Skull Hong

[goatbassist]

skullhongki:

Jaejin starts talking, about to use a cute nickname before he stops himself and switches to honorifics. It has him confused. Lately he hasn’t been using them as often with him, keeping them for when they were in public or around other people. His ears twitch, head slightly tilting as he listens to what he has to say. His heart drops to his stomach, so quickly he finds himself unable to breathe, mouth falling open to take a few short breathes. He should have known it was going to be something like this, but he didn’t think it’d be that. He didn’t think Jaejin would ever tell him he didn’t like him or think about him in that way, not after everything they have done together. Club music resounds in his ears. Something pricks at his eyes. Instinct, there he was going on and throwing around that word as if it would make this entire situation better. It only made it worse. While Lee Hongki was sitting there falling helplessly in love, Leen Jaejin was feeling absolutely fucking nothing. He felt nothing yet he continued to play around with his feelings, even going as far to tell him he l— “I hate you.” It comes out with a shaking voice but the amount of pure venom in his voice was chilling. All the cute positive feelings he had felt towards him, the want to be close and pressed against him became nothing but the want to scream at him, smack him across the face and never see him again. Ears brush backwards, pressing against the back of his head as his gaze drops down. “All the time you were just using me. Isn’t that it?” Club music gets louder, making the feeling pricking at his eyes finally break free down his face. Next thing he knew he’s crying. “You continued to fuck me, hold me close to you in your arms, and say such sweet things to me all because you just wanted my fucking body. All because of your stupid fucking instincts.” A pause, bitter laugh slipping free from him as he pulls himself away, nearly stumbling off the bed. He picks his gaze up, staring at him as if he was no longer staring at someone he loved. “Hah, man wasn’t I stupid…for believing you in that stupid fucking club when you were just lying to me. That’s what you are…a fucking lying player piece of shit who played me like he plays his bass.”

I hate you. Those three words hit him like a thousand knives, one after the other stabbing his heart. He knew he’d be upset, he knew this would hurt him, but he didn’t expect for it to be this bad. But it was this bad, it was so bad, and it only seemed to get worse as more cold harsh words are thrown at him. The older’s gaze finds his own and suddenly he feels so small. His eyes weren’t full of their usual warmth and light, no, they were unfeeling and empty. Those were the eyes of someone who had just been told he’d been played with, used, and then discarded.

His eyes widen at his words. He did remember what happened the other night. Fuck. No, no, he wasn’t supposed to remember that. He wasn’t supposed to remember him saying that he loved him, it… he was just comforting him, he just wanted him to calm down.. right? That’s all it was right? It wouldn’t make sense for him to have fallen for his best friend and band mate of over 10 years, it just wouldn’t. But Hongki did remember and he had believed him. What was he supposed to do? What could he even say to make any of this better? His hand reaches out towards him but quickly retreats, falling back lifelessly at his side. He shouldn’t touch him, he was upset, angry with him.

“N-No Hongki that’s not-” He stops furrowing his brow, attempting to wrack his brain for anything he could possibly say. “Y-You know I’m not-” No. “What I did was-” No no no. Jaejin you fucking idiot think of something. “I never meant to hurt you Hongki. Please just.. let me explain. We can talk about this. Please.” He begs, eyes pleading with him to not walk away to not just leave. He should, he had every right to just walk away and leave him there, but he didn’t want things to end like this. He never meant for this to happen. He never meant to hurt him. But in the end he had played with him and this was the outcome.

[skullhongki]

We can talk about this. No. There was no talking about this. It was over. He was done with him, no longer wanting to stand here with him or talk to him unless he absolutely had to. His eyes narrow on him, ears pressing further as his fur starts standing on end. Tears blurred his vision, eyes unable to focus on anything anymore besides the stabbing pain in his chest. “Fuck you! How dare you fucking say you didn’t mean to hurt me. Especially after telling me you loved me only to take it back! You never cared Jaejin! You just wanted sex and I gave you it, so fucking much of it. Wasted almost 2 years of my fucking time with you only to be burned by the affection I gave you.”  It really has been that long, hasn’t it? It’s almost been 2 years since he had brought the collar to him as a joke, showing it off to him and teasing him only for it to become so much more. He used to think back on that moment fondly, using it as the moment he realized that he wanted him more than he could ever possibly imagine. It hurts. It hurts so fucking bad. It hurts even more that it was someone he’s known for 11 years saying this to him. His eyes close tightly, quiet sob coming out of him as his shoulders shake. “You used me. You lied to me. You played me. I never want to hear words from you ever again because no matter what you say to me I will NEVER believe it.” No. He was done with Lee Jaejin. He tears his gaze away from him, vision blurring so bad that he struggles to see the door. He immediately moves towards it, wanting nothing more to do here. “Don’t ever say my name again unless we’re on stage to keep up appearances. I don’t even fucking want to hear ‘hyung’ from you again but you have to call me that so others don’t get suspicious. Goodnight Jaejin. I hope you sleep well never having to deal with my pathetic needy ass again.” He moves a hand to his face, finally letting out a strangled cry before he disappears from the room. His hand shoves itself into his pockets, pulling out of keys before he grabs a specific one with a little dog attached to it and rips it off with a scream of pain. He slams it down on his coffee table and leaves the house to go home and lock himself away.

[skullhongki]

continued from: x

Hongki blinks. His eyes are bright, wide as he takes in the other’s sleeping form, half asleep form that is. He had made his way into the house not too long ago and has been sitting there watching him for a few minutes. The Feline had finished his schedules not too long ago with a tired ache in his muscles and ones after several hours of mentoring the trainees. Not to mention the company had him running everywhere today. However he was mostly with the trainees and working on comeback material. He feels a yawn coming on, but he keeps his mouth shut tightly to drown it out. He was tired but he would much rather see the Canine instead of sleep. He sees his eyes open, excitement running through him. “Jaejin!” His ears twitch happily, tail swaying back and forth behind him. “Jaejin I mis–” Smack! Right against his forehead sending him rolling back a bit with a hiss of pain, followed by a loud whine. It hurt. He really hated that he couldn’t handle pain all too well. He rubs against it with his hands, moving them from his view so that he could look at the other with a pout resting on his lips. “I came here because I was tired and lonely.” He admits, moving his legs to cross underneath him before he lets his hands drop down to his lap. “I also just…missed you.” Hongki always missed Jaejin lately. He missed the feeling of being snuggled up against him, the other’s arms wrapped around him. He felt comfortable there, almost a sense of safety washing over him. “I really missed you. A lot happened today that I wanted to tell you about..” He feels his lips curl up, a soft smile resting there instead of the pout he held. “So many things today that made me think ‘Jaejin would fucking laugh at that.’ Especially with the training I’m giving the trainees. So many of them don’t seem to understand what I’m telling them and it’s amazing I’m being so patient, but whatever that’s enough about my day. What was yours like? Actually no wait, I’ll just…curl up here and we can talk tomorrow. I did just fucking wake you up for…this. Sorry.”

[goatbassist]

Jaejin can only sit there and stare at the excitable feline as he starts rambling on about his day. Then he says something about just curling up with him, saying they’d talk in the morning, followed by an apology for waking him. There’s a sharp pain in his chest as realization hits him. He was going to have to do this now. He hadn’t thought he’d be doing this so soon, he thought maybe he’d have a few more days before he had to tell him. It was too late at night and his head hurt, why did it have to be now? He knew no matter how sensitive he tried to be with him he’d be upset and confused. He didn’t want to do this but he knew he had to, he had to because it wasn’t fair to keep playing with his feelings.

