still a small, uneasy feeling lingering within her. she was fine with the concept now and had come to accept it, maybe even liked it a lot, and the initial reactions to the music video release seemed positive, but siyeon still wasn’t one hundred percent confident-- a rare feat for her. she worked hard to nail the choreography, her parts, and her expressions but something still felt off.

it was during her contemplation when she heard someone sink into the chair next to hers, causing her to face the source of the sound: lina. although they were in the same group, between all the preparations both for this comeback and their upcoming tour on top of solo work and jobs, siyeon felt like she had barely talked to her members for more than a few minutes if it wasn’t work related but seeing the other now with what looked like no intention of moving away, made her suddenly miss the other.

“that’s true, it was pretty fun,” siyeon commented with a laugh, turning her full attention to the other. “but didn’t your body feel stiff afterwards? we had to stand around so still so much, every part of me had to have gone numb and fallen asleep at least once.” she nodded her head while listening to her group mate’s words, gaze drifting away as a thoughtful expression spread over her features. “i think i have,” she admitted after a beat of silence, her initial apprehensions about the comeback at the start of the preparations long gone. “i may have started off on the wrong foot but i really have grown to like it... i’m even a bit excited to show it off.” she truly meant what she said too, and she hoped lina would pick up on that, as she did feel pretty bad about how she first reacted to the concept once she found out just how much the other liked the direction they were going in. but there was still some uneasiness within so she looked to her for reassurance. “we’re going to do well, right?”

[fttaewoo-blog]

mayday,

[siyeonft]

fttaewoo·:

[ .. ]

“hello?” crouching down, he once again hesitated to put a hand on her shoulder, seeing if she was conscious enough to respond – even though he just assumed it was exhaustion, it didn’t hurt to be overly cautious. “siyeon-si, are you alright?”

maybe it was because the choreography this time around had too much bouncing and moving around to make them look cute or maybe it was because that day’s lunch--if you could even call a measly piece of chicken breast and some vegetables that didn’t look even the slightest bit appetizing that--but whatever it was, siyeon didn’t feel so good and their outfits which were tailored to fit them like a glove weren’t helping either.

crouching over seemed to be her default position these days, the action something she had grown accustomed to doing when she especially wanted to rest even for just a few minutes. but this time, it felt different. this time, siyeon felt dizzy and if she was in a cartoon, she was sure she’d have spirals coming out of her head with how exhausted she felt. but unfortunately for her, she was not (or else the writer could have just easily drawn her feeling better again by the next scene-- which she would’ve preferred actually) so she took to sliding down the wall of a side hallway instead, her back relishing in the cold feeling on her skin. it helped a little bit but she still wasn’t feeling up to it completely so she shut her eyes and hoped the uncomfortable feeling would pass soon enough-- or at least before they had to go to their next schedule.

just as she considered attempting to take a quick nap, she heard someone call out to her, and immediately snapped back to reality, instincts kicking in and telling herself that it was probably their manager looking for her. she was supposed to head back to their waiting room after their performance but convinced she’d be unable to make it there without actually passing out, she stopped here instead and was ready to tell him exactly that when she realized the person in front of her was not the face she had expected but not unfamiliar either.

the question prompts a raise of her brow, a sarcastic retort on the tip of her tongue because she was sure her current situation was very obviously anything but alright, but she forced her initial response down. he seemed harmless and she wasn’t in the mood to be defensive or pretend like everything was fine so she settled for a shrug of her shoulder, a  simple response the only thing she could be bothered to say, as she regarded the other closer. “it could be better.”

siyeon was aware of static and its members (taewoo included) of course--and not just because of lina--but because many of them were known to have contributed to their releases. work like that didn’t go unnoticed to her in a world where they, as idols, were only expected to sing and dance and act how their company wanted and told them to so she had respect for anyone who could write and compose their own songs or even create their own choreography, let alone have it be recognized by those in charge.

despite that, she couldn’t truthfully say that she talked to any of them very much so she wasn’t sure if taewoo had approached her out of concern or because he wanted something. “did you need something from me?”

[gfriendunited]

181113 gfriendofficial Instagram update

[siyeonft]

first win;

°˖ ✧ mission   ↪ write about your muse’s feelings during or in anticipation of their group’s first win

three comebacks. six months. one hundred and eighty nine days.

that was how long it took for v!be to get their first win. despite the moment happening more than three years ago, it was still a vivid memory in siyeon’s mind. after all, how many rookies get their first win in their first year of debut? and so soon after for that matter? she knew v!be weren’t the only ones who had such an achievement but they were one of the handful who did so she was extra proud of the win, and it was and always will be a special moment she'd hold dear to her heart.

to this day, siyeon could still remember the feeling she experienced when their names were called. she was staring into the camera, arms draped around one of her member’s, nodding along with the hosts’ talks and not paying attention to anything really when there was a sudden loud noise and confetti was falling everywhere around her. she had been standing at the end of where her members lined up at the time and several microphones were shoved into her hands, presumably to pass along to her group mates so they could do their thank you speeches but siyeon was still in a state of shock and wasn’t processing anything. she even recalled fumbling with all the mics in her arms and would have almost dropped them if someone didn’t swoop in at the last moment to take some from her and helped hand them out to the others.

