SloonStarius

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yayyy this video came together didn’t think it would for a hot 86400 seconds there cause the scenes wouldn’t align with the beats; how to create without my hands and fingers suffering i do not know, using a touchpad is not sustainable; the wbl’s original editing on the kiss scene is immaculate, very concise and dynamic in maintaining the tension so i didn’t touch it; i love wbl’s b rolls-dating in the kitchen traumatized me with b-rolls but wbl renewed my affections; dont know if shi de is renting or mortgaging his place but he’s not gonna spend anytime there at all so dust and payments are accruing; besides stocking the fridge and maybe live a life where you would need more than a mini fridge my dear shu yi; shu yi’s house needs something to instill some warmth asap, every time we’re there visually it feels like how realistic castles feel and not how romanticized movie magic castles feel-i just viscerally feel cold to my bones. in way the gray feels way colder than blue and blue is pretty befitting in that hottest flame thermodynamically is blue; shu yi’s look of combo of pain and loss of control in that kitchen gets me every time

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im sorry-WHAT?!??…im so taken aback i strained my neck; this is mini series level of a wedding night…on MANGOtv?!?!

me going into tonight’s episodes:

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a splendid match writer’s like great succint heroine intro tied to her leading man then family politics blah blah PEAK ROMANCE inserts absolutely short sighted loser of a character then kingdom politic blahh blsh blah blah enter peak portrayal of hotness and vulnerability in a leading man then rehashed family politics blah blah blab blag enters various gloriously beautiful landscape portrait in dramaland of ren min in various precipitations…PeAK ROMANCE then enters an immature manchild that is written to suck the oxygen out of any scene he is involved with by sheer lack of charisma and lackluster presence then another mind boggling repugnant person and every life threatening feats known to mankind thrusted upon the otp in the last ten episodes

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i just know those two men will just be up to some absolute BULLSHIT-gonna be talking about how they know they didn’t do this or that but still somehow feels so strongly about their entitlement to jinzhao’s marriage; one’s nobility house is on it’s last leg and is gonna grind to dust once his dad croaks and being actively targeted by a scholarly stronghold of the government and the other one’s career is still at a tadpole stage with an active engagement and the both of them just goes on talking about important their feelings are and why it’s directly jinzhao’s responsibility to sooth them-they’re doing TOO MUCH and none of it is productive

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every time jinzhao rebuffs yanyun’s attempt to lock them down, the look on his face lmao-acts like she compromised HIS virtues lmao; babygurl saying just because they made out doesn’t mean marriage (yes it does girly pop but this is a fantasy so good for her) after them absolutely just eating each other’s faces up just sends my heart in a alley oop of sillies jibbies

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that ribbit noise-im dead-would say that is the final nail in chen yanyun’s coffin of loserism (complimentarily derogatory) but alas no, it is just the beginning;

dramalnd always overcompensates for an aloof and unreadable novel hero by making the emotions more explicit but second hand embarrassment aside, it’s nice to see the high and mighty san ye show insecurity and anxiousness over something out of his control, he still reads as steady and dependable but not so suppressed as he always been for a long while now; in the novel jinzhao always expressed that she couldnt read him both back from when she held no care towards him but also in her second life she still couldn’t read him, only can tell when he is omitting his feelings from her. in the drama however, especially in the recent episodes san ye is very readable both to jinzhao and the audience. she can tell when’s he’s concern and putting effort to comfort her, and though his confessions took her aback, afterwards his desperation to implore his feelings are very apparent; she doesn’t question his affections just the difficulty of that a family of his stature would present. i know dramaland always smudges the line of propriety and only brings in out as a plot device and i thank them for it otherwise most otps would have zero developed relationship before marriage and i hate that the reality for women was to basically love or develop love under duress like so rarely i like romances like that cause it feels suffocatingly entrapped and i gladly shirk realism but by god everytime yanyun looks at jinzhao now im like yall in in public!!!and the drama knows that too given how a cut scene shown jinzhao to be princess carried post cliff fall and post her twisting her ankle and the drama opted for him assisting her to walk instead which um sure they’re not there in their development for a princess carry yet but also who the fuck care they just fell off a cliff and no one is there to witnesss them except a corpse yet produxtion cared but ahhh we’re really having him vocally speak her in the open market???sure they are surrounded by hard laborers but so??? hard laborers can also gossip and even if jinzhao gives zero fucks about her reputation in terms of marriage, im pretty sure given how rigid society is towards women her reputation would also affect her business matters, but thank god we’re in 21st century dramaland so i can just enjoy how much of a fool yanyun is making of himself because he’s been a loser in the privacy of his office but now he’s showing outwardly to jinzhao and so good for them to be honest and clear and on equal terms in the realm of emotions. honestly, between her cousin, san ye, and ye xian, which family wouldn’t be difficult to marry into. with her cousin, she is protected by her grandmother but she cant live forever and im not so sure her cousin has the willpower to fend off the pressures of his parents not even to mention jinzhao holds no romantic intentions towards him. both ye and chen family would disdain jinzhao’s merchant family but at least the chen’s matriarch has some respect and existing relationship with jinzhao grandmother and both novel and drama yanyun would set her up for life whether he’s dead of alive. him choosing jinzhao is like a clear rift from his mentor so he now need someone to fight with him more than ever and my girl jinzhao is that person

