Where I put my sad thoughts.

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I have been treated as a lesser person by cis and trans people so much over my appearance that it has deeply traumatized me.

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We are only really accepted if we are attractive. Someone like me will never be fully accepted or appreciated, even in trans spaces. I have been told that my appearance discourages others and is harmful to the community. I have been pushed out of trans spaces being told " dolls only,no bricks".

[skmaels]

As a nonpassing and conventionally unattractive trans woman, I'm considered a lesser person in much of society. Even in trans spaces.

[skmaels]

⚠️ slightly suicidal about the stalling in my medical transition. I need ffs and srs.

[skmaels]

I'm so far from where I need to be. It is heartbreaking. I need a lot of corrective surgery that I can't afford. I see so many others get what I need and I'm expected by everyone to settle for less.

[skmaels]

I hate being ugly. I'm disgusted with myself body. I also hate that I live in a world that judges and values people based on how attractive they are.