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dependent 𝐕𝐄𝐍𝐔𝐒 𝐍𝐀𝐈𝐌𝐀𝐍 for 𝐊𝐎𝐍𝐆𝐄𝐃𝐀𝐇𝐐  

[skaihonon]

𝗦𝗞𝗔𝗜𝗛𝗢𝗡𝗢𝗡 is a dependent roleplay blog for #𝗞𝗢𝗡𝗚𝗘𝗗𝗔𝗛𝗤, an 18+ roleplay group inspired by the cw show the hundred & set after the events of season two. muses featured here are as follows : venus naiman, tba.

VENUS NAIMAN

#𝟬𝟬𝟭 : roleplay posts. #𝟬𝟬𝟮 : about. #𝟬𝟬𝟯 : headcanons. #𝟬𝟬𝟰 : visage. #𝟬𝟬𝟱 : aesthetics. #𝟬𝟬𝟲 : memes / answered memes. #𝟬𝟬𝟳 : drabbles.

[skaihonon]

𝐁𝐋𝐀𝐈𝐙 :

blaiz laughed quietly, not at her, merely at how different they were. their people were, yet somehow so grimly similar. ❝ i wouldn’t say it is a bad thing. unless you are lexa, ❞ he laughed again before letting his head tilt to either side. ❝ mm, or clarke. ❞ he finally added rolling onto his side so he could see her better. it was something she had every right to know, to understand. especially if she’d have to give up information about her own people, blaiz felt as though she should at least know what’s going to be done with that information.

❝ clarke did what lexa never could. what her entire coalition could not. she defeated the mountain. and in doing so she became the commander of death. taking a life in battle does not equate to weakness, but strength. clarke took all their lives and she showed us all how weak our commander really is. how strong your princess is. ❞ surely azgeda, and his mother, could not be the only one to see this, to want to take advantage of it. ❝ unfortunately, my people also believe that whoever kills wanheda will become the commander of death. my mother, ❞ he said a little more pointedly than intended, ❝ wants nothing more than to take that power. ❞ by cutting off her head, he concluded silently to himself, almost curious how she actually would have handled that bit of information.

trouble follows, her words echoed in his mind far longer than they should have and blaiz wondered for a moment if his brothers felt the same way about him. as though there was nothing he could do correctly—the way it was supposed to be done, the way their mother demanded it of them. he’d always had his own way of going about things, perhaps not always conventional, but as long as the job got done he didn’t see how it mattered. but to the queen, the how seemed to matter more than anything. ❝ if she’s so much trouble, why did you all follow her? ❞ or was it them? blaiz still wasn’t entirely clear on who’d been the real mastermind behind their survival. 

𝐕𝐄𝐍𝐔𝐒 𝐇𝐔𝐌𝐒 𝐈𝐍 𝐓𝐇𝐎𝐔𝐆𝐇𝐓 𝐀𝐒 𝐒𝐇𝐄 listens to blaiz speak and she pauses to take it all in.   it’s all so complicated...   which of course it would be.   skaikru have infringed on trikru territory,   on the coalition as a whole,   but the natural way of things doesn’t mean venus can’t be tired of it.   venus sighs as she brings her hands up to rub at her face.   “ my god, ”   she murmurs before she heaves another breath and pulls her hands away.    “ i’m almost grateful for being here so i don’t have to put up with everyone worrying about clarke.    almost. ”    venus’ lips quirk upwards somewhat as she turns her head on the pillow to look at blaiz.    “ i bet all my friends are worrying about clarke right now.   no wonder nobody’s... ”

venus’ gaze flickers over blaiz’s features—eyes,   lips,   back again—as she weighs up whether what she was going to say is worth it.   no wonder nobody’s come for me yet.    in the end she decides against it,    instead sighing as she turns to look back at the ceiling above.    “ clarke and bellamy got us through our first days on the ground.    clarke was our only,   uh, ”   doctor?   medic?    “ healer, ”    venus continues,   using a word more attuned to his preferences,    “ and bellamy... ”    venus lets out a soft huff of laughter as she thinks back on it.    “ he had this thing.    whatever the hell we want.    really,   he just wanted to cause mayhem so the rest of the ark wouldn’t follow us down here.   he had his own reasons. ”

venus’ memory flickers over the events of the dropship,   completely skips over the mountain and then moves on to arkadia.    she realises something that makes her brows furrow a little,   something that shouldn’t be right,   shouldn’t feel right,    but...   does.    pressing her lips together,    venus turns to look back at blaiz and asks quietly,   “ can i tell you something? ”