“Hongst- Hyung…” he starts, moving to sit up now so he can actually look at him properly. He could already see confusion etching itself into his features. “Listen.. I’ve done a lot of thinking and I think…” He pauses, tongue darting out to wet his lips before pressing them into a thin line. He takes a deep breath, letting it out slowly before continuing. “I think we should stop this.” His hand moves back and forth, gesturing between them. “This. Us. Whatever is going on between us. The sex, the snuggling, the sleeping together. It has to stop. I.. I realized that everything I feel towards you is pure instinct.” Eyes flit around the room, no longer able to look at him. It’s for the best, he reminded himself, feeling that same ache return to his chest.

Another deep breath and a few more reminders that he had to do this and he was able to look at him again. His eyes were apologetic, ears flat again his head and tail hanging low. “Hyung it’s not fair to you for me to keep giving into these instincts. I’m keeping you from finding someone who genuinely likes you. So please.. let’s just stop this..okay? I’m sorry hyung.” His voice is hushed when he speaks to him, as if afraid he’d scare him off by talking any louder.

[skullhongki]

Jaejin starts talking, about to use a cute nickname before he stops himself and switches to honorifics. It has him confused. Lately he hasn’t been using them as often with him, keeping them for when they were in public or around other people. His ears twitch, head slightly tilting as he listens to what he has to say. His heart drops to his stomach, so quickly he finds himself unable to breathe, mouth falling open to take a few short breathes. He should have known it was going to be something like this, but he didn’t think it’d be that. He didn’t think Jaejin would ever tell him he didn’t like him or think about him in that way, not after everything they have done together. Club music resounds in his ears. Something pricks at his eyes. Instinct, there he was going on and throwing around that word as if it would make this entire situation better. It only made it worse. While Lee Hongki was sitting there falling helplessly in love, Leen Jaejin was feeling absolutely fucking nothing. He felt nothing yet he continued to play around with his feelings, even going as far to tell him he l--- “I hate you.” It comes out with a shaking voice but the amount of pure venom in his voice was chilling. All the cute positive feelings he had felt towards him, the want to be close and pressed against him became nothing but the want to scream at him, smack him across the face and never see him again. Ears brush backwards, pressing against the back of his head as his gaze drops down. “All the time you were just using me. Isn’t that it?” Club music gets louder, making the feeling pricking at his eyes finally break free down his face. Next thing he knew he’s crying. “You continued to fuck me, hold me close to you in your arms, and say such sweet things to me all because you just wanted my fucking body. All because of your stupid fucking instincts.” A pause, bitter laugh slipping free from him as he pulls himself away, nearly stumbling off the bed. He picks his gaze up, staring at him as if he was no longer staring at someone he loved. “Hah, man wasn’t I stupid...for believing you in that stupid fucking club when you were just lying to me. That’s what you are...a fucking lying player piece of shit who played me like he plays his bass.”

[skullhongki]

continued from: x

Hongki blinks. His eyes are bright, wide as he takes in the other’s sleeping form, half asleep form that is. He had made his way into the house not too long ago and has been sitting there watching him for a few minutes. The Feline had finished his schedules not too long ago with a tired ache in his muscles and ones after several hours of mentoring the trainees. Not to mention the company had him running everywhere today. However he was mostly with the trainees and working on comeback material. He feels a yawn coming on, but he keeps his mouth shut tightly to drown it out. He was tired but he would much rather see the Canine instead of sleep. He sees his eyes open, excitement running through him. “Jaejin!” His ears twitch happily, tail swaying back and forth behind him. “Jaejin I mis--” Smack! Right against his forehead sending him rolling back a bit with a hiss of pain, followed by a loud whine. It hurt. He really hated that he couldn’t handle pain all too well. He rubs against it with his hands, moving them from his view so that he could look at the other with a pout resting on his lips. “I came here because I was tired and lonely.” He admits, moving his legs to cross underneath him before he lets his hands drop down to his lap. “I also just...missed you.” Hongki always missed Jaejin lately. He missed the feeling of being snuggled up against him, the other’s arms wrapped around him. He felt comfortable there, almost a sense of safety washing over him. “I really missed you. A lot happened today that I wanted to tell you about..” He feels his lips curl up, a soft smile resting there instead of the pout he held. “So many things today that made me think ‘Jaejin would fucking laugh at that.’ Especially with the training I’m giving the trainees. So many of them don’t seem to understand what I’m telling them and it’s amazing I’m being so patient, but whatever that’s enough about my day. What was yours like? Actually no wait, I’ll just...curl up here and we can talk tomorrow. I did just fucking wake you up for...this. Sorry.”

[goatbassist]

I guess I live with myself now

[goatbassist]

messyindustry:

The staring makes his skin crawl, goose bumps covering his skin in ways he wasn’t sure he liked. It was hard for him to focus on anything else with him looking at him in that way. Finally he manages to tear his gaze away, deciding the ceiling was his better option to run away from his eyes. “It’s fine. I pissed you off so it’s understandable why you basically told me to fuck off.” He shrugs his shoulders casually, eyes slowly tracing a few cracks. His teeth gently run over hos bottom lip, debating with himself for a few moments before he decides to just ask. “How are the scratches on your back?” He asks it quietly, soft and unsure as if he might still be upset with him.  If he was, Jae understood. He did make marks all over his back when he knew the other had someone to go home to that would question him. He didn’t want Jaejin to lose everything that made him happy all because of him. He’s already ruined a lot of things for many of the people he came into contact with in his world, didn’t want to ruin things here too.  He heaves a heavy sigh when his thoughts go back to the dark hole of self hatred he seemed to keep falling into. It just gravitated to him like a dark heavy cloud hanging over his head. Jaejin just…had to touch a topic he didn’t want to talk about though. His once soft voice now instead sighing. “Yeah, it doesn’t. I woke up this morning thinking everything was a dream but there you are talking to Hongki.” A pause, head falling to the side to look at him again. “…and here I am in your bed laying next to you, actually talking to you, and it’s…strange. It’s so strange but I guess it’s what’s happening so I can’t really do anything about it. We are really different though for two people who are supposed to be the same person.”

After the initial sting had passed he had honestly completely forgotten about the marks. So when Jae mentions him he blinks several times before realizing what he meant. “Oh. Yeah they’re pretty fucking bad.” He laughs though, a light airy laugh, that was so different from the bitter chuckles he gave last night. “But it’s cool. I knew what I was getting myself into I just have a bad temper. It’s a blessing in disguise though. I mean it’s what got me Hongki after all.” His lips spread out into a smile at the thought.

He sees the other turn his head to look at him and so he does the same. “I guess it’s because of the experiences we’ve had. Those experiences shaped us differently into who we are now. Though a part of me wonders just when we started having different experiences in life. Where was the branching? Was there even branching? Or were we different from the start.” He had a lot of questions if he was being honest but he didn’t want to overwhelm him.

[skullhongki]

They're pretty bad. He cringes when he hears that, frowning slightly. He must have really dragged his nails down his skin. While at the time he really believed the other deserved it, he should have been a little more careful. He sighs softly, shifting to sit himself up to stare down at him instead. "Come on, sit up and pull up your shirt so I can check the damage and properly clean them if I have to." He reaches out, fingers grabbing at his shirt to gently tug it to try and get him up. "I want to make up for it somehow." He sounded like Heechul for a second, it makes his heart ache. Did he miss him that much?

"I don't fucking want to get existential with you right now, or at all really. It gives me a headache and makes my brain hurt." It gave him a headache, the entire thing too stressful for him. He worried too much thinking about it. He gently bites his bottom lip now, brain thinking about the subject anyways. "Maybe we have always been different, with slight differences in the society we live in helping us move along as human beings. At our base we're the same but personality wise...we're two different people? Fuck, I don't know."