then, once the announcement had sunk in, siyeon felt all the delayed emotions and feelings rush out and she started tearing up. she was crying. on public tv. it was embarrassing knowing that people could replay this moment, take screenshots, and plaster her crying face all over the internet or use it in shows but the thought was only a small part of her reaction-- most of it was going through her life that led up to the win like some sort of cinematic montage, until she was nudged to say something about their win too.

she distinctly remembered trying to stop crying enough that she could formulate actual coherent words but had to resort to covering half her face with the back of her hand while she spoke into the microphone between deep, almost heaving, breaths. she thanked their company, the ceo, the staff, the fans, whatever came to mind and bowed several times before their music had kicked in signalling the start of their encore stage.

at that point, she had calmed down a bit and wasn’t full on crying anymore, just sniffling here and there as she attempted her lines when it was her turn. no one had planned any special sort of promise if they were to win so she just roamed around the stage, waving to the parts of the audience that she could see who were v!be fans, and before she knew it, they were being ushered off stage (not after bowing even more and doing a last round of thank you’s) and herded to their next schedule.

siyeon was in a blessed daze at that point and honestly, didn’t remember anything else that happened afterwards but the elation, the thrill, the feeling that all her (and their) hard work had paid off was something she’d never forget. not only was v!be acknowledged but siyeon felt like she was too, validated and encouraged even, that she could really get everything she wanted. if this was only the beginning then there was so much more out there for her–and vi!be–to achieve.

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[siyeonft]

☎

&. meme 1.2, accepting *   ↪ send ☎ for your muse’s info in my muses phone (name, ringtone, picture, last text)

despite being a debuted idol of three years already, there were only a handful of people siyeon would willingly contact on her own and even less that she’d regularly talk to but avery was one of them.

granted, siyeon might not have talked to her as much as she does if they weren’t in the same group but after being with the other until now, she couldn’t really imagine not having avery be one of the first few names she’d see when looking at her chat list or message history. even though they spent enough time together for group activities and in the dorms, siyeon would still send the other stupid videos and links she’d find on the internet or she would be readily agreeing to sneaking out when the managers weren’t looking– and every single time, she would snort to herself as she looked at the contact photo she had set for her fellow member.

it was even funnier when she’d receive a call from avery because siyeon always had her phone on vibrate or silent (and as a result, she never felt the need to set personal ringtones for anyone since she’d never have a chance to hear them) so she wouldn’t know who had called her until she checked her phone and when she did, all she’d see was that photo. but before siyeon could mull over her thoughts anymore, she received a new message.

               ✉ msg → ave 👑                  ↪ look                   ↪ [view image]

curious, siyeon clicked open the link only to see a photo of honey, avery’s dog, which immediately made her coo and fawn over the pup. it wasn’t even her dog but as a lover of all dogs, she was eternally thankful for avery delivering the quality content she so desired.

[future-rp]

[siyeonft]

future-rp‌:

MEME 1.2, 15.11.18 - 30.11.18

in addition to the 15-day writing challenge, we bring you an ask meme! the following can be counted towards the challenge as long as the answer to the meme reaches a world count of 200.  please reblog to signal that you’d like to play along and feel free to cross things out that you’d rather not do (tag: ft. meme 1.2)

send 🎤 and i’ll make a short playlist for our muses send 🎼 for a song that reminds me of our muses send 🌹 and i’ll make an aesthetic/moodboard for our muses send 💛 and i’ll make an aesthetic/moodboard about my muse send 👗 and i’ll make an aesthetic/moodboard about my muse’s fashion style send 👶 and i’ll make an aesthetic/moodboard about my muse’s childhood send ✉ for a written letter from my muse send 💬 and my muse will say what they really think about yours send 👤+ a muse name for my muse’s opinion on that muse   send ⭐️ (or multiple) for a headcanon about our muses send 👀 for my muse to compliment yours send 😍 for my muse to tell yours three things they love about them send 🍎 and my muse will tell yours why they’re thankful for send 😵 for my muse to tell you something they hate send 🍵 and my muse will reveal one of their biggest regrets send 🎁 for my muse to describe one thing on their personal wishlist send ☎ for your muse’s info in my muses phone (name, ringtone, picture, last text) send ☄️ for 2-4 songs that are always in their playlists send 💫 for one place they sometimes end up falling asleep send 💥 for the game they’d destroy everyone else at send 🌙 for the emoticon they’d use most often send ✨ for what my muse would act like when they haven’t gotten enough sleep send 💐 for how they take care of themselves while in a slump send 🍂 for what they wanted to be when they grew up send 🌈 for my muse’s favorite kind of weather send ✔️ for a daydream my muse has had about/involving yours send 💋 for how my muse would seduce/flirt with yours send  👏 and try to fluster my muse (anything goes!)