[skaihonon]

𝐄𝐍𝐕𝐄𝐑 :

Enver looked between Venus and Blaiz’s friends who apparently were some sort of guards to her, his eyebrows raised slightly. He didn’t know why they had that type of reaction and he decided that he also didn’t want to make any further questions about it either. After all, it was none of his business and at the end of the day, Enver didn’t really care what his brother was doing with the Skaikru prisoner, as long as their faith was all the same. “Oh? So you’re special then? Did we get lucky enough to take the most special Skaikru in existence?” He asked with a smirk. 

The Prince shrugged his shoulders slightly, he didn’t really blame her for being hesitant or even afraid in his presence, what she said was true. And Enver still really wanted to watch every Skaikru die. “Well, you were a prisoner and at the end of the day, you’re still our enemy.” He titled his head to the side, chuckling slightly. “Well, some would disagree with that statement but sure, whatever you say.” 

-

𝐕𝐄𝐍𝐔𝐒 𝐆𝐋𝐀𝐑𝐄𝐒 𝐀𝐓 𝐄𝐍𝐕𝐄𝐑 𝐅𝐎𝐑 𝐇𝐈𝐒 last comment.    she might make questionable decisions sometimes,   but she knows she’s not stupid.    sometimes,   things hang in the balance,   but she knows enough of the world and of people to know right from wrong.   venus might say that enver was the stupid one for underestimating her if she was looking for a fight,   but for once,   she’s not...   and besides,    he doesn’t know the whole truth regarding she and blaiz.   how is he to know that their dalliance is all a structured lie?    a show to put on for the rest of his people?    

“ i never said i was the most special, ”   venus says sternly,   her jaw clenching after.    walking across to the target and grabbing the knives,    venus grumbles,   “ jeez,  call me fucking glass sorenson or what. ”    instead of aiming again,    venus leans down to impale them in the wood block they had been laid out upon before.    “ careful about watching me for too long,   enver.   blaiz might think he has competition. ”   ugh,   disgusting,   but hopefully the thought of enver being with her in the same way everyone else thinks venus is with blaiz might at the least piss him off.

[skaihonon]

𝐎𝐂𝐓𝐀𝐕𝐈𝐀 :

     𝐎𝐂𝐓𝐀𝐕𝐈𝐀 𝐓𝐑𝐈𝐄𝐒 𝐍𝐎𝐓 𝐓𝐎 𝐏𝐑𝐄𝐒𝐒𝐔𝐑𝐄 venus in any way but she is watching her reactions, noticing how hesitant she is.  it’s that bad, huh?  or perhaps she just doesn’t want to be seen struggling.  octavia doesn’t judge her for any of it.  it’s understandable given what she’s been through and none of it makes venus seem weak.  at least, not in octavia’s eyes.  “  i’m sure,   ”  she reassures her.  she just wants to help and a bit of exercise would probably aid venus’ recovery.  plus green trees and blue skies are much nicer to look at than grey walls.  “  and that’s okay.  when you need to rest, we’ll rest.  ”  octavia places her hands on the table as she rises up out of her seat. 

“  you’ll get stronger.  it’ll just take time.   ”  she’s sure venus knows that but she reminds her anyway.  maybe she still needs to hear it. 