[goatbassist]

skullhongki:

Hongki watches him, the way his eyes roll, mouth shapes, and how his back arches underneath his touches. He sees how much he has an effect on him and it brings him so much joy to watch. He was clearly attracted to him in some way, wanted him in some way. Hongki needed him too. He needed something. He nearly chokes at several thoughts that come to mind, knowing he shouldn’t want to do anything like that with the bassist below him. Yet he can’t help it.  “Let’s..” He starts but stops himself, hands removing themselves from his hair to slowly run down to his neck, then over his collarbones before ultimately he brushes them over his chest. His pecs. They were somewhere he lingers on, feeling them up to his heart’s content, loving how firm they were underneath his fingertips, but he stops them on his stomach. “Let’s do something together.” He whispers quietly, before he pushes his hands against his stomach and slides himself off of his hips down to rest on his thighs. Jaejin’s thighs were nice and thick, so strong unlike how he was when he was younger. The other in general was different, much different than he was back then. Now that he thinks about it he thinks he might have gotten more handsome, sexier even. His fingers brush lower to rest on the belt of his clothing, eyes darting down to take in the bulge of his jeans.

Jaejin lays there appreciating the feeling of the older’s hands running along his body. Eyes open just enough to where he could look at him when he speaks, watching as he moves himself to rest on his thighs. A whine leaves him at the loss of pressure but he thinks the other isn’t quite done yet. When fingers rest on his belt and his gaze falls to the bulge, he knows he’s right. He had a pretty good idea what the other had in mind and with how painfully tight his pants were he’d be an idiot to say no.

So he doesn’t. Instead his hand moves itself to gently cup Hongki’s chin, his thumb brushing over his bottom lip. “I like that idea. A lot.” He murmurs the words, a devious smirk playing at the corner of his lips. It was a stupid idea, this entire situation was pretty dumb but he was far past the point of caring. The only thing he cared about in this moment was finding any release for the heat in his pants. A low growl rumbled in his chest at the idea of the vocalist getting him off. The things he was willing to do with him, to do to him.

[skullhongki]

A calloused finger runs over his lip, holding his chin so gentle. He nearly shudders at the feeling of his rough hands, thoughts dipping into how it would feel to have them run all over his body. He shudders at that thought, pushing it to the back of his mind so he could focus on his task at hand. He gently shakes the other’s hand off of his face, attention dropping down to the belt that he starts messing with. He gets it removed after a few times struggling, tugging it free while his tongue wets his lips. Hongki was practically drooling, shaking fingers working hard to remove the jeans, pulling them lower on his body until he sees the bulge free but still thinly covered by boxers. His eyes flick upwards to look at Jaejin’s face before back down at the incredibly large covered cock. He always knew that it was big but he’s never seen it hard like this before. He swallows back the saliva that gathers in his mouth, eyes clenching shut. He wants this so bad. He leans down, tongue sliding out to press itself against the clothed erection. His eyes clench shut, salty taste hitting him hard but it didn’t taste bad. He presses it flat before he slowly licks upwards. His mouth finds the clothed tip and carefully encircles itself around it, sucking gently on it. A soft moan slips free from him, hands sliding up Jaejin’s hairy thighs to land on his hips, keeping him pressed down to the ground.

[goatbassist]

skullhongki:

Hands grab his ass, fingers pressing into them through his tight jeans practically pulling them apart. It felt really good, palms kneading against them when he makes his ass go up more into them as he continues rocking into him. It made him think about how it would feel to have his hands grabbing it with no clothing on, pushing his fingers in between the crack to tease his hole or press a finger inside of it. His nail scratching against his rim as it pushes in and out, teasingly rubbing ever time he does. He moans at the thoughts, kiss breaking off so he could let out another much clearer one as he takes a breath in. Panting, he licks his tongue slowly across the top if his lips to remove the spit line that kept them connected. His taste was still overwhelming in his mouth. His eyes flick down to look at him, taking in his facial features and the sharp lines of his jaw. The sight blood stained on his lips and the shadow of him not shaving for a few days was such a sight. It’s enough to make him moan a quiet breath of his name. His brain had stopped processing what he was doing anymore with only the pure dripping need coursing through his body.  Hongki has never thought of Jaejin in this way, never seen him as someone he needed like this. He has never wanted him, at least he didn’t think so. Maybe there were times when he had gotten so angry his brain told him to kiss him until he couldn’t say anything anymore but that was only recently when they fought over the stress they’ve been feeling. “J..Jaejin.” He swallows thickly, finger nails pressing into his scalp to rake themselves down to his nape.

The feeling of the older’s ass beneath his fingers was something he couldn’t even begin to describe. The urge to tear his clothes off him returned, wanting nothing more than to feel the soft skin under his fingertips. He pondered for a moment how beautiful the noises that would leave him would be. He wondered if he’d squeal or just blatantly moan if he were to bring his hand down harshly on his bare ass. Those lovely noises that would fall past his pretty lips would be music to his ears.

He’s grateful when the kiss is finally broken, his lungs were screaming at him for oxygen moments prior. So he was left gasping for air as he stared up at the other with hooded eyes. He watched the older’s gaze flit across his face, taking in his features. When his name escapes him in a breathy moan, his eyes flutter shut, a shudder coursing through him. Fuck. He liked that, he really liked that. The images that flashed in his mind were things he had never thought about doing with the vocalist. Horrible, dirty things he never expected himself to imagine doing with Hongki.

His mouth falls open in a silent gasp when nails scratch roughly down his head to his neck. The sensation has his eyes rolling back and his back arching. He takes a minute to just relish in the feeling before looking to the man still sprawled on top of him. His own hands remain where they are, giving his ass another firm squeeze, even allowing his nails to dig into the fabric of his jeans a bit. “Yeah Hongki?”

[skullhongki]

Hongki watches him, the way his eyes roll, mouth shapes, and how his back arches underneath his touches. He sees how much he has an effect on him and it brings him so much joy to watch. He was clearly attracted to him in some way, wanted him in some way. Hongki needed him too. He needed something. He nearly chokes at several thoughts that come to mind, knowing he shouldn’t want to do anything like that with the bassist below him. Yet he can’t help it.  “Let’s..” He starts but stops himself, hands removing themselves from his hair to slowly run down to his neck, then over his collarbones before ultimately he brushes them over his chest. His pecs. They were somewhere he lingers on, feeling them up to his heart’s content, loving how firm they were underneath his fingertips, but he stops them on his stomach. “Let’s do something together.” He whispers quietly, before he pushes his hands against his stomach and slides himself off of his hips down to rest on his thighs. Jaejin’s thighs were nice and thick, so strong unlike how he was when he was younger. The other in general was different, much different than he was back then. Now that he thinks about it he thinks he might have gotten more handsome, sexier even. His fingers brush lower to rest on the belt of his clothing, eyes darting down to take in the bulge of his jeans.