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hmmmmmmmn i absolutely get whatever they are putting down thinking about each other in their respective undergarments. so apt that just as he found himself a little more uncomposed and fickle is when we see him both hair and emotions not sk uptight, and like he tried to return to that scholarly pose to contain and feign control of his thoughts and impulse to reach for her only for propriety and and rationality made him retract because this is the first time we see him paint people besides the established mountains and trees and what do you mean every trace of her image was unnoticed to him in familiarity until the finishing touches ahhhhh- much like how the otp is always laced in betwixt the episodes thank god amidst all the entanglements of family and kingdom, their feelings have also kinda ebbs and flow like diffusion of ink on paper where it runs wherever its hearts desire without care for stoppage

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that band of brothers shouldve been killed off for being deserters god they are so pointless cause contrary to what horriblyregressed zou yue thought having another ignorant selfish having romantic feelings for you is not feminism they shouldve been decapitated for chang yu’s character progression

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like all the guan xin ze luan’s male leads that i know, one thing mr. ‘strike a pose’ mu qingyan is gonna do is PLOT:

for revenge

for love

for shits and giggles

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bro look way to happy to embrace someone who just told him she’s basically a zombie but in his head it’s just ‘will they wont they 300k words #multiple lives #happy ending’ and i cannot blame him because he literally got bludgeoned till bloodied on the palace steps as the fabric of her dress slips desperately from his hands and now she is decidedly not married to his brother so yeah he can take this as a win

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does this drama have the same producers as zhao lin’s dramas cause they are using all of her drama’s ost and they are such recognizable osts because i had imprinted like the last four of her dramas in my brain…it is giving me hard tvb flashbacks

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ruo xi 2.0 just wants to girlboss gaslight gatekeep at all cost and all that brash rash indignancy against her own helpless and unfortunate circumstance is just revved up potential energy that will go to kinetic energy at all cost and it won’t come to a sudden halt just because her older more mature more steady self shows up and solved just one facet that made ruoxi so miserable when the only thing that changed ruo xi was death especially duo death with her soulmate, and ruo xi didn’t even surrender or step down she was hauled down and it is just funny to me how confused and puzzled ruo xi 1.0 is at why ruo xi is still following the good ole tragic misteps and won’t peacefully slink away to obscurity especially now that ruo xi 2.0 doesn’t even have the balm of the love of a good man (lmao cause that’s what li yan is:a good man with a soft heart who is not aware of that so ruo xi is not the only one flailing at self awareness) and than just the tried and true ascension of power for ruo xi 2.0, it’s like the object in motion is both li yan will just die for ruo xi in any lifetime and for whatever reason she has ruo xi will also leave/abandon him in some way in any lifetime like they are forever intertwined and she cannot change that. i feel like ruo xi 2.0 is losing the plot by focusing too much on the plot cause what are the more interesting things that you need to focus on that you are torturing yourself and that wet pummeled sad cat in the rain. like ruo xi is trying to handle ruo xi 2.0 with oven mitts and the gentle parenting and like contemplation on oh is girly just too disillusioned and naive and dependent on being tangential to the men in her life so she can get a wisp of power but this dynamic they are having is like the epitome of self sabotage and how yourself is your biggest and baddest antagonist and at some point the trailer tease that one of them will stab the other and honestly that is so real cause the way ruo xi was so struck at horror at seeing her younger self fawn and throw her life in front of the crown prince that she fainted…even if she screeched at the humiliation that wouldn’t be too much. i know she wished she can say to li yan that thats why you shouldnt love me (any version of me) but unfortunately ruo xi 2.0 just has that je ne sais quoi (just years and years of compounded yearning in turmoil with regret and guilt) whenever she looks at him and it just kills her that she knows every profession of affection is true:he will wait for her he will recognized her and he will see her through whatever even in death because what is fate to him if not a persistent love that refuses to leave her