𝐎𝐂𝐓𝐀𝐕𝐈𝐀’𝐒 𝐖𝐎𝐑𝐃𝐒 𝐃𝐎 𝐒𝐔𝐑𝐏𝐑𝐈𝐒𝐈𝐍𝐆𝐋𝐘 well to reassure venus that she can do this.    perhaps it’s because she admires octavia so much or perhaps it’s because venus sometimes thinks octavia’s the only one who could ever understand how misplaced she feels in arkadia,   but whatever the reason,   it’s enough for vee to nod slightly,   swallow down the lump in her throat,   and push her chair back from the table.    she’d rested at this table for long enough;   she should have acquired some more energy by now.    slowly,   venus rises upwards,    taking her time due to the way her bones ache in protest at the movement.

“ okay, ”   venus exhales,   “ i can do this. ”    she tries not to let any doubts fill her mind as she pushes away from the table.    keeping her eyes trained on the floor to avoid eye contact with anyone except octavia as she begins to slowly walk,   she mumbles,    “ if anyone stares at me i’ll...    i don’t think i can punch anyone but i’ll save it in my punch-later book. ”   yes,   she actually has one of those inside of her head. 

[bunniemusings]

sharp objects, gillian flynn.

[skaihonon]

𝐁𝐋𝐀𝐈𝐙 :

ＷＨＥＮ: present — day after the tavern ＷＨＥＲＥ: troit — the aztrap gates ＷＨＯ: @skaihonon​

it has been days since venus first asked if they could go outside the walls of the aztrap and he’d wanted to take her. if it’d been possible, blaiz might’ve even taken her then and there, but it wasn’t. even the outing he’d managed to arrange for them now was a risk, but more than anything he wanted to keep his word to her. and he’d foolishly promised he’d make it happen. if only to see her smile—see her happy, however fleeting the moment may be.

he ran a hand over the thick neck of a chestnut steed, his loyal companion for years now, patting the beast lovingly before checking the saddle and tightening the straps. the prince moved his attention to the mare waiting impatiently only a few feet behind him. ❝ this one will be yours, ❞ he announced turning around to look at the sky girl while pointing at the black horse. she didn’t seem to be the most even tempered creature, but nor did venus as far as he could tell. a perfect match.

𝐖𝐄𝐄𝐊𝐒 𝐀𝐆𝐎,   𝐕𝐄𝐍𝐔𝐒 𝐖𝐎𝐔𝐋𝐃 𝐇𝐀𝐕𝐄 been nervous about being told they were going outside of the housing that homed most of azgeda’s most important people.    she would have thought that she was being led to her death;   she would have been tense as she left,   and there would have been endless scenarios running through her mind as to how she might die.    now,   however,   venus had said little more than oh, okay, and that had been it.   she had dressed for cold weather,   still not entirely used to the frosty azgeda landscape,   and she’d wondered where it would be that blaiz might be taking her in a curious way,   not a wary one.

she had been tense as he led her out of his room and they traversed the hallways but that was because she had enjoyed their time together yesterday a little too much.   with each passing moment,    venus wondered when she might feel his touch again.   the moments where he was inches away from her had been the worst and the best all at once:   she could feel the tension between them but all the while she was wondering if he felt the same.    she had been wondering if he wanted to close that gap as much as she did.  the sudden cold as soon as they made their way outside had been a distracting factor as well as a cooling one,   because all the thoughts racing through her mind had made her cheeks hot.

now,   however,   the look of the horses in front of her makes her falter.    she’d be lying if she said the beasts didn’t intimidate her,    and the idea of riding on one...   venus swallows thickly as she inches closer,   her gaze flickering between blaiz’s soothing touch on his own horse and then the black one that’s supposed to be hers.   her cheeks flush bright red as soon as she thinks of how badly this is going to go;   how she’s probably going to fall off the minute she climbs on the horse.   slowly,   she inches towards the black horse,    preparing for it to rear up at her at any moment—     “ how do i know if it...    uh... ”    venus presses her lips together as she turns back to blaiz and asks,   “  how do i do...   everything? ”   how can she tell him she’s never ridden a horse before without actually telling him?