[goatbassist]

skullhongki:

He feels him harden slightly underneath him, feeling his body twitch a little at the realization that he did that to him. The others hips are felt once more, pressing up against his own making him release a sharp breath from his nose. Fingers, grab more at his hair, pulling it free from the styling it was in before. He always had this overwhelming urge to rake his nails through it removing the strands fro the hold of the gel and hairspray he used. Another slow thrust of his hips downwards, pressing his own growing heat hard against the others to start rubbing them together in a slow, sensual way with carefully placed pressure. He twitches again, pleasure washing over him at how it felt to practically hump the other’s body. He continues doing it over and over again. The feeling of the other hardening underneath him causing a muffled moan into their mouths. It feels so good, too good for him to have any logical thoughts to stop, He wanted to feel him until he reached his orgasm, even through it as he’s sensitive and twitchy on top of him. His tongue forces itself deeper into his wet caverns as he does to press itself against Jaejin’s tongue. He brushes it across the top of it, another muffled but high pitched moan coming fro him. He’s too intoxicated for him to watch himself. He tastes like a mixture of things, fish is one of them so he assumes he must have eaten seafood earlier as well as the taste of alcohol. His tongue slides itself down on top  of Jaejin’s before it very slowly brushes across it to the bottom of it. His taste washes over him once more, no longer coated in iron and leaves his face burning hot and red

Jaejin’s neatly styled hair was coming undone under the other’s fingers, just as he himself was coming undone under him. He always had a thing for people messing with his hair, but something about the way Hongki was so relentlessly rough about it. The way he kept at it as if it were his sole mission to ruin the hard work he put into fixing it, was something he’s never experienced with anyone else. He’d gladly let him yank and pull to his hearts content, he could even manhandle him by his hair if he so pleased, it felt fucking amazing.

When Hongki’s hips press down against his own again, he feels him twitch and it sends chills down his spine. He hadn’t made any move to take control of the situation, barely even moving his hands on his body. Rather, he laid there and allowed him to do as he pleased. Over and over the sensation of him pressing against him returned. Part of him wanted so badly to just rid them both of the bothersome clothes they wore, feel his warm skin against his own. But the energy he’d have to put into that was more than he wanted to exert at the moment.

His hands finally begin to explore the entirety of the older’s body. Slowly sliding down his shoulders and arms before fanning out across his chest. His fingers dance along his abdomen, until they meet his waist. His hands rub the back of his thighs before firmly groping the beautiful round ass that belonged to the vocalist. He had smacked Hongki’s butt on many occasions, but he always fought the urge he had to just full on grope him. He had a nice ass, everyone knew, so who could blame him for having those urges.

[skullhongki]

Hands grab his ass, fingers pressing into them through his tight jeans practically pulling them apart. It felt really good, palms kneading against them when he makes his ass go up more into them as he continues rocking into him. It made him think about how it would feel to have his hands grabbing it with no clothing on, pushing his fingers in between the crack to tease his hole or press a finger inside of it. His nail scratching against his rim as it pushes in and out, teasingly rubbing ever time he does. He moans at the thoughts, kiss breaking off so he could let out another much clearer one as he takes a breath in. Panting, he licks his tongue slowly across the top if his lips to remove the spit line that kept them connected. His taste was still overwhelming in his mouth. His eyes flick down to look at him, taking in his facial features and the sharp lines of his jaw. The sight blood stained on his lips and the shadow of him not shaving for a few days was such a sight. It’s enough to make him moan a quiet breath of his name. His brain had stopped processing what he was doing anymore with only the pure dripping need coursing through his body.  Hongki has never thought of Jaejin in this way, never seen him as someone he needed like this. He has never wanted him, at least he didn’t think so. Maybe there were times when he had gotten so angry his brain told him to kiss him until he couldn’t say anything anymore but that was only recently when they fought over the stress they’ve been feeling. “J..Jaejin.” He swallows thickly, finger nails pressing into his scalp to rake themselves down to his nape.

[goatbassist]

skullhongki:

Soft black locks, tangled so nicely and feeling so good underneath his finger tips. Lips that part, trying to get more of a taste of the other knowing that he was going to taste the alcohol on his tongue. He probably tasted gross, disgusting even but his body was screaming at him to taste the other’s mouth. It was like alarms kept going off in his head, yelling at him that this was what he wanted even if the confusion of the moment was still strong. His tongue licked at him, pressed flat against Jaejin’s lips before it wiggles in between them and pushes past his teeth. He darts his tongue inside, tasting iron from the blood he had spewed up from the punch he delivered to him earlier. His fingers curl into his hair, pulling the strands tighter in into a small fist, making them pull on Jaejin’s poor scalp. Hips slowly slide down, experimentally pushing themselves upwards against the other’s and feeling a shiver run down his spine. The warmth of his body gets hotter, much hotter and it tells him that it wasn’t just the alcohol that was doing this to him. It was Jaejin. Jaejin was making him feel hot and his skin prick and burn. He was making him feel a lot of things and all he wanted to do was feel more of it,

The sweet moment they shared was brief, it seemed the drunk make out session he had imagined earlier was going to happen after all. Another kind of warmth had enveloped his body when suddenly the older’s tongue pushed its way into his mouth. The disgusting iron taste still lingered on his tongue so he’s pretty sure the taste he was getting wasn’t exactly what he wanted but it seemed he didn’t mind in the slightest. Hongki’s pretty slender fingers even grip his hair, tugging on it mercilessly. A guttural noise rumbles in the back of his throat at the wonderful sensation.

There’s a sudden pressure against the ever growing heat in his pants. The feeling that courses through him earns him another muffled groan. His hand moves to the back of his head, tilting his own slightly in an attempt to deepen the kiss. His hips push up, attempting to get the same pressure again, he wanted to have that overwhelming pleasure wash over him.

Hongki had started a fire within him, and it was slowly burning him from the inside out. Everything was so overly warm, in the best way possible. The warmth had spread from his chest, the fondness he had felt for a moment when the older had softened on him, to the bulge in his pants, the need and desire to make him feel the suffocating heat he was feeling. He wanted to ignite the same fire within the older, a fire that would consume him. He would be that fire.

[skullhongki]

He feels him harden slightly underneath him, feeling his body twitch a little at the realization that he did that to him. The others hips are felt once more, pressing up against his own making him release a sharp breath from his nose. Fingers, grab more at his hair, pulling it free from the styling it was in before. He always had this overwhelming urge to rake his nails through it removing the strands fro the hold of the gel and hairspray he used. Another slow thrust of his hips downwards, pressing his own growing heat hard against the others to start rubbing them together in a slow, sensual way with carefully placed pressure. He twitches again, pleasure washing over him at how it felt to practically hump the other’s body. He continues doing it over and over again. The feeling of the other hardening underneath him causing a muffled moan into their mouths. It feels so good, too good for him to have any logical thoughts to stop, He wanted to feel him until he reached his orgasm, even through it as he’s sensitive and twitchy on top of him. His tongue forces itself deeper into his wet caverns as he does to press itself against Jaejin’s tongue. He brushes it across the top of it, another muffled but high pitched moan coming fro him. He’s too intoxicated for him to watch himself. He tastes like a mixture of things, fish is one of them so he assumes he must have eaten seafood earlier as well as the taste of alcohol. His tongue slides itself down on top  of Jaejin’s before it very slowly brushes across it to the bottom of it. His taste washes over him once more, no longer coated in iron and leaves his face burning hot and red

[multimusemess]

messyindustry:

What was Hongki doing? Quite honestly he didn’t know. All he knew was he got frustrated and didn’t really feel like killing Jaejin today. No matter how angry he got with him their band still needed their bassist. Hongki still needed Jaejin. So while kissing him isn’t exactly the most appropriate answer it was the one that kept Jaejin alive tonight. Jaejin’s lips were warm. Jaejin in general was kind of warm. It could very well just be the alcohol in his system but whatever it was Hongki didn’t care. All he knew was he liked it.He shifts his lower half to where he was more straddling his hips. It allows him to press his chest against the younger’s and sap up his warmth. His hands releasing his collar to rest his forearms on either side of Jaejin’s head with his fingers tangles in his hair. Hongki becomes softer then. He kisses him softer. It’s still desperate but it isn’t as hard. It’s more affectionate. There’s feeling there. He doesn’t exactly want to say what because there’s way too many conflicting ones. He isn’t sure which is real nor was he going to pretend to know. All he knew was in this moment he was quite content with what was happening.

