potentially, he was missing something within those serene greens. but yugo was so grateful to see a glimpse of the man that made his weary youthful days endurable. his mind stutters a bit. is jo truly okay? whipping his head to face him from the sudden question that appeared in the back of his head, careful not to startle him but the action was so negligible that he could get away with inspecting as he listened.
self-doubt was easily obtained.
" you helped with the last war, that's a paid back favor if i ever saw one. " with crinkling eyes indicating that he wasn't truly serious... he knew no matter what, that he'll always find himself in the debts of equally sweet-hearted souls. " but i suppose he might see that as owing you again, and a 'dangerous' cycle of i-owe-yous will keep looping and looping. it's very cute. anyways, while i'm not as strong as you, i'm going to offer my strength to them in a pinch whenever i can. the future feels exciting now. "
oh no... did he get the vibe all wrong?
" are you saying all of this because you're being hard on yourself? or do you truly believe that? i've never seen you infodump so much on a person other than when it comes to talking about choji. " something he's very keen to, might he add. " as much as i agree that he has a nice face, some of the guys told me that it was flirtatious which would explain his reaction honestly. that's not my intention at all... but now it's got ME wondering... was it for you when you told me that? maybe we just suck at compliments. " giving him a hard look, he nudges him with his shoulder. " what do you mean by that? that no one like that exists? you're definitely being harsh on yourself, don't assume that. in fact we can work on it, because if you deny love out of unworthiness or anything ridiculous, i will be very sad. regardless if it's with your bofurin friend or not, there's a person for everyone and i don't care if i sound corny. "
the ash blond was regretting bringing up the past, even if it was for harmless and nostalgic reasons - because it seems like no matter how it's brought up, it will leave scars and pain. while he voices out his sorrows, wanijima shook his head with a hitch in his breath. he didn't handle it the way he wanted to either, but sharing the shame helped in a way. so he lets him talk. " i promise you, i say it because i mean it. i'm not good at comforting people, but you are my precious friend and i'll do what i can to make up for my losses. i want you to focus on the good that you've done, and let your criticisms on yourself go even if it was once justified. let's have a healthy outlook and strive for self-improvement. we're still young. and i fall into the same trap of obsessing over bygones. it won't reflect who you are entirely, we're still maturing. "
hearing that even he couldn't talk to choji effectively shut him up. thankful for the bout of laughter afterwards, those words still carried him to places he couldn't quite reach. the drawl of the other's words never bothered him like it did some people, hanging on ever word with hope. they'll be okay now. if they plan out great moments to replace bad, shitty, awful feelings... they weren't being escapists. rather, they acknowledged it, faced it, and finally moved on. maybe all jo ever needed was more closure. " bring me anyone you know and like. i would like to get out of my comfort zone and meet new people. " he's brushing the side of his head with a bashful click of his tongue. it's been awhile since he's been around people his age after he left, and it's probably obvious to his peers. " again, you have good taste. "
though he knows of a few people who are trouble attractors, even if they aren't troublesome people themselves. so he winces internally. his smile grows as he adds more ideas to the mix. " the beach? i will make sure to bring sunscreen this time. remember back then when you guys thought it wasn't going to be that sunny out and you were crispy for a month straight? i did tell you all... " yet wani also got burnt, because he didn't want them to go through it alone. " i should buy new swimming trunks anyways. what else would be fun? tubing? i do love the outdoors. "
he's getting almost giddy, but he knows how to wrap it down, taking out his phone to check out a perfect week out of his schedule. " i even saved enough money for any hotels or we can rent a camper, so many options now. maybe a resort with a water park? oh, i'm getting ahead of myself . . . " camping is much more laid back... and cheap. if anything, rustic is better, plus it's the perfect time to catch up and get to know the other boys from other gangs better. " just text me in the group chat and we'll figure it together... speaking of, can i update your contact picture in my phone? "