[skaihonon]

𝐑𝐀𝐕𝐄𝐍 :

Raven can’t say that she understood what the other was going through. The fears, the doubts, they didn’t share the same ones in here. The mechanic wasn’t afraid of being inside the walls, she also worried about what might be lurking outside. They might have defeated the mountain but they still had to deal with the Grounders and their betraying asses. “Hey, I know it’s scary but you can’t let yourself think like that, you’re just setting yourself up to fail. If you don’t believe in yourself, no one else will.” She turned her body slightly so that she was facing the other. “Oh come on, you’re not. No one is, mostly down here, mostly after losing so many of our people. Just ignore her, don’t pay attention to her and focus on yourself.” 

𝐒𝐎𝐌𝐄𝐇𝐎𝐖,   𝐕𝐄𝐍𝐔𝐒’ 𝐒𝐍𝐈𝐅𝐅𝐋𝐄𝐒 𝐂𝐀𝐋𝐌 as she wipes at her eyes.   her knees remain close to her chest as she tries to calm her breathing.    “ how do i focus on myself when i don’t know what i want to do? ”   her voice is high pitched and high strung with emotion as she sniffs once more,   turning to look at her friend with a small pout on her lips and teary eyes.    “ i don’t know where my place is here. ”    and just like that,   tears are spilling down her face once more.    “ i keep—i keep trying to focus on myself but then it just comes back down to not knowing how to contribute and it’s hard.    you’re so smart,   raven,    and i’m just me—  ”

[skaihonon]

𝐓𝐄𝐒𝐓𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐌𝐘 𝐏𝐀𝐓𝐈𝐄𝐍𝐂𝐄 :

𝐓𝐇𝐄  𝐇𝐀𝐍𝐆𝐎𝐕𝐄𝐑  𝐒𝐇𝐄'𝐒  𝐍𝐔𝐑𝐒𝐈𝐍𝐆  𝐇𝐀𝐒  𝐈𝐓𝐒  𝐂𝐋𝐀𝐖𝐒  𝐈𝐍  𝐇𝐄𝐑 ,     making  bree  irritated   ( and  that’s  an  understatement )   as  soon  as  she  wakes  up  to  the  sounds  of  an  already  awake  camp .     before  she  even  realises  it  she’s  pulling  the  thin  sheets  around  her  body  to  cover  herself  up  and  all  but  throwing  herself  out  of  whichever  tent  she  fell  into  the previous  night .     the  first  person  to  cross  her  path  is  who  she  unleashes  on .  

“ 𝐂𝐀𝐍  𝐘𝐎𝐔 ,   𝐋𝐈𝐊𝐄 ,   𝐊𝐄𝐄𝐏  𝐈𝐓  𝐓𝐇𝐄  𝐅𝐔𝐂𝐊  𝐃𝐎𝐖𝐍 !    some  of  us  are trying  to  sleep  around  here  ”     the  early  morning  sun  is  shining  in  her  eyes  making  it  hard  for  bree  to  see  exactly  who  she’s  cussing  out  but  as  soon  as the  face  is  places  she’s  rolling  her  eyes  and  scoffing .“  of  course  you’re  being  a  bitch  at  ass  o’clock .  ”

𝐋𝐎𝐂𝐀𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍   ﹕     delinquents  camp 𝐓𝐈𝐌𝐄 𝐏𝐄𝐑𝐈𝐎𝐃  ﹕     past ,   season one 𝐓𝐀𝐆𝐆𝐈𝐍𝐆  ﹕     venus  naiman , @skaihonon​

𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐒𝐇𝐀𝐑𝐏 𝐑𝐈𝐒𝐄 𝐈𝐍 𝐕𝐄𝐍𝐔𝐒’ 𝐁𝐑𝐎𝐖𝐒 is indication enough of her irritation at the hands of none other than bree lawson;   bree lawson,   who half the time prefers to spend her time sleeping or fucking rather than helping out around the camp.    worst of all?   since bellamy is one of the people she chooses to do such things with,    venus is sure he turns a blind eye to it.   what happened to the bellamy she knew on the ark?

