‼️ TRIGGER WARNING ‼️
this blog includes triggering content such as thinspo and talk of food / weight loss / gain. if you are trying to recover, please turn around and forget you ever saw this. if you are a minor OR you have just recently started to develop disordered eating habits, again, please stay away from my page. this is not only for my own personal motivation and rants, but also to help me relate to people who have struggled with this illness for as long as I have--to help me feel validated, understood, and comforted. I do not encourage this behavior, and if you've randomly stumbled across this blog and think that restriction, purging, starving, overexercising, or etc. is a "quick and simple" way to lose weight, then seek an audience with a professional at your earliest convenience and, please, steer clear of my page and my posts at all costs. if my page is or has or might make you worse or encourage your destructive behavior, please block me.
now that that's been said... intro post or whatever—
info pertaining to my ed / standpoint here;
I’ve had an unhealthy relationship with food for longer than I can remember, but it got really bad in 2015. I consider that the “anniversary” of my actual disorder ig, but I've struggled since childhood.
I’m not new to the ed community, specifically on tumblr, but I was deleted a few times. I relapsed sometime in the beginning of 2020 ( not the first time ), so here I am, yours truly, once again.
I should also add that I’m not proana / mia / any other ed & strongly support recovery for anyone considering or trying, I’m really just hoping to get my own thoughts and struggles out there rather than locking it all in and ‘dealing with it alone.’ statements like that are said so much around here, but seriously—if my account will make your mental health worse, just spare yourself and get out; block me, avoid my account, whatever you need to do.
info not pertaining to my ed / standpoint here;
my name’s c ( they/them pronouns please ). avoiding spelling out the entire name bc people irl can easily find me here, and we don't want that!
I currently live in America, but within the next 2-3 years, I hope to move out of country.
I’m 18 as of 2020 and I will be majoring in criminal psychology sometime in 2021-2022 ( if things go according to plan. ) for now, I’m working on getting a degree + a good paying job so I can have a steady income by the time I start my studies again.
hence my choice in long term career, I am a fan of true crime; primarily the serial killer aspect. but no, I don’t romanticize them and I am fully aware that the crimes these individuals have or do commit are grotesque and harmful.
I can make some pretty dark jokes via my own trauma and other shit that probably shouldn't be joked about, but honestly, just don't take anything like that literally when coming from me.
my favorite genres are horror, suspense, and action. I love to read, and I also dabble in writing short stories. I used to be in the roleplay community, but am no longer in that space. I also plan to write a novel of my own one day, but settling on a solid idea and going with it will probably take a long time, so no promises or expectations there.
my music taste varies, shoot me a suggestion and i’ll probably be able to get into it. legit—find a new song and randomly want to share it with someone, but don't know who? send it my way, I'll listen and, if you want, even let you know my own opinions and shit on it.
don't be afraid to send me asks / crazy questions or anything of that sort, and it doesn't even have to be strictly ed-based. promise I can be quite friendly when encouraged!
