#slightlylost

[coldow]

#instaart #found #beardedman #slightlylost #spatter #portraitsketch #drawdaily #watercolor #watercolour #watercolourpaper #moonglow #mauve #coldow #drawdaily2018 #archesaquarelle #sktchyapp #sktchyinspired #drawdaily #sketchbookdrawing #artsanity #sketchesoninstagram #artofinstagram #stubblebeard #lostanddelirious #aquarelleart #aquarellepainting (at Kurri Kurri, New South Wales) https://www.instagram.com/p/BpwurW1jJ9l/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=12z06i4q198la

[cynicalhiccup]

Spent most today doing one thing and made but a small dent in it. I feel quite lost and stupid. And I wish I could work out all the necessary information needed to get a tax rebate. ...amoung other things. Have also wasted ten minutes trying to find out if it's amoung or among. Spelling was a key part of me feeling like shite this evening. Which seems petty now that I've written that. Among just looks dumb. - - - - #dailydrawing #dailypicture #82 #23rdMar2017 #art #digitalart #contemporaryart #artistlife #work #slightlylost #generalmalaise #whichsideoftheline #westminsterattack #fedup

[cynicalhiccup]

Dairy entry from last year. I was mute on what happened. Seems I didn't write anything for five days. For the most part I was exhausted. It was a friend's birthday that weekend so for the first time in a long while I got very drunk. The reality of the possibility hit me. The point is though - I was totality fine really and had no right to be worried or traumatised. Had we travelled on the next metro things would've been quite different. - - - - - #dailydrawing #dailypicture #brusselsattacks #22ndmarch2016 #art #digitalart #contemporaryart #artistlife #work #whichsideoftheline #slightlylost #generalmalaise #

[cynicalhiccup]

It is a boring picture today. I did do lots of stuff. I've written all this before. Repetition is likely when doing a dairy picture a day. There are only so many thought combinations. - - - - - #dailydrawing #dailypicture #automaticdrawing #80 #21stMar2017 #art #digitalart #contemporaryart #artistlife #work #whichsideoftheline #slightlylost #generalmalaise #badflower #selfadmin

[cynicalhiccup]

Yeah so...part automatic drawing, part truth, part watching Polanski's "The Tenant". - - - #dailydrawing #dailypicture #automaticdrawing #79 #20thMar2017 #art #digitalart #contemporaryart #artistlife #work #whichsideoftheline #slightlylost #generalmalaise

[lezyne]

Repost from @manwaringstef Night time ride! #Lezyne #bikelights #mtb #Devon #whereami #slightlylost

[slightlylost-help]

Ergh

Im trying, im always trying. I dont know how people get over this shit. Someone came to me for advice about dealing with depression. Me. They came to me They think im dealing with it, well on one hand my hiding its skills are getting better. I didnt know what to say, i didnt want tk let on the I wasnt dealing with it. So i lied. I lied to cover my arse. Im not dealing with it, the night crying and getting more, the scars are getting deeper and the dark hole im hiding in is getting wider.

[slightlylost-help]

Slightly.

Slightly. It’s a good word.

Like I’m slightly ok but I’m slightly not. slightly damaged. you know how it goes.

Basically i need a place to let everything out, Im going to try and not name myself because. Banter 

I don’t understand i should be happy, everything around me in good and nothing is going horribly wrong but i find myself falling. I can’t stop it.

Tablet should be working, I’m not sure they are but I’m anxious to stop taking them. I have one person i have i can tell everything to and they listen because they have been snd are going through the same thing but i don’t know if it help.