“ are you fucking kidding me? ”   the girl retorts,    a mix of irritation and disbelief reflecting in her dark eyes.    “ you really have the audacity to tell us to keep it down when we’re the ones trying to make sure we aren’t killed by grounders? ”    venus pauses before her chin juts upwards and she glances over bree with a sly sort of disgust.   it’s as if she’s nothing more than the dirt on her shoe.   it’s a look fitting for a highborn.   “ you’re pathetic.   maybe if you spent more time sleeping and less time screwing—  ”

[skaihonon]

𝐁𝐋𝐀𝐈𝐙 :​

❝ good. ❞ he said, an all too familiar smirk making itself at home on his lips. the contact of their faces was minimal, but the friction of her skin on his felt like a fire igniting beneath his own. venus was warm under his touch and whatever this was, it made it increasingly more difficult for the prince to focus. to think at all. 

blaiz turned his attention to the left and then to the right, taking a moment to look over the crowd. to take note of those who were in fact watching and how many he knew for sure would have something to say about it. how many would report directly to his mother—or his brother. but they might has well of been the same thing.

he looked across the table to the group that surrounded him and smiled, ❝ we’re fine here. ❞ blaiz said simply as he reached forward for the large mug that was placed in front of him moments earlier. here. for now, he reminded himself silently, refusing to let his smug smile fall. refusing to let any of the others in the tavern see his uncertainty. that wouldn’t do. blaiz wrapped his arm around her a little tighter, pulling venus even closer to him so there’s no open spaces between their chests. the prince was quickly finding that it was less about what the others around them were seeing and more about how he was feeling. and with her in his arms, so close to him, the feeling was good.

𝐈𝐅 𝐁𝐋𝐀𝐈𝐙 𝐒𝐀𝐘𝐒 𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐘’𝐑𝐄 𝐅𝐈𝐍𝐄 𝐇𝐄𝐑𝐄,    that’s all she needs to know.   tonight,   she doesn’t want to worry;    tonight...    this might not be her celebration,   but venus wants to let loose.   the alcohol certainly helps,    but it’s not too much.   just enough to make her a little more care free.    more confident.    confident enough to do this.    venus’ breath hitches in her throat as he pulls her closer to him,    if only because she likes it—if only because she feels safe with him.   blaiz taking what he wants is attractive to her because she knows he wouldn’t hurt her.   she...    trusts him.

but that doesn’t mean she’s not going to tease him.   she watches him reach for his drink out of the corner of her heavy-lidded eyes and,   not wanting him to draw his attention from her,   venus leans back ever so slightly to take it from his hand.    she makes direct eye contact with him as she brings the cup to her lips and tips it back,    placing it back down on the table as she successfully hides her grimace at its strong taste.    when she turns back to him,    her fingers find his face once more,    splaying against his jaw as her gaze flickers between his eyes and lips.

“ if you want to taste it, ”    she murmurs,    one thumb tugging teasingly down on his lip ever so slightly if only to indicate what she wants,    “ you’re going to need to kiss me first. ”    the taste of it lingers on her lips and mischief,   too,   lingers in venus’ dark orbs.     if she’d told herself a few months ago that her first kiss was going to be with a grounder—let alone the whole truth of her situation—she’d never have believed herself.   now,   though...    this prince of azgeda is all she wants.    he’s all she can think about,   and his very touch sends tingles down her spine.

[skaihonon]

𝐄𝐍𝐕𝐄𝐑 :

Enver caressed the neck of his horse as he looked down at Venus. He wasn’t being nice exactly, he just wasn’t being aggressive. He did have his down times, no one was capable of being an angry asshole all the time. Plus, he had overcome the anger over the fact that his brother took her from the cells, after what him and his mother had planned. “Oh really? That’s quite interesting … you’re not truly missing home then, I would imagine?” He titled his head to the side, letting his hands rest on his lap. Enver did not expect that answer, she could be just playing him, but at the same time, why would she? He couldn’t see het lying about this being beneficial for her. Either way, he would’ve guessed that she was imagining him or even his mother on that target. “Well, might as well get to know my future sis, right?” He teased her, winking down at her. He was joking of course, messing with her. Getting a rise from people was one of Enver’s favorite things to do. “I did drink a lot, but I’m back to normal. Did you really think I would be angry all the time? Or with a knife to your throat every time I saw you? I’m joked op, but not completely koken.” 