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thank heavens production put effort in the modern world, it’s a low bar but i am so happy zhou yan and mr wei actually is in the same frame and are not just jumpcuts of random body parts jam smashed together like a au mv and the way they played it leaves you to deduce that everyone is in the know and the reunion is not treated in a cavelierly callous way. i can totally see them walking back to that conference room and going through the proposal and having coffee with their regular intimate atmosphere that will have the secretary go ‘wait, is this two exes reuniting?’ with sima jiao being his haughty self and zhou yan fondly smiling through it all because she found her not so sad wet cat again

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i cannot articulate how much i appreciate the consistency and long acting love between tingyan and sima jiao. i love how once their love was given it was never retracted and continues to survive in so many forms as they go their their tribulations. they went through the would you love me if the rest of world despises me, would you love me as an otter, would you love me through the incineration of your body, would you love me through a mistaken illusion, and would you love me by holding on to my soul despite the pain and i love it that they said yes to all the above without yielding, without compromise, and without concession.

sima jiao was always incredulous that tingyan never once wanted his life, but as he fell for her i think he became incredulous that he could give her what she wanted without hurting himself. as an otp, they are refreshingly normal in a ludicrously bizarre world. the xianxia genre is all about how the world is always bigger than the characters in its and irregardless of the lives and lives of the characters they pale compared to the endless turbulent demands of the world, but tingyan and sima jiao never felt small to me because they held each other preciously, they are each other’s greater good. i love how the character driven the drama is and it understands it till the end when tingyan says without loving him she can be content anywhere yet without that love for him she would not find happiness anywhere irregardless of the place. tingyan once said her fate was to have a fun and relaxing life so when sima jiao finds joy in life, enjoys the foods he encounters, and able to have fun she gets to live out her fate with him even though for the third arc they are once again fated to meet but not destined to last.

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lmao mortal! sima jiao is like i shall not give in to this bewitching immortal who came to me on purpose with ulterior motives and it’s like bro you are the one who plucked her off the street after one glance lmao

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tingyan being like yes i love sima jiao unconditionally but first second and third i will beat his ass and she is CORRECT. very couple vibes of them to give me cute banter in the bed and to also take turns dying in each other’s arms. snow being the first gift she has ever given him after getting an upgrade in cultivation using his blood and the first gift he has ever received and the having it as a sign of him getting back his memories is so poetic and my head is in my hands crying. them just havings just days of each other only to be apart by a couple decades followed by briefs reunions and then being separated by a millennia across space and time is so unfair and yet they love and they love anyway. i am trying not to think too hard about the in between from the rest of sima jiaos mortal kingdom life to him seeing her again in modern day because my emotional wellbeing will contort itself into a mobius loop pretzel, like why is he getting the same fate as those emperors characters that chose power over their beloved why should he have to stare into oblivion yearning for tingyan (because that’s the fate of all xianxia characters but i shall lament anyway).

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the dam bursted when sima jiao said he saw tingyan in his dreams because in their second life he realized the burden of separation caused by death and trying to see her even in his dreams but could not but after death this time he can still see he smiling at him crying at him and inviting him into a body of water TT TTT TTT it is very them to make me laugh and then bawl my eyes out. they just want to be with each other but the universe is forcing them apart.

me after every four seconds in the last fours episodes: