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about me
i’m michi. this is my vent blog for my mental illness.
he/they
tw: ed, self harm, suicide, depression, anxiety
this is basically a journal for me so block don’t report
(profile pic is me in my previous relapse)
If you’re fasting and pissed off because you’re maintaining, calm down and wait a day or two honey. Tell ur instant gratification brain she’s gonna have to give it a second and stay hydrated baby 🫶🏼🎀
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reblog if ur an ed blog and 20+ need moots <3
daily reminder this could be you in a few months <3
21.01.23
ana tips and tricks ♡
◇ switch your mindset
>><<your brain won't get the 'no' so if you don't want to, don't think about it. instead of focusing on not eating, occupy your mind with other goals, like drinking x liters of water. instead of making everything about ana, find other purposes; doing a workout? because you want to be healthy when older. wont eat fatty and sugary foods? they cause acne etc ect>><<
◇ calories burned are calories burned, does not matter how
>><<do something you enjoy. for example, 3 years ago i developed a habit of walking around my room while on tiktok or listening to music pretending im in a runway show or a concert and i crave it like crazy, so i walk 3-7 hours and get 10.000-20.000 steps in daily easily instead of having a 20 minute run i hate and not even burn half the calories>><<
◇ stressing yourself into working out won't work
>><<also talking about doing something you enjoy; i love working out, hiits, runs, weight lifting, you name it. but having the mindset that i need to causes anxiety and i ended up dreading it. so i trick myself with yoga; one of my goals is to be more flexible and it doesn't trigger anything cuz it has nothing to do with weight. so i do yoga workouts focusing on strength and sometimes pilates and when i already started moving i do some weight lifting too, leaving the main calories to walking>><<
◇ be active how you can
>><<fidgeting is your best friend. but make sure it's comfortable, don't obsess and make everything about calories. i fidget unconsciously but when i want to do it being present i play with my hair cuz it's fun and comfortable>><<
◇ hygiene is a form of being active
>><<i know how hard it can be for us to do basic hygiene like brushing our teeth, taking showers and maintaining our living space clean. but if you can, do it as much as possible. clean your house, wash that dishes, shower everyday; wash your hair everyday if possible, especially if you have long or curly hair. i swear to god washing hair day requires so much energy>><<
◇ love yourself
>><<make taking care of yourself fun, do skincare, play a game, read a book, write a journal (or a blog😉), learn something, do a course, draw, paint your nails etc etc. apart from being a form of distraction it also builds the ideal self you want, and slowly but surely you won't obsess and have hobbies you enjoy>><<
◇ switch the mindset pt.2
>><<instead of saying 'can't' or 'won't eat it' say 'i don't eat it'. it makes you feel like you have control of what you're doing and that you make your food choices intelligently>><<
◇ do. not. fear food.
>><<my grandma is always making cakes and things she knows i enjoy. instead of panicking simply don't eat it if you don't want to, and eat it if you want to. one of the biggest problems we have is denying or throwing away food our loved ones gave us, or not going somewhere and not enjoying a moment because of food. so instead of panicking, throwing it away and feeling bad and guilty, act normally. eat it if you want or don't. one of the ways to prevent binging is allowing yourself. if you allow yourself to eat something you will realize you don't even want to and end up not eating it, or eating just enough>><<
◇ separate your meals intelligently
>><<if you want a dessert after lunch, eat it in the afternoon or night. don't force yourself to not eat it because that mindset will leave you obsessed. instead, think that you will eat it as a snack in the afternoon, and you might not even want it anymore. but if you still want to, make the choice to eat it instead of something else>><<
◇ switch the mindset pt.3
>><<also to not obsess, instead of thinking that you need to be skinny because of a personal reason, add the ones you love into the picture. think that you need to stop feeling uncomfortable with yourself to go out with your family and enjoy, think about all the moments you lost with your friends (or the opportunity to make friends)because you were afraid and ashamed, think about how sad you made somebody denying something they thought you would enjoy doing/eating. instead of obsessing with yourself and your appearance, do it for others, do it for the moments, do it to feel comfortable, for the experiences>><<
◇ fruits have sugar
>><<when I'm craving sugar 99% of the times a fruit like grapes do the trick. and over time you will find them even too sweet>><<
◇ if you crave it, eat it
>><<a bit controversial of the topic above but here im talking about meals. how many times we had our mind set on what we felt like eating but we kept avoiding it and ate something else just to end up eating what we wanted and binging. if you feel like having pasta or a burger, do it. because if you don't you will eat anything and everything else just to end up eating it anyway>><<
◇ do it for your inner child
>><<if you were bullied in your childhood think about her, do it for her. if you like meanspo live again the moments and how you felt, parent your inner child to heal present you and comfort each other>><<
◇ time will pass anyway
>><<can't afford to be how you are anymore? need to lose weight fast? if you can, great. but if like us you're just gonna end up in a decade long vicious cycle, think that 3 months will pass anyway. you might not be at your gw now, but will you 3 months from now? a year from now? make sure you are because it will come anyway, whether you're skinny or not>><<
these tips could be tagged as pro recovery but I'm tagging it as ana because 99.9% of us don't have anorexia nervosa. so I'm trying to help the never ending cycle of restriction and binge so we can actually lose fat for once while being minimally healthy without giving up the comfort of our ed.