𝐕𝐄𝐍𝐔𝐒 𝐋𝐎𝐎𝐊𝐒 𝐒𝐎𝐌𝐄𝐖𝐇𝐀𝐓 𝐓𝐀𝐊𝐄𝐍 𝐀𝐁𝐀𝐂𝐊,    her eyes widening for a split second as he calls her sis.    oh, god, does he know what happened in the tavern?    venus stares at him blankly with wide eyes in a moment’s hesitation before blaiz’s friend snickers.    she hastily turns to look at him and gives her so-called guard a dismissive,    scalding glare before she shakes her head and tries to act normal...    as if she’s not guilty of what she and blaiz did in that tavern.    taking a steadying breath as her cheeks flush red,    venus responds,    “ it’s not as simple as whether i miss home or not. ”   she avoids enver’s gaze as she reaches for another knife impaled in the block of wood at her side.    “ my story isn’t as simple as other skaikru. ”

she looses the blade and heaves a sigh before she turns to look back at enver.    “ no offence—actually,    full offence,     but you had a blade to my throat. ”     she would expect anyone else to be distrustful of her if the roles were reversed.     “ no matter what you might think of my kind, i’m not stupid. ”

[skaihonon]

𝐀𝐒𝐒𝐇𝐀𝐓 :

Enver was glad to be back home. Even though he had his fun at the capital, having enjoyed the celebrations, mostly the sacrifices and the tournaments, it was good to be back inside the territory that he knew so well. Enver brought his horse to a stop in front of the girl, he never went through the process of dismounting his horse around others because he could never do it by himself. And in his eyes, that was embarrassing, weak. He could not afford that, mostly in front of a Skaikru. “It was alright, we had fun.” He sent a smile towards the warriors who had following him. “Did you enjoy yourself while we were away? You seem to be getting familiar with your surroundings.” He looked at the target, nodding his head. “You’ve been training? Picturing any particular faces on that target?” He asked with a smirk. 

𝐕𝐄𝐍𝐔𝐒 𝐆𝐋𝐀𝐍𝐂𝐄𝐒 𝐀𝐓 𝐄𝐍𝐕𝐄𝐑 𝐖𝐈𝐓𝐇 furrowed brows as she paces over to the target in front of her,   pulling the knife free from the straw.    she turns to face him,   glancing over his horse;    that beastly thing scares her more than enver does,   or perhaps it’s both of them combined.   the way he could easily strike her down from up there and chase her down just as efficiently.    but something else bothers her,   and it’s the fact that enver is being borderline nice.    ignoring the foremost part of his question,   venus answers,    “ no,   but any faces i’d be imagining would be at home. ”    glass sorenson,   for one.   she doesn’t want to kill enver and she therefore has no reason to imagine his face on that target:   she just doesn’t want him to kill her.    venus paces back to the position she was at before and aims again,    and just as she lets the knife fly from her hand once more—as it thunks into the target—she asks a little coolly,    “ are you making small talk with me,   enver?    maybe you hit your head or drank a little too much during the celebrations.   how long ‘til you’re back to normal? ”   ugh,   am i joking with him?   disgusting.

[skaihonon]

𝐁𝐋𝐀𝐈𝐙 :​

blaiz watched her carefully as she moved about the room and made note of the way she turned her back to him; finally, he mused a relief settling over him. she’d begun to trust him. though he still didn’t understand why it seemed to matter so much, it wasn’t like it meant the same things to her. how could it? her fingers moved through her hair quickly and he imagined for a moment his own fingers being tangled in her long locks. 

he shook his head roughly as if to erase the thoughts from his mind just before she turned to look at him again, and he refocused his attention to the words she spoke. the directness she seemed to assert about his wants left him with a quite nagging in the back of his mind, like there was something she’d meant to insinuate. but he didn’t dare assume the same in return. even if she was right; he did want her, but he hadn’t gotten her. not really.

the prince lifted his right hand to his temple and began to rub it as though it would really stop the ache in his head from forming. ❝ it’s both, ❞ he reassured her simply with a shrug. ❝ of course my mother wants to know, but i haven’t decided what i’ll tell her. ❞ the information had the potential to be useful to his mother, but blaiz felt it was all the more reason he should give her a false lead. keep what he’d learned to himself. 