Jaejin’s head was still spinning but he was able to comprehend that whatever was happening right now, he was okay with. He was more than okay with it, he liked it, a lot. He liked the feeling of the older’s lips against his own, he liked the warmth he gave off. He liked how he could still smell his cologne even if it was heavily mixed with the stench of alcohol. It was all so warm and comforting and inviting.

However what he wasn’t expecting was for Hongki to get so soft on him. He was expecting this heated kiss to only lead to a disgusting drunk messy make out session on the floor. But instead the older was moving and his fingers were in his hair. Fuck that felt really nice, he really liked it actually. The kiss was softer, sweeter than before.

His own hands moved from the back of the older’s neck to either side of his face. He was gently caressing his cheeks now, his thumbs gently stroking them as he returned the sweet kiss. It was nice, all of it was so so nice. His chest was so warm and fuzzy and he felt like he was floating on air. It was such a strange feeling especially since it seemed it was caused by Hongki. He really wasn’t sure what these feelings were or if there were even feelings there or if it was just the alcohol talking.

[skullhongki]

Soft black locks, tangled so nicely and feeling so good underneath his finger tips. Lips that part, trying to get more of a taste of the other knowing that he was going to taste the alcohol on his tongue. He probably tasted gross, disgusting even but his body was screaming at him to taste the other’s mouth. It was like alarms kept going off in his head, yelling at him that this was what he wanted even if the confusion of the moment was still strong. His tongue licked at him, pressed flat against Jaejin’s lips before it wiggles in between them and pushes past his teeth. He darts his tongue inside, tasting iron from the blood he had spewed up from the punch he delivered to him earlier. His fingers curl into his hair, pulling the strands tighter in into a small fist, making them pull on Jaejin’s poor scalp. Hips slowly slide down, experimentally pushing themselves upwards against the other’s and feeling a shiver run down his spine. The warmth of his body gets hotter, much hotter and it tells him that it wasn’t just the alcohol that was doing this to him. It was Jaejin. Jaejin was making him feel hot and his skin prick and burn. He was making him feel a lot of things and all he wanted to do was feel more of it,

[skullhongki]

continued from; x

When he sees him there’s this happiness that washes over him, warmth filling his heart. The way the other looks at him nearly has him faint, taller male shooting towards him and being met with the sweetest kiss. He nearly melts. His hands reach up to grab at his shirt, pressing himself as close as he possibly could to him as he kisses him back just as sweet. He no longer wanted there to be any space between them. There was far too much space in the span of ten years. Regardless of how people looked at them, shooting them strange looks like they weren’t supposed to be Hongki knew better. He knew they were made for each other every single time their lips met. He smiles. Hongki smiles at him and leans himself up to press his face against his, breathing in his breath. “Hi my love.” He says it in the same tone the other does, fingers curling a little tighter on his clothing. He shivers a little, feeling the chills of the night air finally sink into his skin. He presses himself as close as physically possible into Jaejin as a result, tucking his had into his shoulder.

[skullhongki]

continued from; x What a fool. What a love sick fool. He should hit him for it. You know what he will. He reaches over to snatch the towel from him and whip it at his legs. “What the hell is wrong with you?” He scowls at him, standing up from his seat to hit him with it again, this time on his chest. “Do you honestly believe you made such a good choice?” Hit. “Marrying Lee Hongki?” Another hit. “The guy who made your life in high school hel!?” He throws the towel at his face before he pinches the bridge of his nose and takes in a slow breath.  This man was going to give him a migraine. Again. He was absolutely ridiculous. He constantly did stupid things that Kibum had to clean up after him for. This time was probably going to be no different. “He only looked at you because he thought he you were hot! Isn’t that strange? Him approaching you suddenly wanting to have sex with you? Then suddenly he’s in love? Use your damn brain Lee Jaejin, he’s playing you again.”

[goatbassist]

Lost in his own little world he didn’t even notice as the towel was taken from his head until he’s being hit with it, a loud yelp leaving him. “Yah! What the hell?” Then he’s being scolded, hit after every sentence. Leave it to Key to literally try and beat some sense into him. A soft huff leaves him as he quickly takes the towel when it’s thrown at him, tucking it behind him so he isn’t hit again. Not letting that happen twice. Damn that stings.

He couldn’t even get a word in before the other started making accusations. The accusations that he made however, made Jaejin’s blood boil. No. No, Hongki wasn’t playing him. He didn’t just want him for sex. He wasn’t like that. This was real, genuine, and he knew that without a shadow of a doubt. Suddenly he’s on his feet grabbing the collar of his friend’s shirt. He could call him stupid all night long he couldn’t give, less of a shit, but the minute he started making baseless accusations against Hongki he was done.

“Don’t you ever talk about him like that again do you hear me Kibum? I know full well I’m a god damn idiot and the choices I make and have made have gotten me into bad situations that you had to fix but this isn’t one of them. I can swear to you right now that this is not one of those mistakes. Hongki is not a mistake. You weren’t there whenever he came to me when I was alone and asked me about my music or hell even just to see if I was okay. Back then I was stupid and didn’t see it but that was genuine concern and interest he showed me, it was the little he could show despite everything. Those gestures were like him telling me to not give up on him, that he wanted this.” He had to take a deep breath in an attempt to calm himself, he was seething at this point.

He let’s his hands fall, but his gaze was just as intense as before. “If he solely wanted me for sex he would’ve pounced on me after tackling me into the pool. But he didn’t, he told me to forget everything and just kiss him. The look he gave me…I knew what he meant by saying that. I knew he was serious. I made my decision then that I wouldn’t let him go again. I let him go for 10 years and not once did my love for him ever stop. I tried to stop loving him, I tried to move on but I couldn’t. Tonight was my last chance to get the boy I’ve been in love with for over a decade and I took that chance. So you can either get your head out of your ass and give me your blessing as my best friend or you can walk away now. If something goes down you won’t have anything to clean up then.”

[skullhongki]

Suddenly his collar was grabbed so roughly that he nearly fell over, eyes widening to stare at his best friend’s burning anger directly in his eyes. He was beyond pissed off. He doesn’t think he’s seen him this angry in such a long time and it nearly terrifies him. Here he was, anger blazing all because the name of the man he loved left his lips in a negative light. How could he defend him after all these years? Speechless. Absolutely speechless as he rattles off things that Key never took into consideration. The fact that when it was just those two, alone together, Hongki let all his walls down. But if he truly loved him then why did he bully him like he did? Why did he poke and prod? Why didn’t he just outright tell him his feelings? He blinks once his friend finally releases him, reaching up to carefully fix his collar as he sorts though his thoughts to figure out something to say that didn’t make him sound like a complete dick. Jaejin really wanted this, wanted Hongki and wanted this wedding. He needs to be understanding. He heaves a heavy sigh, shaking his head a few times before he looks at him, gaze a lot softer now. “I’m sorry. Genuinely I’m sorry. I was out of line for saying any of that. You’re happy about this and I just had to come be a dick all because I was overly worried about you. I’ll give you my blessings since you want this so much. I’ll try.” There’s a pause between his words, hesitating on a question he wanted to ask but unsure if it will make him upset again. “Asking out of curiosity...why didn’t he just tell you how he truly felt back then?”