if you liked it reblog so other's can see it and if you want a pt.2 comment to let me know ♡
> 12h49 | saturday
would you like to eat only one meal per day without ending up binging?
sometimes, when i get the opportunity, i just have one meal per day. but how do i manage to go through the whole day and have only one small meal?
be sure to stay hydrated. drink, drink, drink!drink water, low cal soda, coffee, tea, whatever you want, but drink big amounts of it so you can gaslight yourself into thinking you’re full.
plan meals ahead. think about what you would like to eat and count how many calories there are going to be in that. if the number is too high then think about something else.
fulfilling meals. volume eating is your best friend. would you rather eat 100 kcals of biscuits and still feel hungry (which is basically 2 biscuits?) or would you rather eat 100 kcals of raspberries (100 raspberries).
bites. drink in between them. put your fork/spoon/hands down in between them. chew slowly. it’s the only thing you’re going to eat in a while so don’t be in a hurry. also dedicate your full attention to food.
get to know yourself better. which beverage helps me the most when i feel hungry? which meal do i usually binge to? how low can my calorie intake be? how many mins of workout can i do daily? can i walk 10k steps everyday? ask yourself questions and give yourself answers so you can plan everything and be ready for any inconvenient. coffee satisfies me the most? did i run out of it? brb imma head to the supermarket. do i usually binge at lunch? well i will skip it then.
it is better to resist than to regret
This is so good!! 💝💝💝💝
things i do when i feel like binging:
read a book
draw something
play videogames
watch tv
sleep
paint my nails
scroll on social media
chew gum
organise my phone
organise my room
listen to music
do some planning
look up/create low calorie recipes
watch mukbangs/wieiads
try on outfits
go on a walk
pace around my room
exercise
do homework
study
make some green tea
take a shower
brush my teeth
plan out meals for the next day
facetime someone
cook for family members/other people
make an edit of anything
go to the store to look around and not buy anything
look at th1n$pø
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organise my pinterest boards
rearrange my wardrobe
clear out old clothes
make new spotify playlist/organise old ones
find new songs to listen to
learn a song
try out new hairstyles
selfcare
think about why im doing this
THE WAY THESE ACTUALY WORKKK
How to take care of your gut and quicken the digestive system.
all of this I have researched sources here: 1 2 3
images from pinterest 1 2 3
1. stay hydrated. of course we all know this. but its still important. drinking water regulates your digestion. as well as drinking boiled or lukewarm water. if you choose to drink boiled water. I would reccomend drinking it in the morning with a splash of lemon juice (real lemon has 0cals and 0 sugar) / a lemon slice. its refreshing and helps boost energy while still giving a warm and cozy feeling.
2. salt water flush (i've never tried this but i will be trying it tomorrow. ) every morning/evening mix 2 tsps of salt with lukewarm / hot water. make sure to drink it quickly on an empty stomach. it should work quickly so be sure to be near the bathroom. make sure you're using real sea salt or pink himalayan salt.
other benefits heals sore throats, cleans wounds, lessens muscle pain, clears water weight/fluid retention, balances pH levels, removes toxins and balances hormones 3. juice fast / green mono A juice fast means only drinking juice. good juices for digestion are lemon juice, apple juice, and vegetable juices. A green mono means to only eat greens. dark greens are especially good for this like spinach, kale or green beans. making green smothies will probably be the easiest way to do this mono.
4. apple cider vinegar apple cider vinegar is not to be drank straight! as it erodes enamel and can damage the esophagus. ⓘ do not drink apple cider vinegar if taking water pills, insulin, or other medications prescribed to those with diabetes or anemia. how to use it: add a tsp to salads, sauces, stews. you can also mix it in a mug of hot water to lower its acidity. apple cider vinegar may induce vomiting. if using it to purge always be sure to water it down first.
5. ginger , tumeric and pepper.
ginger helps "move everything along" regulating the digestive system ways to incorporate ginger: drink ginger teas or even add ginger to smoothies, getting ginger powder to add to recipes like soups is good too.
½ teaspoon of powdered ginger
1 teaspoon of grated raw ginger
both of those count as one gram of ginger it is recommended to only have up to three grams a day of ginger. tumeric and pepper is used to get rid of bloating and inflammation it can be used by adding it to your food like: eggs, vegetables, soups and salad dressings.
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[thinspo tip/reality check]
if you’ve ever observed SOME “naturally skinny” people, you’ll realize how different your lifestyle is to them.
“naturally skinny” traits
- barely thinks about food. it’s only a small fraction of their day. sometimes they even FORGET to eat.
- always moving. “it’s too far” is not really part of their vocabulary, since they don’t perceive walking as exercise. it’s only a means of transportation. if they want to drop by their friend’s house five blocks away, randomly? they will. if they can’t find their airpod case, they will go out of their way to find it. moving doesn’t calculate in their heads as something painful, it comes like breathing.