❝ clarke, ❞ he began laying back on the end of the bed with his hands propped under his head as a pillow. ❝ she’s become quite infamous among my people. for what she’s done at the mountain. ❞ the prince explained, turning his head to look at her. ❝ they call her wanheda. commander of death. ❞ though from everything venus had told him so far, it sounded much like there was more than one commander of death in their camp. ❝ my mother wants her dead. ❞

𝐇𝐈𝐒 𝐀𝐃𝐌𝐈𝐓𝐓𝐀𝐍𝐂𝐄 𝐎𝐅 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐓𝐑𝐔𝐓𝐇 makes her gaze on him soften,   a silent gratitude shown in those earthy orbs.   she has no qualm in telling them what they want to know if it keeps her alive;   she just has to make sure she doesn’t run out of information.    sighing at the mention of clarke’s name,   venus’ shoulders slump a little as she crosses the space between the dresser and the vanity and climbs back onto the fur-covered bed.

she moves the book to place it on the nightstand next to the bed before she makes herself comfortable.    something in her stomach flutters as she turns to lie on her side;   it’s a seemingly intimate moment in a way that she doesn’t understand,   but—no.   no,   she gets it.   she’s letting herself be vulnerable with him in letting herself get comfortable.    venus might not understand much about herself,   but that much she understands.   with her face against the soft pillows,   she can feel the shift.

“ infamous? ”    she frowns,    reaching down to grab one of the furs and wrap her arms around it as if she’s cuddling something.    “ they call clarke that? ”    venus doesn’t understand;    the mountain men were a threat to the grounders,   so why is clarke famous in a bad way for getting rid of them?   her brows are visibly furrowed but her eyes remain somewhat soft as she asks,    “ clarke helped to get rid of them and your people are mad about it?    and your mother...   ”

is this what all her information amounts up to?   is this why she’s still alive?    is venus going to be the reason clarke is killed by blaiz’s people;   his mother?    clarke is the sole reason venus naiman and so many others are alive.    vee clenches her eyes shut,    arms wrapping a little tighter around the bundle of furs in her arms.    “ everywhere clarke goes,   trouble follows.    i can’t escape it even now. ”    venus doesn’t dislike clarke;   in fact,   she respects her...   but her words are the truth.

sighing,   she opens her eyes and rolls on her back,   bringing the furs with her as she mumbles,    “ figures. ”

[inejghafa]

Where are you going? Just out.

[skaihonon]

𝐋𝐎𝐂𝐀𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍 : azgeda 𝐓𝐈𝐌𝐄 𝐏𝐄𝐑𝐈𝐎𝐃 : present 𝐓𝐀𝐆𝐆𝐈𝐍𝐆 : @brknwrrr​​

𝐀𝐅𝐓𝐄𝐑 𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐈𝐑 𝐋𝐀𝐒𝐓 𝐈𝐍𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐀𝐂𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍,    venus would be lying if she said she didn’t feel uneasy about enver’s presence.    she feels a little better for having a knife in her hand;   she’s under supervision by a member of blaiz’s man posse,   of course,   having wanted to practice knife throwing again.    she’s been working on the advice huron gave her to make her throws more powerful and she’s beginning to get it.   she can feel the difference.     however,   as she stands a short distance away from the very same target she’d practiced at with huron,   enver’s mere gaze on her unsettles her.    despite how she knows it’s probably best to just ignore him,    the tension she feels makes that difficult.    “ enjoy your little camping trip? ”    venus asks,   glancing to enver before she aims at the target and lets the knife sink in just off the center.   the action itself isn’t a threat but it could definitely be interpreted that way.

