Cloudy Dreams

This started as a fitblr...and partially still is. The rest is a peek inside my mind. Hello, where-ever you are/ I am 26 years old. 5'7 1/2". Already went from 160+ (my highest weight ever) to 150 (May 2012). Down to ~130 (January 2017, but ballpark since about Jan 2016)

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Word.

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I’M THERE! I AM FUCKING THERE!!!

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So uh...I don’t seem to post on tumblr much anymore. For those of you still with me: I moved to the city last year, I have a corporate job that I like (never thought I’d say those words), I’ve hiked a LOT of mountains over the past couple years, basically eat whatever I want that’s not super sugary (because added sugar always makes me feel ill, as do too many grains), and um...life’s going pretty well. Oh yeah, and I publicly came out as bi. That happened too. 

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my face as of about 2 weeks ago. I don’t wear much makeup almost ever anymore.

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long time no post

getting karmic retribution for dumping that guy last year. in the reverse of that situation. hoping for absolution from this. I do have a new job starting in 3 days, which is exciting. I’m moving later today...sort of. still need to find a place to live.

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wayooooooooo.  it’s called “the mountain diet.”  I eat normally (ie whatever the fuck I want that doesn’t make me dizzy or tired or upset stomach), don’t drink, hike a lot, and be happy...working pretty. damn. well.  (last time I weighed I was down to 136lb.  I’m not trying to lose weight.  it’s just happening.)

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today is the first time in ages that I’ve even craved self harm.  which I suppose is a good thing.  I want to do it so badly, but I literally don’t remember the last time it occurred to me.  :/

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140

also got back down to 140 about 2 weeks ago. which is nice because I’m not calorie tracking anymore, so it feels much healthier this time.  also Jan-Feb-March added up to 103 hours of exercise...the same thing last year was 74, and the year previous was like 52.  so that’s pretty sweet.

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it’s been like six weeks since I broke up with him.  it wasn’t fair to either of us that he had stronger feelings. 

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so I finally made a move toward maybe doing some modeling.  sent in a submission to a local agency.  going to an open call in March.

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ocean/surf

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Mt Balloon 

Fiordland National Park ~ New Zealand

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of course NZ named a mountain "MOUNT BALLOON"

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Mountains make so much more sense than people

and nothing makes me less attracted to them.  why is it so difficult for me to want a wonderful, earnest man who is head over heels for me?  but I'm just...bored.  finding other people attractive.  feeling like I'm an asshole.  trying to care about him more, trying everything I can think of to make it work and it's just not enough.   everything he is should make me happy...but it doesn't. :(

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This is the best surprise audio post I’ve ever seen/heard.

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THIS MAKES ME SO HAPPY

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The egg made me so confused and then the SONG STARTED PLAYING AND EVERYTHING MADE SENSE AND NOTHING HURT

[honestl-y]

okay instant happiness

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Self-esteem 4 years ago v. now

If someone told me I was pretty 4 years ago:

2 years ago:

Now:

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distance

is agonizing.  I am so happy but drives me nuts to not be able to see him or touch him.  4 hours seems so far. 

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Look past your thoughts so you may drink the pure nectar of this moment - Rumi

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