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I haven't shit in a week and I don't have any laxatives what the fuck do I do?

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update: I shidded I didded

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when I was bigger no one batted an eyelid if I didn't eat for a whole day, worked out for two hours or refused to touch certain food. Now all of a sudden it's a problem. As if it wasn't a problem then. Obviously they're right to be worried but they should've been worried BEFORE aswell. This is why people need to take disorded eating seriously no matter what size you are. It's still just as bad and if I had received help in the start maybe I wouldn't be so deep in this shit now.

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finding old stats from when I was skinnier really makes me 🙃

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what I would give to take a satisfying shit

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ideally everyone would notice my weight loss but worry silently so I don't get forced into recovery

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hearing you're too skinny from my parents: 😡

hearing it from anyone else: 😩

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I haven't shit in a week and I don't have any laxatives what the fuck do I do?

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my mum just showed me a photo from when I was fat 😐 what made her think that was a good idea?

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i would kill someone to binge rn on all the foods i like and not gain weight

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after overeating I be like "cheat day!" as if this is a diet and not a disorder 😐

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knew I was deranged when I wanted to be kidnapped and starved

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I love bread and I will NOT let my ed take that it away from me

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my mum found out I smoke weed. I said it helps with my appetite because I know she's worried about me eating. I love being a teenage girlboss manipulator

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pretty much ate whatever today because I haven't slept in 30 hours and I blacked out multiple times. some fucked up part of me wants to see how long I can go without sleeping just like I do eating, it's a sick competition I have with myself. How long can Kiva *insert self destruction* ?

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update: (tmi) took laxatives but my stomach is in knots and I'm bloated. I should've just waited for nature to take its course. I'm on fibre pills and natural digestion supplements, I didn't need to take them and now I feel like there is a whoopee cushion in my stomach.

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the spiteful part of me wants this disease to kll me so I can use this

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pretty much ate whatever today because I haven't slept in 30 hours and I blacked out multiple times. some fucked up part of me wants to see how long I can go without sleeping just like I do eating, it's a sick competition I have with myself. How long can Kiva *insert self destruction* ?