[skaihonon]

𝐑𝐀𝐕𝐄𝐍 :

Raven sat with her, in silence for a few moments waiting for the other to starting speaking. She understood if she did not want to talk about it, so Raven would be patient with her. “This place isn’t like the Ark. I understand why you feel like that, but it isn’t.” Raven didn’t know how things were going to go with the Grounders but at least here they weren’t stuck in the same metal walls, listening to the same humming sound everyday. “You’ll figure it out, I’m sure. Just give yourself some time. We’re not in a rush here.” She paused, turning her head to look at her. “Well, unless you commit another crime, you don’t have to worry about getting locked up. No one’s going to lock you up out of nowhere, Venus.” 

𝐇𝐎𝐖 𝐂𝐀𝐍 𝐑𝐀𝐕𝐄𝐍 𝐁𝐄𝐋𝐈𝐄𝐕𝐄 𝐓𝐇𝐀𝐓 𝐓𝐇𝐈𝐒 place isn’t like the ark?   to venus,   it feels the exact same.   perhaps it’s the fact that her fear of rejection has never vanished;   perhaps it’s the fact that she’s terrified to do something wrong when she knows she will;   perhaps raven was just lucky enough to not see the feral kind of excitement in venus’ eyes when she axed that guard to death in mount weather.   maybe she doesn’t see the darkness inside of venus that she knows is there.    “ you don’t get it, ”   she sniffles,    wiping at the tears spilling down her cheeks.   “ i know i’m going to fuck up.   i know i’m going to hurt someone again.   i just...   i can’t... ”    venus’ fists clench as she continues,    “ i’m a waste of space.   glass even said it and she’s—she’s right.    i never admit she’s right.   i hate the bitch.   if i could just—  ”   clenching her teeth,    venus makes a squishing motion in front of her with her hands.

[skaihonon]

𝐑𝐀𝐕𝐄𝐍 :

“Right, you definitely look fine.” Raven said the other sarcastically, before taking a seat next to her. She slowly sat down on the ground, her back against the wreckage, her bad leg stretched out in front of her with the brace on. Raven was still getting used to having the thing on but the truth was, it helped her walk, as horrible as it looked. She definitely preferred it over the crutches. “What’s going on? Talk to me.” 

𝐕𝐄𝐍𝐔𝐒 𝐂𝐋𝐎𝐒𝐄𝐒 𝐇𝐄𝐑 𝐄𝐘𝐄𝐒 𝐀𝐒 her head tilts downwards,   thoughts swarming about in her mind.    it feels like forever until she can actually speak the words,   something in her telling her not to.    “ everything, ”   the girl whispers,   her hands and knees pulling upwards for her to bury her face in her hands.    “ do you ever just— ”    think,   venus,   think.    “ i just feel...    this place isn’t... ”   try again.     pulling her hands away from her face,    she sighs defeatedly.    “ this place feels like the ark all over again.   like i’m stuck.   i don’t...    i don’t know what to do. ”   life at the dropship had been terrifying,   but at least she’d felt free.    “ it feels like it’s only a matter of time before they lock me up again.   every day,   over and over... ”   she’s scared.

[skaihonon]

𝐋𝐎𝐂𝐀𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍 : arkadia 𝐓𝐈𝐌𝐄 𝐏𝐄𝐑𝐈𝐎𝐃 : past, four weeks after the mountain 𝐓𝐀𝐆𝐆𝐈𝐍𝐆 : n/a, open to all

“ 𝐈'𝐌 𝐅𝐈𝐍𝐄, ”  𝐕𝐄𝐍𝐔𝐒 𝐌𝐔𝐑𝐌𝐔𝐑𝐒.    she sits on the ground against the wreckage of the ark in a spot she’d thought was secluded:   she needed some fresh air and to be alone.   now,   though,   venus wishes that the person who has stumbled upon her won’t leave,   might even ask what’s wrong as she murmurs with a shaky voice,    “ jus’ leave me alone. ”    god,   she feels empty.