[skullhongki]

continued from; x What a fool. What a love sick fool. He should hit him for it. You know what he will. He reaches over to snatch the towel from him and whip it at his legs. “What the hell is wrong with you?” He scowls at him, standing up from his seat to hit him with it again, this time on his chest. “Do you honestly believe you made such a good choice?” Hit. “Marrying Lee Hongki?” Another hit. “The guy who made your life in high school hel!?” He throws the towel at his face before he pinches the bridge of his nose and takes in a slow breath.  This man was going to give him a migraine. Again. He was absolutely ridiculous. He constantly did stupid things that Kibum had to clean up after him for. This time was probably going to be no different. “He only looked at you because he thought he you were hot! Isn’t that strange? Him approaching you suddenly wanting to have sex with you? Then suddenly he’s in love? Use your damn brain Lee Jaejin, he’s playing you again.”

[goatbassist]

skullhongki:

Yes. Those choices. He heaves a sigh, mouth falling into a pout before he glances over at her. He pulls the towel back up onto his head, pulling it from side to side to try and rid the water more. “Yeah, sure I did approach him only because I wanted to have sex with him.” He rips the towel off from himself, hair falling back onto his forehead in a messy fashion. “Sure…that was all that I approached him for. Not because I’m still in love with him. Not because I just…wanted so desperately to be as close as possible to him but because I wanted to have sex with him.” He starts slowly deflating, fingers gripping around the towel tightly. Why are his hands shaking so bad? “I did want to have sex with him…but that’s as close as I thought I’d ever get to be to him. I figured there was no way he still loved me..not after everything.” His eyes drop down to his hands, letting up on his grip on the towel. Emotions suddenly hit him that he didn’t expect to feel. Eyes slowly filling up with water for the third time that night that he one again forces back by tilting his head up and keeping his eyes open for several moments. “I love him Shin Hye. This was our last chance to be anything to each other so marriage? I’d do it in a heart beat. Ten years is such a long time to be without him and I don’t want to do it again. Nothing I ever tried to do relationship wise worked out because all I would do is compare them to him. They weren’t as sweet as him. They didn’t put up with me as much as he did. They didn’t care as much…” Hongki pauses, eyes falling on her again in all their watery glory. The memory of that time at lunch comes back in his head, teeth running across his lip before he bites at it. “We did talk through high school…I did talk to him. I talked to him a lot. Sometimes I wouldn’t bully him and would just sit there listening to him go on about music…or anything for awhile. I wanted to date him. I wanted some kind of support from someone when my parents couldn’t give it so I tried. But I was fucking made out to be a joke when I told every one of our friends that I loved that man. So I’m sorry if I want to fucking be happy and marry him…”

She feels a little guilty at her poor word choice when she sees how much it upset him. She knew full well of his feelings for the other. She knew full well of the horrible ups and downs he had during school whenever it came to the fact he couldn’t be with him. Those ups and downs only got worse after they graduated, since they no longer saw each other at all. At least during school they could see each other in the hall or at lunch, but after graduating, nothing. Hongki tried to move on, figuring Jaejin probably had, it was painful to watch. None of the relationships worked out for one reason or another. Whether Hongki just didn’t feel anything at all for the person, or that person simply wanted him for his money. In the end he just stopped dating all together. She hated seeing her best friend like that, so unhappy and lacking the liveliness he once had.

A soft sigh leaves her, stepping forward to take the towel from him to continue drying his hair. “What am I gonna do with you Hongki? Am I just supposed to up and trust you to a guy I barely know, what kind of best friend would I be.” She offers a small smile her hands now moving to cup his face. “I know you love him, I’ve known since you got that note, even if you wouldn’t tell me you felt the same, I knew. I saw the way you’d pull it out during class or after your parents yelled at you and you’d read it. The smile that you had on your face, was probably one of the brightest smiles I’ve ever seen. He made you happy and from what little I saw of him, you seemed to make him just as happy even if you did pick on him.”

She let’s him finish before promptly pressing the towel against his eyes. “Yah come on don’t cry on me. Go back to smiling like a love sick idiot, it looks better on you than that kicked puppy look.” She attempts to lighten the mood, before her voice takes a serious tone again. “Don’t apologize. I should be sorry, I shouldn’t have snapped at you. I just worry you know that. You’re like a brother to me Hongki and I just want you to be happy and safe. And if marrying him will make you happy then I shouldn’t get in the way of that.” She reaches out to ruffle his hair. “But if he ever hurts you I’ll kick his ass and you won’t be able to stop me you got that?”

[skullhongki]

Sniffling, the towel falls from his fingers and he pathetically looks at her with big watery eyes, looking like a kicked puppy. He lets her take care of him and dry him off, listening to what she has to say to him and nodding every so often.  He gets that she barely knows Jaejin and would worry about his safety being entrusted to him but to out right tell him it was stupid? Wasn’t that going a bit too far? Shouldn’t she trust his choices? He opens his mouth but shuts it up when a towel is pressed to his face. He reaches up to try and pry it off but gives up and lets his arms fall to his sides. “I...” His lips twitch at her words, slowly spreading up into a bright smile when they become warmer. “Y...You mean that? You really mean that you’ll support us?” His sight is brought back to him, eyes blinking for a moment before they adjust and he sees his best friend staring at him with a smile. She just gave them their blessings. She basically gave them their blessings. He feels like he wants to cry for the fourth time that day but he forces it back and instead moves towards her to wrap his arms around her, pulling her into a tight hug. “I want you to get to know him before my wedding and once you do you’ll see I made the right choice. You’ll see he’s the sweetest guy. He’ll take care of me well.” Hongki pulls away from her, looking like a giddy puppy with his eyes crinkling up and shining so bright. “I need your support because...I know my family is going to be so upset with me for picking that poor boy they told me to stay away from. Regardless of how successful he is now.” There’s a pause before he nearly bounces in place once an idea comes to his head, taking her shoulders and shaking her lightly. “Help me plan my wedding! That way you’ll spend a lot of time with us during the process!”

[goatbassist]

continued from x

She stared at her best friend as he dried himself off, shaking her head in sheer disbelief. She noticed the way his expression went one of annoyance to a forced smile. She couldn’t stop herself from rolling her eyes, shaking her head once again. “Great choices being initially approaching your high school crush, running off to I presume have sex, then fighting in the pool that suddenly turned into him proposing to you and you saying yes? Those choices Hongki? Because I think at least half of those choices were pretty stupid.” 

She saw all of it coming, from the minute she heard that Jaejin was coming to the reunion she knew something like this would happen. What she didn’t calculate however was the absolutely idiotic idea that the other would suddenly propose and Hongki would just as stupidly say yes. She could only sight, pinching the bridge of her nose when he just accepted her frustrations, it was painfully Hongki. “Yah Hongki you know I’m not saying this because of the status bull shit, I’ve supported your feelings for Jaejin since day 1. I’m saying this as a concerned friend. I know you’ve both had feelings for each other for a long time but to suddenly jump to marriage after not seeing each other for over 10 years and barely even talking throughout high school, I think you can understand where I’m coming from.”

