Slightly Lost

Slighting lost, a bit broken and just need a place to poor it all out.

[revengeofthesiths]

#buck stand up

[slightlylost-help]

Oh here we are again. lost, broken on the inside and scared more on the outside.

[slightlylost-help]

Lost. Again Fakes smiles and hurting

[midwest-monster]

broadway antique market

i bought this telegram, because it’s probably the best thing i’ve ever seen.  i’m framing it.  it cost $1.

[theblamegabe-deactivated2019102]

I need to end all my correspondences with “Get me” now

[slightlylost-help]

Lights Out.

Death.

I’ve tried to reach it before.. Twice actually Three times a charm.

Im so close to trying again

Mistakes, dissuasions and thoughts in my mind just cloud and the only way i can see out is light out. The cuts ; the biggest and deepest they’ve ever been.

I dont know what to do anymore, im doing things that are destroying the things and people around me. Lights out is my only way out.

[slightlylost-help]

me: I have clinical anxiety and depression and it often limits me from achieving my goals

adults: um.... okay... but can u explain why ur lazy...

[slightlylost-help]

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I dont know what to do... Should i say something... No, keep it to yourself... But if i do it'll eat me up inside and pull me apart. Yeah I'll just keep quite. What harm can it do.

[slightlylost-help]

Ergh

Im trying, im always trying. I dont know how people get over this shit. Someone came to me for advice about dealing with depression. Me. They came to me They think im dealing with it, well on one hand my hiding its skills are getting better. I didnt know what to say, i didnt want tk let on the I wasnt dealing with it. So i lied. I lied to cover my arse. Im not dealing with it, the night crying and getting more, the scars are getting deeper and the dark hole im hiding in is getting wider.

[slightlylost-help]

Slightly.

Slightly. It’s a good word.

Like I’m slightly ok but I’m slightly not. slightly damaged. you know how it goes.

Basically i need a place to let everything out, Im going to try and not name myself because. Banter 

I don’t understand i should be happy, everything around me in good and nothing is going horribly wrong but i find myself falling. I can’t stop it.

Tablet should be working, I’m not sure they are but I’m anxious to stop taking them. I have one person i have i can tell everything to and they listen because they have been snd are going through the same thing but i don’t know if it help.