- they LISTEN to their body. many naturally skinny people still overconsume calories from time to time- but the reason why they never binge to the point that some disordered people do is because when they’re full, they stop. you’ll hear the words, “i’m so full” “i’ll eat it later” “i can’t eat the whole thing”
- TINY PORTIONS. it may seem like they eat often, but they probably eat less than the size of your palm each serving. that skinny girl in your class might always be snacking on goldfish but she rarely finishes the whole bag. she eats one at a time, sometimes even forgetting it’s there. then she puts it away after eating 🤏🏻this much
YOUR traits, probably
- always thinking about food. what are you going to eat next? how many calories? how to distract yourself? how to burn it?
- you view even the slightest movement as exercise. sometimes it’s gotten so severe that you tried to google how many calories chewing burns. you associate walking of any length to burning calories, and often associate working out to PAIN instead of a hobby.
- you continue to binge even when you feel like you’re going to explode. you don’t listen to pain, discomfort, or your body. you have an attachment to the stimulation food gives you, and that’s all that matters. then you live with the guilt after, or maybe even eat more from it.
- you stress out about when you’re going to eat. you make big portions of low calorie foods you don’t actually like - all in order to satisfy your appetite size. instead, you could be reducing your appetite and eating less each day, more frequently. you care about being full and the ACT of eating instead of actually enjoying food.
pretend you’re taste testing everything you eat. once you know what it’s like, you have no reason to consume a huge portion of it.
Just saw ur post ab your mindset change of food only bringing misery….any advice for getting into that mindset?? 😭😭
RUBBER BAND. I have 4 tight hair ties/rubber bands on my wrist- one for holding my hair up if I need to purge, another for putting my hair into a ponytail working out, one for putting my hair up for skin care and facial exercises, and my “Ana” rubber band. The moment I think of binging I snap it super hard multiple times on the upper part of my arm, near my elbow. It hurts and I keep doing it until my arm is red. This is neurologically shifting your mindset and associating food with pain.
Also, when you do eat, pretend. Pretend you hate the food, pretend the food is disgusting and it’s horrible feeling it in your mouth, understand that feeling full is horrible, and SNAP YOUR RUBBER BAND. While you eat. Drink water when eating, pretend 700 is a high cal limit, praise yourself when starving, feel happy when starving, take pictures of all your food, and make food that looks gross or even tastes gross so you lose all interest in food. Also, pretend you are your ugw and the person you are at your ugw. I only see food as calories now, I was horrified when I realized 3 Oreos was 160 cals, and walked away from them so easily.
Ana is fighting a battle against food. In order to win that battle, put your shield down to see that the food isn’t even that powerful after all. Basically, eliminate whatever is your go to distraction or avoiding food or whatever and be around it, talk about it, see it. But never eat it. The moment I started cooking for my family, ignoring the urges, walking past the kitchen like it didn’t bother me at all, the voice in my head telling me to binge silenced. It realized it had no power
Also what really helped was reading Midnight Sun by Stephanie Meyer it was lowkey so motivating 💀
Edward Cullen was fighting the “monster” inside of him telling him to eat Bella
I used that for inspiration because he fought that urge
ana bullet journal spreads - part 2 <3
grocery list of safe foods
rewards for yourself for every goal weight (ex: first gw met? reward yourself with an at-home facial. do this for every goal weight you have.)
positive affirmations!
ana bedtime/morning routines (include haircare and skincare routines)
mental health tracker (track your moods of the day)
things you'll do when you're skinny
vitamins and pills you take + what they do
a list of appetite suppressants you use
exercises you enjoy doing + how many calories they burn (i like to list how many calories certain walking distances burn)
sleep log
alternatives to your usual binge-inducing foods
monthly/weekly workout tracker (mark the days you're supposed to work out, then mark the days you actually did)
relationship-themed thinspo (if you're interested in being thinner for a relationship!)
podcasts/music to listen to while going on walks or runs (i walk for long periods of time at once so i always need things to listen to)
things to clean (as a distraction from eating)
tumblr diets
dates you want to hit your goals (i recommend using Losertown to figure out a calculation of how long it'll take to reach your goal weights with the calories you're averaging)
songs about ana
things that make you happy (that don't have to do with food)
meal plans
favorite/comfort episodes of weight loss shows you enjoy (i have a handful i always return to because they're comforting to watch for some reason?)
i the two days since lowering my step goal because i haven't been reaching it, i have exceeded my original goal twice
maybe i'd be more motivated if my goals were smaller and more attainable
A very special "Fuck You" to those 5lbs I keep on gaining and loosing.
i need my eating disorder to disorder harder please thanks
⋆ ˚。⋆ blue & pink mealspø ⋆ ˚。⋆
56 g of raspberries - 29 calories
55 g of blueberries - 33 calories
(also fun fact: berries are very good to eat in the morning, they help with your digestion and gut health in general. which means less bloating! )
stay skinni!! εїз - xoxo
⋆ ˚。⋆୨ yellow/green mealspo!! ୧⋆ ˚。⋆
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