[skullhongki]

Yes. Those choices. He heaves a sigh, mouth falling into a pout before he glances over at her. He pulls the towel back up onto his head, pulling it from side to side to try and rid the water more. “Yeah, sure I did approach him only because I wanted to have sex with him.” He rips the towel off from himself, hair falling back onto his forehead in a messy fashion. “Sure...that was all that I approached him for. Not because I’m still in love with him. Not because I just...wanted so desperately to be as close as possible to him but because I wanted to have sex with him.” He starts slowly deflating, fingers gripping around the towel tightly. Why are his hands shaking so bad? “I did want to have sex with him...but that’s as close as I thought I’d ever get to be to him. I figured there was no way he still loved me..not after everything.” His eyes drop down to his hands, letting up on his grip on the towel. Emotions suddenly hit him that he didn’t expect to feel. Eyes slowly filling up with water for the third time that night that he one again forces back by tilting his head up and keeping his eyes open for several moments. “I love him Shin Hye. This was our last chance to be anything to each other so marriage? I’d do it in a heart beat. Ten years is such a long time to be without him and I don’t want to do it again. Nothing I ever tried to do relationship wise worked out because all I would do is compare them to him. They weren’t as sweet as him. They didn’t put up with me as much as he did. They didn’t care as much...” Hongki pauses, eyes falling on her again in all their watery glory. The memory of that time at lunch comes back in his head, teeth running across his lip before he bites at it. “We did talk through high school...I did talk to him. I talked to him a lot. Sometimes I wouldn’t bully him and would just sit there listening to him go on about music...or anything for awhile. I wanted to date him. I wanted some kind of support from someone when my parents couldn’t give it so I tried. But I was fucking made out to be a joke when I told every one of our friends that I loved that man. So I’m sorry if I want to fucking be happy and marry him...”

[skullhongki]

“And here, ladies and gentlemen, we have the world’s biggest idiot.” (Shin Hye @ Hongki)

Fingers pull the towel closer to his head more, making it look like he had a hood as he turns his attention towards his best friend. She was giving him strange looks and he immediately knew it was because of what happened in the pool not too long ago. His cheeks puff up a little, slightly annoyed at being called an idiot but he brushes off and instead forces a smile on his face. “And why am I an idiot? I think I made a lot of great choices tonight.” He turns his attention away from her now to continue drying himself off, pulling the towel around his back.He should have known that she was going to be less than pleased with him. He rolls his eyes. She really was overreacting about it. At least he knew she was going to be in about five seconds. “Go on. Yell at me and give me all your thoughts on it.”

[goatbassist]

skullhongki:

Love works in strange ways. One of those ways is what he though was a crush burning so brightly even years after he last saw him. There were times where he would fall asleep and end up dreaming about him. For awhile it was annoying that no matter what he did he couldn’t get him off his mind but he soon grew to accept. What hurt the most is the worry that he might never see him again after high school ended. That was until he heard of everyone planning a high school reunion and thought that this would be his last chance to see him if he decided to come. This was his last chance to see him. His last ditch effort. He was desperate to at least get a look. He melts when he feels the other’s hands place themselves on top of his, removing them from his face so their fingers could intertwine causing his heart to skip several beats. He feels like something big is going to happen with how the atmosphere shifts, becoming heavy with something that Hongki knew but doesn’t want to put a word to yet. Not until he’s certain. Not until he hears it come out of his mouth himself. Jaejin speaks, telling him words that he’s always wanted to hear. That he loved him. Something suddenly starts pricking at the corners of his eyes, teeth brushing over his bottom lip before he bites down on it to try and prevent them. His head falls for a moment when he feels them break free from his tear ducts and slowly start to roll down his cheeks, dropping off his chin into the water of the pool. Lee Jaejin had just asked him to marry him. He chokes on his own breathing for a second before he manages to get oxygen inside of him. “J-…” He clenches his eyes shut to try and rid himself of the tears before he picks his head up at him again, lips curling up into the softest smile he has ever smiled at this man. There was no need for him to pretend like he wasn’t madly in love with him anymore. He was in love with him from the moment he caught sight of a cute boy in one of his classes on the first day of school being a stuttering mess to the teacher. Ever since then all he did was want him. “Lee Jaejin…for over a decade I wanted to hear those words from you. Telling me to just marry you regardless of everything that people have said. I wanted to hear that no matter what…you still loved me.” He admits, moving closer to him to that he could rest himself against him, head dropping to lay itself on his shoulder. “I want to marry you. I’ll marry you. Let’s get married so you can call me yours forever.” Silence befalls absolutely everything, sound of a straw hitting back into an alcoholic drink as Keys tares on the scene, mouth agape. Did his best friend just fucking propose to the most popular guy back in high school right in front of everyone? Did he just say yes? What kind of absolute stupidity is Jaejin spouting? He knows he’s been in love with him for that long but marriage? Especially to a man who made his life kind of a hell without even knowing he’s sincere or not? Slowly he puts his drink back up to his lips, completely forgetting about the straw in favor of chugging it down his throat. He thinks he’s going to need to drink a lot.

He waits with bated breath, his heart pounding in his ears. He knew everyone around them was watching, waiting for the ‘inevitable no’ that would leave him. Waiting for him to laugh in his face and push him as far away as humanly possible in disgust. But as Jaejin stared into his eyes, stared into those gorgeous eyes that he waited for so long to see up close, he knew the answer. He knew that he felt the same, he knew he wouldn’t say no, but he wanted to hear him say it. He wanted to hear him say he’d marry him so everyone could watch as he swept the man everyone told him he could never have off his feet and make him his and his alone.

A soft smile is spread across Hongki’s lips and he thinks about how he would love to see that smile every day of his life. He thinks he’d love to turn over in bed, and instead of being met with empty space, he’s met by that beautiful smile. He’d go to bed every night with this man wrapped in his arms, allowing him to memorize every little detail of his face. And when the answer finally leaves him, he knows he’ll be able to do all these things and more. His arms wrap securely around his newly deemed fiance, holding him as close as humanly possibly. He cheek resting against the side of his head, turning to place a soft kiss there as tears welled up in his eyes. This was really happening. He was going to marry Hongki.

The crowd is an array of gasps and even a few horrified screams. Loud murmurs were being passed between everyone, all of them clearly in an uproar over the nerdy loser getting the most popular guy. What will his parents think? Who cares, what will the media think? Won’t this ruin their careers? How dare he! Who does Lee Jaejin think he is?! Yeah rock star or not he’s still a fucking lowlife loser, he doesn’t deserve Hongki. I hear he’s not even that popular, can’t believe he’s gonna drag Hongki down with him, sad.

A glass falls from her hands, crashing and shattering across the ground at her feet. Lee Jaejin, the high school scrawny loser gone hot rock star, had just proposed to Lee Hongki. Not only that Hongki had fucking said yes. She could strangle him, she might strangle him. She knew full well of both of their affections to each other. She knew that Hongki could never go against his parents and say yes to Jaejin but to suddenly accept his proposal?! Was he fucking insane? They had gone from storming off to probably have angry sex to a fight to whatever the fuck this was. She grabs another glass from the table beside her. If she had to deal with a stupidly giddy Hongki she was not doing it sober.

[skullhongki]

Arms wrap themselves around his neck, holding himself as close to him as physically possible. This man was his. Lee Jaejin was his. After over a decade of waiting and wanting him he could finally have him. For forever. He knew the moment his answer left his lips his family wasn’t going to be happy with him. They were going to be unbelievably upset. They were going to tell him to call off the wedding and dump this man for someone of their choosing. He’ll stand his ground. There wasn’t going to be anything in this world that could pull him away from him anymore. His arms tighten around him, eyes fluttering closed as he takes everything in. From the warmth radiating from him to the comforting feeling of his strong arms wrapped rightly around him. Happiness was this. This moment was pure happiness. He feels tears prick at him once more but he forces them back down. There was no time for him to cry right now. He lets out a soft giggle, that gets louder so he ends up turning his head and pressing his lips against the skin of his neck to muffle it. He loved him. He loved him so much. He remembers the first time he ever admitted it out loud, getting such a crazy reaction from his friends where they prayed he was joking. He played it off that he was but the way that made him feel he would never forget. “My Jaejin...” He says it sickeningly sweet, quietly so that only he could hear. No one else would understand. They never understood. He decides to stop using his legs, pulling them up from pressing at the bottom of the pool so that he could cutely wrap them around the other’s waist and pull himself up in his arms. “My Jaejin.” He says it louder this time, fingers brushing into the back of his hair before he leans forwards to press his forehead against his again. No one will tell him it was wrong to love him ever again. He was the man he was going to marry and spend the rest of his life with.

