finding it reeeally difficult to find back to a good place in life. i keep putting off my schoolwork, it doesn’t engage me in any way. spend most of my time not really doing much of anything. i’ve been trying to get back to translating hyukoh interviews, but it’s difficult for me to focus so i give up fast. i found some fun people to talk to on tinder, but it’s difficult to keep up conversations. my phone broke, i’m using my sister’s for now but i haven’t even bothered installing the app. i don’t feel like responding to any messages i get. i’ve lost weight which is nice, but it’s because i’ve lost my appetite. i sleep half day, have breakfast at noon and maybe eat something small in the evening. i have no sense of time. don’t feel like listening to music. tuesdays (class), wednesdays (work) and thursdays (class) are the highlights of my week. the other day i was going through the little trinkets and things i had brought with me from korea and felt so reenergised from thinking of all the good times. the energy didn’t last. i revived my 1 paragraph diary again, i don’t really have the energy to write longer texts. i finished a short book, finding it very difficult to motivate myself to turn pages. i did finally send in all of my papers to get my exchange study credits accounted for at uni, just waiting for it to get registered so that i can apply for my student loan. i really just want to get it over with so that i can move as soon as possible. i’m also getting my new phone in a few days, and i’m excited for that. and i watched baby driver yesterday, fell in love with it. really just feeling terribly unmotivated in life right now. but anyhow. tonight is the night i put on jhene’s new album and dealing with this schoolwork before the day of hand-in, for once.