[goatbassist]

skullhongki:

Lee Hongki was known as the guy that everybody wanted to be or be close to. He was popular, name plastered everywhere around that school like it was named after him. People would practically kill each other just to be on his good side. He was everybody’s dream boy who got love notes from someone new every single day. Except the day he got a love note from a boy he recognized from a few of his classes, a cute boy who he saw around playing the bass often by himself things were so different. He kept that note, tucked it away in one of his note books he used to sketch ideas for clothing designs. Occasionally he would pull it out and smile every so often. Lee Jaejin was a loser nobody that was overlooked wherever he went but Hongki saw him. He saw him in his classes barely paying attention to anything the teachers were saying because he saw him. He would watch him in the hallways passing by with his friend and smile to himself. Even during lunch there were times that he would hear him laughing loudly from another table When he saw him in the hallways, playing the bass with so much passion he thinks that’s when he fell the most. So why did he resort to bullying? Why couldn’t he just tell him how he felt? He wanted to. He really wanted to but his family never accepted his feelings for a poor boy who loved music. They forced him to let him go with excuses of it never working. He can’t love a man like that. Well, Lee Hongki loved Lee Jaejin. He wanted him in more ways than how he came to approach him that night. Fingers tighten on the wet fabric of his shirt, head nuzzling against his and nose pushing into his as he feels himself being held close to him. A hand is felt on his face, cupping it so gently before finally came what he has been waiting years for. He kissed him. The sounds of people yelling is heard all around them with the following of clapping. His eyes flutter shut and he kissed him back. Something sparks within him before it lights up like a pretty scented candle resting within his chest, burning the wonderful scent of love that overwhelms him. His hands slide from his back so that he could cup both sides of the other’s face and kiss him deeper.  When he had come to this high school reunion the one person he had hoped and prayed would be here is the man now holding him in his arms. The man that he was now tasting the tongue off and feeling emotional about. Within his hands he was finally holding the world that he wanted and dreamed of for over ten years. It was just a bonus that he had grown up to become one of the sexiest men he’s ever laid eyes on. Slowly he starts puling way from him, looking at him in his eyes as his heart pounds wildly within his chest. He takes in a slow and steady breath to try and calm his heartbeat, it’s hard but he manages to an extent. His lips curve up into the sweetest smile, thumbs running across his cheeks gently. “I love you.”

Jaejin hasn’t seen Hongki in 10 years but the flame that burned for the other never died out. After 2 years of those feelings never once dimming he realized it hadn’t been a simple high school crush. He realized he was head over heels in love with Hongki, but what good would it do him right? He’d never see him again so he should try and force himself to move on right? He did. He tried. He even asked Key to help him set up a profile for a dating app. He went on a few dates, men and women, but he never felt anything, he never contacted them again. Nothing made him feel the way Hongki did and after a while he just gave up, figuring no one ever would.

In that time he focused on his music, putting his all into his passion in an attempt to forget the other. Yet here he was, albeit wet and in a pool, but he was kissing the man he saw in his future. He’ll never forget the time he went to a family member’s wedding and the thought that crossed his mind when he saw her walking down the isle was that he could see himself marrying Hongki. Even after everything, that at the time annoyed and frustrated him, he could strongly say to himself that he’d marry him in a heartbeat. It was a thought most people would find stupid, idiotic even, but it was something he held onto dearly. The thought of being able to marry the man he loved.

The kiss is broken after what feels like an eternity and he’s left feeling light headed and breathless. His eyes remained closed for a long moment as he just takes in feeling of his hands against his cheeks. It was a nice feeling, he felt warm and happy here. But then Hongki was saying 3 words he never expected to hear. I love you. Three simple words that sent his mind racing. He knew then that he couldn’t stay like this, he had to do something. He had to do that thing he’s wanted to for so so long now and he didn’t care that everyone around them was still gawking. Good. Watch me prove you all wrong.

He places his hands atop the other’s as he takes a deep breath to calm his nerves. He takes his hands into his own and intertwines their fingers. He didn’t care who saw. He didn’t care they were in a pool. He didn’t care that several minutes ago they were gonna either fuck or strangle each other. Right now all he cared about was making Hongki his. “I love you too. I never fucking stopped loving you. Not when you turned me down. Not over the 10 years we never saw each other. I loved you from the moment I saw you in class all those years ago.” He squeezes his hands tightly in his own, his was soft but unwavering. “I haven’t stopped loving you and I don’t think I ever will. Forget everything that anyone’s ever said about us and just marry me. For the love of god Lee Hongki just marry me.”

[skullhongki]

Love works in strange ways. One of those ways is what he though was a crush burning so brightly even years after he last saw him. There were times where he would fall asleep and end up dreaming about him. For awhile it was annoying that no matter what he did he couldn’t get him off his mind but he soon grew to accept. What hurt the most is the worry that he might never see him again after high school ended. That was until he heard of everyone planning a high school reunion and thought that this would be his last chance to see him if he decided to come. This was his last chance to see him. His last ditch effort. He was desperate to at least get a look. He melts when he feels the other’s hands place themselves on top of his, removing them from his face so their fingers could intertwine causing his heart to skip several beats. He feels like something big is going to happen with how the atmosphere shifts, becoming heavy with something that Hongki knew but doesn’t want to put a word to yet. Not until he’s certain. Not until he hears it come out of his mouth himself. Jaejin speaks, telling him words that he’s always wanted to hear. That he loved him. Something suddenly starts pricking at the corners of his eyes, teeth brushing over his bottom lip before he bites down on it to try and prevent them. His head falls for a moment when he feels them break free from his tear ducts and slowly start to roll down his cheeks, dropping off his chin into the water of the pool. Lee Jaejin had just asked him to marry him. He chokes on his own breathing for a second before he manages to get oxygen inside of him. “J-...” He clenches his eyes shut to try and rid himself of the tears before he picks his head up at him again, lips curling up into the softest smile he has ever smiled at this man. There was no need for him to pretend like he wasn’t madly in love with him anymore. He was in love with him from the moment he caught sight of a cute boy in one of his classes on the first day of school being a stuttering mess to the teacher. Ever since then all he did was want him. “Lee Jaejin...for over a decade I wanted to hear those words from you. Telling me to just marry you regardless of everything that people have said. I wanted to hear that no matter what...you still loved me.” He admits, moving closer to him to that he could rest himself against him, head dropping to lay itself on his shoulder. “I want to marry you. I’ll marry you. Let’s get married so you can call me yours forever.” Silence befalls absolutely everything, sound of a straw hitting back into an alcoholic drink as Keys tares on the scene, mouth agape. Did his best friend just fucking propose to the most popular guy back in high school right in front of everyone? Did he just say yes? What kind of absolute stupidity is Jaejin spouting? He knows he’s been in love with him for that long but marriage? Especially to a man who made his life kind of a hell without even knowing he’s sincere or not? Slowly he puts his drink back up to his lips, completely forgetting about the straw in favor of chugging it down his throat. He thinks he’s going to need to drink a lot.